Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I've been hoping to read a review of the recent concert.

Ummm... loud (fine), lots of strobe light (do not care for) and lots of fog, which I kind of liked because it was everywhere and kind of cool. Alas they only played one song I knew, and not the one I would have picked. Had fun though. It's good to get out once in awhile.

Tired today for some reason (I could fall asleep right now, but I'm finishing lunch break at work, so that wouldn't be too cool... )

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

The morning has gotten cooler here; I love it. The 25 mg trazodone worked again, but I am still very tired.

I went on a walk but an actual normal length/time walk of 45 minutes.

I am hurting a lot from fibro, and (not from fibro) a bit along my ulcer scar which is a good 4-5" long, which is a little concerning. I was going to vacuum today, but I will wait until tomorrow.

I am going to soak in an Epsom salt bath and then maybe infuse one of my essential oils for relaxation or stress and try to finish the book I have been on the last 50 pages of for awhile now. It is harder to read, the pages and paragraphs are long...ironic since I write long posts.

Maybe look for simple, cheap craft ideas on Pinterest and start writing down ideas of things my daughter wants to do with me.

I am so relieved my daughter just doesn't want to shut me out. When she was receptive, I told her I want to spend more time with her, just doing things the 2 of us. She seemed to be happy about this idea, so my new goal is to keep my end as promised.

I hope you are relaxing and enjoying some alone time.

I think it's wonderful you and your daughter are thinking alike in spending quality time together. Many children, especially daughters long for that 1:1 attention w/mom. You will likely enjoy this now and will likely look back some day and be so glad you made an extra special effort. I think it will be great for both of you! I think this helps your self-esteem and definitely helps your daughter's self-esteem.

She'll soon be a teenager and the bonds you create now will be very important. It's kind of like laying a firm foundation for your relationship with one another.

I am jealous!Lol! I grew up with a houseful of siblings and did not have much 1:1 time with parents.

How exciting!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Ummm... loud (fine), lots of strobe light (do not care for) and lots of fog, which I kind of liked because it was everywhere and kind of cool. Alas they only played one song I knew, and not the one I would have picked. Had fun though. It's good to get out once in awhile.

Tired today for some reason (I could fall asleep right now, but I'm finishing lunch break at work, so that wouldn't be too cool... )

Yes, it's really helpful to get out!

I hope your energy picks up today!


WC

[Daonnachd]

Innerzone, thank you, your concert description lifted my spirits.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Innerzone, thank you, your concert description lifted my spirits.

Hey there!
I have been missing you!
I hope you are doing okay?


WC

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Hey there!
I have been missing you!
I hope you are doing okay?


WC

things have been bleak. Too complicated to share, so I just hid myself away and spared you all.

Some good news, though: we have a working refrigerator again.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

things have been bleak. Too complicated to share, so I just hid myself away and spared you all.

Some good news, though: we have a working refrigerator again.

Yay! For the new refrigerator.

I am so sorry things have been bleak.
We are here for you anytime.
Thinking of you and your family.


WC

[giddykitty]

Things are better today than yesterday, although the anxiety had worn me out. Coffee helped though. I got most of my chores done, I just don't have the initiative to do extra work and I haven't walked today (oh, I've been trying to walk most days now). I think I'm going to take some self care time for myself today and rest. Maybe I'll dig out my stretching DVD. I need to start doing more than just walking.

I'm a little anxious about tomorrow. I have to get up early and shower and get ready to go to a voluntary meeting that makes me nervous. It worked out last time, but there are some things that could make it go wrong or make it challenging. but I want to try to do it. Hopefully I can and can curb this anxiety.

Happy almost weekend folks!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by giddykitty

Things are better today than yesterday, although the anxiety had worn me out. Coffee helped though. I got most of my chores done, I just don't have the initiative to do extra work and I haven't walked today (oh, I've been trying to walk most days now). I think I'm going to take some self care time for myself today and rest. Maybe I'll dig out my stretching DVD. I need to start doing more than just walking.

I'm a little anxious about tomorrow. I have to get up early and shower and get ready to go to a voluntary meeting that makes me nervous. It worked out last time, but there are some things that could make it go wrong or make it challenging. but I want to try to do it. Hopefully I can and can curb this anxiety.

Happy almost weekend folks!

I hope you can make it to the meeting and I hope you will be glad you went.


