[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by cogladaid

I haven’t been officially diagnosed (waiting to see a psychiatrist) but my GP figures I have some form of bipolar. Either bipolar with psychotic features or schizoaffective bipolar type. Currently just has me down as ‘mood disorder NYD w/ psychotic features’.

I’m on Latuda twice a day which is helping but I feel all over the place sometimes. I forget to take my meds sometimes which leads to some hypomania creeping in.

I bought some stuff online yesterday when feeling good. Before I took my meds for the night. I feel good so far this morning after some sleep though. Hoping for a good balanced day!

Welcome to the Bipolar forum and to the Bipolar check-in thread.

I hope you find answers soon.
In the meantime, I hope your meds help you.

WC

Last night I walked through Waikiki with a shirt that read "ASK ME ABOUT MY MENTAL ILLNESS" and nobody did.

[Guiness187055]

My wife made homemade biscuits and gravy this morning. Now I have the worlds worst heartburn. That is all.

[hopeless2015]

Been in bed all day, it's almost 2. I'm supposed to go back to work tomorrow and I don't feel like I can. I'm still depressed. I don't think the dr in the hospital took me very seriously

[scatterbrained04]

Found my son's bedroom floor, the living room floor, and the top of my table today. Hoping I can keep it all clean this week so I can work in my room next weekend because it is BAD. I need to do a giant purge of my house. Can't stand mess and clutter, but you'd never tell it by how my house looks. At any rate, still have grocery shopping and laundry to do. Calling it a day on the cleaning.

[Faltering]

I feel very nauseated from the Vraylar. Forcing myself to eat. Mentally I'm okay except for work stress.

[99fairies]

I'm still in a lot of pain. I can barely move, so my dear hubby is taking care of the kids, cooking, cleaning ect. all while I'm just laying there. I feel so useless.

I am so ****ing hungry.

my meal was ****

so tomorrow, I am ordering myself a takeout

first one in like.... a while

so i'm not exactly going to punnish myself for it

mood is a little better this evening

[liveforsummer]

Been bizarre week. Too many tears and most of the time for no particular reason, paranoia, fear, insomnia, SI, SH, came close to a trip to the ER and sat with my phone in my hand one night 3am debating on texting crisis line but chickened out, paranoid they'd send someone to my house and all interspersed with normalcy. No hypo (could do with a bit right about now). To top it all off the psych nurse I met end Aug was supposed to do referral to pdoc and supposed to be seen by end of Sept, I called last week spoke to reception they said they had not been given any such referral. Grrr. Called nurse, left msg and sent email and 3 days later reception called and said they had the referral. Appt in Oct. This has been a long wait since Feb or mar or whenever, I'm losing track.
Hugs all

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Been bizarre week. Too many tears and most of the time for no particular reason, paranoia, fear, insomnia, SI, SH, came close to a trip to the ER and sat with my phone in my hand one night 3am debating on texting crisis line but chickened out, paranoid they'd send someone to my house and all interspersed with normalcy. No hypo (could do with a bit right about now). To top it all off the psych nurse I met end Aug was supposed to do referral to pdoc and supposed to be seen by end of Sept, I called last week spoke to reception they said they had not been given any such referral. Grrr. Called nurse, left msg and sent email and 3 days later reception called and said they had the referral. Appt in Oct. This has been a long wait since Feb or mar or whenever, I'm losing track.
Hugs all

It's been a very long wait!
I hope you feel better soon.

(((((( liveforsummer ))))))

Thinking of you.

WC

[Tucson]

I left my prescription in a shopping cart. When I went back it was not there. I checked with customer service of the grocery store to look for a return, and also checked the pharmacy there. No such luck. I will need to file a police report before I can have my provider perform an override on my insurance with them. Otherwise I am doing OK. Oh yes, I am losing weight at one pound a day when I do not want to lose any. I am going to increase my caloric intake.However, I cannot afford more food. So we shall see what I end up doing.

[wonderluster]

Originally Posted by Tucson

I left my prescription in a shopping cart. When I went back it was not there. I checked with customer service of the grocery store to look for a return, and also checked the pharmacy there. No such luck. I will need to file a police report before I can have my provider perform an override on my insurance with them. Otherwise I am doing OK. Oh yes, I am losing weight at one pound a day when I do not want to lose any. I am going to increase my caloric intake.However, I cannot afford more food. So we shall see what I end up doing.

There are food banks/pantries all over the place in the USA.
You really should look into them. Some are better than others.

I suggest eating lots of natural peanut butter and all kinds of nuts.
Sunflower seeds are good too.

Always try to eat natural. It is good for your body and mind.

Best Wishes!

[wonderluster]

It is 6:30 am so now I will go to sleep.

I live in a noisy city in India, though I am across the street from the biggest park here. I enjoy staying up all night when it is quiet. It is good for my sanity.

