[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

I was on the phone and e-mailing most of today. Then I sat on the sofa completely still and I actually had racing thoughts. Thoughts of what should I do next. I was just freaking out in my mind. The assistant manager is a b*****. She e-mailed me back and told me to use my renters insurance to cover my damages. 1. This situation was not caused by a natural disaster or act of God. 2. This situation was not caused by a malfunctioning appliance in my unit. 3. This situation was caused by a malfunctioning appliance of the tenant above me and her insurance policy needs to cover my damages. The assistant manager in her e-mail said she had never had anything like this happen. The manager is on vacation until Monday. I do not understand why she would tell me to use my policy when she clearly knows the leak started on the third floor. I have trust issues. I’m calling the NAACP tomorrow.

Surely seems like the other person's insurance is liable for the damages!
I hope this gets sorted out easily.


WC

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I have been doing okay, could be better, could be worse.
Have been able to get out, which has been fun.
Saw a different local band last night. They were very talented.
There are soooo very many free concerts, good ones, available almost every night of the week this summer. I love music.

I have meeting #2 with my new pdoc today. I need to tell her how much our last meeting triggered PTSD. She's already mentioning possible med changes we might consider and is making me nervous. I have tried and re-tried soooooo many meds, I am not game for putting myself through some of the same trials again. It's too hard due to side-effects and is too expensive.

Love to All!

WC

I think your doc should be more meticulous with your medical history, rather than treat you like a lab rat.
I relate, I've got anxiety to the point where I've started smoking weed to cope with my upcoming appointment for a psyc evaluation. I've already suggested the medication I want.

My pain management on the other hand asked me if I wanted oxycodone hydrochloride....

It was hell getting off that stuff, but now I can't stop thinking about if I just said yes.

I wouldn't of been so dumpy rite now if I just said YES

But overthinking things now is just painful. I wrote a letter...then I saw THIS in the morning and I don't even remember writing it.

Ox

feeling good.

got out to the park for a while today- also went to the shop to get me some coke (oxygen)

watched the football last night, relieved that england are out of the world cup... I mean, I'm gutted for all the thousands of fans who wanted to see them in the final, but relieved it's all over now

now this sunday I won't be hearing come on england come on england.. everywhere I go!

ah the simple joys..

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by 2ISAB

I think your doc should be more meticulous with your medical history, rather than treat you like a lab rat.
I relate, I've got anxiety to the point where I've started smoking weed to cope with my upcoming appointment for a psyc evaluation. I've already suggested the medication I want.

My pain management on the other hand asked me if I wanted oxycodone hydrochloride....

It was hell getting off that stuff, but now I can't stop thinking about if I just said yes.

I wouldn't of been so dumpy rite now if I just said YES

But overthinking things now is just painful. I wrote a letter...then I saw THIS in the morning and I don't even remember writing it.

Ox

Seeing a new pdoc can be anxiety provoking, for sure.

WC

[liveforsummer]

Life is a mish mash.

Hugs to everyone

[pirilin]

I've been lazy these couple of days.
The rest is doing me good.
I have a new technique, underwears.
If I'm in my underwear, I can't do much to the outside of the house.
If I'm inside, I can rest. It's cool and clean. If I rest, my ailments diminish.
BTW, who invented the underwear?.

[Unrigged64072835]

Watched my daughter practice parallel parking. It was her first attempt at it. She's a perfectionist, so she was easily frustrated. I really worked hard to keep my mouth shut, since she doesn't like people telling her what to do when she's driving. After a little coaching from my husband she did okay. Still needs a lot of practice. Thankfully we got the rental for the cones for a week at a cheaper rate. She will practice more with her friend this evening.

Other than that and another painful round of physical therapy, it's been a quiet day. I'm sitting at my desktop doing updates. I also put together the monitor stands. They seem to be okay, but I really need computer glasses. My multifocal lenses just aren't cutting it. Unfortunately my daughter's apartment manager slammed them with an earlier move-in date and more deposits, so we had to give some savings to do that. They swear they're going to pay us back, but I'm not holding my breath.

I'm doing okay. Need to get my afternoon med, though.

[Moose72]

Stayed up till 1 am playing with a new toy and on facebook and got up at 530. Had a drs appointment this morning too at 10. I took a 1/2 hour nap earlier but got up to go see a friend. Im just running these days.

[yellow_fleurs]

Hmm today I don't feel as depressed. I wouldn't say I am feeling super motivated, but a little better. It's also nice to not be raging as much. Still having some violent thoughts towards myself, but not as urgent or impulsive so I don't feel so unsafe. I hope this is a sign my moods are stabilizing and improving, but kind of worried I am just going to cycle around again. Guess all I can do is hold on for the ride haha.

