I had a nice day despite it being sunday

morning was a bit.. well, blah, nothing to do, nothing I really wanted to do, nothing that needed to be done, but in the afternoon I got talking to this guy on blah therapy and we had a real laugh

after I helped him with his problem, we got to talking about how astranaughts go to toilet in space.

hilarious conversation. it really made my day and he really came back with some good comments.

and we now know why spacesuits are brown

because astranaughts **** in them

CNN will be so proud

I did a lot of chores today. I had in mind a great reward. That was to go to a large Asian market about 20 mins from my home. The last time I went there they were closed for renovations. I was so disappointed. I looked online and it appeared that they were open. I drove hubby there and found them still closed. Hubby said I should have called. He was right. Then I wanted to try a different one about 30 mins away, but wanted hubby to drive me there. He didn't want to go because he didn't bring his wallet or sunglasses. All that was achieved by that trip was finding cheap gas stations ($2.17 per gallon). I feel so disappointed again. Maybe I can convince hubby to go to the other one tomorrow. I was hoping we could buy dinner at the grocery store. Now I have zero idea what to make.

I love to cook, but sometimes a break would be nice. We do go out to dinner occasionally, but there are times I wish hubby could cook. He really can't. If he had to make dinner, he'd make something for himself only and it would be something like anchovies and bread.

[Blueberrybook]

It's my birthday today. It was going OK until I once again tried the insurance prescription line about getting Adderall. No one is there, no one available. Main insurance couldn't care a bit. I'm completely out now, and tomorrow is a holiday. Healthcare here sucks, and the insurance companies could care less

Happy birthday, Blueberrybook! Don't forget to do something fun!

[Wander]

Went for two swims yesterday; early morning and at sunset. It was very hot again. Today is cooler but I still went for a swim at 6am. The ocean water is so refreshing and cleansing to the body and soul. I need to be careful or I will trigger the Fibromyalgia/Chronic Fatigue. It has been much better the last week, hence all the swimming. I only swim for 10 minutes then float for a bit.

My mood is still good this morning as it was all day yesterday. I am hoping I have stabilised finally. Still, I get really lonely as I have few friends and they rarely catch up with me. So I spend my days reading, watching TV, playing guitar, swimming and running errands. University starts in a month. Hopefully I will stay well enough to get through the semester successfully. Last year was a disaster. Three hospitalisations and bad physical illness led to not being able to work or study. I am now broke. Hoping to get back to work in April.

[Guiness187055]

Happy Birthday Blueberrybook.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Happy birthday blueberry book

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

It's my birthday today. It was going OK until I once again tried the insurance prescription line about getting Adderall. No one is there, no one available. Main insurance couldn't care a bit. I'm completely out now, and tomorrow is a holiday. Healthcare here sucks, and the insurance companies could care less

Happy birthday!

Heh, I forgot-- even though I had a really good time at the concert, I *did* have a bit of panic/claustrophobia near the end. I haven't been all squished up with people like that in quite some time, started to freak out a bit and I had to wend my way to an area with more air (I sure didn't want to pass out and it was really starting to feel that way(!)).

Previous to that I thought I might go right up front for the next concert. Maybe not, lol.

[pirilin]

I'm planting new grass in a place where a walkway was.
Yes, at this very moment. I'm taking a break.
The night is cold. The winshield factor(20 miles) makes the temp way under 50 easy.
My feet are wet. My hands are ice. My determination is strong.
I'll have a guaranteed cold in the morning. If I wake up.
I'm wearing shorts and sandals. V shirt. No socks.

I'm 1/2 way. But all the terrain is flat already.
in another hour, tops, I'll be finish.
The sod has been in the truck for three days.
Now or never.
Incredible how well I work under pressure.

Ta Ta. I have work to do.

Cheers.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Sleeping meds wore off already. Took them at midnight. Oh well here's to a new day.

Shall I get out my Harry Potter wand and cast a spell ??? My personal wand is all kinds of cool !

