tomorrow is the day I get my moving date.
emotions are everywhere... trying to hold it together, but failing miserably.

ah well.. the good that came out of today is that I started a brand new tv series called a place to call home.

I'm okay with it... some of it was a little triggering and I had to look away, but It's not beaten me yet

[bizi]

My moms sister died today.
They were very close. She had been suffering from shakes and she was a very frail 81 year old. My Mom and Dad found her on the floor this afternoon and called all of us. She will be missed sorely. My mother is devastated.
I think she is to be cremated and asked that there be no services.
Not sure when/if to go.
bizi

Originally Posted by bizi

My moms sister died today.
They were very close. She had been suffering from shakes and she was a very frail 81 year old. My Mom and Dad found her on the floor this afternoon and called all of us. She will be missed sorely. My mother is devastated.
I think she is to be cremated and asked that there be no services.
Not sure when/if to go.
bizi

Sorry for your loss, bizi

[Nammu]

So sorry about your aunt bizi.

[Wild Coyote]

Bizi, deepest sympathies.

WC

[bizi]

I am clear headed and loving it!
bizi
Looking at moving, started looking for houses today. Found one that I really like and hubby doesn't. It could get ugly....
bizi

[Guiness187055]

Sorry for your loss bizi

[liveforsummer]

Sorry to read of your loss bizi

Hugs to everyone struggling

I’ve had 3 good days in a row, hoping today will be number 4 and things will continue to improve. Going to attempt yet again, to get off the sleeping pills. I give it a week as that’s as long as I can deal with crap sleep.

[bizi]

I have been drinking nothing but tea in the evenings.
Not even snacking.
I can't tell that I have lost weight really. It will take a significant amount of weight loss for me to really notice.
I have to say that I am very happy looking at the scale!!!!
With all of this tea that I am drinking. The weight loss must be real.
I drink tea with caffeine in the morning then herbal tea at night. I use stevia to sweeten the tea. It doesn't really taste that different then one brand over the other because I use toffee flavored stevia. So really I should just buy the cheapest brand. It is not expensive $2-$4 for 18 tea bags.
shoot that is nothing compared to the beers I was drinking at whole foods $6-7 a pint and 300 calories vs. none.
Not drinking is definitely contributing to my ability to lose this weight.

Have a great day yall!
bizi

[emgreen]

I'm sorry for your loss, but am happy to hear you're clear headed, watching your health, & are generally positive about your direction.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Sorry to read of your loss bizi

Hugs to everyone struggling

I’ve had 3 good days in a row, hoping today will be number 4 and things will continue to improve. Going to attempt yet again, to get off the sleeping pills. I give it a week as that’s as long as I can deal with crap sleep.

Hey there! I also hope the trend continues for you!
So nice to hear from you!

WC

I am feeling good so far.

I am just waiting for the people to come tell me when I'm going to be moving (what date in febuary)

I've been waiting for a while- so I just want to know now

[99fairies]

I'm feeling a bit better today. That is good news.

[hopeless2015]

Doing pretty good. Off work for the holiday. We had snow last night. Got car cleaned off and got gas, supposed to be supper cold again the next few days so now I don't have to pump gas in 30 below temps.

Didn't gamble this weekend!!

Hugs everyone

[Tucson]

My son in law worked another eight hours nonstop placing in a new floor. He put to work his wife and my daughter on this project. Now after work, he will be at my home finishing the project up. He has worked so hard that he is exhausted with a back that hurts allot. I just do not know what to say or do. I never have been treated so well by anyone.

[Wild Coyote]

Fighting depression. Feeling paralyzed. No motivation/energy. Fatigued. Have tasks with deadlines which need immediate attention. Trying to give them the attention they need.

I hope everyone else is having a good day!


WC

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by Tucson

My son in law worked another eight hours nonstop placing in a new floor. He put to work his wife and my daughter on this project. Now after work, he will be at my home finishing the project up. He has worked so hard that he is exhausted with a back that hurts allot. I just do not know what to say or do. I never have been treated so well by anyone.

That's so good of him! You deserve something good. Maybe treat him out to a meal?

[Tucson]

Originally Posted by Nammu

That's so good of him! You deserve something good. Maybe treat him out to a meal?

I have been taking him and his wife out for meals. So far I have taken him to a steak house and a ribs place. This is costing me money, but it is the least J can do for him. He has been very good to me lately. I just feel a little guilty.

Right now I am in a good place. Sure, I've a great many things to worry about and my life is about to change directions I know not which way (wait wait wait) but I think I have a handle on this.

[Unrigged64072835]

Sorry for your loss bizi.

Hugs to those that need them.

Rather crappy start to the week. Daughter's boyfriend's bearded dragon died this morning. He was 10 years old, so had a pretty good run. Boyfriend, though, was very upset as he felt that he couldn't do anything more for him. He went to work early and we think that would be best for him. We've been doing our best to console him and let our daughter talk as well.

Other than that, making muffins and shoveling the driveway from the snow drifts--no, hasn't been a quiet day. I'm going to take a shower and make dinner, then I'm going to collapse. Have aqua therapy tomorrow, but it's not an actual appointment so I may not go.
I've been having a headache and been sweating profusely.

Still, I'm relatively calm and that's good.

[Pookyl]

9:20am. Still wondering around in a dressing gown. I need to have a shower but don’t want to. I know if I get dressed I won’t have one.
I’m feeling motivated regarding everything else. Why is having a shower so hard?

[sonjaward809]

I've been sleeping most of the day away, which isn't good but I feel exhausted and I have a raging headache. Not quite a migraine though, thank goodness!! But that's because I decided to have a drink for the first time in months last night (I'm not much of a drinker, and have had issues w/ alcohol in the past) so I've decided not to drink anything at all again. I despise that I can't do "normal" people things :/

@Pookyl I have the same issue when I'm in a depressive episode, it's a common issue for me from what I've noticed. I usually have to push myself to shower even when my motivation is out the window. It seems like a huge task at the time, but I end up feeling a bit better after a shower so I know it's worth it. LOL. Keep pushing, it will get a bit easier

[Naynay99]

Hey All, hope everybody is doing well.
Me, right now, I am really not okay.
I guess it’s been quite an exhausting, angst ridden week on this side of the fence.
Have a good week everyone.

[bizi]

being on the computer makes me sleepy.
bizi

[bizi]

Tuesday
A chance of rain before 3pm, then a chance of sleet. Cloudy, with a temperature falling to around 29 by 5pm. North wind 10 to 20 mph, with gusts as high as 30 mph. Chance of precipitation is 40%. Little or no sleet accumulation expected.
Tuesday Night
A slight chance of snow and sleet before midnight. Cloudy, then gradually becoming partly cloudy, with a low around 21. North wind around 15 mph, with gusts as high as 25 mph. Chance of precipitation is 20%.

Schools closed for tomorrow....not sure if the university is though....hubby will know.
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