I’m having a hard time getting off the couch.im anxious. Work pressure of how to handle something this week is eating at me. I feel like I can’t get started today, so I came here to say I will. I am. I am going to get off this couch now.

I’ll do laundry, rake leaves, and pick up a few things, then I’ll log on and work.

[Guiness187055]

Ran errands with the wife. Then walked around the flea market for a bit and went and grabbed lunch. The rest of my day is feeling like it is going to be very unproductive.

[hopeless2015]

Got up, moved to couch. Ate lunch, went back to bed for 2 hours. Working on doing some cleaning, now back on couch. I'll finish cleaning that bathroom before the day is over though lol, doing this in bits and pieces

[Trua]

Overall, depressed and anxious, but 1/2 of a lorazepam pill every 3 hrs helped but only a little. Worst time is in the morning...lack of energy, feeling paralyzed, but got up and actually took a shower.

Tried to resist but laid back down on the couch (my bed). Didn't have to work today. Wasn't easy but pushed myself to get up around 8am and started to cook some breakfast - the only motivator to eat halfway right, is to cook for my roommate and I.

Had to take some meditation / calming breaks every so often so took awhile to finish cooking, but I didn't burn anything, lol. Played some card games with roommate and then went online and found this forum community and joined today, yay :-)

Doing a little better right now as I type this since it's a distraction and keeps away the ruminating thoughts. Started some dinner but not sure if my roommate is going to show for it so not too motivated.

[Fairy102]

Hi
New here. Having a tough day/week/month. I just got diagnosed (for the second time. But long story) and just started on seroquel. The last few weeks I’ve been so down in the dumps. Irritable and anxious. My moods are still so out of whack. I finally got the nerve to email my doctor. But what could possibly be the next step? Adding more medication? I already feel so negative toward the 100mg I take at night and the 25mg I take in the morning. I can’t seem to find a therapist to even call me back about setting up an appt. I need a therapist very badly.
Thanks for reading.
Quote of my life “I’m trying my hardest not to act how I feel.”

I’m having a hard time trying to work. I’m just messing around on this site and fb all night.

[Naynay99]

I suppose I am doing okay. Went away this weekend w y friend and enjoyed myself. Went wine tasting at a winery- got a nice buzz. Then went on a Halloween haunted ride later that evening which was a lot of fun.
Sightseed a bit this morning, thdn we headed home. I watched a scary movie and wOrked a little on my Halloween costume. I have to do lesson plans before I go to bed. Sort of dreading having to work tomorrow-I wish I could sleep instead.

Idk how I am. My best friend keeps telling me that I am doing okay. That I'm functioning well and all. But then again she hasn't seen the mess that is currently my house or the fuucked up stuff I sometimes think about. Maybe I really am fine. Or maybe Im a walking timebomb. I really couldn't say. I just know sometimes things are great and other times even just breathing in and out seems like an insurmountable chore.

I am gonna strart using my light box this week. Is it wrong that I secretly hope it elevates my mood a bit more than necessary? Anyway I have a lot of stuff going on in November so I need to get my shiit together and at least pretend to be a functioning member of Society.

Sorry if This is all over the place. I just want to cope better than I seem to be doing ltely. anyway have a good week everyone. Hugs.

[Tucson]

I am eating and eating in an attempt to stop losing weight. I think there is a problem here. I really need to scrub that bathroom of mine. It is getting pretty bad. I have been thinking of doing this for a week now. Tomorrow will be a busy day for me. I have a couple appointments for tomorrow, and I will have to clean up that bathroom. I have been spending more money than usual on small but what I think are necessary items. However, this has ended up with less money in the bank. I canmot afford to let this happen. My teeth are not hurting much. I will have to see what the dentist says about this. Otherwise, everything is OK.

[glennk]

Originally Posted by Tucson

I am eating and eating in an attempt to stop losing weight. I think there is a problem here. I really need to scrub that bathroom of mine. It is getting pretty bad. I have been thinking of doing this for a week now. Tomorrow will be a busy day for me. I have a couple appointments for tomorrow, and I will have to clean up that bathroom. I have been spending more money than usual on small but what I think are necessary items. However, this has ended up with less money in the bank. I canmot afford to let this happen. My teeth are not hurting much. I will have to see what the dentist says about this. Otherwise, everything is OK.

Are you feeling hypomanic? Have you spoken to your Pdoc?

[wildflowerchild25]

Still can’t ****ing sleep.

[jacky8807]

Came down from hypo with the usual fall of grace symptoms. Hope everyone is well

[winter loneliness]

Cant sleep. Sleeping pill and pot and a walk. Going up

[Moose72]

I'm depressed over problems and extra happy over things. I've had a mixed before but that was more of an irritable mixed. Maybe this is anxiety/hypomanic?

[liveforsummer]

All I want right now is a solid week of stable mood and some decent sleep!!!
Hugs to everyone of us that is struggling and having a hard time getting a decent nights sleep!

[bpforever1]

The weather is depressing. I am depressed. I don't want to do anything. I taught a class today but barely woke up in time to do it. I woke up in the afternoon. I have not done any chores either. I have another person to teach tomorrow. I am drained for some reason. Today the weather was cold but clear. After a few days of rain and wind, today was clear. May be this is the reason I felt a little better. Typhoons keep coming here. Each weekend a typhoon has come and wreaked damage everywhere. I felt depressed until tonight. After going to class, I feel a little motivated now. I have so much to do!! Argh!! I'll take it one day at a time. This is the best I can do for now.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Trua

Overall, depressed and anxious, but 1/2 of a lorazepam pill every 3 hrs helped but only a little. Worst time is in the morning...lack of energy, feeling paralyzed, but got up and actually took a shower.

