[scatterbrained04]

Originally Posted by bizi

Perhaps you could write a living will for health care. I forget what it is called already. There is a thread for that not too long ago.
bizi

Yes, I found that thread very informative. But does it only take effect during hospitalization? Part of what I'm thinking about is when it would be appropriate to be hospitalized, even if it's against my will. Like if I'm in a mixed episode and look like I crawled out of a war zone.

[WildcatVet]

Feeling cheerful today. Dropped hubby's lunch all over the kitchen floor, cursed, then laughed about it. Normally, I'd be so overwhelmed with guilt and so ashamed I wouldn't even be able to cry. Don't care for feeling too numb to feel ANYTHING.

[wildflowerchild25]

I have to figure out what's going on at the pharmacy. They said one of my meds was out of stock but didn't say which one. And, it seems insurance is not covering the emsam anymore, which makes no sense to me. They covered it with no problem for a whole year. So why all of a sudden are they saying no? I'm hoping my pharmacy will have answers. I lost my prescription insurance cards so I'll have to go online to find a number to call if the pharmacy doesn't know. I'm gearing up for a fight. Emsam is the ONLY AD that has ever helped me. I cannot go off of it.

[Guiness187055]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I have to figure out what's going on at the pharmacy. They said one of my meds was out of stock but didn't say which one. And, it seems insurance is not covering the emsam anymore, which makes no sense to me. They covered it with no problem for a whole year. So why all of a sudden are they saying no? I'm hoping my pharmacy will have answers. I lost my prescription insurance cards so I'll have to go online to find a number to call if the pharmacy doesn't know. I'm gearing up for a fight. Emsam is the ONLY AD that has ever helped me. I cannot go off of it.

I am sure it will all work out. I was in a fight with my insurance company last week. I had to get my doctor to fax them a letter. In the end it all worked out.

I just caught up with last week's episode of casualty

was good.. I like watching that show..

now I can't decide what to eat for dinner

chicken and chips

fish and chips

sausages and chips

just a plate of chips

[liveforsummer]

Getting stressed anxious. Heading out to family function in a min and feeling this way, I'm afraid I get too chatty and say stupid things and I'm so paranoid about the safety of some of those travelling to the event I know I'll barely be able to contain my tears if theyre not there when we arrive and I have to anticipate their arrival. I just had to get this out. I'm sitting on the edge of my bed fidgeting like crazy and holding back tears and I just had to come here. Gotta run.

Btw chips for supper

[xRavenx]

This morning while driving, I became really tense and was trying to hold back the tears again. I don't know why I'm triggered when I drive lately. Now, I'm feeling a little bit better, because I am just in my room and plan to not do too much for the rest of the day. It's been a long week.

I hope everyone has a relaxing weekend.

[Wild Coyote]

Resting today. Had very busy days both Thursday and Friday. Good days.

Feeling a bit overwhelmed with number of challenges.
Life definitely looks more difficult when overly tired.

I hope everyone is finding something joyful in their day today.
I am enjoying watching the birds visiting the bird bath. Fascinating!


WC

[Tucson]

Sitting on my ***** doing nothing. I am thinking of picking up a pack of hotdogs. Maybe instead I will walk over to the gas station for a hotdog. Decisions, decisions.

Update:.I just found out that I misplaced a refill of my lamotragine. I looked all over. I called the pharmacy to see if anyone had handed it in due to perhaps me leaving it in my shopping cart. The pharmacist told me it was never filled. Huh??? So they are getting my refill ready. I sometimes think I am losing my mind.

[Guiness187055]

Went out to lunch with the wife and then went grocery shopping. While shopping she kept trying to diagnose my mood. Now I am in the middle of a zyprexa taper and building up abilify. So I am not a happy camper to begin with. I have been taking xanax to make the transition easier. After about 20 minutes of her needling me I finally said. "Look I have very little anti psychotic in me don't push me" She stopped needling me. When we got to the house she said I had a homicidal look in my eye when I told her what I told her. She said she has never been that afraid of someone before. She promised to stop pushing me until my meds are right. I have to watch for the aggression side effect of abilify. It only came out after poking me over and over. When I was on zyprexa I just wouldn't care. Hope everyone is having a better day then me.

[Daonnachd]

ECT went fine yesterday, except that my mother-in-law likes to use the drive time to lecture me about health. Fortunately, after the treatment I was sleeping for the drive home.

When home, about 3:00 in the afternoon, I went to bed and slept through until 8:00 this morning. It's been a long time since I've slept that solidly from the anesthesia.

