[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by vjdragonfly

Still down in the dumps. I try to stay in bed as much as I can. Really having a hard time getting anything done. I don't even want to take care of my animals or other responsibilities. Somehow I manage to do them though.

I'm sorry you're having a tough time. I can totally understand you having difficulty getting things done. Some days it's all I can do to take care of my animals. I hope you feel better soon.

[hopeless2015]

Struggling today, took fmla day from work. I have to to try and fight harder. This morning was terrible but mornings are always harder for me. Finally got letter from our payroll department about that over payment. I don't know why it took them so long to get back to me when I told them right away about it. Anyway arrangements have been made and I'm all stressed out about money again. Always something here lately.

So I have another job interview scheduled for Wednesday at 5:00 PM.

Extremely nervous.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by neodk

So I have another job interview scheduled for Wednesday at 5:00 PM.

Extremely nervous.

Good luck with your interview Wednesday.

[vjdragonfly]

Originally Posted by neodk

So I have another job interview scheduled for Wednesday at 5:00 PM.

Extremely nervous.

Best of wishes, I hope you land the job.

Finally coming out of the depression. Starting to clean but it's overwhelming, and it really hurts my back. I can only do a little at a time. Sick of one of my sisters always telling me I'm wrong. Before I was medicated I couldn't stand her, but now I find myself going out of my way for her approval. I'm sick of never being able to have an opinion. We've always struggled with getting along. We're very different. I'm layed back and open and she's very closed off and non emotional. It's such a long story.

I've found a car I'm probably going to buy which is exciting! Been out practicing driving. So I'm moving forward there. But it's like this sister isn't even happy for me. Blah it sucks being the youngest sometimes. I miss my mom. So very much!

Big hugs to everyone who is struggling!

Screw your sister for not being happy for you Rose. We are happy for you (((hugs)))

I'm still improving slowly. Still stragglers of thought disorder and some depressive stuff because I've been so sick and in pain which compounds my mental stuff but compared to how bad things can be I really shouldn't complain. I'm grateful things are improving. I have several chores I need to do but my pain and sickness keep me in my recliner. I might actually have a bug but I can never tell with my issues being what they are....it might just be allergies and my chronic issues flairing. I plan to start walking at night with my hubby but tonight won't be the night because I'm too sick, hopefully tomorrow. I had a nice chat with my therapist today with a few plans of action and a workbook suggestion for my PTSD. Overall, things are going well but my worry for my son is huge these days.

Edited to add: I notice I have a lot of "buts in my life"

[scatterbrained04]

Had work today, so that got me out of bed. Also had to go grocery shopping because I neglected to go over the weekend. My son got mad at me this evening because he kept talking to me, and I kept zoning out. My concentration is so bad. I feel like such a terrible parent. Was very relieved that the grocery store was not crowded at all. Especially since I felt like crying. Is this depression over yet??

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

Screw your sister for not being happy for you Rose. We are happy for you (((hugs)))

I'm still improving slowly. Still stragglers of thought disorder and some depressive stuff because I've been so sick and in pain which compounds my mental stuff but compared to how bad things can be I really shouldn't complain. I'm grateful things are improving. I have several chores I need to do but my pain and sickness keep me in my recliner. I might actually have a bug but I can never tell with my issues being what they are....it might just be allergies and my chronic issues flairing. I plan to start walking at night with my hubby but tonight won't be the night because I'm too sick, hopefully tomorrow. I had a nice chat with my therapist today with a few plans of action and a workbook suggestion for my PTSD. Overall, things are going well but my worry for my son is huge these days.

Edited to add: I notice I have a lot of "buts in my life"

Thank you Elsa! So sweet of you. sorry you're having pain issues as well. Makes it hard when mentally I feel good but physically hurt. I understand. Big hugs to you.

[Unrigged64072835]

Went to therapy. Cut it short because the anxiety hit yet again.

Seeing pdoc for last time tomorrow. Hope to straighten meds out and get this restlessness under control.

