[Cocosurviving]

I’ve had a productive day. Took my daughter to school then made a stop by a grocery store. Went home and whipped together some breakfast. Then I started on laundry and dishes. I watched a little tv then folded clothes. I called my pharmacy. I had a question about one of my meds. My daughter had a Girl Scout activity today. Afterwards we ran errands. I fueled up the car. Then we went to our local Walmart for paper products and water.

[Wild Coyote]

It was a gorgeous day today. Finally, some sun!

I was very tired. Am adjusting meds.

Played in a cribbage match tonight. Lost by just a couple of points in each of 4 games out of 7. (Won 3 games.) My mind kept wandering tonight. Very close games. I don't mind losing. I enjoy playing the game. I'd played in 2 matches over the weekend and had phenomenal luck! It's a fun pastime, esp. if the games move along at a fast pace. Enuf said.

Retiring for the night.
Sweet Dreams!

WC

[bizi]

I just ate 5 girl scout thin mints cookies. Love them...that was the rest of the half of a box.
I am happy
I still have another half calling my name. I will resist and eat a bag of pop corn instead.
bizi

[xRavenx]

Today isn't as bad. I thought going back to work would be absolutely horrible, facing that breakdown that I had on Friday (I really didn't count going in on Saturday, since I did not have to really face many people that day). I just kept quiet to myself for most part, and that helped. I think having the weekend off really did make a difference, because I spent a lot of time resting. I also think part of the reason my mood is slightly better is because I am taking tomorrow off, since it will be too dangerous to drive with the weather. So I'm going to take it as easy as possible.

I am really hoping things continue to get better though, because I really don't want to get to a point where I have to go on disability, although a co-worker who I confided in told me "You need to take better care of yourself, or it will come to that." At least I am starting to have goals, like exercise, and doing all I can to avoid falling apart at work again. I am definitely going to bring this all up to my pdoc though, because I think I should have a plan in place as far as a direction to go in.

[leomama]

Had to go back to the er and was prescribed a second antibiotic. I really hope I don’t have to go see my doc in 2 days. I haven’t been able to do my laundry for over a week now because of this infection. All I can do is work, cook, clean, sleep.

[Pookyl]

Still manic. A lot of meds are being thrown at it. Can see the crash coming.

I am feeling threatening.

I just shouted at someone who came to check on me... either get off my ****ing property right this second, or I'm going to make your life a living hell- and you're going to wish your mommy was their to give you a cuddle

she left... course she did. she wouldn't try coming in

feeling overwelmed... a bit low and depressed, but alive

[hopeless2015]

I'm doing ok, HUGS to everyone!

[Wild Coyote]

It's snowing here. It's pretty!

I am... finally... alone in the house for a couple of hours!
It feels good to be alone and not having someone knocking on my door frequently!


WC

[Unrigged64072835]

Rough start this morning. Physical issues. Daughter and husband were also not feeling well. Think it was something we ate. At least I didn't have a migraine--I normally have those with food poisoning.

Picked my clothes for the fashion show on Saturday. I put together three outfits. Still can't believe I'm going through with this. I just hope I don't panic. Have to be at the store at 12:30 PM.

Taking it easy before I make dinner. My cat isn't making it easy with her tail hitting my head and meowing for food an hour early.

Mood is okay. Lots of virtual hugs for everyone.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Rough start this morning. Physical issues. Daughter and husband were also not feeling well. Think it was something we ate. At least I didn't have a migraine--I normally have those with food poisoning.

Picked my clothes for the fashion show on Saturday. I put together three outfits. Still can't believe I'm going through with this. I just hope I don't panic. Have to be at the store at 12:30 PM.

Taking it easy before I make dinner. My cat isn't making it easy with her tail hitting my head and meowing for food an hour early.

Mood is okay. Lots of virtual hugs for everyone.

Food poisoning is the worst!
I'll never forget it. I hope everyone feels better soon!

I think you are very courageous to participate in the fashion show!
Wow!

Feel better soon!

WC

[Tucson]

I am so scared.. I will be in front of a judge very shortly. I do not know what to do. I need some heYesterday my whole body is shaking

[wildflowerchild25]

Power lines are looking low. I hope we don’t lose power!!! This storm sucks. I keep hearing things outside that sound like bangs but it could be car doors and things like that. Or it could be branches falling, hard to say.

I’m tired from only 3 hours of sleep but I can’t sleep. I wish I could nap. I hope my meds work tonight. I was having fun with hypomania but I Hagen not sleeping. I wanna listen to
Music to quiet my mind right now but I can’t put my headphones in bc I need to keep my phone on the charger.

First world problems right?

I've been around, just lurking. I failed in my attempt to eat on schedule and am back to eating at will. Sigh! I guess on some level i have decided that the pleasure of eating indulgently outweighs the disadvantages -- 'outweighs' both literally and figuratively, haha. Anyways, i am enjoying not harrassing myself about eating.