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

My brother agreed to go for an assessment at a psychiatric hospital one town over. My sister and I will take him Monday morning and hopefully they’ll admit him. He has been in a good mood since he admitted he needed help...like a weight has been lifted off his shoulders.


I was almost afraid to post this for fear of jinxing it in some way. Fingers crossed. I’ve been very depressed lately and this rainy, dreary weather doesn’t help. Looking forward to things getting back to a near normal state.


Warm wishes and hugs to all.

Soooooooo happy for that that he agrees, he might get distraught once he’s there, done that a couple times but I went in anyway as it was just so needed.

I hear you on this non stop rain I need some sun!

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Hypersexual the urge are really strong. I'm bored so it's taking its toll on me. I've been for a shower to calm me down but not working

Can you find any distraction to help move past this ??? It has to be beyond frustrating.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by 251turnaround

A little less manic today I think (maybe). I can't feel the mania anymore but everyone says I still am. I'm dissociated. Everything feels like a dream still. I can't tell the dreams apart from what actually happened. I'm still kind of scared. But I'm acting normal? I feel normal.

Maybe you are working through it all ?? Good possibility ?

Stay safe.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Mine pooped out on me too. Put my sleep mask on and tried to think of weaving to get back to sleep. Did manage a bit but dreamed a weird dream of being on a trolley and some man was having a heart attack so I tried to get him water in a dentist shop but all the streets turned into freeway spigetti junction points blocking me, then I ran into this guy in a red robe crying and obviously distressed because they were gonna put him in a state institutions I tried to reassure him then he ran away and his family was there and they drank my green tea and cookie shake. I excaped them but ended up on an industrial area between two cities and ran for it and came to a lighted building with ambulance crew that delivers pizza but they couldn't get me back to the hospital by curfew time. I had almost talked one guy into dropping me off in one city when I woke with a huge headache from the position of my neck. Woke more tired than when I had gone to bed!

You mind was running 3567528 miles per hour

Here’s hoping tonight you will finally get some solid sleep

[TheSeaCat]

Hello everyone I hoped everyone had a great Sunday; it always feels like there isn't enough weekend. Last night I stayed the night with M and it's always weird the first time a guy sleeps over or you sleep over. I mean I slept fine but that's because I'm drugged and could probably sleep on a nail after taking the bedtime medication. All jokes aside he truly is a gentleman and it was nice waking up to him this morning; instead of Demon pouncing on me or Bear licking me; he has dogs but they sleep in the guest bedroom together granted he says every so often will come cuddle but for the most part they like the guest room. He made me a really good Omelette for breakfast: I tried helping but he wouldn't let me cook at all.

Church went really well and I think I am just going to leave it that; since I'd rather not offend those that don't like religion. Let's just say it was a little awkward seeing my psych outside of his office; I know he's M's best friend so I should probably get used to him in the friend aspect instead of the medical aspect; his wife is the sweetest.

M's parents absolutely loved me which I was a little worried since they are very well to do so to speak and I'm young and their is a little bit of an age difference that has made my father very outspoken about it; his parents didn't even bat an eye; his mother is the most sweetest person I have had the pleasure of meeting she just loves everyone and is a total church lady; in the good way of course. His dad was a little more reserved towards me but he was still pretty nice and said we made a good fit together. So I have gotten the official parental stamp of approval.

Hugs to everyone

[Daonnachd]

Right on SeaCat. That was a good read.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

So anxious tonight. I went all day without doing anything related to my father and that was weird. I'm worried because the body donation people were suppose to get back to me yesterday when they had a funeral home to work with. I've heard nothing and if this doesn't work out I think we'll have to do a traditional cremation which just isn't what we feel is appropriate. I'm worried we'll run out of time; once they have a funeral home I have to get all my siblings to sign releases for the donation and send them back in.