Finished two critiques of my classmate's poems. Have to analyze another poem and write a discussion on two more poems.

Trying to keep doing this instead of freaking out and chucking everything.

[Wild Coyote]

Did not get much done today, which is upsetting. I am trying to continue in patience.

Adrenaline surged and started to have anxiety watching the news tonight. Turned it off. I cannot afford the anxiety right now. I am very sensitive and have learned, sometimes, I need to protect myself. It's not because I don't care; it's because I care deeply.

Peace and Love to All,

WC

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Did not get much done today, which is upsetting. I am trying to continue in patience.

Adrenaline surged and started to have anxiety watching the news tonight. Turned it off. I cannot afford the anxiety right now. I am very sensitive and have learned, sometimes, I need to protect myself. It's not because I don't care; it's because I care deeply.

Peace and Love to All,

WC

I really get where you're coming from as far as getting things done and it is upsetting. Very. I see this so much on this forum and the depression forum.

I hope your anxiety eases and you feel better soon.

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Did not get much done today, which is upsetting. I am trying to continue in patience.

Adrenaline surged and started to have anxiety watching the news tonight. Turned it off. I cannot afford the anxiety right now. I am very sensitive and have learned, sometimes, I need to protect myself. It's not because I don't care; it's because I care deeply.

Peace and Love to All,

WC

I am the same way WC. I've cut out most news from my life. I only stay updated by watching a comedy show as without the comedic aspect I'd be a wreck and some years I watch none. I really care, and like you it's too much. I have to protect my sanity and know when to click to cartoons. (((Hugs)))

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Did not get much done today, which is upsetting. I am trying to continue in patience.

Adrenaline surged and started to have anxiety watching the news tonight. Turned it off. I cannot afford the anxiety right now. I am very sensitive and have learned, sometimes, I need to protect myself. It's not because I don't care; it's because I care deeply.

Peace and Love to All,

WC

Sorry to hear your day wasn't so great. I hate having those days. I had one of those last week and I was disappointed in myself, so I know what you mean. It does suck.

Hopefully tomorrow is a new day for you.

[gina_re]

I haven't watched the news in over a week WC, mainly because it can be so anxiety provoking at times. I'll probably continue to not watch. So I understand that feeling.

Well my sister happened to stop by today with the little one. And since she was working, I babysat and playing with a toddler helped me feel better. But the thought of going back to work fills me with dread and anxiety. I'm so lost on how to go about this.

Originally Posted by gina_re

I haven't watched the news in over a week WC, mainly because it can be so anxiety provoking at times. I'll probably continue to not watch. So I understand that feeling.

Well my sister happened to stop by today with the little one. And since she was working, I babysat and playing with a toddler helped me feel better. But the thought of going back to work fills me with dread and anxiety. I'm so lost on how to go about this.

My heart goes out to you Gina. While I wish I were able to work, I can't and am sure glad I no longer have to worry about calling in and hearing the disappointing tone of the person on the other end. That was pure hell. My heart really breaks for you and I hope your issues find peaceful resolution soon so you don't need to live with torment. (((Hugs)))

[Standup2me]

What is going on in this world?
Explosions, people dying, people hating for the sake of hate.
Polluted water
Smog
Toxic soil
Oh Lord, forgive our stupidity

[Sunflower123]

I'll tell you what....I just throw my hands in the air. If you want to be treated like an adult, you need to act like one and quit stomping around and slamming doors at the slightest perceived insult or offense. You gotta love them. Can't live with them...can't live without them. I thought they say that about men and women...not teenagers.

I feel somewhat guilty because I reflected for some minutes that her going to college may not be all bad. I got kind of excited about finding me again and looking for additional purposes.

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I'll tell you what....I just throw my hands in the air. If you want to be treated like an adult, you need to act like one and quit stomping around and slamming doors at the slightest perceived insult or offense. You gotta love them. Can't live with them...can't live without them. I thought they say that about men and women...not teenagers.

