[Victoria'smom]

So walking is getting harder for me. It hurts, I don't normally complain but it's getting bad. I was hoping it was just that my shoes were old and worn out but no such luck. My sister got me a wheel chair for when we go places with a lot of walking. I'm slowly becoming wheel chair bound and I don't like it. It's bad enough that I'm thinking about getting a handicap parking permit that my family has been bugging me to get for years.

My husband went to a nutritionist today. That went well. there's things even I learned. Like milk is not the healthiest for you and if I stopped drinking soda my blood sugar would drop and my calorie intake would be non existing. I'm not planing on giving up soda. He sees her again next month.

[Cocosurviving]

I seen a chiropractor today. Just did the basic paperwork and x-rays. I go back tomorrow for results and to discuss a treatment plan. I’m fighting my cold better, my voice is back now. Throat is not sore anymore. Drinking lots of water and orange juice.

[kitties]

Feeling lousy physically and mentally. I’m keeping up pretty well with self-care...and admin is helping me regain access to my account that I was locked out of somehow, “glamslam.”

I’m trying my best to not “give in” totally to my depression, e.g., I’m not staying in bed all day. I’m trying to accept that I’m depressed and grieving. And adding bipolar disorder and my anxiety disorders...and anemia and chronic pain - I just feel bad and fighting it isn’t helping.

My pdoc did raise one of my meds to help with my depression. Hopefully it will help.

So much on my plate....and I can’t read right now. I lost concentration since my stepdad passed away recently. I’m exhausted, physically and mentally.

This, too, shall pass. (Well, except the chronic pain but I accept that.)

[emgreen]

I like your spirit, kitties! Keep fighting!

[FallDuskTrain]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Well I apologize. That temporary break didn’t work out well. If I can encourage or brighten somebody’s day, I want to. The word balance is not a strong part of my vocabulary and I desperately need that. I care and worry about my friends here. Please bear with me while I attempt to become more balanced.


My mom’s fiancé died last night. I didn’t care for him (and I really tried). Her grief is breaking my heart. It’s hard to watch a loved one suffer. She has lost 2 close friends in the past 6 months in addition and she seems lost right now. Doing my best to provide comfort and keep her busy.


Sending big hugs to everyone who is struggling.

I am sad to hear about your mom. Seeing your own mom (or any loved one for that matter) hurting is very painful. I am really sorry.

[Naynay99]

Hey. Doing okay I think. Sending out good thoughts to anyone who needs it.
I suppose I should be more excited about my trip but I am just exhausted with work stuff. I get out early tomorrow. Will pack and try to go to bed super early as our car to the airport is coming at 4 am. Ugh...

Looking forward to drinking a fruity cocktail out of a coconut and listening to the waves crash though. Honestly just the idea of sitting on the beach and reading a book sounds grand. It's my bday Friday and I am glad I will be away for it and have my friend to celebrate it with me. Just need to survive work tomorrow and then pack and get stuff set for the pet sitter.

I love traveling but hate the airport and flying. Luckily I usually sleep on the plane. I love waking up and being somewhere new. Its funny- some people I know seem to frown on me missing turkey day, like it's unaMerican to leave the country for thanksgiving. When I say it's also my bday weekend they seem to approve more. If I stayed here I would maybe have an aunts house I could go over to. I just saw my family last weekend. And they are even serving pumpkin pie in aruba so I am all set!! Honestly I don't know why other people give a fuuck what I do or why they feel the need to say anything other than have a great time....

Anyway, my kitten has stopped playing fetch and has fallen asleep on my pillow so I guesss it's time for bed. Have a great thanksgiving and weekend everyone. Take care.

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Well I apologize. That temporary break didn’t work out well. If I can encourage or brighten somebody’s day, I want to. The word balance is not a strong part of my vocabulary and I desperately need that. I care and worry about my friends here. Please bear with me while I attempt to become more balanced.

