I've felt good on occasion these past few days and was hopeful my Spring mania was starting. But now i feel miserable, sick and dirty, more dead than alive.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by apfei

I've felt good on occasion these past few days and was hopeful my Spring mania was starting. But now i feel miserable, sick and dirty, more dead than alive.

I am sorry you feel rotten.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[leomama]

Work went fairly well today, no complaints. Have a lot of cooking to do in an hour.

[glennk]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

hi, Have you seen the Latuda coupon online? A discount is available through the manufacturer. Different people pay different amounts with the coupon. My apologies if you have already considered this.


WC

My Medicare status negates any discount coupons. As for Sunovion, they aren't giving free anything to Medicare recipients.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by glennk

My Medicare status negates any discount coupons. As for Sunovion, they aren't giving free anything to Medicare recipients.

Have you tried applying for patient assistance and including a statement explaining you can't afford the medication despite having part d? I've done this successfully for years with a number of pharmaceutical companies. I feel like I got something through Sunovion this way but I can't remember what or when.

I just write a note that while I have Part D the copay for the medication is impossible when combined with the need to spend my limited income on things like housing, food, etc. And explain that this the ONLY med that has ever helped me with depression or asthma or whatever.

It's worth a try.

[leomama]

Started watching dark in earnest tonight and I’m hooked. I love the atmosphere, the ominous and foreboding mood, and the way the characters talk to each other. It also is encouraging me to keep watching the returned and twin peaks. For me these kinds of shows do afford me relief after a work day.

[wildflowerchild25]

Not sure what’s happening mood wise. I took an Ativan before work. I’m definitely feeling calmer. Still trying to finagle Thursday and Friday off, even though I didn’t ask the dr for fmla. I have a family illness day so I can say my son is sick. Which, he actually is, he just doesn’t need to stay home from school. It’s allergies, I’m fairly certain. Now that all the plants are blooming. I feel like if I could have a couple of days off to let the rexulti increase work I might be better equipped to deal with this. So I think I’m going to do it. End game is they fire me. As I’ve said that can only help at this point.

Ativan is making me feel calm but kind of out of it. But not terribly so. Definitely workable.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Not sure what’s happening mood wise. I took an Ativan before work. I’m definitely feeling calmer. Still trying to finagle Thursday and Friday off, even though I didn’t ask the dr for fmla. I have a family illness day so I can say my son is sick. Which, he actually is, he just doesn’t need to stay home from school. It’s allergies, I’m fairly certain. Now that all the plants are blooming. I feel like if I could have a couple of days off to let the rexulti increase work I might be better equipped to deal with this. So I think I’m going to do it. End game is they fire me. As I’ve said that can only help at this point.

Ativan is making me feel calm but kind of out of it. But not terribly so. Definitely workable.

Does rexulti help with anxiety?
bizi

[Moreta]

I feel pretty decent today. My husband kinda irked me though. I was talking about how I've been doing more and he kinda dismissed it and said it was all voluntary and it wasn't like it was a job. I was complaining that I'd like a day to have to do nothing. It's been close to 3 years since I've actually done stuff to take care of myself and I feel better mentally and physically and after explaining that he got what I was talking about and was happy about that.

Today is a gym day and I have to pick up me and my husband's meds as well. I found out insurance will cover nuvigil and since I hit my out of pocket max already it's gonna be free. I need to call in some prescriptions as well, so I should probably do that now, then have some breakfast. Today will be a good day.

[Fuzzybear]

It’s snowy outside, a good reason to stay in my cave. Anxiety and mood aren’t as bad as yesterday.. not sure if I’ll be able to catch any salmon for supper though.

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by bizi

Does rexulti help with anxiety?
bizi

Supposedly. That’s what my pdoc said anyway. So we shall see.

I’m actually doing well today so far. I don’t know if it’s the idea of taking two days off or if the Ativan is keeping me mellow. Maybe both.

[hopeless2015]

Doing ok, not as agitated as I was the last couple days. Taking the late lunch hour, everyone else had stuff going on so breaks are all out of whack. Makes the afternoon go faster so I'm good with that. Sending out to everyone

moved in yesterday and been keeping busy.

feeling good right now.

[Unrigged64072835]

Filed my tax return for last year. Going back to school has its advantages. Now if I don't freak out about being audited (as I do every single year)...

Picked up my med, daughter's labs are done, and my gums and teeth have been poked to Hell at the periodontist's. Still have to plan meals though. Bleah. I also called the last T I met and told her I want another appointment. I won't see the other T until April.

Calming down a little bit. Tomorrow will be quieter, thank goodness.

Today would've been my mother's birthday. She died about eight years ago. A little bit of sadness today.

[Guiness187055]

Really go nothing done today. Anxiety is through the roof. Waiting for disability lawyer to call back.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Filed my tax return for last year. Going back to school has its advantages. Now if I don't freak out about being audited (as I do every single year)...