When i was little and me or my sister would cry over some little thing my mom would always say, "Are you a Sugar-Plum Fairy or a Real Tough Kid?" We would tearfully say, "A Sugar-Plum Fairy!" The years have passed but i am still the same.

My mom was a functional alcoholic. She chose to live with indulgent drinking and i guess i am choosing to live with indulgent eating. The consequences of my disorder are less tho, so that's something and i'm not hurting five children, just my dog, who i can't be active with.

I'm having such a nice time just now. There's a snowstorm outside but i am cozy inside with mood music playing and my huge TV tuned to the aquarium channel and a full stomach -- such pleasures!

[leomama]

I'm trying to decide if snarky people have personality disorders or not. They say they do.

[giddykitty]

i haven't found it yet, if it does exist, but I was looking for a similar thread to this in the borderline section. Sadly, I think that's probably what I have. Therapist seems to concur today and my Nurse Practicioner brought it up last visit when she recommended the actual psychiatrist. I'm sure I've said this a few times already on this site.

Anyway, it's been a long, sad, painful, and emotional last few days. I've had cuts and blisters on my fingers for weeks, but it's gotten so bad today with menstrual inflammation on top of it. I am so damn sick of crying but there isn't much I can do. I kicked a door this evening (had shoes on) and it feels good to do that stuff, but my husband isn't so pleased with me destroying our things ("his" things). Anyway, that's pretty frustrating. Life is just frustrating! God, all I've been doing all this past week is complain. But it's just getting to be a lot again. Boo!!!

And I really don't want to do taxes at this point, but that s*&^ needs to get done. (we probably cannot curse on this site, right? sorry. and it's hard for me to say sorry in this moment, but deep down, I'm sorry i can't control myself like people around me expect I should.) *sigh*

[Tucson]

I had the shakes where my hands, arms, and body shook. I do not know where this came from. I ate dinner which helped, or did it? This might be coincidental to my AP being taken 24 hours ago. I think it is medication related. I may have to find a way to see my pdoc soon about this, regardless of my appt being a few months away. By the way, the judge decided that I was in the wrong, so I had to pay a couple hundred for the ticket.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Tuscon, could the shaking have been from epinephrine related to the court case? I know if something really stressful happens to me I shake for quite a while.

summer depression is deffenetly here

hitting me really early this year (barely even spring yet)

locked away in my room just feeling a bit blah

*wants losts of rain*

[Moreta]

I feel better now. I got out and did some grocery shopping yesterday and sent my husband's package. Gotta love when you eat something that just tears up your gut and sets everything off. Was kinda scary. I'm pretty sure it was the cucumbers. Some lame *** **** right there.

[Unrigged64072835]

Quiet day for the most part. Kids took their car in for minor maintenance, so they were home most of the time. This evening they're seeing a friend of theirs who was in a car accident (everyone's okay).

Wrote a couple of poems and did some site maintenance.

Can't see a doctor until next week. Everyone's booked. I stopped taking the antibiotic for my rosacea. I'll get some pre/probiotics and see if that helps. Maybe I can get off of the Prilosec then. I usually don't have good service with anyone other than my doc, but she's not back from maternity leave yet.

My mood is okay; just down from all the physical stuff.

ETA: received new walking shoes today. My other ones are over a year old and I crunched the cushioning flat, plus worn the edges due to pronation. Now I can get on the treadmill with less pain.

[liveforsummer]

Moods ok but like you Fharraige, it’s the other physical issues that’s getting me down. It’s like ya can’t catch a break...so annoying!

Hugs and hoping tomorrow’s a brighter day

just going to take this time to post how excited I am.

just read through one of my new threads, and got loads of new ideas for my bucket list.

yay

[Tucson]

I feel really sad for my daughter. I am seeing that she is irresponsible and then uses lies as excuses. She has just changed 18. She is an adult now, but still very immature. I believe she has some real hard lessons to learn in life. I guess all I can do is be there for her. What did I do that has caused this? I think I must of made some big mistakes with her as she grew up. I have tried my best, but it may not have been enough. I only want the best for her, and most importantly, for her to be happy. I want this for her so much.

I have been really depressed lately. I have not been cleaning up after myself, and I have not been taking care of business. My meds are not working well enough. My next appointment is not for some time yet. I think I will eat out at some relatively inexpensive restaurant. I do not feel like being alone right now.

Yesterday, my entire body started to shake. It effected me emotionally. I went to the ER. I just barely got there for I thought I was going to lose it. Once they found out that I am bipolar, they released me with their diagnosis of conversion. They think my anxiety manifested itself into physical symptoms. I was not particularly anxious. Normal level of anxiety. I do think this is medication related.

[lucymae1]

I slept most of the day. I can't seem to move almost like I'm frozen. I don't understand this. Is this part of my Bipolar???? I feel full of anxiety probably because I have to confront my therapist tomorrow and how much his invalidation of me caused me to call a crisis line twice. I hate this!!! I want to move. I want to wash my hair for gosh sakes!!!!! Sometimes I can push myself through and sometimes I can't. I think I'll take an anxiety pill.