[Moose72]

BirdDancer- im having an inspection and im not as motivated as you! Good for you.

[Daonnachd]

Smoky, red sun here, too. We've got a couple of fires burning close by.

Today I see my pdoc. It's just the requisite meeting before ECT.

pretty boring sunday eventually

mood was okay but that's as far as it went

meal- less than average,

plans- nah,

motivation- so so

today seems a repeat of yesterday

same good mood but not really bothered with doing much

I did eventually find a good copy of molly malone

wasn't sure if I wanted the pogues or the dubbliners, but I settled on the pogues in the end.

[wildflowerchild25]

I got a call back From that job - it’s looking good that I might be hired AND they might be submitting me for an even better position within the school. I’m excited. I hope it works out!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I got a call back From that job - it’s looking good that I might be hired AND they might be submitting me for an even better position within the school. I’m excited. I hope it works out!

Woohoo! Congrats!

[Miss Laura]

After emailing a counsellor at 3am this morning I got a response at 1pm. Been emailing her. We are gonna have an initial appt soon. I emailed her my availability.

Feeling good despite 2 hours sleep and a stonker of a sore head.

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I got a call back From that job - it’s looking good that I might be hired AND they might be submitting me for an even better position within the school. I’m excited. I hope it works out!

That's cool. I hope you get it.

I've been applying to places too, but no response back. But it's a great feeling when you do get a response. Congrats.

[Moose72]

My "buddy" has refused a visit because he feels "a bit depressed". Whatever that means. No he's not diagnosed. But I figure that whatever that is plus my hypo/mania can't be a good combination so I dropped the topic. *sigh* I WANT SEX!

I'm working on preparations for my husband's nephew's and his girlfriend's three day visit starting tomorrow night. I'm feeling overwhelmed. I've done a lot today already, but am taking a breather. I just entered the least comfortable days of my monthly period, and have had toothaches for days. I really hope hubby does all of the vacuuming and cleans his bathroom, which our guests will use.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Re your trigger part of your post: watch that carefully. Thats how I started off before I wentthrough with it. I think theres a post in a thread about it- it starts with "triggger warning" and all the posts are such.

Thank you for this. Since this is new territory for me, it helps to keep this in mind from your experiences.

[Unrigged64072835]

Didn't have a good morning. I was at my desktop and noticed a spot of bubbled paint in the corner. Moved my desk out and saw it was damp but not really wet. We live in a duplex townhouse, and water was coming in between the two houses from some old flashing. Roof guy said they'll put some new flashing there but the neighbors need to fix their roof. Since the last time I saw our neighbors I don't even know if they live there anymore or abandoned the place. I just hope the new flashing works. At least it's free.

In the midst of moving my desktop (because of course, my computer is right there), my monitor fell over and ended up getting scratched--as in a big scratch right in the center. The warranty is crap so now I'm out of a desktop for a couple of months. I still have my laptop but I do my photo editing on my desktop.

I'm still in pain but not too bad. Mainly my back and feet.

ETA: Oh yeah, just found out I have labs and need to make an appointment with my physical doc afterwards. Yay!

Hope you all are doing okay or just holding on.

[Scooter9]

Went to a family friend's place last night. There was drinking involved but I stuck with 2 beers. I didn't feel a buzz but I didn't drive home to be on the safe side.

The conversation and food were good. A nice evening out.

I'm still feeling low but I'm out at the moment getting my favourite coffee... free on points too!

[Miss Laura]

I'm really happy well as happy as I was today. I'm seeing a counsellor on 7th Aug. Did my expect it do quickly. It's an initial appt to see how she can help me. I don't mind paying if it's going to help

[Blueberrybook]

I am exhausted. My daughter's insomnia is getting out of hand. It woke me just after 1 AM last night. Then, I heard her use the bathroom 3 times in a 45 minute period, which kept waking me. BTW, I don't think she has a UTI or anything; I think she just thinks about going and then feels she has to go. Her restroom habits have been completely normal today, and even though she is getting shy about her private areas, she always lets me know if she has some issue there. One time, she actually got a yeast infection (I knew it because of the complaints of itching) and another an actual UTI (which she complained about). Once I go to sleep for the night, I'm a light sleeper. If I get woken from my sleep, it is usually hours before I can fall back to sleep.

I finally curled up on the futon this morning and just managed to fall asleep, when my daughter came in, completely awake (this was around 9 AM, a normal wakeup time). Maybe I got 30 minutes there.