Picked up my med, daughter's labs are done, and my gums and teeth have been poked to Hell at the periodontist's. Still have to plan meals though. Bleah. I also called the last T I met and told her I want another appointment. I won't see the other T until April.

Calming down a little bit. Tomorrow will be quieter, thank goodness.

Today would've been my mother's birthday. She died about eight years ago. A little bit of sadness today.

(((((( Fharraige ))))))

Mothers are special.

WC

[Wander]

Hi everyone. So sorry I haven’t been commenting on your posts recently but I’ve been very unwell. Still, I have been reading your posts and wish you all well.

For over a month I’ve been in a mixed episode. It has been hell. My mood has been up and down. Very agitated and having hallucinations. Also constantly feel like I’m in a movie which can be amazing at times but when it’s dark I’m very scared. My pdoc was of no help but my T has been an incredible support. He is helping me stay out of hospital and cope with my symptoms. I’ve started taking Haloperidol again but can only take it for a few days at a time as it makes my vision blurry. Unfortunate as it helps immensely. Guess I’m going to have to ride this out.

I’ve started back at university and feel overwhelmed already. Not sure if I will make it though this semester if my health doesn’t improve but I will try. This movie feeling is very unsettling as I have to act all the time. I know what social norms expect so I do that but I don’t know who I am or where I am. Life is frightening right now as I often don’t know what’s real. I have a finger nail grip on reality and know I could go into full blown psychosis at any time. Anyway, that’s my update.

[Cocosurviving]

My day was good. My daughter was home sick from school. I fixed breakfast and lunch. I’m still fighting a cold myself. I’ve been drinking lots of water all day. I talked to my mom, aunt and grandmother today. I text my older daughter. She just started depression meds and she’s sick. I told her to try saltine crackers and ginger ale.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

So glad you are starting to feel better!

I have been concerned.

Thanks for the update.



WC

Thank you so much. I’m feeling much better now.

[xRavenx]

I'm just going through a lot of anxiety. I have work and some extra responsibilities there that I am (supposed to) take care of. I had a urine test come back with some abnormality (high protein, which could indicate kidney issues, but they are hoping it's just because I had a possible UTI). It turns out the antibiotic for the suspected UTI did not help, so I have to take another test. In the meantime though, I have bladder pressure and pain by my appendix. I am praying it's not appendicitis so that I don't have to go to the hospital. My head is spinning from all these steps I have to take. I was hoping that I could avoid missing work. I have so much anxiety when I miss! Two separate doctors were involved with this, so I have to hope I can get in with someone tomorrow and find out something. These symptoms are really causing me a lot of discomfort, and I hope it's not a kidney problem either.

Anyway, hugs to all who need them.

[wildflowerchild25]

I took an Ativan right before work. It took about an hour to kick in but when it did...it was amazing. I was so calm. I wasn’t having ANY of my crazy worries. I even knew my co teacher was being observed and I didn’t care. And I felt totally confident. I actually understood what was going on today. I was able to help the kids without messing them up. Now, that all may change but...it was a great day.

I guess it lasted about ten hours. I came home, took care of a few thing, then went out to pick up my son. Took him to the store and dinner. By the time we got though...switch flipped. Seeing the ****ing mess in my house just flipped me into a rage. And it was at my son, because the mess is his fault. He’s the messy one. I’m constantly cleaning up after him. I mean full on rage. I told him I would NOT put his toy together unless he cleaned off the dining room table PROPERLY. When he tried to half *** it I yelled at him until he did it right. Then I tried to put this stupid ****ing toy together...I’m telling you, not good when you’re already pissed off. I hate building things.

I had to take another Ativan to calm down. I know it doesn’t sound like much but I am afraid of myself when I get so angry like that. I’m too paranoid to write the thoughts I have but they’re not good. And I hate myself for them, and my actions.

I had hoped to only have to take the Ativan once a day to help me through work, but if I need it to keep from getting too angry...I guess I’ll take it. I’m hoping the extra rexulti will stabilize my mood somewhat so I’m not so mixed and irritable in the first place, and then I’ll need less Ativan. Also I need to learn rage management skills from my therapist.

But I did decide to power though the week. I might still take Friday off, we will see. But definitely not tomorrow.

due to extreme weather, the people who were meant to come to install my sky, can't come

a little annoyed... payed for it and everything, and it means I have to go another day without tv (never good),

but hopefully they'll sort it out soon, and if they don't come out they'll at least think about giving me a refund.

you can only hope

apart from that though I am still feeling good.

good mood is lasting

[99fairies]

I am over the moon today. My side effect meds came in yesterday! I hope and pray that I will be pain free in a few days (as it gets into my system.)

I can't take it anymore. Total desperate mess.

[hopeless2015]

Hugs innerzone!!!

I'm doing better today. Been messaging with my best friend and it's a good distraction from my problems. One of my co-workers is sneezing and snotting. I wish she would go home. Seems like o just have to look at someone sick and come down with it myself.

Hugs everyone!!