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#226
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![]() it's a colder rainy, dark day here today. Dreary. Tomorrow is almost here! Hopefully, it beats today! ![]() WC
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Im doing okay. I got on the scale this morning and have gained 16 lbs since my surgery on the 18th. Eeeekkk!!! How is that even possible? A calmer head has now prevailed and Im not letting it get me down. Ill handle it. ![]() Hope you start feeling better. ![]() |
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Hey.
Just stopping in to say hi and check in. Shiit is pretty crappy on this side of the fence right now. For once I actually have a reason to be depressed and anxious bc dealing with health stuff. Somehow I thought having my low mood match my situation wouldnt feel quite as bad as when I get depression for no apparent reason. I was wrong. It just means that now I have 2 problems instead of one. I cant figure out how to keep the depression out, its like I am watching it take over and cant do anything to prevent it. It always comes back and every single time I feel surprised to once again be stuck In it. And every single time when Im in it, it feels like this is how I have always felt and always will. But I am just too exhausted to fight it this time. So Im not going to. Im gonna just survive for a while and try not to expect too much from myself besides working and feeding my cats and keeping myself alive. So much for high standards. Anyhow sending everyone some good thoughts. Hopefully things will turn soon and Depression will leave me the fuuck alone for a while. Take care.
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Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying I will try again tomorrow. -Mary Anne Radmacher |
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#229
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![]() Glad you've got this! I am reasonably confident I will do okay. Thank you for your well wishes! I love having you around! ![]() ![]() WC
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#230
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It's good to hear from you! Sorry you are having a tough time with depression. I have to just give in at times, too. (As I rest on my bed writing this.) I hope you catch a break soon! ![]() WC
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My Charlie cat and I went back to the vet yet again today. I thought his mouth infection was healed but it was actually mostly healed and seeing the remainder needed someone to hold him still. She swabbed it and it still has bacteria but less. The swelling that was the greatest risk is gone and it appears his steroids and antibiotics are working. We have 3 weeks of antibiotics and I don't know how much more steroids (but a long time). The vet said she's never seen anything like this and is calling a dermatologist vet at the university vet place. His symptoms don't match the bacteria he has so it's weird.
Poor boy doesn't know whether he wants to trust me or be angry with me for yet another trip to the vet. Then I walked my mom's dogs which was good exercise and good to be out in a really beautiful fall day.
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#232
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![]() So glad to hear how he's getting on. I hope the dermatologist can help out! Poor kitty. ![]() Walking dogs on a Fall day! Many Fall days are gorgeous! What fun! ![]() WC
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#233
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Praying the T will be helpful when I see her this Thursday.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Hope your therapy appointment helps you reach that goal.
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Rwwff,
it's nice to have you posting again! hope to see more of you around here! ![]() WC
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Oh no !!!!!!! I hope you can avoid ER Do whatever you can to feel better ![]()
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#237
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Thanks, ~Christina! ![]()
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I had one of those days at work, where everything shifted 180 in my thoughts. Yesterday, I was great, and everything and everyone was great.
Today, I felt different. Certain people were against me, and I think I know the trigger was due to a some various little events that I won't go in to. This is not the first time I've been on this pendulum. The swing of being okay, to feeling the total opposite and mentally consumed with "people" in a negative way, is draining. All while I have to keep my "A-Game" on and perform top notch. I work with a lot of people, and I work in healthcare, in a high stress area. This will pass, and all will be fine, and they will all be awesome again and fun to be around... I wish my mind wouldn't create bad stories that lead me to paranoia. I really don't care that much what people think, but yet, I do! Frustrating dichotomy. My pdoc knows about this cycle, and he's told me he could give me a low dose zyprexa or geodon. (I've been on abilify and it caused a muscle problem for me so I stopped that after a month) I'm only on Lamictal, and I really don't want to start something new. I don't want a pill to make this stop, I want to control these thoughts on my own. It is HARD! |
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It's admirable for you to work on your thinking. It's maybe helpful to know meds are available if needed? I run into muscle problems with Abilify higher than 2 mg. I hope to put an end to low-dose Abilify soon. Nice to have you posting! ![]() WC
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I too have a terrible cold. Tis the season, I guess.
Im starting my job tomorrow but it is bittersweet. I went to take the drug test on Monday and it came back positive for PCP! Its impossible, Ive never done any drugs except marijuana like twelve years ago. Now its being sent to the lab to verify the results. The dr said that as long as Im not on drugs, the lab should verify that it was a false positive but what if it doesnt? Then Im unemployed again. For no reason! So I am very nervous. I have to wait five days for the results. At least they said I could still start. Im praying and hoping the results come back negative. They HAVE to, Im not on any drugs! The only thing I can think of is one of my psych meds created a false positive but Ive never heard of anything Im on creating a false positive for PCP. So I dont think thats the case. Oh my god Im so anxious! Otherwise I am excited to start tomorrow, as long as I feel better. I stayed in bed today and ate some soup. My mom watched my son for me so I could rest. Its days like these that Im grateful I live with her.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore Thats life. If nothing else, that is life. Its real. Sometimes it f-ing hurts. But its sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#241
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![]() It's entirely possible a psych drug is causing the confusion. I've had a drug give a false cocaine test before. It was all sorted out in time. I hope your situation gets sorted out! I am glad your mom was helpful so you could rest today! Looking forward to your update tomorrow! I hope your first day goes well! Feel better! ![]() WC
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![]() It was weird, when I was on it, I felt so good the first 2 weeks, almost like I was so elated and on top of the world. I thought it was amplifying me and making a manic state. Then a week or so later, I noticed I felt weaker in a way. I got winded going up and down two flights of stairs at work. I sloughed it off to an outlying thing, then it happened the next day. I'm in shape, so that was a red flag for me. I told the doc and he took me off of it...and at that time, I was moving into a low mood, so he put me on lamictal. Whenever he asks if I'd like to try another antipsychotic, I tell him no thanks. Also, I appreciate your reply. I have really even been a little paranoid about starting to spend time on a forum again. About 6 years ago, I used an online forum, to try to make friends and the experience messed with my head. Or possibly, my head messed up the experience? ha |
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![]() I've had the same experience with Abilify. It was stiffening my muscles and it took a ton of effort to climb the stairs I usually climb all day long! That's when we'd dropped it to 2mg. I am slowly increasing Lamictal now. I hope your experience here does not mess with you. I have found I can be friendly here with most. Yet, it is the internet and I have had a few surprising experiences. Take it slowly. Look out for yourself, your own welfare... always! ![]() I hope to see you around! ![]() WC
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#244
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![]() Hopefully the Lamictal helps you. So far, it has been a med with the least side effects of anything I've ever been on. Wise advice. I will do that for sure, and luckily, I've learned so much from past experience! See you around. |
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#245
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Confronting some stuff in my life. It's tough, wish me luck. Hugs to everyone.
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N2 had seizures andd high pitched screaming at her first whooping cough shot so shes never had another. She came home today to say one of her coworkers has it and came to work anyway!! Selfish people iin this world I tell ya....
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#247
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[H and im going to visit my friend in florida. Not sure exactly when yet. Shes paying! Havennt seen her in 13. Years.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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My head is chatty for the first time in a while. Not good.
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Pookyl BP1, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, Claustrophobia Psych meds: Saphris, Seroquel XR, regular Seroquel. PRN Diazepam and Zopiclone |
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#249
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Hope it shuts up soon ![]()
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I hate it when my head goes "chatty", it's always a bad sign.
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Nammu Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. ... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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