[Flutterby11]

I feel VERY weird today I still feel sad and all that stuff but I also feel very busy and VERY irritable like I want to scream at everyone all the time. I also feel oddly powerful like I can do anything and I want to be "free" I dont know exactly how to describe what I mean by that but it is a strong urge. I also feel like i need to fix things and have been shopping a lot I bought a fish tank and a whole bunch of stuff to go in it and I am going to get fish soon. Anyway I am also crying one second and laughing the next. What should I do I know I feel weird but I dont know if it is an ok weird or a bad weird.

Possible trigger:

also I am quite suicidal too

[BipolaRNurse]

I still say you need to go to the hospital and be admitted for the sake of your safety and health. You clearly need more help than you can get in the community or from us here at PC. I'm worried about you. Please go.

[Flutterby11]

[QUOTE=BipolaRNurse;5467040]I still say you need to go to the hospital and be admitted for the sake of your safety and health. You clearly need more help than you can get in the community or from us here at PC. I'm worried about you. Please go.[/QUOTE

I am sorry but can i ask why other than the SH related thoughts you think i need to go to hospital? I am a bit confused. does that mean this is a bad weird?

[ReptileInYourHead]

Hey flutterby

What a hot pot of emotions. You should definately talk to a health professional about how you've been feeling.
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[Flutterby11]

I will talk to someone about it but I am just confused in some ways i feel better and in some worse. I really dont know how I am meant to feel. Another thing is I feel a little bit magical not a lot but only a little bit. it is all very hard to describe but should I go with this feeling or is it a bad thing like how do I tell when something is a problem or not?

[Icare dixit]

It's a mixed state/episode. Some of it may feel good and right, but it's all bad. Try not to give in to any urges (including talking more than strictly necessary). Are you on any meds (for these problems), a mood stabiliser or antipsychotic? Are you taking any antidepressants? Any problems with colleagues? You may want to call in sick if you do. Contact a/your psychiatrist or GP.

[bizi]

I agree with the others.
CALL YOUR PDOD!
bizi

[Flutterby11]

Originally Posted by Icare dixit

It's a mixed state/episode. Some of it may feel good and right, but it's all bad. Try not to give in to any urges (including talking more than strictly necessary). Are you on any meds (for these problems), a mood stabiliser or antipsychotic? Are you taking any antidepressants? Any problems with colleagues? You may want to call in sick if you do. Contact a/your psychiatrist or GP.

ok so it is not good then.... I am on an antipsychotic but my mental health worker said he wanted it to be upped. i am not so sure that would help but i dont know.

[Icare dixit]

Originally Posted by Flutterby11

ok so it is not good then.... I am on an antipsychotic but my mental health worker said he wanted it to be upped. i am not so sure that would help but i dont know.

It's likely that would help. But I'd also talk about the Vyvanse, assessing the risks and benefits.

[zijax]

Sounds like a mixed state. I don't recommend a hospital. It's a waste of time and money unless you are seriously suicidal or dying from drugs and alcohol. I just went and got no help. My friend basically made me go. Mixed states need medications-get to your pdoc. It's rough, I was there last spring, I know. Seroquel helped me. Have fun with your fish tank. That sounds really cool and relaxing. Maybe I'll get one too.

[campervanman]

Hi Flutterby.

For your own safety mate, `Go and see your doctor`

And the fish tank idea (Great) "SO" relaxing and "

[Wonderfalls]

You're very busy, you feel powerful with a strong urge and idea that you can do anything, you need to fix things, you're shopping a lot. All of those are straight up mania. You're sad and very very irritable, switching emotions. All of those things point to a mixed episode. For sure you should get help. To begin with I would get a hold of your mental health worker and get permission to up your antipsychotic immediately. It Then take his advice and also monitor yourself to see if you need more help.

[bizi]

This is sound advice!
bizi

[Flutterby11]

Originally Posted by Wonderfalls

You're very busy, you feel powerful with a strong urge and idea that you can do anything, you need to fix things, you're shopping a lot. All of those are straight up mania. You're sad and very very irritable, switching emotions. All of those things point to a mixed episode. For sure you should get help. To begin with I would get a hold of your mental health worker and get permission to up your antipsychotic immediately. It Then take his advice and also monitor yourself to see if you need more help.

My mental health worker is not allowed to give permission to up the meds I have to see the psychiatrist which he has to make an appointment with but he has not told me when I will be next seeing them nor does he seem to be bothered to make an eairler appointment he just always tells me to wait but never gives me a plan to follow it is very frustrating actually especially when I am so impatient like I am currently but anyway the point I was getting to was that he is kind of no help. And he is my only contact the the psychiatrist I can't contact them myself. So yeah I don't know this might be something that is going to stick for at least another few weeks. Or not I have no idea what my mood will be at the moment I am just riding the waves as best as I can.

