Supreme Soviet checking in hot.

I hope all are well. I heard some things.

1. “If left untreated, bipolar disorder usually worsens. ”

NAMI

2. “Avoiding treatment, however, is the worst thing you can do with bipolar disorder. Why? Because bipolar disorder tends to get worse if it's not treated. So to improve your prognosis — your future with this condition — you need to follow your doctor's prescribed treatments...There is a good chance that your manic and depressive episodes will become more frequent and severe over time. Most people can also expect more depressive episodes and fewer manic ones. You will have fewer highs and more depression" he says. Your illness may even progress to what is called rapid-cycling bipolar disorder, which is when you have four or more episodes a year… If you've had several bipolar episodes, there is probably a 60 to 80 percent chance that you will have one episode every year if untreated, but with treatment, you can probably cut your risk of having an episode by half.”

Gary Sachs, MD, founder and director of the Bipolar Clinic and Research Program at Mass General

3. “Left untreated, bipolar disorder tends to worsen over time. Episodes can be more severe or can begin to cycle rapidly. ... Rapid-cycling bipolar disease poses challenges for physicians trying to determine the correct treatment, because antidepressants can cause manic episodes to flare or get worse.”

NIMH

That's all I heard.

Reunification is near.

I am feeling good.

it's friday, i've got through the week, and to top it off, michael jackson is on tv singing earth song (at least he is in the video)

of course he's not their in person

lol

[99fairies]

My 8 year old son made a comment yesterday that directly had to do with my hypo. We were joking around and he said "you've been so silly mum, I love it when you're silly" Kinda broke my heart because I wish I could play and have fun with them like that all the time, but sometimes it's almost impossible due to my swings. At least I have the here and now. I won't look down the road, I'll just cherish these precious moments with my family.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by 99fairies

My 8 year old son made a comment yesterday that directly had to do with my hypo. We were joking around and he said "you've been so silly mum, I love it when you're silly" Kinda broke my heart because I wish I could play and have fun with them like that all the time, but sometimes it's almost impossible due to my swings. At least I have the here and now. I won't look down the road, I'll just cherish these precious moments with my family.

I am glad that you have those precious moments!!!!!
bizi

[251turnaround]

Stable and bored, to be honest. It's not that the stability is boring, in fact it's quite nice. It's the lack of structure in my life that's causing this.

I've also been suffering from some significant daytime fatigue that I can't find the source of. It's been there ever since going off Adderall last month.

[BPQuestions]

My wife asked for a divorce last night. Sad very very sad. But at least my meds help me to be semi stable.

[99fairies]

BPQuestions...I'm very sorry to hear that, big hugs.

[Loose Screw x 2]

Originally Posted by Vaporeon

I honestly feel like an outsider on this site, despite clearly having enough issues to warrant my being here. I feel like no one understands me and I'm coming across as arrogant or harsh when all I'm trying to do is help people to the best of my ability. I'm kind of put off by some of the popular threads on this forum in particular, such as the diet one and the "have you taken your meds today?" but that's my problem and I'm not making a big deal out of it, but whenever I say something to try to help someone, I'm attacked and not always by the original poster. I wish I never joined this site. This isn't the first discussion board I've had to either delete my account from or be banned from and I should learn my lesson already. I'm just sorry that I wasted everyone's time.

No, Vap. You're one of the seetest people I know online and you are very sympathetic. I was feeling very similar last night because of my own bipolar but, you and SG were there to hear me and give me some comfort and that helped. It really did. Also there is another member here who has a lot of problems but, he's a tough old soldier and I thought to myself "If he is still here and posting when he sees someone in need then, why should I leave? If I can help just one person then, shouldn't I stay? I know what I am and I know that I scare people and act like a jerk sometimes and it makes people want to avoid me but, sometimes that's not it at all. Sometimes it's because other people are jerks or they're just too wrapped up in their own worlds to notice anyone else. And also, you are going to run in to people online who are haughty, snobby, snooty and arrogant. You are also going to run into queen bees and their cliques who think they own whatever forum you joined, you're going to run into "N00b haters" and "lulzers" who like getting a laugh at someone elses' expense. I've been through this on many a forum and either gave up and left or got all bent out of shape about it and ranted until everyone else turned on me. It isn't anything you have done wrong that is making you feel this way. It is the illness itself. When you log back in send me a message. I'm here for you and so is SG. We are your friends.

[Tucson]

I am OK but a little depressed. My doctor added fluoxetine to the mix. I hope this will help. Part of the reason I am depressed is that I am a negative thinker, some times more than other times.

