[wildflowerchild25]

The state of the house is giving me serious anxiety. I hate clutter and my son got what seems like a THOUSAND toys for Christmas and they are everywhere. He has a very small room and we do not have a separate playroom so I am wondering how in the world I’m going to clean up the mess and put all the toys away. I’m trying to devise some sort of shelving idea. But I honestly don’t think I can fit a shelf in his room either! I don’t know. I have some time to work on it.

Today I was irritable but then I took a nap and felt much better. I drank again last night so It was probably a slight hangover. Only problem is my nap was 4 hours long so I definitely wont sleep tonight until the wee hours of the morning. I have to get up early to take my son to his trip and go to program. But that’s my own fault. I’ll try!

[Moreta]

Man have I been sleeping good. We've been staying at a motel 6 in FL and the bed is hard as a rock and OMG my back feels fantastic. We're going to look and see what kind of bed it is tomorrow before we leave and maybe get me one to put in the spare room so I can sleep in there. My husband can't stand the bed. This is the least amount of pain I've been in, in a long time.

Christmas was fine. I spent a lot of time hanging out with my husband's aunt. I enjoyed that. She's pretty cool. We're headed back home tomorrow. Hopefully the traffic won't be too bad.

[VerMOZZica]

I just got back from the movies with my cousin. We went to see Star Wars again. That was fun.

I had a very nice Christmas eve. I spent that with my family. We celebrate on Christmas eve instead of Christmas day. It was all very good. I made cookies for everybody. Everything went well. Christmas day was spent relaxing. I hope everyone here on PC Forums had a nice holiday.

The evil force putting thoughts into my head to self harm is gone. I wasn't even depressed at the time, either. My therapist and pdoc were confused as much as I was. Don't know what it was, but at least it's gone! As are its voices.

Been having a good couple of days, I guess, so that's good news! Let's hope this continues so that I'm not tormented.

[99fairies]

I'm doing pretty good this morning. But I made an error in judgement. I woke up at 5 am but was too wired to sleep so I had a cider to go back to sleep (never done that before) Well just as I was dozing off my kids got up. So now I'm playing mommy when I really just want to go back to bed. NEVER doing that again!

[scatterbrained04]

I just loathe depression. I feel like I'm always in it. At least I don't feel so lethargic or angry today. Will take that as a win.

[xRavenx]

I'm mad at myself for everything going wrong lately. Today, it's the little things, but they seem big. I was rushing and left my phone in my car, before it went to the shop. I had someone drive me back to get my phone out of it, but it was too late. The guy closed shop early for that night.

Now I have to go the rest of the night without a phone. I know it sounds little, but I really needed it tonight and worry about people trying to get in touch with me. Now, no car and no phone. I picked up food, but then I just got the worst stomachache ever before I can even eat it, so it's just sitting there until I hopefully feel better later. I had therapy earlier. It was okay.

[Pookyl]

I’ve been out of hospital for a week now. Still feeling content. Maybe this is stability??
Anyhow, whatever it is, it’s so nice to wake up free of suicidal thoughts.
We caught up with friends last night for dinner. It took some convincing that I wasn’t drinking otherwise a fun night.

[Tucson]

I have been taking bids on the painting of the interior of my house. This will amount to much more money than I had originally thought. So I have to set priorities. Everyone in my extended family is well. I include my daughter and her mother, brothers, and sister as my family. It is nice to be a part of one. Sometimes I forget this.

My daughter gave me clothing for Xmas. As some of you know, I have lost 60 pounds. My clothes are very baggy on me since they do not fit anymore. So my daughter gave me the only clothes now that fit me. I went out to a sushi restaurant with her yesterday. We both enjoyed it. There are not too many calories in raw fish, is there?

[wildflowerchild25]

I started trileptal a few days ago and I’ve been having mild nausea ever since. That’s a pretty common side effect apparently. It’s not fun combined with my congestion from my cold. I wanted to clean and organize my son’s room today but I’m only halfway finished because my head hurt so badly this afternoon and now I’m nauseous after eating dinner. I’ve picked up approximately a million legos. I always say I’m going to throw them away but that’s my money I’m throwing away. I don’t know how to get him to pick them up.

Anyway I’m hoping to get farther with it tonight and tomorrow. I really can’t take the toys literally everywhere. I really didn’t even want to come home today.

[Wild Coyote]

Am feeling very exhausted.
I am trying my best to help my mother. She will be able to do more for herself in a couple of weeks. Her insurer has denied her any home care, which is currently being appealed.

