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My school online account was fixed and I finished taking the orientation course. Now I'm waiting for one item to be graded, then I can register for my class.
We went to two parks this morning and afternoon. It was beautiful with all the flowers blooming and the critters doing their thing. Now I'm relaxing while my husband takes a nap, and we'll be making dinner in a couple of hours. Mood has been up, but my patience is still thin. I've been sleeping off and on for the past few weeks. At least I lost some weight, but still trying to keep my appetite from exploding when I start feeling bored. So I'm doing okay, I guess. |
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#802
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Just giving signs of life.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
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#803
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Amanda thank you for getting rid of the feet
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#804
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But I washed my feet. I promise. Are you trying to say my feet stink?
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#805
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hahahhahaha I'm been meaning to ask what's up with the feet?? haha. I stopped myself from asking.
hey to each thier own lol
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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Woke up at 3.30am and couldn't get back to sleep. Feeling good despite this. Hopefully this means i will have a great day. Yesterday was hell. Starting 10mg of fluoxetine today, was at 5mg. Could be interesting, last time i tried this med I became very irritable an wild then the hypomania kicked in. Oh well. Let's see what happens.
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I knew I was having ECT on Monday, but I just got the time. 9:15
It's not bad if you live in the same city as the hospital, but I live 2 hours away and will have to deal with Monday morning commute in the north San Francisco Bay Area. Driving in that traffic is so stressful, even when I'm not the one driving.
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I got a text from my pharmacy saying my script (unknown to me which) was ready for pickup. So later in the day, I go and ask for it. Yup there it is. But the tech says there's a printout on it saying insurance won't pay for lithium anymore and is there another drug I can take in its place? Maybe I should ask my doctor about that, he says. "You can pay for it yourself," he suggests. "Its only $30." Now, I had just gotten lithium filled less than a week ago, so I was really confused. "Maybe its too early to fill?" I suggested. Oh no, no, its my insurance and I should call them and come back later. So I called my pdoc's nurse. She called my insurance for me, AND the pharmacy and called me back. The script was simply too soon to fill and my insurance still covered it. Why on Earth would the pharmacy try to fill my lithium so soon and then try to get me to pay out of pocket for it?
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#809
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I second that. I don't know it was really freaking me out for some reason. Your feet don't stink Amanda but the picture was really bothering me.
As for today, I am doing okay I guess, I mean it could be a whole lot worse. Still feeling guilty for leaving some of my online friends behind, but what's done is done. I suppose there is not turning back now. Just moving forward now........
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#810
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Quote:
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#811
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Oh yes, you look really happy in it!
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#812
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It was before my Mom and Dad died...
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Hey. Just checking in. On spring break. Been busy with my parents being up.
It's been pretty good. But I have been getting up fairly early in the morning bc they are up. The weather has been amazing. Had some dr appts Monday and everything looks pretty good physically at least. Today I had the place to myself and I slept a lot, I think I was making up missed sleep. I am feeling mostly okay I think. Mood is fair. No dark thoughTs lately which is good. I think I am just wary of how long the D will stay away. Have a good week. Take care. |
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I made a sooner appointment with my pdoc. The soonest she had was May 1, but I'll just try to push through until then. She is good about being available if I need to call her though, so at least that's a safety net, in a way. I'm seeing the patterns in myself: angry-hypo, elated-hypo, determined-hypo, and just generally anxious impulsive in general. As much as I'm glad some of the depression lifted, I'm still struggling with decision making and impulsive buys right now. If only some self-awareness can actually help me make changes, but it rarely works out that way for some reason.
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I had a rough start to my day with anxiety and feeling overwhelmed, but ended up having a really great late afternoon/evening. Took my son to the arcade and had a ton of fun. Then we went out for dinner. Afterwards we walked around the mall. I had a really good time and actually smiled for once.
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Medical appointment yesterday. Med adjustments for autoimmune issues. Meds appear to be controlling autoimmune activity right now.
![]() Spent today giving undivided attention to my elderly mother. She lives with us and we do care for her. Today, I gave her even more care, as she is struggling with a respiratory virus and her very best friend has just passed on. I "pampered" her today. She had enjoyed it. I am on 4 meds for depression and they each help a little bit, in some way. The most recent addition, Adderall, seems to be helping just enough so I can push myself into doing something (for awhile each day) to distract from overwhelming depression. ( I have been so deeply depressed, I think it would take far too much Adderall to help more. I don't think my body could safely take that much.) Hopefully, the depression will let up, on lower doses, at least enough so I am not feeling totally devastated and tortured by it. (Chronic pain is more than enough without severe depression, too.) I feel like just maybe I dare to hope the Adderall (w/med combo) will help enough to make a lasting difference. Love all around! ![]() ![]() WC |
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#817
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I hate having my hair cut
Just having someone touching my hair gives me the heebie-jeebies So tonight I cut my own bangs. And I did a dark good job!! Yay me
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#818
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I am very anxious...
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#819
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Everybody needs
So many voices saying "I need" I need money I need to lose weight I need friends I need a new house. Are they needs or wants? Do we even know the difference anymore?
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#820
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You're really good at this... I liked this... Keep sharing...
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#821
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Had an okay day but couldn't really focus on work.
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I am lying in bed and I can hear my dad's cpap machine thing (for sleep apnea) from the next room. It is making weird noises and totally freaking me the fuuck out. It sounds like there is a baby elephant in the house. I am never going to sleep now!!! Good lord. Kill me now. Lol
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#823
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Feeling totally f_cking awesome!
I stopped Seroquel on purpose and I got 6.5 hours of sleep last night. Woohoo! (My normal is 7hrs without APs, and I got 13 hrs when I was on Seroquel... so 6.5 hrs isn't half bad. ![]() F_ck APs. I don't like 'em. All they've done is make me gain weight and wash out my personality. I feel like ME for a change! Awww yissss Cheers, everyone! |
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#824
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Please remain mindful as you come off of the Seroquel.
You recently went through a very tough period of delusions. We all care very much about you and hope all goes well. You are very intelligent, and with insight, you do very well in life. I don't mean to drag you down by mentioning your recent tough time. I am just very concerned about you. I'm a fan and want to see you happy and doing well. ![]() Please move forward mindfully. ![]() WC |
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#825
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WC - I can just see your moniker and calm down and know that I'm not alone in this. Thank you for being such a wonderful, caring person. I know you struggle.
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