[BPQuestions]

Thanks. I know it will be ok somehow.

[emgreen]

Originally Posted by BPQuestions

My wife asked for a divorce last night. Sad very very sad. But at least my meds help me to be semi stable.

Ouch! I'm so very sorry. I've been there & know it really hurts. Be good to yourself & stay stable.

Originally Posted by BPQuestions

My wife asked for a divorce last night. Sad very very sad. But at least my meds help me to be semi stable.

I'm sorry to hear that. That sounds very difficult.

Do you have any family, friends, therapists, etc. you can reach out to?

Doing ok. The blizzard-hurricane is gone, and now we're getting cold, arctic air.

I managed to cut my nails after putting it off for 2 weeks! I swear that nail cutting is such a chore... It requires a lot of motivation, motivation that I really don't have. But I did it! A fine accomplishment.

I was starting to look like Wolverine or Edward Scissorhands. lol.

Now if only I had the motivation to do my work today...

[Wild Coyote]

Laid up by pain and spasms. Med for spasms knocks me out! Did not accomplish much today. Postponed appt with pdoc.

I hope everyone had a good day!
Love to All!

WC

[Tucson]

Even though I am depressed, I do have to remind myself that everything is OK, at least for today. I have not been taking care of my home. It is filthy. I do not know if I had posted this before, but my financial situation has become much better. I was thinking of filing for bankruptcy. However, I came across what is called a home equity line of credit. This reduced my monthly loan obligation, which was about half my income, down to about 25% of what I was paying out for loans. I am aging fast. Time is going by so quickly. This make me sad.

[Pookyl]

40 degrees Celsius (104 degrees Fahrenheit) today. It’s so hot I feel sick - and that’s with the aircon.
I’m struggling to stay hydrated

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

40 degrees Celsius (104 degrees Fahrenheit) today. It’s so hot I feel sick - and that’s with the aircon.
I’m struggling to stay hydrated

that is hot hot hot!
bizi

[Wander]

Been swimming a lot the last few weeks and my Fibromyalgia has caught up with me. Now I’m very sore and tired. Hoping to get back into swimming next week as it is so good for my mental and physical health. The ocean calms me and it is exciting to see all the wildlife in there. Tomorrow I work so hopefully it doesn’t make my symptoms worse.

Mentally I am fairly well. My mood swings from a little down to upbeat but nothing to worry about. I am overwhelmed with sadness at times over my hollow life but I am trying to change that. Today my ex-husband moved in, for a few days anyway. His parents kicked him out so he is trying to find somewhere to live. It is nice having the company as we are good friends, but it is stressful in the circumstances. It is heartbreaking what his parents have done to him (long story), but I’m glad he is free of them. I used to live with them when we were married. It was hell and I was only there for 18 months. They literally drove me over the edge into insanity. My ex couldn’t see it at the time and it was what led to our divorce.

Now, I’m trying to recover from that and so many other traumas in my life, including the illnesses themselves. I find myself standing, staring into space often. I just shut down. Will have to talk to my T about this when he gets back from leave. Think it is the PTSD rearing it’s head again. My goal for this year is to get my health back on track and not be hospitalised. A big ask when I have been hospitalised around 25 times in the last eight years.

[bpforever1]

I'm feeling a little better. However, my butt hurts me because I have hemorrhoids. oh well. I have brain and butt problems now. I am trying to not sit as much and eat more fiber. So, we shall see how that goes. My mood is improving though. I have to make light of my situation. Otherwise, I'm going to go bonkers!!

[winter loneliness]

I have been swimming too. Still on vacation. Went bar hopping tonight! weee!

[Nocalove]

Good Morning, I am a new member here but not to forums. I am spending the weekend at my boyfriends in a different city.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Nocalove

Good Morning, I am a new member here but not to forums. I am spending the weekend at my boyfriends in a different city.

welcome!

[bpforever1]

I'm doing ok. I'm kicking a## on my modules again!! What a way to go!!
I took my medication and was apathetic/ depressed for about two days but am now gung-ho. What a cycle!! Roller coaster is not fun to ride in real life. I wish I were more stable. But, I'm doing the best I can. Such is life.

[99fairies]

I'm just watching Ninja Turtles with my daughter and having a lazy morning which is always nice. I don't feel the best but my plan is just to rest today.

[scatterbrained04]

My brain hasn't been playing nicely in the sandbox again for a couple days. Feeling pretty awful and worthless and ashamed. Feeling the need to apologize about everything. Suicidal and SH thoughts creeping in. But, I guess, at least I can still mostly function. That's a win.