Tried to resist but laid back down on the couch (my bed). Didn't have to work today. Wasn't easy but pushed myself to get up around 8am and started to cook some breakfast - the only motivator to eat halfway right, is to cook for my roommate and I.

Had to take some meditation / calming breaks every so often so took awhile to finish cooking, but I didn't burn anything, lol. Played some card games with roommate and then went online and found this forum community and joined today, yay :-)

Doing a little better right now as I type this since it's a distraction and keeps away the ruminating thoughts. Started some dinner but not sure if my roommate is going to show for it so not too motivated.

WELCOME!

I hope you find the support you may be seeking here. Please make yourself at home.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Fairy102

Hi
New here. Having a tough day/week/month. I just got diagnosed (for the second time. But long story) and just started on seroquel. The last few weeks I’ve been so down in the dumps. Irritable and anxious. My moods are still so out of whack. I finally got the nerve to email my doctor. But what could possibly be the next step? Adding more medication? I already feel so negative toward the 100mg I take at night and the 25mg I take in the morning. I can’t seem to find a therapist to even call me back about setting up an appt. I need a therapist very badly.
Thanks for reading.
Quote of my life “I’m trying my hardest not to act how I feel.”

WELCOME!
I hope you find the support you may be seeking here. Please make yourself at home.


WC

[Sunflower123]

Had a nice visit with my daughter. Looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays.

As I’ve mentioned, I’ve had two equally bad problems related to my depression. One was the actual depression and the other was the “depressive lifestyle” I adopted with it. The depression is under control. The other is not. I’ve decided to address this vigorously over the next month starting with turning off the tv.

I was invited to a Halloween party tomorrow night and my first thought was no, I’d rather stay home in my recliner and watch politics. Under my new doctrine I said NO, you’re going to that party....no excuses and even if it kills you. Wish me luck.

Sending hugs to all who are struggling.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Had a nice visit with my daughter. Looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays.

As I’ve mentioned, I’ve had two equally bad problems related to my depression. One was the actual depression and the other was the “depressive lifestyle” I adopted with it. The depression is under control. The other is not. I’ve decided to address this vigorously over the next month starting with turning off the tv.

I was invited to a Halloween party tomorrow night and my first thought was no, I’d rather stay home in my recliner and watch politics. Under my new doctrine I said NO, you’re going to that party....no excuses and even if it kills you. Wish me luck.

Sending hugs to all who are struggling.

Congrats! Great insight! I hope you enjoy the party!

WC

[bizi]

I had my first PT appointment. I was there 1.75 hours.
She said she thought I had bursitis of both hips. She could be right.
She had a message therapist come in and message me which felt good. then an ultrasounic device to administer lidocane and a methodine of some sort, an anti inflammatory medication. This is going to cost a fortune. I asked for an itemized list of each modality to see if I can afford therapy. They said they would call me.
Tdoc today went ok....no really in the mood.
So again, need to think about my posture.
And need better glasses
Better run I have a one oclock. She may not be home yet from a cat scan.
bizi

[99fairies]

I've been doing much better. Thoughts are back under control. Back isn't hurting as bad. so all around good news!

[bizi]

This is what I wrote my PCP:
Thank you for your quick response to my request. I had the xrays done on my hips and knees, neck and lower back.
The first 3 areas showed signs of arthritis.
Will I receive a copy of the explanation of the arthritis, specific areas of the cervical spine, etc.?
Thank you for ordering the mobic. The celebrex I will put on hold as it is very expensive. I will wait and see if the mobic gets me a decent nights sleep.
This morning, I saw Patricia Boulet, PT.
She believes both my hips have bursitis, so she is treating me for this with ultra sound using lidocaine and some other medication. She uses message as well. This thursday I see her again and probably twice a week for a while.
I will go as long as I can afford her therapies.
Thank you again for your care and concern.
Just for your information, Dr. Orazio prescribed Naltrexone one month ago to help with my alcohol issues.
I believe it may be helping a bit so far.
Elizabeth

[xRavenx]

Everything seems to make me so angry. I was trying to do paperwork and take care of my "responsibilities" today, and I began to flip out. My heart is racing. Everything is making me upset. I just hope this feeling doesn't last, because it feels like it will. I feel powerless.

[Nammu]

Think I'm starting a slow slide into depression. I'm irritatable, don't want to get outa bed and can think of nothing to do, I stare at the tv unseeing and can't get interested in anything. Don't want to deal with the upcoming holidays. Ugh. Why do people have to make a big deal outa the holidays? They are showing Christmas movies 24/7 on some Chanel's! I'm cynical about everything.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Think I'm starting a slow slide into depression. I'm irritatable, don't want to get outa bed and can think of nothing to do, I stare at the tv unseeing and can't get interested in anything. Don't want to deal with the upcoming holidays. Ugh. Why do people have to make a big deal outa the holidays? They are showing Christmas movies 24/7 on some Chanel's! I'm cynical about everything.

The "holiday blues" are creeping up on me already. There's so much family discord.

(((((( Nammu ))))))

I hope you are not headed for a deep depression.


WC