[Wander]

Originally Posted by bizi

I am sorry to keep bringing this up...
but I really feel the ritalin is not your friend.
bizi

thats ok. i know you simply care. thing is all the same **** was going down prior to Ritalin except now i can concentrate. Halving dose made no positive difference either. Still, maybe you're on to sometime but neither me nor my doc see it that way. the calmest periods of my day are the few hours after each dose.

[bizi]

You are right, I do care.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[Faltering]

Yesterday my boyfriend and I went to the mall and I was extremely paranoid that normal shoppers were going to suddenly take out a weapon and start shooting people. I started having a panic attack and thought I might pass out. I told my boyfriend about my paranoia when we got home and he was utterly shocked and frightened. Maybe I should keep my paranoia to myself. :/

[Wild Coyote]

I was hit hard with viral bronchitis on Friday, Sudden onset.
Getting extra rest out of necessity.
Have missed 2 days of exercise so far; I have been too ill.
I hope to be back on my feet soon.

Love to All!

WC

[scatterbrained04]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I was hit hard with viral bronchitis on Friday, Sudden onset.
Getting extra rest out of necessity.
Have missed 2 days of exercise so far; I have been too ill.
I hope to be back on my feet soon.

Love to All!

WC

Hope you feel better soon!

[Unrigged64072835]

Hope you feel better WC.

Not even in the mood to take meds right now. They don't help. Haven't taken them in 2 days. Thinking about taking Adderall again even though I'm not supposed to

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I was hit hard with viral bronchitis on Friday, Sudden onset.
Getting extra rest out of necessity.
Have missed 2 days of exercise so far; I have been too ill.
I hope to be back on my feet soon.

Love to All!

WC

Oh I hope you feel better soon.
Rest then rest some more.
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi
no milk products

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by Faltering

Yesterday my boyfriend and I went to the mall and I was extremely paranoid that normal shoppers were going to suddenly take out a weapon and start shooting people. I started having a panic attack and thought I might pass out. I told my boyfriend about my paranoia when we got home and he was utterly shocked and frightened. Maybe I should keep my paranoia to myself. :/

I understand this. I often don't like to go to public places on statement days (valentine's day, remembrance day, etc) in case someone goes crazy with a gun. Is it paranoia, or given what we've seen lately is it a rational response to irrational situations?

Your thoughts?

[Faltering]

Originally Posted by Standup2me

I understand this. I often don't like to go to public places on statement days (valentine's day, remembrance day, etc) in case someone goes crazy with a gun. Is it paranoia, or given what we've seen lately is it a rational response to irrational situations?

Your thoughts?

I have these types of thoughts all the time in public places, along with thinking strangers are following me or plotting against me. Almost bad enough to get me running and hiding. I don't see this happening only when others are also alert to a potential threat. It'd surely be nice if it was a reasonable reaction though.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Standup2me

I understand this. I often don't like to go to public places on statement days (valentine's day, remembrance day, etc) in case someone goes crazy with a gun. Is it paranoia, or given what we've seen lately is it a rational response to irrational situations?

Your thoughts?

With all we have seen happen (or have heard about), many people hold some degree of fear (and anxiety) about safety in public places these days.

I know I was much more aware at concerts this past summer and am much more aware at the mall (where I walk often), etc.

The ideas around what's "normal" and what's "paranoia" are being challenged these days for everyone.

It can be helpful to discuss with pdoc or therapist, although I can see they don't all agree on this at this point.

My pdoc had told me this increased awareness in public places is "wise." He'd added that he sees it as paranoia only if I were to see the threat as aimed only toward me (if there are people with guns waiting for me to show up). Luckily, I don't think there are gunmen/others waiting specifically for me.

Great topic.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Thanks for the "get well wishes."

I am doing okay. Feeling a little better today.
It all had hit so hard and fast I was concerned about the flu. However, after observing longer, I think this is a "cold" even though it had hit hard/fast and primarily in the chest.

I'd had a very severe case of flu complications approx. 3 years ago. Frightened by the flu (complications) since. Went by ambulance to ER several times with that flu infection.

I take any chest infection very seriously. Rest, hydrate, use prescribed inhalers, monitor fever, etc. (I take immuno-suppressants for autoimmune conditions; these can put me more at risk when trying to fight off infectious illnesses like : colds/flu).

I have been resting and taking excellent care.

Thank you for your concern.


WC

[gina_re]

Being awake is painful. It's just easier to stay asleep.

[Wild Coyote]

(((((( gina re ))))))


WC

[xRavenx]

Woke up feeling that Seroquel hangover effect. Someone texted me from my past early, so it made me kind of emotional since I really can't handle that right now. Took Klonopin since I was feeling tense, and now I'm tired. That's the downside of Klonopin for me. I hate napping midday, especially when I feel I practically just woke up, but I might have to rest for maybe 20 minutes. Other than that, I'm hanging in there.

I finally got sent a greatest hits collection of diana ross (honestly, people acted like she didn't know who she was!)

put that on cd so I have it

feeling relieved another week's gone and i've survived

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

With all we have seen happen (or have heard about), many people hold some degree of fear (and anxiety) about safety in public places these days.

I know I was much more aware at concerts this past summer and am much more aware at the mall (where I walk often), etc.

The ideas around what's "normal" and what's "paranoia" are being challenged these days for everyone.

It can be helpful to discuss with pdoc or therapist, although I can see they don't all agree on this at this point.

My pdoc had told me this increased awareness in public places is "wise." He'd added that he sees it as paranoia only if I were to see the threat as aimed only toward me (if there are people with guns waiting for me to show up). Luckily, I don't think there are gunmen/others waiting specifically for me.

Great topic.


WC

I like the way you put it, paranoia only if I were to see the threat as aimed only toward me. That gives it a sense of perspective.

[franz kafka]

My mind feels fractured. Everything is overwhelming and typiing is difficult. I don't understand what is happening to me

[Wander]

My brain snapped on Saturday night - PTSD trigger. I was almost out of control but an amazing friend talked me down while the nurse were too busy to see me. I owe my friend my life. Yesterday, I felt off - agitated, irritable and anxious. My parents took me out but the beach water was full of sand and a strong wind was blowing so I didn't swim. Once back at my parents I tried to chill but couldn't so came back to hospital. Felt like such a failure.

Last night the bad feelings returned so the nurses bombed me out with meds. Feeling hungover (it is 9.30am) but that should pass. Still feel wild-eyed but trying to manage without meds. Found out i put on 15 pounds (4.5kg) in three weeks IP. Makes me want to starve myself. i had been doing so well but the olanzapine and the craving it creates are killing me. I want off the meds and to go home. See what my pdoc says today.

yesterday an amazing nurse talked to me for an hour helping me find better solutions to my puzzle than killing myself. She really helped me and I feel like I can make it out of her alive and maybe live to an old age rather than assume the worst. It is not an easy fix but the conversation really helped me move in the right direction. Some nurses deserve massive awards and she is one of them.

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Thanks for the "get well wishes."

I am doing okay. Feeling a little better today.
It all had hit so hard and fast I was concerned about the flu. However, after observing longer, I think this is a "cold" even though it had hit hard/fast and primarily in the chest.

I'd had a very severe case of flu complications approx. 3 years ago. Frightened by the flu (complications) since. Went by ambulance to ER several times with that flu infection.

I take any chest infection very seriously. Rest, hydrate, use prescribed inhalers, monitor fever, etc. (I take immuno-suppressants for autoimmune conditions; these can put me more at risk when trying to fight off infectious illnesses like : colds/flu).

I have been resting and taking excellent care.

Thank you for your concern.


WC

Please take good care WC. My son takes immunosuppressants and a cold or flu is very dangerous for him also. Any illness or infection could be life threatening. Take care and get lots of rest and fluids. (((Hugs)))

[bizi]

Watched a movie about the beatles...really great!
bizi

I'm not sure how I'm feeling but dare I say stable? I really think I'm at least headed in that direction. My pain has been very high and feeling very sickly so I get depressive thoughts and behaviors like needing more sleep. Hubby got very mad at me for a misunderstanding last night. He had delusional thinking patterns but I don't feel like discussing it right now. The way he thought was definitely not healthy thinking but we've worked it out. We did raise our voices for 15-20 minutes in passionate defense of our positions. My husband would probably prefer I not talk about it....it would embarrass him so I won't. But I held my composure I feel in the face of deep conflict and that is a good sign I feel.

[Coconutzo]

Survived the holiday weekend. It was worse than I thought, but I am doing better than I thought!

[bioChE]

Had a great Thanksgiving, chilling with family and friends. Did a lot of Christmas shopping online with the kids. That was a lot of fun. Today I'm back at work and getting ready for my year-end review. Hope it goes well.

[hopeless2015]

Coming down with a cold and feel like ****!!! Holding down the couch today