I had some emails to deal with this morning, and I also sent off some secretarial type resumes to the school district where my husband works. My BIL has an aunt very high up in the chain of command in that school district, and I told her, things were desperate, please pass my stuff on to HR, and she said she would. I also asked her if she knew of any internal low-stress jobs she could get me into because of the ulcer & my daughter (didn't mention any MI issues). Stress does not cause ulcers like they used to think; usually they are caused by a combo of a bacterial infection and use of NSAIDs, but that being said, if you have an ulcer, they do believe stress can make it worse. So we'll see. I did notice at least all my submissions are screening straight through to HR now instead of taking weeks a piece, so maybe she helped out there. It would be a job much more low paying than my degree; I have an M.S. in Cell & Molecular Biology. But half the time now, when I've tried to work in the field, I'm just not happy. Sometimes, the meds make my hands tremor a bit, and it is no good for running DNA or protein gels. You have to have an extremely steady hand, particularly for the protein gels (my area of study); those run vertically, are super-thin and require delicately handling of the gel after running (sometimes overnight if it's a large gel & big protein), you can split those things apart in a second. Some of the processes involve very intense multi-step staining where you are having to pick this delicate gel up and into and out of tons of different solutions. The staining can literally take all day, and then you hope you don't rip it in the UV viewer. Plus, my brain just can't follow/process the minute science stuff any more. I don't know if it's because I've forgotten it since I've been away from the field since 2004, or if it is related to the meds. A little of both I think.

But even a clerical job paying $20,000-25,000 a year would let us keep our house, and I let BIL's aunt know that. Also, I am sure she has the up and up on which principals are easier to work with than others; she goes around school to school often during the school year; my husband sees her many times at the high school where he works.

I am exhausted though. I did manage another nap, maybe close to 2 hours in the late morning. If my FitBit is to be believed, I got a grand total of 4 hours 32 minutes of sleep since 9 PM last night, and boy, do I feel like it.

I'm a bit nauseous as well, probably from the lack of sleep. I also tend to get nauseous near this time in my menstrual cycle, but I'll keep an eye on it. If it doesn't go away, I'm calling up the gastro-doc ASAP.

My pdoc told me I could take 5-10 mg melatonin as well to help with sleep, so I think I am going to try that tonight. I didn't get much sleep the night before.

And what to do with my daughter...hubby lets her stay up too late, but then, she still can't sleep, she'll be awake at 5 AM in the morning, not able to sleep and panicky because she has school the next day or a playdate or something. The pediatrician said to give her some melatonin, but of course, my husband is against it. School starts August 15. We've got to get her on a working school schedule.

[Moose72]

Good luck on the job. And I hope your and your daughter's sleep gets straightened out.

[giddykitty]

Well, going from one emotion to the other today. See I've been waiting for what seems like forever for my Neuro psych results and they had to reschedule already. Now I was having to reschedule possibly because of my period (I get really bad days). But they weren't going to get me in until September and that's a long time. So what did I do? Cry. Because I was thinking I might have to suffer through this appointment and well, that would suck. Not to mention, I kinda wanna be present for it. Well, so I was pretty much feeling bad (super pissed). But then husband called and said I need to cancel everythi g this week anyway. Yea, something about our insurance switching over so we should wait a few days. So well as much as it sucks not to get in, I was very relieved that this decision was made for me because i probably would have canceled anyway. And well guess what? I even got an end of August reschedule instead of September, so unless the insurance is still an issue, this might work out perfectly! So I'm feeling kinda grateful now.

Now I just need to reschedule my pdoc appointment t. Let's hope that's easy.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by cln1812

I am exhausted. My daughter's insomnia is getting out of hand. It woke me just after 1 AM last night. Then, I heard her use the bathroom 3 times in a 45 minute period, which kept waking me. BTW, I don't think she has a UTI or anything; I think she just thinks about going and then feels she has to go. Her restroom habits have been completely normal today, and even though she is getting shy about her private areas, she always lets me know if she has some issue there. One time, she actually got a yeast infection (I knew it because of the complaints of itching) and another an actual UTI (which she complained about). Once I go to sleep for the night, I'm a light sleeper. If I get woken from my sleep, it is usually hours before I can fall back to sleep.

I finally curled up on the futon this morning and just managed to fall asleep, when my daughter came in, completely awake (this was around 9 AM, a normal wakeup time). Maybe I got 30 minutes there.

