[Daonnachd]

I'm not jumping up and down for joy, but neither am I dragging myself through depression. It's just an average day, slightly hotter than normal.

All the best to everyone here, posting or just reading.

[hopeless2015]

Home today, yesterday my mind was all over the place and anxiety was high, this morning my brain was telling me what a worthless piece of **** I am, maybe tomorrow will be better. Hugs everyone

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Home today, yesterday my mind was all over the place and anxiety was high, this morning my brain was telling me what a worthless piece of **** I am, maybe tomorrow will be better. Hugs everyone

(((((( Hopeless ))))))

You, my dear, are very worthy!


WC

[hopeless2015]

Thank you wc!! I made myself shower and come to work for a half day, I'll just do the best I can considering my mental state right now

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Thank you wc!! I made myself shower and come to work for a half day, I'll just do the best I can considering my mental state right now

Good for you! Well done.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Thank you wc!! I made myself shower and come to work for a half day, I'll just do the best I can considering my mental state right now

That's great! I only washed my hair last night (no shower) and I am supposedly stable right now. That's great that you went to work, too. Congrats!

[Sunflower123]

Having a bad day. I would be feeling ok if I could get myself to be productive but I feel totally unmotivated and glued to this recliner. I've just gotten so behind I am vastly overwhelmed. It's really driving my anxiety and depression for the main part. I have a good family friend whose daughter (who was also a family friend) died at the hands of her husband. To stave off the unremitting depression, my friend stays whirlwind busy with projects and other things. Why can't I react like that (busy instead of paralyzed)?

Whenever my daughter even goes to the store now, I feel separation anxiety. I know it's just ridiculous. I am working on it in therapy though! There is hope.

Hope everyone is doing ok and hugs for those that are struggling.

[liveforsummer]

Sitting in pdoc waiting for first meeting and I want to scream. Receptionist just informed he's not accepting new patients but they can sign me up for a 12 week mindfulness clinic. What the ****! I'm so upset. Been waiting for this for months. Sigh.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Sitting in pdoc waiting for first meeting and I want to scream. Receptionist just informed he's not accepting new patients but they can sign me up for a 12 week mindfulness clinic. What the ****! I'm so upset. Been waiting for this for months. Sigh.

I'd be wanting to scream as well. That's not right making an appointment for you months ago and saying on the day of "oh sorry. He's not taking new patients". Can they at least help you get into another pdoc more quickly. I can't believe this happened to you. I hope you get in to see another pdoc soon. Best wishes.

I have become Cookie Monster; Bert is in the near distance. We are one error over Syria from war with Russia. Qatar is selling petroleum to China in yuan. Yellowstone is gonna blow. My pdoc prescribes me benzodiazepines as if they were pez.

[Moose72]

Thanks, Lefty. Great way to keep the waters calm around here.

[liveforsummer]

I'm Elmo and Oscar rolled into one right now! That was hilarious, made me laugh in an otherwise cramp day. I'll give the pdoc update later. Gotta race back to work now ugh...

[hopeless2015]

30 more minutes and I can get out of here. Only working a half day but I can't stand to be here. I don't want to be anywhere right now. My brain is jumping from this to that and the other and I feel like I want to jump out of my own skin.....ugggg

[scatterbrained04]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Sitting in pdoc waiting for first meeting and I want to scream. Receptionist just informed he's not accepting new patients but they can sign me up for a 12 week mindfulness clinic. What the ****! I'm so upset. Been waiting for this for months. Sigh.

You've got to be kidding me. I'm sorry that happened to you.

I was feeling very drained until Lefty mentioned we're one error away from war with russia. Thanks for the energy boost.

Originally Posted by Moose72

Thanks, Lefty. Great way to keep the waters calm around here.

Were we guaranteed calm? It has been my impression that once in a while we get to express more than whether NX where 0 < X < 4 is going to get into Interlochen.

[Naynay99]

So in other words- I am pretty much the same as always...
Doing okay, counting down- there are only 2 days left of the school year!!!
Excited but wish I had grand summer plans or something. Ah well.
Sending u all good thoughts.

[scatterbrained04]

I've been doing ok the last couple of days mood wise. Have been having difficulty getting to sleep though, so I've been tired. Got annoyed today at how upset people can get over petty s***. I have so much bigger issues to deal with all the time that I don't understand it at all. I only get like that when I'm in an episode. People never cease to amaze me.

In other news, I just made dinner plans for Friday with an old friend I haven't seen in close to 20 years. Since I have no friends and have social anxiety, this is HUGE for me.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by unreality

I was feeling very drained until Lefty mentioned we're one error away from war with russia. Thanks for the energy boost.

Unreality,
Is that a person hanging in your avatar?

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Sitting in pdoc waiting for first meeting and I want to scream. Receptionist just informed he's not accepting new patients but they can sign me up for a 12 week mindfulness clinic. What the ****! I'm so upset. Been waiting for this for months. Sigh.

Tell us you're joking -

How could he think that was a mindful thing to do?




WC

[liveforsummer]

Well I didn't even qualify for pdoc's mindful clinic as it's meditation based and he said I'm way too fidgety. Agrees with my fam doc DX of bipolar, recommends therapy (no kidding) and can refer me to psychologist because in Ontario it's next to impossible to get into a psychiatrist. That's fine but now I have to find one to go to. I asked about my meds, if I should stay on what was Rx by fam doc and he said he would leave it at my discretion (really!!?!?!?) And gee that's worked so well for me so far.

thanks everyone on PC/BP for your support I'd be lost without you today!

Sorry about the rant. Day ok otherwise.

[Wild Coyote]

Trying to find the joy in interests. Interests aren't as interesting right now.
Small hike in the woods today. Enjoyed the setting. The sudden downpour was a surprise!

Love to All!

WC

[Sunflower123]

Feeling ok now. Still glued to the recliner but made a plan starting tomorrow to address my overdo projects, cleaning and errands. I feel motivated about that. Fingers crossed.

Hope everyone is ok and giving out hugs to those that are struggling.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Trying to find the joy in interests. Interests aren't as interesting right now.
Small hike in the woods today. Enjoyed the setting. The sudden downpour was a surprise!

Love to All!

WC

That's great you got a walk in beautiful surroundings before the rain hit. Hope you didn't get soaked. Best wishes.

[xRavenx]

I had a job interview today. It is for my same company: a lateral move, for most part, but I asked for a raise, since I haven't had one in 4 years. The interviewer was very nice and said he will fight hard for me to get a raise, but he must go above to the next person. If not, I told him I would still like to move positions. To be honest, I need a change, and it's just the right time. Usually, I'm bad with changes, but in this case, it's needed, or I'm heading down the road of getting burnt out. The job gives a lot of time off, and I think that's how I've remained fairly functional at work, so I can make use of mental health days.