[Moose72]

I went out to lunch with a friend today. Fun conversation. I also uploaded about 10 new pix to flickr. (See sig.) It takes a lot of brain power as I have to remember what I'm doing from one moment to the next. I managed to remember to get my meds from the pharmacy today. I also sat at Starbucks (a different one) from about 7:15 to 11:00, in one of the "comfy chairs" next to an outlet. Oh! And the friend I ate with said I seem better now that Ive been on increased Seroquel and Haldol. Cooler temps today- 55ish. Oh yeah- spent 4 hours at sb and then 2.5 hours at lunch. Fun- and glad I got some pix uploaded but I need to straighten up around here. Right now I'm watching "Street Food" on Netflix.

[wildflowerchild25]

It was a hot one today! 90 degrees, and tomorrow it’s back down to seventy. We were at the new house for about an hour and there is no air conditioning yet so that was fun lol. RS’s parents bought us a ton of stuff for our house including a dining table. I’m so grateful for them. They are such great people. We bought furniture yesterday so all we really need is basic pantry staples. RS’s parents are going to buy that too. So I don’t have to run up my target card lol.

I’m supposed to go to therapy tomorrow but she’s going to ask me what I want to focus on and I have no idea. Everything is going so well for me that I really don’t have anything to talk about. I’m trying to think of something to talk about but nothing is coming to mind. I’m not even that anxious about school. It’s going pretty well so far. So yeah I don’t know. Maybe I should reduce my sessions to every two weeks instead of weekly. Maybe that will help.

[Victoria'smom]

I called the therapist and they said no one takes my insurance. My husband is calling tomorrow or we're driving in we want to get my son's neurological testing there instead of an hour away.I made it through shopping.

[Wander]

Saw my GP and she gave me antacids for my stomach. They seem to be helping as I can finally eat small amounts. In a month I am seeing her and a nurse to set up a care plan and also to help with my hip as I can no longer afford Physio therapy. I should be able to then get 6 free sessions through my disability card.

As my stomach has been in extreme pain all I could do was rest. I’m getting bored and losing weight. Feel weak too. Still no sign of Bipolar. I’m thrilled about that. See my T tomorrow. We are continuing with talking around my trauma. I think my symptoms come from me feeling extremely terrified and trapped. This comes from past traumas. Just not sure how to work through this and be free. Those feelings debilitate me massively every day. Hopefully work with my T will set me free and get rid of my physical symptoms too.

Does anyone (probably middle-aged and older) remember the witch in Looney Tunes that when angry or excited would have her hair go nuts with bobby pins flying out? I'm not excited or angry, but my hair is going nuts. I am finally getting it cut today. Long overdue! Yesterday, I pruned my lilac bush and dead flowers even got caught in my hair. It made it itch. I will wash it superficially before I go to the salon.

It's a much milder day today. I'm glad. I can't stand hot and humid days.

I have my therapy after my haircut. I'm inspired by the idea stated above to sit in a comfy chair at a cafe. Maybe I'll do that after therapy.

Just washed my hair.

[Nammu]

I remember the loony tunes you are talking about. Ha ha. Yes, sitting in a cafe sounds good.

[Scooter9]

Well, it looks like my experiment with Modafinil is over - it's not effective for me. My pdoc and I talked about it and it's just not getting me out of my depression and it has side effects at the higher doses I need for it to make a difference.

So we're moving back to Wellbutrin (Bupropion) XL. My pdoc feels that the Latuda will protect me from going manic on it again. I was on this about 10 years ago and it made me manic but I wasn't on anything else at the time, so now she feels the Latuda might help. She's also starting me on just 150mg - I was on 450mg before.

I just want a few better months for a better summer - keeping my fingers crossed that it works this time.

And even if it doesn't work out and kicks me back into mania, at least it will be a change from 18 months of depression (kidding - I know mania is bad).

[Sunflower123]

I saw a PA today and he ordered X-rays to see what is going on with my back. He said no ibuprofen because my kidneys are functioning at the low end of the scale. Unfortunately, that’s what works for me painwise but I will diligently stay away from it. I didn’t think to ask why my kidneys would be functioning on the low side - psychotropics? This concerns me.

Less than 2 weeks until vacation! The first week it will just be me, my daughter and her boyfriend. It will be nice to take a break from caregiving for pets and humans alike. It will be heavenly getting a good night sleep without getting up between 2-5 am. Looking forward to sitting in the surf and reading some James Patterson.

My sister is bringing my mom down the second week. It will be an awakening for her. There are three of us kids but I’ve been the caregiver so I’m not sure she knows how involved it can get.

Feeling a little blue today for a few reasons. Hopefully, it will pass soon.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[Wild Coyote]

Hey there!😊

I think of you daily. I hope you enjoy the break!

[Wild Coyote]

. Hello to all!

Still missing each of you.

Still dealing with a lot of stress. Trying to cope, as we all do.

Much love and appreciation to each of you!

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Hey there!😊

I think of you daily. I hope you enjoy the break!

Thank you! I think of you daily as well. So glad to hear from you. Sending big hugs.

[lightly toasted]

Just got off the phone with the cat nuclear medicine clinic, so our wee girl is all booked in. Going to be rough her being away from us for a whole week, rough on her, rough on us. Harder for her, of course because she won't know what's going on and why we've left her in this strange place so far from home.

I'm wondering if my seroquel dose is too high. I'm sleeping 9 hours a night often, and despite getting out of bed at 7:30, it seems to be closer to 10 or 10:30 before I can really get myself in gear. I think the med is dragging me down a bit too much, I'm able to drink strong tea in the afternoon and still sleep that night - that's very unusual for me.

I did tackle the kitchen and managed 3 loads of laundry and bunged something in the crock pot for dinner. I even managed to have a shower and wash my hair. I hacked away at my hair with a pair of scissors, trying to get rid of some of the bulk. It only looks passable if I take a straightening iron to it, but I just don't have the energy or patience for that most days, and I've just been scraping it back into a sad little pony tail and using a barrette to hold back the floppy part that is too short for the pony tail. I was hoping to achieve something that I could scrunch some product into
and allow to dry and it would look okay. My hair is part way dry now and I really don't think I achieved my objective- it's still quite puffball and wild. Ah well, I may go at it again later in the week, or probably just return to pulling it back into a pony again. Meh, whatever, it's only hair. I cannot afford a hair cut right now, not even at the cheap as chips walk in place. At least I didn't cut it too short, which always a risk, so there's that.

I did de-hair my face, and give my woolly-bear caterpillar brows a trim also. So I think I'm acceptable for public viewing.

[yellow_fleurs]

Well I am doing decently. My hormones seem out of whack and I am possibly having some joint flare ups (trouble walking today). My brain does not feel as off as I would expect given the hormones. I kind of wonder sometimes if some of my mental symptoms are related to inflammation. I get a flare up of joint pain and fatigue with my hormones, plus the mental issues, and I have heard of some possible relationship between inflammation and PMDD. Just makes me think is all, considering my symptoms seem to have improved since starting this NSAID, could be a coincidence though.

I had acupuncture today which I am hoping with help with the joint issues. Also scheduled a physical therapy appointment for a couple of weeks from now. I am kind of excited as it has been many years since I tried it and maybe they will be able to help somehow.

Having kind of a hard time getting motivated at work and feeling a bit flat, but able to occasionally have a good time so not too deep into depression. On reflection to this time last year I have to say I am pretty pleased with the progress even if it has been ups and downs. I just generally feel as though my brain is calmer and healthier.

[Moose72]

Trying to kill a migraine with Tylenol since Im outta Sumatriptan. Just went to the pharmacy yesterday, too. Been watching Wanda Sykes- funny. Had to go get N3 from work. He has 3 days left of exams/school! Wow.

Interesting day.

Yesterday, I got an email offer for a second interview, but was hesitant about the job itself (working in lots of different locations, rather far-flung for transit riding) and had on my to-do list to respond today.

As I was laying in bed thinking about this, the phone rang. Even though it wasn't a familiar number, I picked up. It was from a previous job I'd gotten beat out on. The person they hired took a professional job, so I'm up! I'm going to take it, though I said I'd talk to my current job to work out the time frame (I'd like to leave NOW, lol, but that wouldn't be nice to my co-worker who's about to go on vacation).

Got some stuff done, laundry, framed a couple pictures, took a shower, actually cooked both lunch and dinner, etc. Trying to eat a bit healthier.

I realized that I didn't mention the conjunctivitis finally went away (yea!). But the bruising from the sidewalk fall looks worse each day, but hopefully will clear up soon.

Mood-wise, things have been ok.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Yay Innerzone! (On the job and end of conjunctivitis, not the fall damage. I'm still not quite free of scabs from my fall a few weeks ago although at least my face was about the only thing I did not hit. Hope you feel fast.)

[lightly toasted]

I think I'm going hypomanic.

Physically I'm tired, but I've been super chatty and all over the place with topics I've been blathering on about. And giggly and weird. Tonight I was in a Petsmart and the cat food I was after wasn't on the shelf, I couldn't find any salespeople, so I just walked into the stockroom and looked myself . Now that I've been home, I realise that's a bit odd. It seemed normal and acceptable to me at the time. I am cringing at some of the stuff I've overshared and this is why, apart from my husband, I just don't socialise any more. If I'm not depresses and cranky, I'm hypomanic and embarrassing myself. Cripes, I just want to crawl under a rock.

[giddykitty]

I'm almost done weaning off my bipolar medicine. It wasn't very high dosage. I still am skeptic whether I actually have bipolar. I'm thinking it must've just been a reaction to the ADHD medication that sent me hypomania, I don't know. But I just want to thank all of you for reading my posts all these months and your support and your stories. I wish everyone the best and hope to remain a part of this group even if just for moral support. I still have anxiety and depression and apparently dependant personality disorder (although I'm skeptic of that too) so I can relate a little. Anyway, take care everyone! Peace and love!

I almost fried my work laptop this morning and lost everything. I spilled a full cup of water on the edge of it, but luckily, the water spilled off it and went underneath, not in through the keyboard. I’m so clumsy sometimes! I hit it with my hand pretty forcefully because the cup went flying. lol. The mouse is toast, though. R.I.P. mouse.

This is like the 3rd or 4th time I’ve done this. I really need a spill proof water bottle and to stop using the disposable cups. You’d think I’d have learned by now!

Well, I’m the kind of person who trips going up the stairs or trips on flat ground, so I’m pretty clumsy. And I drop things often.

Otherwise, having a good day so far. I set up a lunch today with my coworkers to go out for Indian. It’s 15 mins away from the office, but it’s sooooo worth it.

I'm applying for disability and it sucks. This is totally overwhelming I don't remember half the crap they're asking and I don't even know how to find it out. How am I supposed to remember what I got paid four years ago when I only worked a few months out of the year? I was told it wouldn't be overwhelming and it is and I'm already on the verge of a breakdown and this is just sending me over the edge. **** it, I can be homeless.

[Nammu]

What got me is that they wanted addresses and names....I don't remember those things. I started keeping my outdated DL cause they had the addresses on them, but how much I earned and who was my boss? I didn't know. I don't remember people's names from high school either.

[Miss Laura]

Still feel hyper. Still wakening between 2 and 4am. Skin still crawling. Struggling to do anything cause I'm hungover and cant stay awake. Having high anxieties. Talking to guys online. They want to meet. Buying stuff off of Ebay and Amazon etc. Dont care about things anymore that I use to

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by spikes

I'm applying for disability and it sucks. This is totally overwhelming I don't remember half the crap they're asking and I don't even know how to find it out. How am I supposed to remember what I got paid four years ago when I only worked a few months out of the year? I was told it wouldn't be overwhelming and it is and I'm already on the verge of a breakdown and this is just sending me over the edge. **** it, I can be homeless.

I am sorry it is so stressful. A few things you could try for your income are an old W-2 or tax form, or maybe a bank statement? You could possibly call the HR though I realize that would be stressful. I had to get records from an old place of work and the HR was able to print and mail me my pay stubs.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I was right about my toothache. I need a root canal. I have to go to an endodontist so they can work through the crown I already have. I have a feeling this will be very expensie. But at least the toothache will stop.

Tonight and tomorrow I'm taking some extra clozapine to hopefully knock my mood down to normal. I hate it because I'l be exhausted but it's needed. Usually I do a 4 day pulse but I only have time for a 2 day to let it clear my system before I drive all day to see my pdoc. Hopefully it won't interfere with the root canal. My mom can probably take me if it does but I hate to make her do that. Maybe I should wait before I do the pulse. Not sure....not sure how to know. I guess I'll figure it out.

[Scooter9]

I lost my security pass that I need for work and parking. Now it's going to be a headache and $40 to replace it. I have no idea where I lost it except that it happened during the day while I was at work.

I'm feeling ok... first day on bupropion (Wellbutrin). Still feeling low but it'll be a couple of weeks before I can expect any change, if anything at all because I'm on a low dose.