My mom’s fiancé died last night. I didn’t care for him (and I really tried). Her grief is breaking my heart. It’s hard to watch a loved one suffer. She has lost 2 close friends in the past 6 months in addition and she seems lost right now. Doing my best to provide comfort and keep her busy.

Sending big hugs to everyone who is struggling.

You and your mom are in my thoughts.

Take care of yourself, ok? It’s great that you’re so supportive, but I know firsthand that she’ll need to go through the grieving process...you can’t do that for her. Just being there will help her a lot. It’s hard to see loved ones in pain. Sometimes I’ve wanted to take that pain away from them and shoulder it myself...it’s not possible, but I understand.

PM me if you need support. I’ve been on both sides of the fence. My stepdad had a terrible time when my mom died. He was heartbroken for a long time. Now I’m grieving his death.

Here for you.

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by emgreen

I like your spirit, kitties! Keep fighting!

Thanks, emgreen!

Good news! I now have access back to my glamslam account.

I’ll be using this account from now on. No more kitties except the ones I have here at home.

Feel free to call me glam and thanks for your supportive reply. It helped me a lot!



Glam

[Moreta]

i'm so sick of being in pain. feels like someone is stabbing me in the back. I should go back to bed.

[glennk]

Originally Posted by Moreta

i'm so sick of being in pain. feels like someone is stabbing me in the back. I should go back to bed.

Laying in bed might make your pain worse. Have you tried a heating pad?

[Moreta]

Originally Posted by glennk

Laying in bed might make your pain worse. Have you tried a heating pad?

i took a soma and it took the edge off. I need to get a taller hair dresser or get her a stool. haha. she's short and i'm tall so i have to slouch down in the chair so she can reach my head. Always kills my back.

[Miss Laura]

Really scared and upset. My Mum had a stroke yesterday night (Tues night). I witnessed it all and got such a fright. I can't sleep. I keep thinking of Mum. I'm worried sick. She is only 61. She had a heart attack which nearly killed her 4 years ago. Going to the hospital to see her in 5 hours.

[winter loneliness]

Good. Pretty stable.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Really scared and upset. My Mum had a stroke yesterday night (Tues night). I witnessed it all and got such a fright. I can't sleep. I keep thinking of Mum. I'm worried sick. She is only 61. She had a heart attack which nearly killed her 4 years ago. Going to the hospital to see her in 5 hours.

How distressing for you! I hope your mom is okay. She’s very young to have these problems. Please keep us posted.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Moreta

i'm so sick of being in pain. feels like someone is stabbing me in the back. I should go back to bed.

I’m sorry you are in pain and hope you feel better soon.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Naynay99

Looking forward to drinking a fruity cocktail out of a coconut and listening to the waves crash though. Honestly just the idea of sitting on the beach and reading a book sounds grand. It's my bday Friday and I am glad I will be away for it and have my friend to celebrate it with me.

I’m so pleased for you. I hope you have a wonderful time!

[bpforever1]

Things are going well. I talked to the online man and we have an understanding that I will stay here and he will stay for awhile where he is. I'm happy about this. We will just meet when possible. He is not pushing me into something I don't want. I think he and I will get along well hopefully.

I also taught today and it went well.

Tomorrow is a holiday here and so I am going to take it easy.

Life is not bad.

[Sunflower123]

My daughter is coming home this morning for her break and I’m really happy about that. I haven’t been seeing her anywhere near enough. Have entirely too much to do to get ready for Thanksgiving. Forgot the ingredients for pecan pie. Another trip to the grocery store. Gggaaahhh. I don’t like the grocery store when it’s not busy.

I hope everyone has a good day. Sending hugs to those that are struggling.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

My daughter is coming home this morning for her break and I’m really happy about that. I haven’t been seeing her anywhere near enough. Have entirely too much to do to get ready for Thanksgiving. Forgot the ingredients for pecan pie. Another trip to the grocery store. Gggaaahhh. I don’t like the grocery store when it’s not busy.

