I've been stressing out. My grandma who I lived with died and we just laid her to rest today. Midterms are coming up for my college philosophy course and there's a lot of work I need to do for that. I've begun to hear voices that don't really come from anywhere again. ECT hasn't really helped with anything, maybe made things worse since I can't take my morning dose of clozaril the three times a week I have to go. I really need to apply for disability or find a job I can handle, too.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

When I had a dental emergency earlier this year, I had called around and found a dentist willing to agree to a payment plan. It took several calls to find one. Dental is so very expensive!

I wish you the best!

WC

Thanks for this.

[Blueberrybook]

Not running to the bathroom all the time any more but feeling bad with this stomach bug. I have been sick twice to my stomach since Feb 14 (perforated ulcer surgery), and both times it has beenwere horrid, like 5-10 years horrible in the grand scheme of things. The first one, OK, I was just off broad band antiobiotics, my immune system was recovering, so it could be expected though that was a close call with nearly needing an IV.

No throwing up with this bug, horrible diarrhea. Drinking water, Gatorade, had some toast and a banana. Have a fever, am shaky, freezing feet even with thick socks, freezing in general even with long sleeves.

Is it possible that ulcer surgery makes later stomach bugs worse than they would have been otherwise? There was some part of the surgery the G.I. doc told me wasn’t standard, more like a partial gastric sleeve or something, he didn’t go into details, and God knows I wasn’t up to details when the trauma surgeon team saw me in the hospital and when I saw them at the follow up for staple removal. Are all my future stomach bugs going to be this terrible? I can’t even walk straight yet. H said he didn’t feel anywhere this bad. I have stomach cramps, am turned off on food with this recent virus, and am weak. These things can incubate up to 2 weeks to a day or so before causing illness, so no telling where it came from in the first place.

At least, I am not throwing up this time, I suppose.

Anyone know anything about the severity of stomach bugs post stomach surgery recovery? I swear, I have only been so sick to my stomach a handful of times in my life, not counting the ulcer obviously. I eat yogurt daily (prone to recurring yeast infections). Are stomach bugs always going to be so bad now?

Tired, down a bit today. Between stomach, getting absolutely poured on unloading groceries, making my child a car rider because of feeling ill and the bad rain, the school office failing to give the message to her homeroom teacher, upsetting us both because neither was where we expected the other, I have had it.

Throw in a throbbing headache for fun. Drank a quart of Gatorade, more water. Will see if I have more Gatorade, am tiring of water. I hope I have a can of a bland soup for dinner. I guess otherwise it will be broth.

Not one of my best days.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by spikes

I've been stressing out. My grandma who I lived with died and we just laid her to rest today. Midterms are coming up for my college philosophy course and there's a lot of work I need to do for that. I've begun to hear voices that don't really come from anywhere again. ECT hasn't really helped with anything, maybe made things worse since I can't take my morning dose of clozaril the three times a week I have to go. I really need to apply for disability or find a job I can handle, too.

I am so sorry for the recent loss of your grandma.

I am also sorry ECT has not yet helped you.

Doing much better after two nights of fair sleep. Mood, energy, activity and pleasure are all up. Saw my doctor today and it went smoothly. We decided to stay the course. He's pleased that i'm doing so well. Wow, Wellbutrin is really powerful stuff!

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by spikes

I've been stressing out. My grandma who I lived with died and we just laid her to rest today. Midterms are coming up for my college philosophy course and there's a lot of work I need to do for that. I've begun to hear voices that don't really come from anywhere again. ECT hasn't really helped with anything, maybe made things worse since I can't take my morning dose of clozaril the three times a week I have to go. I really need to apply for disability or find a job I can handle, too.

Sorry for your loss. Grief can exacerbate our illness

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by spikes

I've been stressing out. My grandma who I lived with died and we just laid her to rest today. Midterms are coming up for my college philosophy course and there's a lot of work I need to do for that. I've begun to hear voices that don't really come from anywhere again. ECT hasn't really helped with anything, maybe made things worse since I can't take my morning dose of clozaril the three times a week I have to go. I really need to apply for disability or find a job I can handle, too.

So sorry. Grief makes everything so much worse

[~Christina]

Swollen feet and joints upon Rheumatologist exam today ... duh no big shocker there ! Fibromyalgia is also in a uproar.

Seeing my GP tomorrow I have to do something about my shoulder my husband has to hook my bra for me , I try and pain takes my breath away. Yet another pain! This getting old

Thankfully I see my T Richard on Wednesday I need the session I’m getting stuck in my head to much and it’s very loud, yet all I want is to stay in bed 16 hours a day

On a happy note I shopped for yarn to make a winter scarf and found something beautiful , so will slowly work on that dependent on how my shoulder reacts

Omelettes for dinner nice for a change. Been eating to much heavy foods.

Hugs to all that needs one

[Moreta]

Life is a joke.

