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#101
May 23, 2017, 06:51 AM
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I like to be aware of the news.
I just don't need to watch footage from bombs and terrorized people. My adrenaline surges, along with theirs. Bless their souls.  WC |
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#102
May 23, 2017, 08:18 AM
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Chiro yesterday, that was interesting. Will find out more on friday, she will explain my exrays etc.
right hip feels alittle better. bizi getting ready to practice the ukulele.
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#103
May 23, 2017, 08:52 AM
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Took an fmla day yesterday, I'm back at work today and feeling really grouchy today,I will stay in my cubicle and keep to myself
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Current Meds Lamictal 200 mg x2 Seroquel 100 mg |
| Anonymous45023, Anonymous59125, Moose72, Sunflower123, Wild Coyote
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#104
May 23, 2017, 08:57 AM
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My grandma woke up screaming and shouting this morning. 5:30am.
"WHERE IS EVERYBODY? I NEED MY DINNER." She started rattling everyone's bedroom door handle and stomping her feet! She thought it was 6:30pm or 7:30pm and that we deprived her of her dinner. We could not convince her it was morning. We tried showing her the fault in her logic, and after 1 hour, still nothing. We tried showing her the TV shows and everything that said it was morning. No success. Then she sat down in the couch seat and dozed off because it was so early in the morning. Then we woke her up 5 minutes later and said, "wow, you just slept 11 hours! It's now 7:00am!" Then she was like, "oh my! Morning already?! I'm going to be late to the daycare!" We're still working on getting her Medicaid so that she can go into a nursing home for her dementia |
| Anonymous45023, Anonymous59125, Sunflower123, Wild Coyote
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#105
May 23, 2017, 09:12 AM
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#106
May 23, 2017, 10:07 AM
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#107
May 23, 2017, 10:11 AM
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So my interview for tomorrow night was confirmed for two hours.
5:00-5:30 PM VP of R&D 5:30-6:00 PM Director of Human Resources 6:00-7:00 PM CFO and Accountant I just hope I don't choke in front of very high up people in this company. They have less than 100 employees. Edit I know I talk about job hunting and interviews a lot. I would be the first to admit that I am obsessed with this right now, but not necessarily in a bad way. I'm using that obsessive tendency I find in my various states of bipolar to apply (and apply) and obtain an interview. What I am finding difficulty with is the interview itself when I am sat in front of someone and I'm asked to explain who I am and what makes me....well, me. I'm socially awkward, and it doesn't take the interviewer long to determine this on their own. How does one conquer their social anxiety and awkwardness? I was sweating bullets in my last interview at my current job, despite having interviewed with one of the hiring managers once before. I'm always worried what will trigger me, how I will react, and whether or not I can control / regain control should I get taken for a ride. |
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#108
May 23, 2017, 10:11 AM
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As for my checking in, I got up, showered, said goodbye to my in-laws, and came to work. Feeling decent. Have an appointment with my psychiatrist in less than an hour, so I need to hit the road soon. Looking to possibly change my Lamictal to the XR version, and maybe make a tweak with my Vyvanse to make it less expensive. Wish me luck. 
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Meds: Latuda, Lamictal XR, Vyvanse, Seroquel, Klonopin Supplements: Monster Energy replacement.  Also DLPA, tyrosine, glutamine, and tryptophan
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| Sunflower123, Wild Coyote
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#109
May 23, 2017, 10:21 AM
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#110
May 23, 2017, 10:22 AM
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#111
May 23, 2017, 10:29 AM
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I'm sorry for leaking all over this board yesterday. I realized soon after I did that I'm about to start my period and these intense feelings are likely due (at least in part) to
That. I'm feeling a little less stuck and hopeless after making that connection. I'm working with my primary doctor to find a solution to my intense PMS symptoms and hopefully soon this raging monster inside me won't leak out each month in such intense, overwhelming ways. I have so much I need to work on in my life. I'm stuck in a seemingly bottomless pit/dark deep hole and clawing out seems impossible but it's not....it's just hard and will take focused effort over a long period but hope is there. |
| Anonymous41403, Anonymous45023, gina_re, jacky8807, Nammu, Sunflower123, Wild Coyote
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#112
May 23, 2017, 10:46 AM
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
| Sunflower123, Wild Coyote
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#113
May 23, 2017, 10:58 AM
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I got a notification on my phone that I had a script ready. So I went to Walgreen's and lo and behold they gave me Sumatriptan! I guess my primary called in a new script or...? Yesterday, the pharmacy said they couldn't fill it because they insurance wouldn't pay. Now I have 18 pills- 9 from today and 9 from a box I found since. (Why do they come in boxes of 9?)