I had some emails to deal with this morning, and I also sent off some secretarial type resumes to the school district where my husband works. My BIL has an aunt very high up in the chain of command in that school district, and I told her, things were desperate, please pass my stuff on to HR, and she said she would. I also asked her if she knew of any internal low-stress jobs she could get me into because of the ulcer & my daughter (didn't mention any MI issues). Stress does not cause ulcers like they used to think; usually they are caused by a combo of a bacterial infection and use of NSAIDs, but that being said, if you have an ulcer, they do believe stress can make it worse. So we'll see. I did notice at least all my submissions are screening straight through to HR now instead of taking weeks a piece, so maybe she helped out there. It would be a job much more low paying than my degree; I have an M.S. in Cell & Molecular Biology. But half the time now, when I've tried to work in the field, I'm just not happy. Sometimes, the meds make my hands tremor a bit, and it is no good for running DNA or protein gels. You have to have an extremely steady hand, particularly for the protein gels (my area of study); those run vertically, are super-thin and require delicately handling of the gel after running (sometimes overnight if it's a large gel & big protein), you can split those things apart in a second. Some of the processes involve very intense multi-step staining where you are having to pick this delicate gel up and into and out of tons of different solutions. The staining can literally take all day, and then you hope you don't rip it in the UV viewer. Plus, my brain just can't follow/process the minute science stuff any more. I don't know if it's because I've forgotten it since I've been away from the field since 2004, or if it is related to the meds. A little of both I think.

But even a clerical job paying $20,000-25,000 a year would let us keep our house, and I let BIL's aunt know that. Also, I am sure she has the up and up on which principals are easier to work with than others; she goes around school to school often during the school year; my husband sees her many times at the high school where he works.

I am exhausted though. I did manage another nap, maybe close to 2 hours in the late morning. If my FitBit is to be believed, I got a grand total of 4 hours 32 minutes of sleep since 9 PM last night, and boy, do I feel like it.

I'm a bit nauseous as well, probably from the lack of sleep. I also tend to get nauseous near this time in my menstrual cycle, but I'll keep an eye on it. If it doesn't go away, I'm calling up the gastro-doc ASAP.

My pdoc told me I could take 5-10 mg melatonin as well to help with sleep, so I think I am going to try that tonight. I didn't get much sleep the night before.

And what to do with my daughter...hubby lets her stay up too late, but then, she still can't sleep, she'll be awake at 5 AM in the morning, not able to sleep and panicky because she has school the next day or a playdate or something. The pediatrician said to give her some melatonin, but of course, my husband is against it. School starts August 15. We've got to get her on a working school schedule.

I hope you get some sleep.

I hope the perfect job presents itself to you.

WC

[Pookyl]

9am and I can’t seem to wake up. Wondering around in PJ’s in a Seroquel fog.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

9am and I can’t seem to wake up. Wondering around in PJ’s in a Seroquel fog.

Has your pdoc tried you on only 1 type of Seroquel at a time? I haven't seen people taking both types at once before. I was in a constant fog on the extended release version, but I do well on the normal release.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Yay Wildflowerchild! I hope this turns into something great.

[Moose72]

Apparently everybody asked where I was since I missed judo tonight. Sheesh! Cant a girl have a 2day old migraine and anxiety? My mom even called and when I told her why she tried to argue with me saaying "who told you that" and "I just push right through" (she has never done judo a day in her life) ugh

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by cln1812

Has your pdoc tried you on only 1 type of Seroquel at a time? I haven't seen people taking both types at once before. I was in a constant fog on the extended release version, but I do well on the normal release.

Yes I originally started with only Seroquel Immediate Release. Then as I progressively got worse we opted to add Seroquel XR to the mix rather than a new drug. I have a large number of pre-existing medical conditions and for some reason my body seems to be ok with both types of Seroquels.
E.g. it’s now 10:15am and the fog is gone
Anyhow, with my Seroquel it is currently:
300mg XR (no matter what)
225-350mg IR (constantly being tweaked to control my moods)

[Blueberrybook]

Praying for better sleep tonight.

[VerMOZZica]

Last week was bad. I started a new med and it made me physically ill. And the anxiety med made me so tired all day I couldn`t get anything done. I felt really depressed all last week too. Today was a bit better . I managed to get some stuff done. I cleaned my turtle`s tank and I gave the dogs a bath and also managed to clean the bathroom. I hope everyone had a good day today!