[hopeless2015]

Uggg Monday morning. Had a good weekend but it's back to work today....yuck lol

[Moose72]

Taking N2 to the Secretary of State to get her Level 1 driver's license! OMG. She can drive with me now!

[Daonnachd]

Through complications involving both my regular pdoc and the doc responsible for maintenance ECT, I have run out of lithium. I'm trying to get my regular pdoc to prescribe it for me now as that will be easier to keep a handle on, but as it stands, I'm without it. Who knows how long it will take to get it to me again?

[hopeless2015]

Vertigo, I hope they straighten this out for you soon!!!

Struggling with concentration again today. I'm hoping after lunch break goes better. This is so frustrating for me. It's a constant struggle for me here at work and I'm just waiting to get in trouble.. I have my review on Thurs we will see how that goes. I've never had a bad one but do have a new supervisor now, and honestly she has no clue what I do so I don't know how this will go.

[Sunflower123]

Vertigo...I hope they get your medicine to you soon.

Hopeless...I hope you have a great review Thursday.

I've been here for years

Caffeine should be a controlled substance. My fingers are jumping around so much on the keyboard, I can barely type.

I've risen from the couch and disengaged from streaming videos: jack your trigger sensitivity up to "force majeure".

[liveforsummer]

Monday. Yuck. One hour and 11 minutes until quitting time...just as well as losing my focus!

[pirilin]

Not feeling well. I slept 0 hrs last night. Maybe the abilify. No abilify tonite. We'll see.
I'm depressed and anxious. My worst combo. Too many meds and no help.
The Pdoc moved my appointment from last Friday to july 25. Can you believe it?. Last time I saw her was in February. I wish I was so well I didn't need the appointment.
First, she was on vacation. Now she was sick. Then an operation gone wrong.
I hate to switch doctors, but if I don't improve soon, I will. July 25. Seriously?.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by pirilin

Not feeling well. I slept 0 hrs last night. Maybe the abilify. No abilify tonite. We'll see.
I'm depressed and anxious. My worst combo. Too many meds and no help.
The Pdoc moved my appointment from last Friday to july 25. Can you believe it?. Last time I saw her was in February. I wish I was so well I didn't need the appointment.
First, she was on vacation. Now she was sick. Then an operation gone wrong.
I hate to switch doctors, but if I don't improve soon, I will. July 25. Seriously?.

I am sorry you are having such a tough time!
That's a very long time in between appointments. Wow.
Frustrating!
And... you are suffering.

Does she know you're having such a tough time?
If she doesn't know, can you tell her on voicemail or in some way?
Maybe she would see you sooner, as a more emergent appointment, if she knew?
Can she put you on a cancellation list, so if anyone cancels, you get the appointment?

I hope she can do something to help you sooner.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Feeling very low.

Trying to get a handle on it. Why's it so difficult to change my mindset?
Trying to change my mind, the way I'm thinking about my challenges.
If I could change my mindset and stick with it, life would be better, I think?

I used to be able to do that. Why can't I do it now?

Severe depression, frustration, the desire to just fold is very strong, stronger than my current ability to rise above. That's so foreign to me, as I used to have so much resilience. Where did it go?

I have so many serious deadlines ahead and I am paralyzed.

It's another dark rainy day here. Bleh!

Have an appointment with pdoc on Friday.

Love to All!


WC

[hopeless2015]

Hugs to you WC, you give so much support here, I wish there was something I could do to make you feel better. I'm thinking about you!!

[hopeless2015]

An hour and a half of work left, it's really been a long day. I'm so slooow, I need to remember to just get through 15 minutes at a time, I haven't been doing that today. I've also been blowing up my husband's phone with text messages, I just feel really needy today for some reason. All right I need to stay off pc and try and get some work done, I'm draining my phone battery being on here so much today....i excess via tap talk

[liveforsummer]

Hugs to all feeling low

[Unrigged64072835]

Just got my mid-term for my poetry class. 700-word essay due Sunday at midnight. I have the outline written up, just need to fill it out with all the other homework I have to do. Arrrgh!

Other than that I'm doing alright. Went to T this morning and that was okay. I was restless most of the day but I just focused on doing homework. Probably will do that all week except for new pdoc tomorrow afternoon. Hopefully I can increase my Artane as I notice my TD is worse when I'm anxious. I also hope not to eat everything in the house since I'm now stressed.

I'll get through it. I think I can. I think I can...

very low

[gina_re]

Well I went from two good days to a bad day. I just woke up feeling off. I had the urge to drink earlier. I had anxiety earlier. And now my thoughts are racing and I feel so on edge. I don't know what to do.

I'm back. Up at 2:30, 4 hours hard labor from sunup, then doing business and cleaning messes. My Japanese is slowly recovering (it shuts down when I'm depressed), my shaky Korean has surfaced and I've begun finishing projects neglected for years. Now I have to stop the coffee, stay home and focus. There's a DBSA meeting tonight but I'm not going; I'm not sure if I'm good to drive. I am in the

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[Blaire]

I'm having some intense feelings about therapy, and I'm exhausted from spending basically the entire day thinking about it. I don't feel like I'm in my own life right now, it's very surreal. I am so deep in my head that I hardly see what's going on around me, and I can't get much done. I'm going to bed and hope I'll feel better in the morning.

[Moose72]

I heard someone go through the front door at 640 ish am today. I went down stairs and in comes n3. He was way early for school instead of late! He came back in.

Now its 7:43 and he just left for school- for real this time. I'm off to find coffee. Gosh I hope he doesn't have summer school! I signed him up, but he says he caught up so he won't have to go. We will see. There were four classes!

[liveforsummer]

Total nervous basket case today. Sitting st desk at work and can't concentrate. Fidgety. Stressing about meeting pdoc today at 2:50pm. Feel like cancelling but they'll charge me like $200 for missing the appointment. I know I have to do this. I'm rambling. Happy Tuesday everyone!!!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Total nervous basket case today. Sitting st desk at work and can't concentrate. Fidgety. Stressing about meeting pdoc today at 2:50pm. Feel like cancelling but they'll charge me like $200 for missing the appointment. I know I have to do this. I'm rambling. Happy Tuesday everyone!!!

You'll do just fine!
You're on my mind.
Sending positive mojo your way!



WC

[Faltering]

I did okay at my recent job interviews. I'm still afraid no one will hire me before the school year begins.

I'm getting tired of the Zyprexa weight gain, anger, and paranoia. I have experienced some improvements in symptoms, but I'm not sure if it's worth it anymore. I don't have insurance anymore, so I guess I'll be unmedicated again anyway.

Is anyone feeling whiplash? Today the manic high is too much like I'm about to explode and yesterday I was the closest EVER to committing suicide and the day before that I was on a manic high.

[Moose72]

Got my pills (except Coumadin and inhalers and epipen) blister packed today at the new pharmacy! They say the date day and time on each one! Yahoo!

[bioChE]

Got up, showered, and came to work. Been a good day so far, getting a lot done.

I've been reading Dale Carnegie's book "How to Stop Worrying and Start Living." It's been good so far, a lot of practical advice on the topic, and ways to do it successfully. It's been a help to me already. The best perspective is that we can't do anything about yesterday or tomorrow, so do everything today and let those things take care of themselves. In the past I've spent plenty of time worrying about those, so to hear it again is good. It goes right along with the concept of mindfulness, and living in the moment.