I'm coping by doing and not doing is really hard. I shoveled snow for a long time today and the physical activity felt good. I'm sore now though. This was great snow for making snowmen but not great for shoveling huge areas.

Tomorrow I finally see my therapist which I really need. Maybe he can help me relax a bit.

I am wanting to go see my father less and less but I don't want to back out on my brother. I want to go in some ways and in others don't. I keep hoping they'll take him off life support before we make it out there. I need the decision to be made for me. my therapist may try to do that; not sure he'll support the trip.

I just can't believe this is happening. It feels so unreal and I know that's because I'm not letting it feel real.

[pirilin]

I finished. Finito. Terminado.
Except I'm ran out of plugs. I need ten more.

I took a hot, long shower. And ate peanut butter for dinner.
Not really hungry with the Hydroxycut. It works well for me.

I'm looking to Mother Moon. With binoculars.
My telescope fell in the canal like a month ago.
I saw a couple of sharks circling the area.
They must be hungry with the red tide killing all the marine life. But sharks.
I'll buy another telescope soon. Thank you.

Today is Blood Moon night. It's in the Bible.
The Indians revere it too. If it happens.
Nothing so far. But I'm Her child and must watch.
Even if my eyes are closing more than usual.

Talking about eyes. I'll have my eyelids operation on the 29th.

Now that is settled. La Bruja started with my hearing.
"You need a hearing aid". "I have to repeat every phrase."
Next thing I'll need a cane. And later, oxygen.
Until she seats me in a wheelchair.
Three billion men in the world and she had to pick me.

Life is like war. If you don't attack, you'll be attacked.
I'm planning my attacks too. She ain't perfect.
Only she doesn't care or even listen to my attacks.

I'll win at least a battle tomorrow. When she wakes up.
She went to the beauty salon on Saturday, and her hair looks awful.
Yeah, I'll tell her that. Even if it's not true. Well, maybe.

Cheers.

[jmariah001]

Wish sleep was easy. I have IOP if I can get out of my driveway that is. Big snow storm here. My hubby tried to go to work yesterday but got stuck in a snow bank. He turned out of our parking pad to wide and hit the grass. They hadn't even plowed the road out yet. He called me and said that he needed help getting the car unstuck. My mom called 2 days ago and told me that a girl we tried to adopt years ago passed away. Pneumonia. Well we did adopt her but because of behavioral issues we gave her back to the county. She kept trying to kill her sisters. Big mess. So I feel bad for my mom. She isn't allowed to go to the calling hours or funeral. The women that adopted the girl said she isn't allowed. They don't get a long. Stupid BS. Would take too long to explain. You wouldn't believe all the crap we went through after we adopted the 3 sisters. This girl was also paralyzed from the waist down. From a bike accident when she was in foster care. This was after she was taken out of our home and placed in foster care. Like I said big mess.

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Can you find any distraction to help move past this ??? It has to be beyond frustrating.

Thanks Christina,

I'm just plodding along trying to ignore the symptoms now

[Daonnachd]

Meeting with my T in just a little bit.

[251turnaround]

I'm still really manic but not too far gone yet. I'm lucid still. I'm scared because my meds aren't working. I've called the pdoc and had them adjusted but they've yet to take effect. I feel euphoric and I'm buzzing. I'm so happy but it's a dark kind of happy. I don't like it too much.

Had a delusion last night but I used coping skills from this blog to help deal with it before it got out of hand.

It's getting harder though. I heard mumbles in the basement a little while ago.

[Miss Laura]

Anxious as.... took an anxiety attack in town has last 3 hours. I wish I had meds to relieve the pain I'm in

[Guiness187055]

Good day so far. Watched my son in a parade this morning he is in JROTC and they took part in a MLK parade.They made the parade voluntary because it was 47 degrees outside which is to cold for some of us Floridians. Went out to breakfast afterwards and shopping with the wife. Going to attempt to make salmon cakes for dinner this evening. Hope all are have a great day.