[Scooter9]

Another feeling low day today.

My self-care has been suffering as this depression continues. I have been skipping showers, shaving, eating properly, etc. I committed to trying to improve things this week and I have slipped so far, but the good news is that I took care of myself today. I didn't eat properly but I did treat myself to a coffee at Starbucks with my son.

I'm not making any promises for tomorrow in terms of self-care but I'll do what I can.

Otherwise, today was not so busy - I didn't find any jobs to apply to and I didn't have anything pressing to get to. Later this evening I'll visit a relative who is staying in a nursing home.

[Victoria'smom]

I got my corset for my sister's wedding today so I don't look as big in pictures. My nephew is coming over tonight to finish his school work. We take them to their dream school for a tour next week. We're trying to get him in next semester so he has dorms and can start his BS. He needs dorms as his girlfriend's parents will only put up with him so long.

[Tucson]

I am here. Today I need to eat at least 2,500 calories. If I exercise, then the total will be more. My daughter is having a “reveal sex” party for her yet to be born baby. I have never heard of such a thing. She wants me to bring the soda.

[Pookyl]

Hubby arrives back from HK this morning. Yay!!

[Moose72]

https://www.healthyplace.com/diabete...bolic-syndrome

Look what i found. Mmm hmmmm...... Depakote and zyprexa!!!!!!

[wildflowerchild25]

Super stressed. I’ve got a huge bill from the ER which I shouldn’t have so I have to call and find out about that, and now unemployment is saying I never paid them back which I did and they took the money out of my account. So now I have to set aside half my day to call them. I’m getting no calls for interviews. I have to go to this temp agency to complete the application process which is in the city which makes me nervous. I hate everything about being unemployed at this point. It’s so stressful. And I have no money coming in so I can’t pay for ****. I hate my life at this point. It’s getting hard to see the good things.

I did get my oil changed ($70) and my inspection done. So at least I got something done today.

Sigh...I don’t do well under pressure. I definitely want a pack of real cigarettes but then when does it end? Then I’m just smoking again. That’s not helpful. Ugh. Fml.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Stayed up till 1 am playing with a new toy and on facebook and got up at 530. Had a drs appointment this morning too at 10. I took a 1/2 hour nap earlier but got up to go see a friend. Im just running these days.

Sounds like you might need to slow down a bit. Get more rest?

I'm getting a CAT scan next Thursday for my sinuses to see what's wrong. I'm looking forward to it actually, as I want to know why I can't breathe out of my nose. Probably polyps or deviated septum. Not sure which since I haven't been able to breathe out of my nose since I was about four or five?

I've been waiting since November to get this dumb scan. FINALLY it's happening. Let's just hope my insurance doesn't be a pain about it. They approved it, but idk how much they'll cover.

The insurance thing is making me anxious...

[Blueberrybook]

Doing OK today. It was a long day. Hubby feel asleep on the couch and came to bed at 3 AM, and I couldn't get back to sleep after that. I'm out once my night meds take affect, but if something wakes me in the night, I have a hard time going back to sleep.

Saw the pdoc this morning. He made some med changes. We'll see. He'd not been too concenrned about my weight before but showed some interest in it though really it's been fluctuating the same numbers since I first started seeing him. But I did go for a job and very hot walk before my appointment this morning. I was probably a bit dehydrated. Really don't have any money or desire to start dealing with ED stuff again because it's exhausting and expensive. The only free thing is usually groups, and ED groups trigger me like nothing else.

Didn't have time for breakfast before my appointment, but I picked up a breakfast sandwich and mocha afterwards. Had to rush to the store, get some milk, a few groceries, picked up a couple of my prescriptions. Some of them are mail-order, some the insurance won't refill yet, and others the store had to order, so they will be in tomorrow.

Took my daughter to camp, finally had some time to relax and had luckily brought some food to munch on, giving me an adequate, if unconventional, lunch. Glad today was the last day of that camp, but she has another of these in 2 weeks, and this Sunday evening, one of her best friend's church is having vacation Bible school. I really hope my husband takes her to that because I am just flat worn out.

Good news though...I was FINALLY able to read more than 25 pages in a book and am now just over 100 pages in. I'm been having trouble reading and concentrating for forever, and it really sucks because I love to read. I don't know, it's part of me that I have always tied very strongly to my identity, so not being able to read, has sucked so much.

