Questions: Bipolar Version 2

Kaleidoscope. It's all patterns and sparkles and mess.

Peanut butter or jelly?

neither.

but jelly I guess.

peanut butter makes me sick

is their anything you are currently thinking about buying?

Batteries.

Do you have fast reflexes?

I can do, I guess. if the situation calls for it.

are you currently in a mannic state

Currently I'm hypomanic

Do you eat more when you're depressed?

If very depressed, no, i don't want to eat and don't want to exist

Do you drink alcohol?

Not really, unless hypo or seriously depressed and don't care.

Do you live alone or with someone?

I live with my boyfriend and my dog. My mental health declines rapidly when I live alone. Think sleeping on my floor for weeks on end sustaining on chips and ice cream or the flip side,wild sex parties and elaborate painted murals on walls including super glued glass and such

Do you enjoy travel?

Yes, but not being somewhere for more than a few hours, really. Got to keep moving.

Do you feel marginalised?

yes.
even though it's still pretty early, how has 2017 been for you so far?

Generally very good (especially the not smoking).

Do you joke a lot?

Yes. Well, a little.

Are you married?.

No.

Are you lonely?

Not at all

Can you speak another language?

Yes, as fluently.

Do you own a punch bag?

I wish. Sometimes I treat myself like one. Does that count?

Favorite tool of self destruction?

I try to find new ones all the time .

Do you get extremely interested in random ideas, spend hours researching them and then have nothing to do with the knowledge?

hahaha yes!

on many ocasions that has happened

currently, it's dinosaur oriented

sudden facination with dinosaurs

do you like being hugged?

Hugging is for Americans.

What's the most important lesson you've learned about BP?

BP has no mercy. It comes and goes and wreaks havoc as it pleases.

If you could "exchange" BP for any other mental illness, would you? Which one?

Schizophrenia

What is your biggest mental illness fear?

Being stuck forever. Just not being able to do certain essential things, not surviving without support. I'd just accept the worst. Being alive but caged. It's the schizo part, not the mania part (mania is the only time I'm actually "productive", allowing me to escape my invisible prison; it's negative symptoms and they just remove so much positive, any normal desires have been removed from my existence, I wish for severe depression so I can desire, to want something, fighting it and wanting relief without the destruction that mania causes which I fear as much as the prospect of staying in this state where I slowly wither away).

Schizophrenia... seriously!?

Who else thinks they'd prefer schizophrenia (to summarise: you are less likely to die but more likely to be as good as dead, pretty much, but by all means, convince me BP is worse) and why?

Ok, more neutral question: do you think we live in an unhealthy society and why?

most deffenetly

not only the news, but kids these days too.. they see something on tv, or something in the street, and then copy it and think it's right (and the mothers don't seem to correct them)

so you end up with 2 or 3 year olds swearing and thinking it's cool to stay up late watching horror movies/ adult stuff like southpark on tv

then their's the overuse of mental health words.. someone will do something and someone will say something like, oh.. they're bipolar, they're OCD.. when in actual fact what they've just done is a 1 off.

hmm

the world is certainly not perfect. lol

what is your most treasured posession

My e-cigarette, at the moment. But there are some flash drives and hard drives which I really don't want to lose. All my manic ideas/plans are on those.

Do you have a formal thought disorder?