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#201
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Planning, yes. Following through, we'll see. I would like to be more organized with just about everything. Thoughts, time, finances, goals. Goals, especially. I'm within spitting distance of graduating college, and I would like to organize accordingly.
What do you want out of 2017? |
#202
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to be in a better place mentally than I was in 2016
may not sound like much, but seeing as i'm really struggling with every psymptom under the sun.. to move to a diffrent part of the country for my life to have some purpose (even if it's just a bit) did you watch the new years fireworks? |
#203
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No. Fireworks scare me. Specially trying to sleep.
Grapes, no. Water bucket, no. Traveling bag around the block, no. None of that has worked. Open to new ideas. If you change several amounts of several meds at the same time, how do you know which one was working or wasn't working.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
#204
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You don't? I never am allowed to change more than one at a time unless I'm doing extremely badly or am IP so I have no experience with this.
Do you have thyroid issues from medications?
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
#205
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Yes I have hypothyroidism from lithium.
Have you ever had to go without insurance while BP?
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#206
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Yes, for about 2 years. I got a lot of meds through patient assistance and others through discount progams like rxoutreach.org and discount cards. I got my healthcare through charity care at the hospital where my pdoc is. It was tough.
Were the holidays easier, more difficult or abou the same this year?
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
#207
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about the same, I guess.
it never gets easier do you have a good diet? |
#208
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I do but I also drink too often.
Most embarrassing delusion? |
#209
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BPD is more embarrassing, but even that fades. Delusions are just beautiful works of fiction. It's as real as any other reality, so/and my reactions to them are nothing to be embarressed about.
Do you think you generally care more for others than others care for you?
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
#210
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I don't know. I think it is generally even. Having said that I don't really have a lot of people in my life.
Do you ever wake up completely disoriented to where you are or what you are doing there?
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
#211
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Yes, usually in the throes of mania.
What makes you special? |
#212
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I am generally a good student.
what are thing you do while manic?
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Bipolar I /Panic/Anxiety disorder Lithium: 900mg Cymbalta: 60mg Valium: 5mg Latuda: 40mg |
#213
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I am usually on the computer these days when manic, but the big one would be spending money.
Are you manic or depressed right now?
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#214
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Neither! My thought patterns and money spending might lean towards hypo but the destruction is still at bay.
Do you work? If so is it full or part time, and how does that fit into your self care? |
#215
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no I don't work
funny how things change, I always thought i'd work for a computer company (maybe not microsoft, but something like it) do you like your life right now |
#216
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Yes. I'm developing software while on disability. You should try it (and I can help you with that; PM me). I used to work as a software developer for a "real" company, a big multinational.
Would you say you were rational, in general?
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
#217
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No.
Soup of preference.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
#218
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Mushroom soup.
Clinician of preference (psychologist, nurse or psychiatrist)?
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
#219
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Nurse. Specially if the balcony is well developed.
What animal strikes your fancy.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
#220
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Sexist pigs.
Are you good at focusing on details?
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
#221
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Not really. I always look lower than the face. Sry.
When was the last time you felt good.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
#222
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Three minutes ago watching porn
Who is your favorite writer? |
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#223
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Victor Hugo.
Are you dyslexic?
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
#224
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Linda Lovelace. Sorry. You confused me.
Hemingway. He was same like us. Margot too. Mariel still pretty. Game that distracts your mind.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
#225
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Psychosis.
What colour is mania?
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |