Blueberrybook, I'm so sorry about your kitty! I hope she will be OK. I can imagine how rough that was for you trying to wash her. I haven't had a cat for a long time, but remember how my old cat thought a bath was, well...the worst possible punishment.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Blueberrybook, I'm so sorry about your kitty! I hope she will be OK. I can imagine how rough that was for you trying to wash her. I haven't had a cat for a long time, but remember how my old cat thought a bath was, well...the worst possible punishment.

Thanks. Yeah, the whole ordeal has pretty much sucked. The cat hasn’t come back, but sometimes she doesn’t until night. I saw one of the neighbors across the street having quite a lot of work done on her house, including some roof work. I am thinking the cat got into something over there. Ironically, it’s the woman some other neighbors warned us to never get involved with when we moved into our house, that she was mean and nothing but trouble, so we have never officially gone to meet her, and we have lived here 14 years now. She is also the neighbor who is the frequent customer of our local police. I usually see a police car there 2, 3 times a month, and those are just the times I happen to be outside or driving by. The police don’t use their sirens or lights, but I know they are obligated to respond in case there actually does happen to be an emergency.

[liveforsummer]

Taking a break from social media....

[Blueberrybook]

OMG, this stupid ITC chemical plant saga will not go away. Now a dike wall around the burned area has collapsed, something is leaking, and they issued a shelter in place for the San Jacinto state park, pretty much across from this plant. They have not issued more warnings for that city or mine, but ugh! Now is this going to affect the water as well as the air?! This week has been so stressful. Everything is OK, then it’s not, then it’s OK again, then it’s not...

Maybe it’s just bipolar paranoia, but I don’t think anyone there has a clue what will happen next or how safe the air and water around here are, if there will be long term effects, pretty much the answer to everything is don’t worry. We don’t know, but don’t worry about it, we’ll fix it, it will be OK Not even sure how you fix something you don’t have a clue about. Glad my daughter is out of the 4th grade. They always take the 4th grade class field trip to that park at her school.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

OMG, this stupid ITC chemical plant saga will not go away. Now a dike wall around the burned area has collapsed, something is leaking, and they issued a shelter in place for the San Jacinto state park, pretty much across from this plant. They have not issued more warnings for that city or mine, but ugh! Now is this going to affect the water as well as the air?! This week has been so stressful. Everything is OK, then it’s not, then it’s OK again, then it’s not...

Maybe it’s just bipolar paranoia, but I don’t think anyone there has a clue what will happen next or how safe the air and water around here are, if there will be long term effects, pretty much the answer to everything is don’t worry. We don’t know, but don’t worry about it, we’ll fix it, it will be OK Not even sure how you fix something you don’t have a clue about. Glad my daughter is out of the 4th grade. They always take the 4th grade class field trip to that park at her school.

I am so sorry this happening to you and your community. It does seem really concerning, I would be worried, too.

[yellow_fleurs]

Daonnachd my T works in an office with others but I was one of the first people there and I sitting there awhile, too haha. BirdDancer that was really thoughtful of you. I am lucky that my T is close by at least!

[wildflowerchild25]

I’m doing ok. I’m concerned about the weakness in my left leg. I feel like it’s worse than it was before surgery but I can’t tell. I walk with a bit of a limp. But I’m probably asking for too much too soon. I’m only two days out from surgery. It’s gonna take two weeks for the incision to heal and in that time I might be able to build up my leg strength. I have a follow up appt on April 5 so I can always ask them if the weakness has not improved. I’m just worried. However I’m very grateful that the pain is gone.

Blueberrybook, I don't want to scare you, but have you considered buying a number of gallons of water from the store...just in case.

[Sunflower123]

I didn’t want to get out of bed today but I’m feeling better as the day goes on: sun, fresh air, nourishing food, hydration. I can tell I’ve taken a big step back in my mental and physical health during the winter months. I’ll need to work on gaining some ground. Getting a physical Tuesday to get that part in order. Hopefully, I’ll find a good tdoc to help me with the other. My motivation is nonexistent.

Warm wishes and hugs to all for a peaceful weekend.

I had a great time ordering in dinner from a delivery service. The whole thing was done thru my computer. There was a map that showed the progress of my driver's car! It was so fun! It's great to live in a city! Other than that, mood still lousy. It's a grey soggy day here and my mood matches.

[Unrigged64072835]

Been sick all day. Feeling a little better but not much.

[Wander]

Hardly slept. Feeling great. Is this hypomania coming on? I Had no extra anti psychotics. How can a strong benzo bring this on after a mixed state? I only had it for two days. Weird. Oh well, I’m enjoying the relief from the excruciating agitation. Hope it lasts and returns to stable.

I'm around-- just staying quiet. I don't have much to report and not a whole lot to say. Just wanted to tell everyone that I am OK.

[Nammu]

Christina? How are you fairing off your AP? Just want you to know I'm sending good vibes your way.

[beauflow]

I tried to post yesterday but deleted it.

This week has been hard, a lot of things have occured revolving around people.

I am back at this place where I am a little sick and tired of people, and just am not sure what good any treatment will do... I am ill because I see things differently? I see a truth that others like to hid and bury...
I am afraid I will lose my job due to I can not seem to keep some thoughts to myself.

yesterday reached back out to the place I was on a list for and got an appt next week with a therapist, so not waiting 6-8 weeks. in hopes they can direct me on where to go for a pdoc as I have had struggles with this.

I am two weeks behind on laundry, which is not me at all.
I go from so many thoughts to nothing at all. Things will be ok to I am crying and so much is felt. and worse yet memories and old feelings come about and I am stuck in time.... I have felt so busy and exhausted but yet nothing seems to be done, and I am running out of time... and yet thoughts of why silence beauty, even if it is misunderstood?
been trying to remind myself, some thoughts are just thoughts.
I will be ok, or if not- at least I tried. but I am sure this too will pass till whatever... the last two May/June's have been different and I am scared a bit.. but only time will tell.

[TheSeaCat]

Hi everyone; I hope everyone is doing well. I am still not feeling the best with everything that has suddenly been added to my plate. M had his physical for surgery along with gave over his charts to his supervising physician, and caught him up to spead on everything.

After work we got dinner with G and his wife; who will be taking care of the dogs since one of the dogs is very untrusting when it comes to gender of people so the dogs will be staying with them for a while after his surgery.

Pretty much everything is all in order now we just wait for the lab work and the Neurosurgeon's office will call and schedule it.

I'm doing okay I think; I'm not feeling the best with my feelings of worry.

Hugs to everyone

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Christina? How are you fairing off your AP? Just want you to know I'm sending good vibes your way.

Thanks !!!!

Nothing thus far. My Husband is going to let me know if anything is off that I don’t notice.

The half life issue I’m working off a rough 2-3 weeks ....then my brain to function sans med about 4 week total I think that’s a realistic time line.

I appreciate the good vibes

[~Christina]

Least I have one less pill to swallow by dropping Latuda. We shall see how it plays out.

Our trip to Savannah is coming up soon .... the 15 th of April!!!! I’m so excited I feel like a kid at Christmas time LOL

feeling depressed

had breakfast and did my usual alexa games (5/15), that's pretty bay

back killing me as usual and can't think of many reasons to be greatful today. litirally the only thing that crosses my mind is that their's a nice breeze outside. it's lovely with my window open feeling the breeze

[Blueberrybook]

No sign of our cat. Afraid she may have died of poisoning from whatever it was. H thinks it could have been mastic, but she also reeked of something smelling like paint thinner or turpentine. I wonder if a cruel person did this as I do not see how a cat could have gotten so covered it it, fur to skin, head to toe to stomach, feet, and tail, like she'd been immersed in it The fumes from it alone made me fell blah all day yesterday, and I weigh 100 lb. more than a cat.
Afraid she has died but don't have the heart to go out searching.

Ache all over, both from struggling to bathe the cat, getting clawed and tripping over another cat trying to carry a bucket of warm water from the bathtub outside to the tub where I was trying to bathe the other cat, so the water would not be freezing cold. Fell on concrete so I am scraped all over. I didn't sleep well last night.

[pirilin]

Today, I'm in "maybe I'll recover" mode.
The fever has subsided. That's a plus.

However. all the bronchial membranes
(fancy isn't it?)" are obstructed.

This cold thing ain't helping my emphysema,
that's fer sure.

At least, I woke up again.
Any day above ground is a good day.

Cheers.

[hopeless2015]

/trigger/Drinking and gambling has been bad again here lately. I do good and feel good through the week then the weekend comes and I go batshit crazy drinking. I'm messing up the lamictal titration cause I drink too much and miss the night dose then lay in bed all morning and miss morning dose sometimes as well. I know what I need to do but keep doing the wrong thing. No ones fault but my own I know/trigger/

I hope I did the trigger right

Hugs to all that want or need them

Going to get out of bed and start some cleaning then take lunch to hubby who has to work this weekend

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

/trigger/Drinking and gambling has been bad again here lately. I do good and feel good through the week then the weekend comes and I go batshit crazy drinking. I'm messing up the lamictal titration cause I drink too much and miss the night dose then lay in bed all morning and miss morning dose sometimes as well. I know what I need to do but keep doing the wrong thing. No ones fault but my own I know/trigger/

I hope I did the trigger right

Hugs to all that want or need them

Going to get out of bed and start some cleaning then take lunch to hubby who has to work this weekend

the trigger thing didn't work right

what you have to do is

Possible trigger:

do this

and it should work

if you copy and paste this post, you'll see what I did to acheeve the trigger (I do this all the time if I want to post multiple coppies of the same message in other forums)

[yellow_fleurs]

It is a beautiful day today. Spent the morning grocery shopping and cleaning. So, my boyfriend and I have a number of tasty meals to make, and I feel much better now that the apartment is clean. We will be going on a picnic later today.

Do not remember if I already posted about this, but I am trying to decide it I should apply for a position at work. It is a long process and I would not start until next year, but I need to decide soon if I should apply. My supervisor is quite encouraging, but she does not know about my mental health and I am finding myself uncertain I can handle it. Not just that my mood will become unstable, but my cognitive functioning seems to not be a guarantee from day to day so it is difficult to feel I can commit myself to something very challenging. There is such a huge disparity in my functioning depending on how I am doing. Sometimes I can do so well and be such a quick learner, other times basic tasks like writing a sentence are hard. When I am having a rough time I find myself masking it a lot, trying not to let coworkers realize it is hard for me to speak, remember anything, or get form point A to point B, etc. I find it embarrassing honestly. :/

Hubby and I went to Home Depot to pick up things for one project, but inevitably one project turns into multiple ones.

We're trying to make a number of small improvements to our house, little by little, to prepare for a likely move in a few years. I would enjoy having them done sooner than later so I can actually enjoy them myself, even if briefly.

Our planned move is from the US to Europe (likely France). That's why I'm continuing my French studies. I was making lists of what we should keep (ship) and what we should sell/donate/discard. We have accumulated a lot of stuff these past 20+ years. It will cost a lot to replace things. I want to get a sense of that well ahead of time. Even little things will add up greatly.