[TheSeaCat]

I feel good today. I applied for two jobs the boyfriend and I have agreed its time for me to at least try. I applied for the Activities Director for a nursing home and to be a referral coordinator for another medical office. It would be big step for me since they are both full time and we talked about part time employment; but I feel I'm ready. I know it will be a struggle with the anxiety but I figure if its less public and more office work than it shouldn't be so bad.

I know it will be hard since I am also trying to get my Bachelor's degree at the same time but as one of my professor's said today. "If your dreams don't scare you, then the are not big enough; and I think I'm chasing something huge.

I still haven't heard anything from the Cardiology office so i figure if I don't hear anything tomorrow I'll call Wednesday and just check in.

If I can rant for just one second I'm annoyed with how many Cardiologist there are in my area compared to Psychiatrists; but my biggest issue is getting a pdoc to accept crappy state insurance. Maybe if I can nail one of the above positions I might be able to see one that doesn't neglect their patients. I am feeling for the most part stable with my current combo that my family doctor and I have discovered.

I hope everyone has a good night.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Swollen feet and joints upon Rheumatologist exam today ... duh no big shocker there ! Fibromyalgia is also in a uproar.

Seeing my GP tomorrow I have to do something about my shoulder my husband has to hook my bra for me , I try and pain takes my breath away. Yet another pain! This getting old

Thankfully I see my T Richard on Wednesday I need the session I’m getting stuck in my head to much and it’s very loud, yet all I want is to stay in bed 16 hours a day

On a happy note I shopped for yarn to make a winter scarf and found something beautiful , so will slowly work on that dependent on how my shoulder reacts

Omelettes for dinner nice for a change. Been eating to much heavy foods.

Hugs to all that needs one

I'm sorry your head is loud and that you are in pain. I hope the scarf turns out to be beautiful.

[hopeless2015]

So sorry for your loss spikes

[~Christina]

Spikes ....my condolences on your loss

Be kind to yourself

[Pookyl]

I like this:

[Moose72]

Trying to sleep soon.

[Moose72]

Cruelty hath a human heart and terror a human face. - part of a song i once sang.

We have not one thousand enemies, but one enemy with a thousand faces.

I did some DIY masonry this weekend:



Have I mentioned that I'm a dog?

[pirilin]

I'm good. Mentally. Hyper. Body hurts though.
Have worked two weekend shows in a row. After a five year hiatus.
Swollen feet. Knees crack. Wrists don't bend properly. Weight feels twice as heavy.
This next weekend, there will be another. I won't attend. Too much for too little.

I wanted to do this part time. When I felt like it. Like a hobby. Not work. No chains on me like I had before.
It's too demanding for a part time. Maybe I need to go bag groceries 20hrs a week at a supermarket.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by spikes

I've been stressing out. My grandma who I lived with died and we just laid her to rest today. Midterms are coming up for my college philosophy course and there's a lot of work I need to do for that. I've begun to hear voices that don't really come from anywhere again. ECT hasn't really helped with anything, maybe made things worse since I can't take my morning dose of clozaril the three times a week I have to go. I really need to apply for disability or find a job I can handle, too.

spikes - I’m sorry for your loss.

School can be stressful, especially at times like this. Good luck with catching up. Take it easy and don’t push yourself too hard during this difficult time.

I’m also sorry ECT doesn’t seem to be working. Are you going to continue or is there a med change that might help? Sending big hugs.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

I like this:

So true. I like this as well. Thanks for sharing it.

[Victoria'smom]

I went to the store and bought band-aids. I covered his body (except his face) in neosporin and band-aids. That doesn't mean he wont stop making new ones but at least he can't mess with his old one. He says school is getting to him. He's literally goes to class 6 hours a week! Yes he has homework but IDK what to do about it. I mean no other kid goes to school for that little time.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I went to the store and bought band-aids. I covered his body (except his face) in neosporin and band-aids. That doesn't mean he wont stop making new ones but at least he can't mess with his old one. He says school is getting to him. He's literally goes to class 6 hours a week! Yes he has homework but IDK what to do about it. I mean no other kid goes to school for that little time.

Please be careful with Neosporin, it can sensitize the skin. Or so my docs have told me. Wanted to pass this on to you. Soap and water helps a lot.

I am sorry Miguel is having a difficult time.

You and your family are in my prayers.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

I like this:

I really like this!

M y mother told me I should push myself even harder, when I am ill with a respiratory virus on top of everything else. Huh? I told her I am pushing hard to just get out of bed, to do basic self-care and to get meals for H and her.
I told her maybe she's projecting? (She could help out a lot more than she does!)

Anyway, I love this!
Thanks for sharing!

I hope you are doing well.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Still not sleeping well.
The winds outside are just wild tonight!

I hope everyone is sleeping comfortably!


WC

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Still not sleeping well.
The winds outside are just wild tonight!

I hope everyone is sleeping comfortably!


WC

I'm not sleeping well either, as it's almost 3am. Woke up at 1am, too.

Wish I had a sleepy med, as Klonopin stopped working.