WC

[Moose72]

I just dropped off the 2nd of 3 sets of the paperwork! Had to drive 40 mins to turn it in in person! Now one set left that ill turn in tomorrow. I saw my case manager today and she helped soooooo much! I left my daughter out of all the paperwork so come feb. She is on her own.

Work is stressing me out. All this stress is leading to me mildly hallucinate -- although I can tell I'm hallucinating because I did a lot of fact checking. I just feel like a huge f*** up because I messed up too much at work.

I need to take a mental health day tomorrow. I can't take this anymore. I'm stressed the f*** out. Now I have to apologize to everyone for being such a f*** up. I wish I could quit my job and just live happily ever after, but that's not how things work in the real world. Bills have to be paid somehow, after all.

I think I just need a nap for now. I need to relax somehow. I'm all wound up.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Work is stressing me out. All this stress is leading to me mildly hallucinate -- although I can tell I'm hallucinating because I did a lot of fact checking. I just feel like a huge f*** up because I messed up too much at work.

I need to take a mental health day tomorrow. I can't take this anymore. I'm stressed the f*** out. Now I have to apologize to everyone for being such a f*** up. I wish I could quit my job and just live happily ever after, but that's not how things work in the real world. Bills have to be paid somehow, after all.

I think I just need a nap for now. I need to relax somehow. I'm all wound up.

Try to get some rest, blue.

Let us know how you are doing?

WC

It's my eighth day on Wellbutrin and i feel great! I got up well before noon for the first time since Spring. I did many loads of laundry -- so many that i even did my bathmat! Yay! Yesterday i discovered meditation as i am working thru a book on self-compassion. Meditation is just the perfect activity for me. I've been looking for a hobby that i can do alone, at home, that isn't messy, that's cheap and sedentary. Score! If i get good at it it might even be good for me! Yay! So happy that i took the leap and tried an anti-depressant. My reaction to Celexa five years ago was swift also, so i guess i am just the lucky person who doesn't have to wait weeks and weeks for an anti-depressant to be effective. Aces! Here's a link to the guided meditations so you don't have to buy the book.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

It's my eighth day on Wellbutrin and i feel great! I got up well before noon for the first time since Spring. I did many loads of laundry -- so many that i even did my bathmat! Yay! Yesterday i discovered meditation as i am working thru a book on self-compassion. Meditation is just the perfect activity for me. I've been looking for a hobby that i can do alone, at home, that isn't messy, that's cheap and sedentary. Score! If i get good at it it might even be good for me! Yay! So happy that i took the leap and tried an anti-depressant. My reaction to Celexa five years ago was swift also, so i guess i am just the lucky person who doesn't have to wait weeks and weeks for an anti-depressant to be effective. Aces!

Oh, wow!
I am very excited for you!


WC

[Fuzzybear]

I’m pretty sure that the Seroquel is affecting my rash .. bummer

I do have some benzos.. and agomelatine which I’m not sure if this does much of anything .. possibly helps sleep a bit.

[~Christina]

So highly agitated depression has come for a visit! Hello mixed , piss off

I’m snappy as hell sorry if I am here on the forum. But it can happen.

[TheSeaCat]

I'm feeling pretty irritated today with the stigma happening in my own house. Dad says I don't need a pdoc but the moment he thinks something is wrong with my heart it's like hey let's go to the big city and find you to the best cardiologist around. Why is it that he cares more about my heart than my brain. Oh that's right because you can see my pulse on paper and it scares you. Well guess what my bipolar brain scares me.

The boyfriend is also being a ginormous idiot he came up with the idea of let's get married after only a year of dating so that I can get on his really good insurance instead of state mandated crap. I swear am I the only smart one in this house!

I hope everyone is doing well today

In non rant news I seem to be doing okay with the med adjustment.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

So highly agitated depression has come for a visit! Hello mixed , piss off

I’m snappy as hell sorry if I am here on the forum. But it can happen.

I’m mixed, have been for months.

It sucks.

This morning I felt OK other than fibromyalgia. By afternoon, I’ve wanted to burst into tears, no particular reason, just my life in general, having tons of negative thoughts.

Oh, the joy of the BP life.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

So highly agitated depression has come for a visit! Hello mixed , piss off

I’m snappy as hell sorry if I am here on the forum. But it can happen.