I hope everyone has a good day. Sending hugs to those that are struggling.

thank you jenn! I hope your pecan pie turns out just grand!
happy thaksgiving.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[hopeless2015]

Doing pretty good. Sometime they let us leave work early the day before a holiday so hopefully they do today. Just have to make deviled eggs for tomorrow..easy peasy. Hugs to all!!

[Wild Coyote]

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL!!!


WC

[liveforsummer]

I’m still stable, wahoo! There are some aspects of the intense emotions of the last 11 months I miss but probably better this way.

Hugs all!

[wildflowerchild25]

I had a dream about my husband and All day have been having flashbacks to the day I found him dead. It’s really quite awful. I’m pushing them down because I don’t want to feel that pain but I know that’s not going to help me In the long run. But seriously, not in the mood to fight with flashbacks.

I’ve had one week stable. That’s great. Makes me think it will stick. I should go back to work the first week of December but I won’t be discharged from my IOP program by then. I could just quit. I don’t think my regular t would support that though. I don’t know. In all honesty I just wish I could quit my job. I’m humiliated to go back and have to explain where I was. I know I don’t have to explain anything really but people talk, especially teachers. But also I can’t imagine suffering through another seven months. Ugh I hope they fire me at the end of the year so I can collect unemployment while I look for a job outside of education.

Sucks.

[bpforever1]

I am doing fine. My father is coming tomorrow. I am excited. I hope to spend some time with him.

I've been communicating with a man online. We are doing well. He is nice and understanding. I try to keep an open mind and talk to him about everything. We have not met yet though. This is not a problem though. We videocam and text throughout the day. I like him so far. While my father is here, we plan to just text each other. He is not pushy or overbearing. He accepts me as I am. I accept him as he is. I did not think a long-distance relationship would work but he is so nice and sweet that I cannot help but like him. He likes me too. I told him about my illness. He has illnesses too but not anything mental. He and I are not perfect, but we really like each other so far. I was afraid of losing my freedom but it seems that he plans to just work where he is now and retire then move. I want to stay here and his parents live near me so he can visit them if he comes here. He has children who are adults now. So, he is doing ok overall. I am happy he is doing well and likes me. I am truly happy he accepts me as me. I accept him too as is. I don't believe we will live together anytime soon or anything. We will just live our lives and meet occasionally. I like writing him and talking to him on videocam. I know when he comes for three days we will see if our chemistry is right for each other. I like him because he is not married. For some reason, I was attracting only married men for awhile. So, this time I thought I would take a chance on someone who is divorced and living on his own. It has turned out well so far.

I take my medication daily. I am doing ok. I wanted to exercise but am tired for some reason. Today is a holiday here. I feel ok overall though. I want to find more work again for next year so applied for another job and received an interview via skype. I don't know when I will have the interview yet. I want to work more because doing nothing at times is boring and wasteful. I am trying to learn Japanese but it is not easy. So, I'm looking for another teaching job. These jobs are paying less and asking for more time. But, I'd rather work than do nothing. This job I applied for is about 40 minutes to an hour away from my apartment. So, I will have to commute but it is a school, not a dispatch company, and will be in just one place, not all over the place. It pays ok. I don't know of my chances of getting the job. I usually receive interviews but don't do that well interviewing. I think I've already interviewed at four places and got only one job from this. However, there are many opportunities here. I am old though and cannot expect that much due to lack of experience. I am happy with what I receive. I am hoping that I can get an offer. But, it is fate if I do or not.

I need to go to the dentist and will soon. I have not been to one in two years. My teeth don't hurt but am getting worried. I brush daily and floss. However, this is not good enough I believe. I will find one soon may be in the area where my doctor is.

I am spending the holiday season alone this year again. But, my online man is coming the day after Christmas and leaving before New Year's. At least someone will be with me before the year ends. I will continue talking to him before we meet.

Happy Thanksgiving to all!!

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL!!!


WC

Happy Thanksgiving!!!!