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#876
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My day was pretty nice. It’s spring break I do not have to get up early. I woke up around 9 AM and walked the dog. I prepared me some breakfast then watched the news. I went to visit my mom and grandmother.
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#877
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I feel depressed right now. I need to go grocery shopping, but instead I am tied to this sofa watching CNN. I do not agree with much of what comes on that program, but for the most part, IMO they act as professionals. They lean heavily against Trump to the point of being rediculous at times, to the point of I dare say hateful towards Trump. FNC is IMO “ameture hour” with several of their segments. They lean heavily toward Trump, at times to the point of not making much sense to me. Both have segments of adequate straight forward news reporting. So this is what I watch for the most part. I guess you can call me a news junkie.
![]() Not long ago I had a routine and was disciplined enough to keep to my routine. Not so much anymore. I have some messes around the house that I should deal with. This includes allot of dirty dishes in the kitchen. The kitchen floor is very dirty. The cat box needed changing for several days now. I have not been eating properly. Oh well. I guess I need to operate dealing with one thing at a time. Furthermore, I have been spending money much more than I usually spend. I have been eating out lately instead of using the money to pay down my debt. Not good at all. |
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#878
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I feel. Mean, that's not a normal feeling for me. It a been a weird week
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Current Meds Lamictal 200 mg x2 Seroquel 100 mg |
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#879
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made it 30 days alcohol free, went to the gym 3 times this week. drank a gallon of water 3 days in a row. dieting going well. 169.5
![]() computer usage is out of control. ![]() oh well. bizi
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#880
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I’m drowning. I’m f**king drowning. Started Rexulti two days ago. Maybe it is causing this. Texted my T and he said tocall the hospital but I don’t want to go. Not in danger but heading that way. Very down and agitated. Trying to study for a test on Monday but can’t concentrate or recall anything. I’m terrified I will have to drop out of this semester. It would crush me. Do I stop Rexulti now or wait till I talk to my pdoc on Monday? Have work tomorrow (Sunday). Can’t imagine how I will cope. It is all falling apart.
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#881
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I am sorry wander that you are having these difficulties.
((((HUGS)))) bizi
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#882
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#883
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Man I'm so nervous. I'm going canvassing in a bit and my partner is gonna be a college student. Idk what college students talk about now. I've been out of college for 11 years now. Do I just say "lit" and "fam" a lot? hahaha. Damn I got old.
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#884
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I am alive.
I'm not well and I'm certainly not happy, but I'm doing okay, if that makes sense probably not though |
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#885
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD ![]() "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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#886
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This made me laugh as I work with high schoolers and lit and fam come up a lot lol.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#887
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#888
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haha. i lasted about 30 seconds of watching that. what happened to kids these days? can we bring back some real words? lmao. when i was in high school the things to say were "cool beans" "woot" and we said "word" a lot and called everyone dude. Damn I graduated HS 15 years ago this year. Doesn't make me feel old AT ALL.
Other than that my back decided to kink up so canvassing went out the window today. Will work on data today and trying to get my back better so I can go canvassing tomorrow. My new friend is probably going to go tomorrow. I like talking to her and feel a lot more comfortable trying to be an extrovert and all. My back has been feeling better since I've lost 30 lbs since December (50 lbs since Nov 2016) so I guess I just slept wrong last night. Who knows. |
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#889
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![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I hope you feel better soon! ![]() WC
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#890
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Thank you for your continue support wild thing!
(((((HUGS)))) bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#891
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I'm doing OK so far today. Still not much appetite after a bout of stomach flu. I picked up some Gatorade as the stomach flu really dehydrated me. I think I have finally met a friend IRL who understands psych issues as she has anxiety and has bipolar as well.
My concentration is the pits though. I thought I had fed one of my cats then ended up dropping her food bowl (with wet food, of course) from the top of the refrigerator because I hadn't pushed it bad from the door far enough (I have another cat who will eat any and all left out food, hence putting the bowl on top of the fridge.) Now, I have to go buy another cat food bowl. I usually love to read, and I can barely make it past a couple of paragraphs in the book I am reading, and I don't think it is because of the quality of the writing. Maybe falling a bit into depression? At least I see my pdoc next week. |
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#892
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Lost an unintended 5lbs from not eating much. Just not hungry.
![]() I think the weight loss is due to all the stress from being afraid of instability since my insurance is making me change meds. I mean, I'm finally compliant with my meds, and now this... They're assholes. Otherwise, doing ok. However, I'm sleeping A LOT because I have 0 energy (probably from not eating much). I hope to find some healthy ways to keep me awake, as Ritalin isn't helping... |
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#893
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It’s Saturday so I have laundry and choir. I’m tired.
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#894
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i wish I would lose 5 pounds. sorry you are feeling blue. (((((HUGS))))) bizi ![]()
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#895
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Feeling really good today. I think the doxepin that I am taking for sleep is making me slightly hypo.
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#896
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After several days of not sleeping, I've slept for 2 days in a row now and feel a lot better. Or by better, I mean normal for me.
However, I had been just on the cusp of a euphoric hypomania and now that's been crushed. By sleep I suppose. I know I 'should' be happy to be 'normal' again, but I must admit I'm very disappointed that the euphoria was not able to take flight. I know what comes afterwards, I know, and yet I was just starting to feel it and the 'drug' cravings for that were so strong. That's why I stopped the Seroquel, or in part. But no good. I started to sleep again. I'm feeling down and not quite sure why. I guess I feel 'boring' again, my old self, which is only the shadow of my old old self (pre-medicated) when hypomania was periodically a part of my life and all that that entailed, the good, the bad, and the ugly. I want the good, the great, the on top of the world. And it's eluded me. |
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#897
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I am so tired. I have no time to exercise and that frustrates me. I have just enough time to sleep, do laundry and go to choir practice. I just want to run a 5k and I can’t today. I also don’t have time to cook anything for the potluck. I’m depressed but I’m taking my medication, supplements, trying to stay hydrated and get proper nutrition. I’m frustrated.
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#898
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Took daughter's cat back for urinalysis. The UTI is almost gone, but vet wants another round of antibiotics to completely clear it. That was a cost we weren't expecting. She's still not as expensive as our cat (that costs $450 a pop when she's sick plus $65 a month for special food) but she's getting there. Take her back in two weeks. Thankfully we had money set aside for food, or else we'll all be eating cat food!
Daughter has her job interview in 20 minutes. She's nervous but that's to be expected. Been working on redoing one of my playlists so I can play music I haven't listened to in a while. That plus the usual stuff. Mood is okay, though a little down because of the cat. |
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#899
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Oh and my narc dad texted me to tell me what he and my mom were doing which further depressed me.
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Now that I have the Adderall dosages at a tolerable, yet effective level, I think it's helping. Here's hoping.
I hope everyone is having a good day today! ![]() Love to All! ![]() WC
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