I'm watching The Birdcage again. I couldn't get through the whole thing Saturday before N2 and friends got home. I like this movie. I'm interested to hear the recording from Sunday. (The mass.) She may just put it online in which case I'll have to get a sound card and borrow N3's speakers. I signed N1 up for my AAA roadside assistance this morning. He locked his keys in his car. I hope they helped him even though he just signed up.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
| Sunflower123, Wild Coyote
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#114
May 23, 2017, 01:07 PM
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#115
May 23, 2017, 01:26 PM
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I had my ist yearly review today at my job. I cannot believe I made it a year! i got it at a time coming out of a year which made me think I was never going to work again. Fired, episodes ,unemployment, craziness. But I made it!
The review was so glowing too. It felt so good to my self worth you cannot imagine. I don't know what the future holds but TODAY I am celebrating this victory!
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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#116
May 23, 2017, 01:28 PM
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I'm very stressed today about a few things. Nothing serious at all...just frustrated and it helps me to post on here to vent. I just tried to renew my drivers license on line and paid $28 for it to tell me I have to renew in person. I have no patience for this nonsense today and am not looking forward to the inefficient process of renewal. I can't put it off because I'm driving to Florida for two weeks in less than two weeks and with Murphy's law I'd get pulled over.
While usually minutiae doesn't stress me out or drive me to yell at the dog for being underfoot, it's doing so today. Strange. It's not anxiety or depression. Just a huge sense of stress. Hope everyone is doing ok today.
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#117
May 23, 2017, 01:30 PM
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#118
May 23, 2017, 01:33 PM
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| Sunflower123, Wild Coyote
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#119
May 23, 2017, 02:28 PM
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thanks guys!
 
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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#120
May 23, 2017, 02:35 PM
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I need to get through 2 more hours of work. I'm so irritated today I can't hardly stand it. I just want to go home and crawl in bed!
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Current Meds Lamictal 200 mg x2 Seroquel 100 mg |
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#121
May 23, 2017, 02:41 PM
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#122
May 23, 2017, 02:48 PM
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The older Rav 4's have the cutest body style and Toyota run forever! I'm so excited for you Rose!
I wrote my therapist today about something I NEEDED to finally admit to myself and get help with. I'm feeling very vulnerable and scared right now but I believe I might actually be on track with getting the help I so desperately need. I've been truly blind to an issue that was so obvious but now that I can clearly see, I have to hope I can actually fix it. Things are likely to get much worse before they get better but I have to believe they actually might be able to get TRULY better now that I see what I'm actually dealing with. |
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#123
May 23, 2017, 02:53 PM
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I hope sharing with your therapist brings healing.
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| Anonymous59125, Sunflower123, Wild Coyote
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#124
May 23, 2017, 02:58 PM
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I've been holding up lately even though completing every little task has been a struggle. I started to regress today. It is so difficult to focus at work. I can't sit there for hours on end like I used to. I keep listening to co-workers' conversations, worried they're talking about me and conspiring to get me fired. I even checked my office for cameras today. Now I dread tomorrow. I just want my self-control back.
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#125
May 23, 2017, 03:14 PM
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My concentration has been really bad today. I feel so useless. Have an appointment with pdoc soon, and I'm nervous I'll end up not saying what I need to.
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