I'm not complaining. I just feel like I am crashing into a worsened depression (and I was just climbing out of one). I spend more time in serious depression than not.

Ugggh!

Love to All!

WC

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Am feeling very exhausted.
I am trying my best to help my mother. She will be able to do more for herself in a couple of weeks. Her insurer has denied her any home care, which is currently being appealed.

I'm not complaining. I just feel like I am crashing into a worsened depression (and I was just climbing out of one). I spend more time in serious depression than not.

Ugggh!

Love to All!

WC

(((Hugs))). That's really challenging and overwhelming. I hope you feel better soon.

[bpforever1]

My online man's father became sick and so he had to leave to take care of him. I am doing well. We met and like each other. I felt bad for him but understood his situation. I rested today and feel ok. I took my medication and am doing well. I talked to my family via skype. They are nutty as usual. They are doing ok though. I hope to just take it easy for awhile. I feel relaxed and am happy. My online man gave me chocolate and beef jerky. He was really nice. I bought him some chocolate and other gifts too. So, it was a nice exchange. Life is not bad. I will be ok.

[Unrigged64072835]

Due to scheduling we're doing physical therapy tomorrow.

This afternoon my husband and I are going over financial stuff. On the one hand, we have to pay off our loan and cards and such. On the other hand, there is big priced stuff we need to get. I hope we have some resolution to this.

I'm feeling okay, but trying to fight off anxiety and depression over next year.

[251turnaround]

I'm down. I have to rely on heavy doses of caffeine to get enough energy to go through the day. It doesn't help that I've been blacklisted from taking adderall forever.

[xRavenx]

My sleep has really been varying. I went from Christmas Eve, having no sleep, with a slight progression each day into getting more sleep. Yesterday, I had taken all my nighttime meds at the same time, and I am on a very sedating bunch of meds. It threw me into a really long sleep. For me, more sleep is better than no sleep. However, I went to bed at 4 AM and woke up around 2:00 PM. I am still exhausted! My eyes look all droopy. I was told by a family member that I "look like hell." Very nice. I am spending the day in bed, with the exception of a few chores. BP has really been a roller coaster lately, swinging between mania, hypomania, and depression within a somewhat short time frame. I am glad I took off work this week (10 days off).

At work, I was thinking that I might go on FMLA for mental health reasons, but I am hoping this break gives me enough time to be able to go back to work, although I can anticipate a struggle. I can talk to my pdoc to see what she thinks about having more time off, because I am on the fence. I think I need a good 2 months off, but money and health insurance are really needed at this time.

[Victoria'smom]

I just found out my son's books are going to be close to $500 I have no idea how we're going to get them. I can't ask anyone because I'm already in the hole $200 with my mom. Not to mention we still have to buy Christmas presents for 3 people. Not only that his "books" are loose sleeve papers we are spending $105 for paper that no one will buy back. Then there's one use computer codes that cost $75. This is ridiculous. On top of that our car is acting up. I'm on SSI so rent and utilities we have covered it's the extra **** we have no money for.

[scatterbrained04]

I am so tired of feeling so crappy all the time. This year has not been kind with the depression. I can't keep living this way.

[Moreta]

Gotta love when it's 15F and your pipes freeze. At least the kitchen sink faucet is working.

[bpforever1]

I am meeting my online man tomorrow at the airport for lunch. He is going back home finally. I wish him well. I harbor no ill feelings towards him for cutting short his time with me because his dad was sick. I hope his father recovers from surgery and does well. I also hope that my online man seeks help for his alcohol addiction one day. I don't know if he ever will since he is able to hold down a full-time job and take care of himself so far. I will try to be his friend in need if he ever needs help. I am doing ok otherwise. Life is like a roller coaster. I am doing fine and will be chipper when I meet him and send him off tomorrow.

Originally Posted by Moreta

Gotta love when it's 15F and your pipes freeze. At least the kitchen sink faucet is working.

I with it were 15 here. It's -4. lol.

I'm envious

Good luck with your pipes, though.

[hopeless2015]

It's been pretty cold here and snowing again today. Only 1-3 inches expected. We've been unseasonably warm here in Illinois so far but winter finally hit us.

Still doing pretty well mentally. Looking forward to the new year and fresh start with a clear mind

Hugs to everyone struggling right now!!

[winter loneliness]

Still on vacation. Dreaming about buying a home.

[bizi]

Still in Indiana, cold and snow. back to louisiana on wed. then cold weather there....glad that I bought warm wool socks today with my lottery winnings!
bizi

[Nammu]

Between -35 and -40 windchill out there......glad I'm inside with a warm fur bottle on my feet.