[JustJace2u]

Sorry to hear you're having such a rough time right now. I hope you feel better soon.

[Flutterby11]

I am feeling a bit on the better side today but also bad at the same time I dont know it is still all jumbled I guess anyway I looked at more fish I today I am going to get my water tested later and if it is all clear I am buying some fish it is very exciting. I have no idea how much money I have spent though I also still have that weird feeling like I want to be "free" like I need to be with nature or something it is hard to explain.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Flutterby11

I am feeling a bit on the better side today but also bad at the same time I dont know it is still all jumbled I guess anyway I looked at more fish I today I am going to get my water tested later and if it is all clear I am buying some fish it is very exciting. I have no idea how much money I have spent though I also still have that weird feeling like I want to be "free" like I need to be with nature or something it is hard to explain.

When I start thinking I know all or I am all or I'm one with everything or I see angels or I need to be free (of my surroundings or body) then I know I'm manic. Please get help. I didn't understand your post about your pdoc's limitations, but if I were you, I'd go to your local psych ER. (Last time I went inpatient, I was taken there by ambulance

Possible trigger:

for overdosing

so you can go that way, too.

[Flutterby11]

Originally Posted by Moose72

When I start thinking I know all or I am all or I'm one with everything or I see angels or I need to be free (of my surroundings or body) then I know I'm manic. Please get help. I didn't understand your post about your pdoc's limitations, but if I were you, I'd go to your local psych ER. (Last time I went inpatient, I was taken there by ambulance

Possible trigger:

for overdosing

so you can go that way, too.

I mean I can try and ask my mental health worker to make another appointment but like I cant make any promises he will do anything. I dont think this is hospital worthy but i have also been wrong before anyway i have to much to do today to go there. i really hope i can get the fish.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Flutterby11

I mean I can try and ask my mental health worker to make another appointment but like I cant make any promises he will do anything. I dont think this is hospital worthy but i have also been wrong before anyway i have to much to do today to go there. i really hope i can get the fish.

You are guessing. You don't know what anybody will do- your pdoc, the hospital, or the fish for that matter. (They could die after you get them.) Seriously- just get seen.

[Flutterby11]

Originally Posted by Moose72

You are guessing. You don't know what anybody will do- your pdoc, the hospital, or the fish for that matter. (They could die after you get them.) Seriously- just get seen.

the fish could die but i am not getting them all at once and i have taken every step i can to make sure they dont die so at least i would know i did all i could. as for the doctors no i dont know that either but i am not sure what point you are trying to get across by saying that like i actually really dont know what you are meaning.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Flutterby11

the fish could die but i am not getting them all at once and i have taken every step i can to make sure they dont die so at least i would know i did all i could. as for the doctors no i dont know that either but i am not sure what point you are trying to get across by saying that like i actually really dont know what you are meaning.

You said your mental health worker won't do anything. You don't know that. Why not just call your doctor or your psych ER? You are distracting the topic with the fish. The fish are not the main problem here.

[Flutterby11]

Originally Posted by Moose72

You said your mental health worker won't do anything. You don't know that. Why not just call your doctor or your psych ER? You are distracting the topic with the fish. The fish are not the main problem here.

oh and i wasnt meaning to distract the topic and i cant call my doctor because i literally dont have their number i only have the number of the mental health worker and he has the number of the doctor so i talk to him then he has to talk to the doctor who then has to make an appointment and normally they are fully booked at least 2 weeks in advance and then the mental health worker has to get back to me once he has heard from the doctor. and the psych er takes normally like 8 hours of sitting around which i am really not up for. so yeah it is kind of complicated.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Flutterby11

oh and i wasnt meaning to distract the topic and i cant call my doctor because i literally dont have their number i only have the number of the mental health worker and he has the number of the doctor so i talk to him then he has to talk to the doctor who then has to make an appointment and normally they are fully booked at least 2 weeks in advance and then the mental health worker has to get back to me once he has heard from the doctor. and the psych er takes normally like 8 hours of sitting around which i am really not up for. so yeah it is kind of complicated.

OK. Your doctor or worker can't call you back? My pdoc/nurse practitioner just called me today.

My psych ER can take hours and hours sometimes, too. But, sometimes not. You never know until you get there. If you need to be seen you need to be seen and unfortunately, that's what's open on a Friday night.

[Flutterby11]

Originally Posted by Moose72

OK. Your doctor or worker can't call you back? My pdoc/nurse practitioner just called me today.

My psych ER can take hours and hours sometimes, too. But, sometimes not. You never know until you get there. If you need to be seen you need to be seen and unfortunately, that's what's open on a Friday night.

my doctor cant call me but my worker can but my doctor is changing and the one it is changing to only works there 2 days a week so they are hard to get a hold of.