Today is going well.

[gina_re]

I'm overwhelmed with everything. My life is an absolute mess right now. I want to drink a bottle of wine with my night meds. I can't stand being awake right now. I wish i had the courage to go through with it. I just had to get this out to someone who may get this feeling.

[bizi]

I am sorry you are hurting so much. this will pass.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[wildflowerchild25]

My brother texted me to say he is going to walk in the AFSP out of the darkness cummunity walk with me. He found out yesterday one of his dear friends from high school committed suicide. He said he was sorry he didn't sign up sooner and that he should have supported me from the beginning. But I'm just glad he's walking with me now. We've been through hell together and separately and we've come out strong. I'm so happy he's going to show me support.

I'm going to the pharmacy tomorrow to try to find out wtf is going on with my meds.

[bizi]

I finally got all of my billing done!
now to file....
bizi

[wildflowerchild25]

I seriously just vomited all over myself because of this cough. I think I have whooping cough. If I'm right, I can expect to enjoy six more weeks of this. Awesome.

[bizi]

I am sorry wild flower.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

happy that I have my filing done too.
yeah.

[wildflowerchild25]

It is 2:30am and I am wide ****ing awake. Not tired at all. But I'm bored so I want to sleep.

I think I need to back off my AD. I was up until 1am Thursday night too. Then Friday night I fell asleep early and slept all the way through until 8:30 this morning. However, I have been feeling the inklings of hypomania. Confidence in myself. Productivity. An inner restlessness and boredom. The urge to talk to people. Playing my music loud, driving faster.

So yes, I must back off emsam. Go back to taking it every other day, I guess.

I need to find a new pdoc because mine is leaving. I'm going to call on Monday.

got a call from the hairdresser today.

deffenetly planning to turn up thursday which is good

she even said she couldn't wait to meet me.

(couldn't wait to meet me?. I think she has the wrong number or something)

anyway, I am now listening to the churchbells

they ring outside my house on sunday morning, and they sound so uplifting

mood is 1 of dull depression, like i'm depressed, but not depressed enough to actually really notice.

I am going to have my roast dinner later, i'm planning on just some roast chicken and yorkshire puddings

[Wander]

Just finished my second day at work (I only work two days a week). It was mad I tell you ... mad. So busy and stressful but I made it through ok with the help of Clonazepam. This is my first step in returning to 'normal' life after 8 weeks IP. I feel more confident now I have ticked off 2 days at work. Now I have the task of juggling work and study, along with trying to maintain self care like exercise, mediation, good diet and socialising where possible. My energy levels are improving but I am still sleeping 10 hours a night.

My mood has stabilised and the agitation has decreased but i am still anxious. Feeling overwhelmed too. Pretty normal while adjusting I guess. This week, until work on Friday, I have time to study, catch up with a friend, sleep and see my T. I am also moving back home after 12 days at my parents after discharge. I am excited but also wary of being alone. Guess I will just have to take it day by day.

[WildcatVet]

Yesterday I felt the first flickers of irritability. Woke up today ready to punch a wall. Hypo ain't always what it's cracked up to be.

[scatterbrained04]

Originally Posted by WildcatVet

Yesterday I felt the first flickers of irritability. Woke up today ready to punch a wall. Hypo ain't always what it's cracked up to be.

I'm sorry...I get that too...it's not fun. I have a couple holes in my walls where I've thrown things to prove it

[bizi]

wander, I am glad that you are stable. Working back in the pieces of life slowly is good.
Do you have a cat? They can be very comforting and great company.
((((hugs)))))
bizi

[scatterbrained04]

Had a good day with my mom helping her pack and purge yesterday. Ended up coming home with a few things.

Woke up feeling in a pretty good place mentally today. Have to tackle some chores and grocery shopping. Typical Sunday routine. Plan today is to not fly off the handle at my son for how messy he made my house. That part is hard for me.

[cogladaid]

I haven’t been officially diagnosed (waiting to see a psychiatrist) but my GP figures I have some form of bipolar. Either bipolar with psychotic features or schizoaffective bipolar type. Currently just has me down as ‘mood disorder NYD w/ psychotic features’.

I’m on Latuda twice a day which is helping but I feel all over the place sometimes. I forget to take my meds sometimes which leads to some hypomania creeping in.

I bought some stuff online yesterday when feeling good. Before I took my meds for the night. I feel good so far this morning after some sleep though. Hoping for a good balanced day!