[Unrigged64072835]

Trying to tamp down the restlessness I have around this time of year. Trimmed the roses and put up the outside lights last night. Moved all the boxes, cut up unneeded boxes for the trash/recycling, and put up the big tree downstairs. Still need to string lights, wrap gifts, and hang ornaments, plus put up the small tree in my home office. I usually run through all this over the weekend, but the family is hurting physically with various ailments and I can't do it all by myself (my back and arms won't let me). It's just going to take longer than usual, and I have to deal with it. Thankfully I have T on Monday. I know why I'm doing this and somehow I need to stop.

I also have the pain doc, the dentist, and physical therapy this week. I'll be joining my husband for the pool exercises, so that will be some fun. The water is really warm and getting out feels like I'm an elephant lifting legs that weigh a ton. It's still good, though.

Mood has been okay, but I'm warily watching for hypomania with all the holiday prep. I also can't run my husband or daughter ragged either. My daughter is quitting her job and has another lined up in January. The management at her current job has been running her ragged so she'll be taking ibuprofen for a while. My husband is still having problems with muscle pain and while the physical therapy is helping I suspect he has back issues like mine.

Hope everyone is doing well and hugs for those who aren't.

[Nammu]

Therapy pools usually have salt in them so you feel lighter than normal in them, they are so awesome. I miss my water therapy. You'll love it. Back issues are a pain. Bought myself a new mattress as a birthday gift. My back will thank me!

[Cocosurviving]

It’s 3:38 pm and my day has been good. I got up ran to my bank. My youngest wanted to go Best Buy and look at a computer. We did that then headed back home. We took our dog with us. I don’t like leaving her home. Mentally I have no anxiety. The sun is out and I like that. I’ve been cleaning a little resting and then cleaning a little more. My back is hurting so I have to take breaks.

[hopeless2015]

I've lain around all day. Worthless today! Hugs everyone

[Wild Coyote]

Had a fun afternoon with family.
Home and relaxing.

I hope everyone has a good night.

WC

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Had a fun afternoon with family.
Home and relaxing.

I hope everyone has a good night.

WC

Oh yea -- Glad it was fun! Enjoy your relaxation time, WC.

[wildflowerchild25]

I was in a bad mood today. Just irritable and moody. I got all the Christmas lights up, so that’s good.

I’ve been sleeping soooo much more. I slept till noon yesterday and till eleven today. If I didn’t have a kid it would be nbd but I feel awful that I left him alone that long. I mean he’s seven, he’s not helpless, he can get his own food and stuff but I feel like I’m abandoning him. I don’t know why I’m so tired. Meds I guess.

Meds are definitely behind my appetite increase. I think I’ve gained about ten pounds in two weeks. Two weeks!!! And just when I was starting to lose weight from invega. I might as well go back on invega. Except my insurance won’t cover it so I can’t.

I’m just frustrated right now with everything.

Oh, and my stomach pain from a suspected ulcer is killing me. Still five weeks until I can see the gastroenterologist.

[winter loneliness]

OK. I need to get out and socialize. Have been ignoring friends.

[Daonnachd]

I just watched The Flying Scotsman with my wife. It's a film about a cyclist who's bipolar or MDD and going for world records. Having been a competitive cyclist years ago and coming from a family of Scots immigrants this film spoke to me. I rather enjoyed it.

My T wants to still meet with me so I can tell her why I wanted to cancel. I can't really figure out for sure what was going on in my mind to make me cancel.

[bizi]

went on a canoe paddle this afternoon at the lake martin/swamp.
saw one alligator, a piliated wood pecker which is huge! anhingas, downey wood pecker and a big blue herron and several white herons. so it was a good afternoon.
Went to a green gumbo party this evening, hubby not feeling well so we left early. He has been in bed a few hours.
I need to join him, took meds and waiting a bit for them to work before heading to bed myself.
Our hot water heater is bad so need to call the plumber on monday, fortunately I got a shower in!
bizi

I'm in a weird place today. I don't know how to explain it but it is a lot of anxious energy. I hope this doesn't become a lasting phase.

[VerMOZZica]

I got a few things done around the house today. Tonight I`m just feeling really lonely.I hate the night.

I don’t know what happened to me. I just stayed up all night, slept in way too late, and forgot about my therapist appointment.

I’m having more trouble remembering things. I think me trying to keep myself distracted is half my memory problem.

And the lithium is the other half.