I feel somewhat guilty because I reflected for some minutes that her going to college may not be all bad. I got kind of excited about finding me again and looking for additional purposes.

Can't live with them and can't live without them had to have been invented by the parent of a teenager....I swear! My youngest is 17 and a sweetheart. My oldest is 20 and is like a giant toddler with a beard. My heart goes out to you.

[Wander]

I am drowning in a sea of depression and agitation. See my pdoc and T tomorrow. Hope they can help me because I can't take much more of this.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wander

I am drowning in a sea of depression and agitation. See my pdoc and T tomorrow. Hope they can help me because I can't take much more of this.

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. I'm glad you are seeing your pdoc and T today (it's after midnight here). I hope you get some relief and feel better soon. Thinking of you.

Originally Posted by Wander

I am drowning in a sea of depression and agitation. See my pdoc and T tomorrow. Hope they can help me because I can't take much more of this.

I'm so sorry Wander....please take care. We are here if you need us Hun.

This morning started off pretty good but has rounded itself into a very horrible evening. There is so much awfulness going on....so much I can't talk about, even here, even anonymously. I confided something important to my friend and even she says it's a terrible situation I need to be careful not to tell people or they will think badly of someone I love. I think I need to go back to my out of pocket therapist and get her take on things. I feel so lost, hopeless and stuck. There is nothing I can do to make things better and I can't live like this. I'm being eaten alive....I get a few good days, just so the crash hurts more. I hope this is just a bad day and I will gain better perspective tomorrow but that seems impossible. I might never get better....this might truly be it. I can't live in this pain and torment, I simply can't....and I don't think it's fair, but when did fair have anything to do with anything in this forsaken world anyways. People who believe in fairness are fools who will spend their lives disappointed. Sorry for my negativity....I have no place to go with all this and I can't even talk about what I really need to talk about so I feel so pointless.

[strive356]

Originally Posted by rose1985

Finally coming out of the depression. Starting to clean but it's overwhelming, and it really hurts my back. I can only do a little at a time. Sick of one of my sisters always telling me I'm wrong. Before I was medicated I couldn't stand her, but now I find myself going out of my way for her approval. I'm sick of never being able to have an opinion. We've always struggled with getting along. We're very different. I'm layed back and open and she's very closed off and non emotional. It's such a long story.

I've found a car I'm probably going to buy which is exciting! Been out practicing driving. So I'm moving forward there. But it's like this sister isn't even happy for me. Blah it sucks being the youngest sometimes. I miss my mom. So very much!

Big hugs to everyone who is struggling!

Hugs! Good luck with your car!

[Moose72]

I just got up at 7 am (15 minutes ago) and I went to bed at 4 pm! It was intended as a late nap but oh well. I guess I needed it.

I don't watch the news either. It's never good. Why stress myself out more?

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I'm so sorry Wander....please take care. We are here if you need us Hun.

This morning started off pretty good but has rounded itself into a very horrible evening. There is so much awfulness going on....so much I can't talk about, even here, even anonymously. I confided something important to my friend and even she says it's a terrible situation I need to be careful not to tell people or they will think badly of someone I love. I think I need to go back to my out of pocket therapist and get her take on things. I feel so lost, hopeless and stuck. There is nothing I can do to make things better and I can't live like this. I'm being eaten alive....I get a few good days, just so the crash hurts more. I hope this is just a bad day and I will gain better perspective tomorrow but that seems impossible. I might never get better....this might truly be it. I can't live in this pain and torment, I simply can't....and I don't think it's fair, but when did fair have anything to do with anything in this forsaken world anyways. People who believe in fairness are fools who will spend their lives disappointed. Sorry for my negativity....I have no place to go with all this and I can't even talk about what I really need to talk about so I feel so pointless.

Elsa: I'm sorry you are having such a tough time. I know how if feels to be lost, hopeless and stuck. No need to apologize for negativity...you need somewhere you can get it out. It sounds like a wise move to see your therapist to get her take on things since you can't talk to anybody else about it. I hope you start feeling better soon.