(((((( ~Christina ))))))

I hope it's a very short visit!
I hate that you have to go through this.
You know I am here for you!
Please take care!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I’m pretty sure that the Seroquel is affecting my rash .. bummer

I do have some benzos.. and agomelatine which I’m not sure if this does much of anything .. possibly helps sleep a bit.

Oh, crap! How disappointing for you!

I am glad you have other meds should you need them.


WC

[yellow_fleurs]

Had my psychiatrist appointment. Asked if they thought I had PMDD and they said yes, it seems that way, but on top of an unspecified bipolar disorder. They asked if I thought I was back to baseline before the meds we tried and I said yes, minus the increased severity of moods around my period, as I have never before felt unsafe with myself around then. We also discussed that I will try the birth control and follow up with him in a few months. If I try psych meds again, we will try something at a very low dose since I am clearly super sensitive to them, and instead of an improved effect at higher doses I got worse.
Apparently he thinks my reactions to my hormones are a bit unusual as he said he has not met someone that reacts in the way I do. I know PMDD can be severe in many women, so I kind of wonder if it was just that plus the med reactions that made it different. It is kind of validating that he now understands what I have for awhile about my brain haha.
Super nervous to start the birth control and waiting until after this cycle. A few more days of a good mood before it is scheduled to drop sharply, hoping that it isn't so far this time. Thanks everyone for all your support as I am have been trying to figure all of this out, it's been so confusing!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Had my psychiatrist appointment. Asked if they thought I had PMDD and they said yes, it seems that way, but on top of an unspecified bipolar disorder. They asked if I thought I was back to baseline before the meds we tried and I said yes, minus the increased severity of moods around my period, as I have never before felt unsafe with myself around then. We also discussed that I will try the birth control and follow up with him in a few months. If I try psych meds again, we will try something at a very low dose since I am clearly super sensitive to them, and instead of an improved effect at higher doses I got worse.
Apparently he thinks my reactions to my hormones are a bit unusual as he said he has not met someone that reacts in the way I do. I know PMDD can be severe in many women, so I kind of wonder if it was just that plus the med reactions that made it different. It is kind of validating that he now understands what I have for awhile about my brain haha.
Super nervous to start the birth control and waiting until after this cycle. A few more days of a good mood before it is scheduled to drop sharply, hoping that it isn't so far this time. Thanks everyone for all your support as I am have been trying to figure all of this out, it's been so confusing!

I am happy to read you are getting closer to some helpful clarity!
It can get very complicated in a hurry!

All of my life, I have gotten very suicidal with PMS. Dangerously so. Fortunately, I am old enough to be in perimenopause, which has been trying, yet not as bad.

Good luck with the birth control. I hope it only helps you!

WC

[Victoria'smom]

We had our carpet cleaned last night a surprise from are apartment complex. They literally gave us a two hour heads up. Then we had to stay in the kitchen for 6 hours waiting for it to dry. So I ate the pizza, and cake and whatever else I could find. I made shrimp scampi for my son and younger nephew. I also tried to put in my son's portfolio because it's due by the 15th but they were hacked so I wrote an email to them.

Today I got a call my sister needed me to sit with her son because he got kicked out of the school for the rest of the week. Who kicks a kid out for pooping on himself while potty training? Um yeah he's three but he thought he was going to get in trouble. He told his mom "I in trouble? because I a jerk? I pooped." He even told me what happen. Of course me being gone all day my husband didn't do anything that he should have. He did apologize this morning for not realizing I'm depressed. He was wondering why I took meds 2x a day. I may have to watch him tomorrow.

I'm really proud of my older nephew (the one that is homeless but crashes on our couch sometimes) He went to see the dr. about his anxiety. He comes from a very stigmatizing house with a diagnosed BP but not treated mom.

[Moreta]

The rest of the hurricane came through today here in NC. By the time it got here it was a tropical storm and we had a lot of rain and wind gusts of 55 mph. The city is a mess. My power has been off since 2 PM and it is almost 7 PM now. I called the power company again and there's still no concrete time for when the power will come back on. ugh.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Moreta

The rest of the hurricane came through today here in NC. By the time it got here it was a tropical storm and we had a lot of rain and wind gusts of 55 mph. The city is a mess. My power has been off since 2 PM and it is almost 7 PM now. I called the power company again and there's still no concrete time for when the power will come back on. ugh.

Ugh is right. I’m glad you are okay and hope your power is restored promptly.