[Tucson]

I am trying to prepare myself for my first job in twenty years.I am a little intimidated. I interveiwed a manager of the Geek Squad at a BestBuy today. Monday I will interview another person who also,has the type of job I am looking for. I am also being hooked up with a head hunting agency for a professional type of job. However, I can only work part time. Also I am too outdated for a professional job. I would have to once again start from the beginning of my previous career. For now, I may find it easier obtaining,a retail type of job that involves computers. Then I will decide where to go from there.

[bpforever1]

I am doing well but ate too much fried food. I have indigestion. My father is here but he sleeps most of the day and does not go out. I will try to get him to go out tomorrow. Life is not bad. I passed a skype interview and will do another interview in person with demo lesson. I am excited and am hoping for the best. I taught this morning then took a nap and ate. I feel ok mood wise but my stomach feels like it is churning. I am not going to eat anymore fried food for awhile. I am happy otherwise. I have still been in contact with the online man but just write him about once a day now. I am busy and so is he. He is still coming to visit me in December. I look forward to meeting him. I still take my medication daily and this helps. I don't have any mood symptoms now. I am stable and am happy.

[Sunflower123]

I’m doing okay today. I’m going to a funeral later with the family member that I have panic attacks around. Doing pretty good right now. Just a little ball of anxiety.

I had my friend who is not pleased with my new stability tell me last night that she didn’t think I was a good fit with the Bible study group anymore so she took my name off the communication list and thinks I should drop out. There are 180 ladies with different personalities. Not fit in? I promise what you see on this site is what you get. I think I need to learn some assertiveness skills. I’m definitely not dropping out. If anything I’ll go more often. Disappointing.

Sending big hugs for those that are struggling.

[Moose72]

Family gatherings for the last week +. Had a fever almost 2 weeks. Saw the Dr yesterday. Just figured virus- "extended". I forgot to say that I had had sharp pain in my lower abdomen recently. I wondered if my essure was doing something odd. But I forgot to tell her about this.

Now I'm just resting at Starbucks. My car was completely frosted over this morning. I took one look and shut the door. But after a few I got dressed and used the defroster and tada!

My check out sheet from Saturday says I was taking zyprexa incorrectly on purpose. First of all I thought I WAS supposed to be on this dose. But it just says that I'm taking 2.5 zyprexa not 5. Wonder what pnurse will say.

[99fairies]

I`m ready to throw the ****ing towel in .I Have the flu. I have the little kids to take care of so I can`t just go back to bed. I`m trying to be kind to them but I have no patience.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by 99fairies

I`m ready to throw the ****ing towel in .I Have the flu. I have the little kids to take care of so I can`t just go back to bed. I`m trying to be kind to them but I have no patience.

I am so sorry. You must be absolutely miserable. Thinking of you and hoping you feel better soon.

[99fairies]

Thanks for your encouragement Jennifer. Your kind word always make me feel better. I appreciate you so much. You have such a big heart...lots of love.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by 99fairies

Thanks for your encouragement Jennifer. Your kind word always make me feel better. I appreciate you so much. You have such a big heart...lots of love.

Thank you. That means a lot to me.

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I had my friend who is not pleased with my new stability tell me last night that she didn’t think I was a good fit with the Bible study group anymore so she took my name off the communication list and thinks I should drop out. There are 180 ladies with different personalities. Not fit in? I promise what you see on this site is what you get. I think I need to learn some assertiveness skills. I’m definitely not dropping out. If anything I’ll go more often. Disappointing.

We recently revisited the early 90's series In Living Color, so I'm going to give you a big retro throwback and say, "Go on, girl!" "You are strong. You are beautiful. You are perfect."
Boo to the invalidator! Not a good fit indeed! Pffft. You are astute to realize this person is not pleased with your new stability. This says quite a bit about them. You are right on track with pursuing what you want to do and disregarding this silliness.

So there!

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

We recently revisited the early 90's series In Living Color, so I'm going to give you a big retro throwback and say, "Go on, girl!" "You are strong. You are beautiful. You are perfect."
Boo to the invalidator! Not a good fit indeed! Pffft. You are astute to realize this person is not pleased with your new stability. This says quite a bit about them. You are right on track with pursuing what you want to do and disregarding this silliness.

So there!

Tehehe. I really needed that pep talk!! Thank you!!

[xRavenx]

Tearful, my head hurts. I drank too much, and I'm not in a good state of mind. I got zero amount of sleep, tried sleeping, can't.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by xRavenx

Tearful, my head hurts. I drank too much, and I'm not in a good state of mind. I got zero amount of sleep, tried sleeping, can't.

I’m sorry you are having a tough time. Do you want to talk about it?