[Moreta]

I can't take these health issues anymore. Now I got a bum eye. Yesterday morning it started getting blurry then I got a migraine about an hour later. The migraine went away, but the damn eye is still blurry. I'm going to the eye dr this morning at 9 to see what's up with it so hopefully he'll have an answer.

On the 12th I get to get allergy testing done to see wtf I'm allergic to. I'm sick of having to take 3 allergy meds and they don't always work all the time.

On the 18th I have to have nerve testing done on my arms cause they hurt so much. They're trying to determine if the herniated disc in my neck is causing the pain or something else cause god damn my lower arms and hands hurt most of the time.

I swear between all these damn appts and therapy I have too much **** to do. My therapist has deemed it necessary for weekly therapy for some reason when I just sit there and stare at my shoes for a good part of the time. (it takes me a while to trust therapists).

I'm glad I don't work cause trying to be a functioning human is a full time job for me. Anyone else feel this way?

Tbh I feel a bit down because my body won't work and I can't do ****. I try to cook dinner but even then some nights I just can't. I'm not sure what else to do at this point. I don't want to give up but it's getting there.

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you are struggling. I have a few physical health issues with lots of doctors appointments and poking and prodding and sometimes it really gets to me...being sick a good part of the time. Just wanted you to know you're not alone. Sending big hugs.

Sorry to hear about the eye. I hope it's nothing serious

I just finished my 2nd round of allergy testing. Literally, I finished yesterday morning. I learned that sometimes "allergies" are not always allergies, but sometimes sensitivities or GI problems instead. That could explain why sometimes allergy meds don't work for you. And then there's non-allergic rhinitis (I hope I'm spelling that right), which I have in addition to penicillin and DayQuil allergies. Try reading more about those things before your appt so you're well educated and don't get f_cked over

Hopefully the neck thing gets sorted out because that sounds OUCH.

Why do you think you don't trust therapists? Is it fear of judgment? Could you tell your therapist why you don't trust them? I know that sounds weird, but it could help get things rolling. Good luck!

[Shazerac]

Hi Moreta. Like you I am grateful to not have to work anymore (retired) I have a herniated disk in my neck and it does cause arm pain and tingling in my hand. There are a lot of options for treatment that don't involve major surgery. Physical therapy helps a lot too. Pain can cause the muscles to tense up and make things worse.

As for the eye issues. Migraines can cause your eyes do weird things. I get a wierd double vision, not side to side, but top to bottom. I see an image on top of the same image.

I don't know if you are on any psych meds. But if you are, please try to discuss your medical issues with your Pdoc. They usually don't go into all the side effects with us because they think we will hear about the and then "imagine" that we have side effects.

Some ADs an APs can cause vision problems. Best of luck to you on your journey to wellness.

[still_crazy]

so sorry about your pain and physical problems. it can be...rough, especially when one's whole life is in the hands of "experts." not fun, not fun at all.

i do hope things get better. do you think maybe you'd do better with a different therapist?

[Wild Coyote]

I love your avatar. It looks like a Celtic Dragon to me. Is that correct?

I am very sorry you are suffering.
It's incredibly challenging to deal with multiple medical issues, in addition to any type of MI.

I am in a similar position. I have to take things an hour, or a day, at a time.

I am glad you are reaching out for support. I hope we all offer something helpful to you. please let us know how you are doing?


WC

[Moreta]

Huzzah my eye is fine. No eye herpes which is what I was worried about. Nothing looked abnormal and the pressure was fine. Still don't need to get glasses.

Jennifer 1967 - I'm so sick of the drs and all the tests. blah. maybe one day I'll be healthy.

bluebicycle - would the GI allergies make my nose run? Some days it never stops. I'm also itchy most of the time. As for therapists, idk sometimes something feels off at first and I HATE going over my whole life story every time. This time I made it clear I just wanted to learn DBT so that's what we've been working on so he does most of the talking. It's funny though, I'll be staring at my shoes and he'll ask me what i'm thinking about and I'll say nothing cause i'm literally thinking about nothing. lol I mean I have no reason not to trust him. the t goes to my church so i know at least some of our ideas about life are the same. I go to a unitarian universalist church.

Shezerac - I'm on 8 psych meds, who knows which one is doing what haha. I've been on most of them since 2010/2011 so i think it'd be weird to just get side effects now. But who knows.

still_crazy- i don't think i need a new therapist, just need to get used to this one. It's been years since I had a male therapist. Not saying that male therapists are bad but they have a different way of going about things. Maybe too straightforward? idk.

Wild Coyote- idk if it's a celtic dragon. I just went searching for a gold dragon cause it's what Moreta rode in the book "Moreta: Dragonlady of Pern" by anne mccaffery. I find listening to classic rock helps my brain for some weird reason and makes life not feel so ******. Helps me get through the day most of the time. But yeah the whole hour by hour thing, totally there sometimes.

Now onto chilling until t appt tomorrow. I already emailed him what i want to talk about cause i'll forget. Always nice to have swiss cheese memory from meds

Originally Posted by Moreta

bluebicycle - would the GI allergies make my nose run? Some days it never stops. I'm also itchy most of the time. As for therapists, idk sometimes something feels off at first and I HATE going over my whole life story every time. This time I made it clear I just wanted to learn DBT so that's what we've been working on so he does most of the talking. It's funny though, I'll be staring at my shoes and he'll ask me what i'm thinking about and I'll say nothing cause i'm literally thinking about nothing. lol I mean I have no reason not to trust him. the t goes to my church so i know at least some of our ideas about life are the same. I go to a unitarian universalist church.

Yes, GI issues can make your nose run. If you have gastric reflux coming up your throat, it can get all the way up into your nose and cause your nose to secrete more fluid because it's irritated and wants to protect itself. It can cause itchiness as well from the irritation, leading to sneezing etc..

It's one of those weird things that my allergist told me! So I'm supposed to see a GI doctor later in September. I think September 24th or something, so it's a while from now.

Does your life story trigger you?

[Moreta]

I'm already on heartburn meds. sometimes they work sometimes they don't. When my nose runs it's not when i'm having reflux though. Good luck at the GI dr. I see mine the 27th.

My life story doesn't trigger me that much, it's just this is my 10th therapist. it gets old. lol.

[UpDownAround]

I think my health is bipolar. In the spring I was using a cane. This morning I put my socks on stork style without hopping around, falling over or steadying myself against anything; just freestanding. I have spinal stenosis and 2 herniated discs in the lumbar region. Somedays I get the nerve pains all over the place and low back pain that is just about debilitating. Other days it is like they got my MRI confused with somebody else's and there are just a couple of minor aches.