[Cocosurviving]

This week keeps getting worse. I called my primary care doctor’s office to find out why no one had called me yet. I spoke to Linda. She said a referral was being done. I explained to her that a referral was not necessary that I just needed a name and number to a psychiatrist. Then Linda said some doctors only accept patients if they have been referred. I asked for the contact info and she gave it to me. I said “thank you” and she slammed the phone down. I called the psychiatrist office and introduced myself. I told the receptionist that Dr. ABC was my primary doctor. I asked her if her agency required referrals from a doctor? She said absolutely not insurance does not require that even. She took my name and number. Then said someone in the intake dept would call me. I called my primary’s office back and Linda answered. I asked to speak to a manager. I spoke to Barbara and she said, she does not know why a referral was even started. I simply asked to be called and given a name and phone number of a psychiatrist. Then I found the phone number to their HR. I filed a formal complaint with HR. I took a nap. Then I received a call from Diane. She was the director of my primary care doctor’s office. She said, she received the HR compliant on Linda. That she had also spoke to Barbara. That she read the notes that Linda took and gave to my doctor. That the notes were so confusing. That my request was so simple and her notes had my phone number. That she could have called me and gave me the contact info of the psychiatrist. I told Diane I have been dealing with social work and mental health for ten years. Seven of the ten years I worked for two insurance companies which is why I knew a referral was not needed. Plus I’ve had Medicare for two years. Diane said I really just do not know how I’m suppose to train some people. I have to discipline her as well. Diane was venting at this point and I did not know what to say. I thanked her for calling me and wished her good luck.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Surely seems like the other person's insurance is liable for the damages!

I hope this gets sorted out easily.




WC

Thank you. I hope once the manager is back in the office on Monday she will have some common sense. I have money saved up but I’m wanting to use it for grad school stuff. If this was caused by a natural disaster or act of God. Or appliance in my unit I would have no problem using my own insurance.

[Cocosurviving]

Oh on top of the crap week I’ve been having. I went to my primary doctor last week. My stomach gets upset all the time. She had me go to the lab. The nurse called me Tuesday and said my doctor recommended based on my labs that I start a gluten free diet. I’ve been doing better eating healthier. I never planned on doing gluten free. I’m so stressed right now. I’m trying to relax and use my coping skills. I had a nice shower.

Originally Posted by Moose72

https://www.healthyplace.com/diabete...bolic-syndrome

Look what i found. Mmm hmmmm...... Depakote and zyprexa!!!!!!

Yeah...I used to take zyprexa and drink every single day, but I only ate once a day.

I put on over 30 kgms while on zyprexa. Keeping in mind that I never put on any weight while the 20 years of drinking.

The hospital blames alcohol for my near death experience. I blame medication.

I'm currently on other prescription drugs and they are ALL bad for my liver.

At least I'm alive....for now.

Moral of the story: don't drink alcohol while on it.

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

Oh on top of the crap week I’ve been having. I went to my primary doctor last week. My stomach gets upset all the time. She had me go to the lab. The nurse called me Tuesday and said my doctor recommended based on my labs that I start a gluten free diet. I’ve been doing better eating healthier. I never planned on doing gluten free. I’m so stressed right now. I’m trying to relax and use my coping skills. I had a nice shower.

At least you smell nice right about now

[Sunflower123]

Apparently I grind my teeth at night in my sleep and nobody (my dentist) noticed I’d cracked my back tooth until I needed a root canal. Fun times! I was under the effects of nitrous oxide for one hour the first time and about an hour and a half the second time. I’ve noticed both times that for a few days after I have been seriously depressed with SI. Really bizarre. I’ll ask my pdoc about nitrous oxide when I see him Tuesday.

Have really enjoyed this summer with my daughter. It’s the first time we’ve been able to have a relationship when I’ve been relatively stable and depression free and I’ve cherished every minute. She has too. She goes back Wednesday, July 18th to work as a math camp counselor. I’ll miss her.

Sending hugs to those that need them.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Apparently I grind my teeth at night in my sleep and nobody (my dentist) noticed I’d cracked my back tooth until I needed a root canal. Fun times! I was under the effects of nitrous oxide for one hour the first time and about an hour and a half the second time. I’ve noticed both times that for a few days after I have been seriously depressed with SI. Really bizarre. I’ll ask my pdoc about nitrous oxide when I see him Tuesday.

Have really enjoyed this summer with my daughter. It’s the first time we’ve been able to have a relationship when I’ve been relatively stable and depression free and I’ve cherished every minute. She has too. She goes back Wednesday, July 18th to work as a math camp counselor. I’ll miss her.

Sending hugs to those that need them.

Enjoy hearing from you!
I have also cracked molars the same way.
I haven't tried the nitrous oxide.
I am so glad you have had quality time with your daughter and you have been feeling relatively well!!! YES!!!
Thanks for the update.

WC