There is a big tree off my balcony and sometimes monkeys come over.
I cannot leave shoes outside as is the custom here because the monkeys steal them.

When I get up I will visit the only elephant in the city.

I guess I am ok if I am talking about monkeys and elephants.

Goodnight and have a pleasant tomorrow, everybody

[cogladaid]

I took more medication than prescribed. Don’t know why just felt impulsively like it was a good idea. It just made me tired. I didn’t take a whole lot. Still within the guidelines - it wasn’t an overdose don’t worry.

[jmariah001]

I think it's time to see my doctor. Regular gp. I have been having problems with my hands for a over a month now. Swelling in my fingers, joint pain and morning pain. I think I might do a walk in tomorrow morning to my doctor's office. Otherwise I will have to wait at least two weeks to see my regular doctor. She only works part-time. The pain is getting worse. I can't even bend my fingers without a lot of pain especially when I first get up. They hurt right now. I don't want to have to take anymore meds, but it's whatever.

[cogladaid]

I’ll be honest half of me wants to take my meds, exercise, eat healthy, sleep soundly, practice self care, and work on mindfulness.

Other half wants to go off my meds, drink, be loud, not sleep, consume way too much caffeine, spend too much money, and stop eating.

[fishin fool]

I did really well with the move but now that we are in and putting things away
hanging pictures and such my mind is racing and I am feeling out of sorts.
I can't seem to get it together. I guess the move finally caught up to me.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

Still IP and definitely will be for at least a few more days. I put up a good fight and managed a ride in a police car and several days without any priveledges after doing a 5hr sit in at the main door in the ward. Many people went without cigarettes lol. I am definitely at least somewhat more calm so I guess that is good and I'm still VERY happy! Yay! Also got a diagnosis today, Bipolar it is though not sure what type. Only have a little time outside/with phone still but I cant wait to come back and participate more again! I miss your support and think about you guys a lot, thanks for all your help! (still not happy to be locked up but fairly happy to be alive haha)

[Tucson]

Originally Posted by wonderluster

There are food banks/pantries all over the place in the USA.
You really should look into them. Some are better than others.

I suggest eating lots of natural peanut butter and all kinds of nuts.
Sunflower seeds are good too.

Always try to eat natural. It is good for your body and mind.

Best Wishes!

Thanks for your post. I am restricted as to where I can drive. In a few weeks that will change. I need to find a source of information on where the food banks are located. I am goung through a difficult time in my life right now. Yes, I do eat natural peanut butter. Sometimes I make it myself.

[wonderluster]

Originally Posted by Tucson

Thanks for your post. I am restricted as to where I can drive. In a few weeks that will change. I need to find a source of information on where the food banks are located. I am goung through a difficult time in my life right now. Yes, I do eat natural peanut butter. Sometimes I make it myself.

There are 68 food pantries in the Tucson area.

Click below


68 Food Pantries In The Tucson, AZ Area | Suntopia.org

yesterday I watched the wizard of oz.

such a timeless movie... I love it

food was **** though, did not enjoy my dinner at all.

I also got really triggered last night by a post on here, and I had the thoughts all night.. it was horrible- it's bad enough having sleeping problems without thinking about suicide.

mother was on the phone to me at half 8 this morning hurling her usual abuse at me, and that made me feel even lower

I have very bad thoughts today, very very bad- but I know their are things I need to get done

-order an emergency grocery order to arive tomorrow (because of the simple fact when I ordered wednesday, it was all junk food) andi 'd neglected to order some much needed essentials

transfer some money for my hair appointment on thursday

and order my takeaway

get something yummy inside me- rather than my **** cooking

[winter loneliness]

Ok. Feel a little manicky and may have some auditory stuff going on. May take some PNs for a few days.

[Wander]

First day at home after 10 weeks away, 8 IP and 2 at my parents. Felt great for the first few hours then I grew lonely. It will be an adjustment living alone. Actually smoked pot and drank 2 beers. Felt good but I think it has now made me feel worse. Still, I am ok. Therapy tomorrow and a week of studying until work Friday. Wish the rain would go away and bring spring so I can go for swims and walk along the beach. It is just too cold and windy right now.

[CloserToTheMid]

Was level for most of the year, but my doctor took me off my wonder drug saphris and put me on vraylar. Saphris was sedating me too much. New drug hasn't kicked in. I'm uncomfortably hypomanic. Just trying not to make a fool of myself until it starts working.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by CloserToTheMid

Was level for most of the year, but my doctor took me off my wonder drug saphris and put me on vraylar. Saphris was sedating me too much. New drug hasn't kicked in. I'm uncomfortably hypomanic. Just trying not to make a fool of myself until it starts working.

I hope that works out well for you!
bizi