[LadyShadow]

I have never been better. I finally am on the right medication - I am aware, sleeping properly and soundly, waking up at a decent hour and absolutely ready to go to work full time. I am waiting to hear back for a job I applied for, but I am feeling very positive, and healthy. It was a long road, and after 12 years, I am finally ready to come off of disability and rejoin the workforce.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

I have never been better. I finally am on the right medication - I am aware, sleeping properly and soundly, waking up at a decent hour and absolutely ready to go to work full time. I am waiting to hear back for a job I applied for, but I am feeling very positive, and healthy. It was a long road, and after 12 years, I am finally ready to come off of disability and rejoin the workforce.

That’s great news! Good for you! I hope you get that job.

[LadyShadow]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

That’s great news! Good for you! I hope you get that job.

Thank you so much! I am really hoping for it, but I don't want to put myself through agony over it. If I don't hear from them by next week, I am going to start looking again after the holiday. I am trying to keep my cool and do the absolute best for myself.

I haven't been able to access the forum for a week due to tech dif. BirdDancer: great job on all your Spring cleaning! I've done some myself and it's nice to have a clean home. WildFlowerChild25: congratulations on your house! It sounds like RS' family are very supportive. I feel like you're starting a whole new chapter of your life!

I feel like i'm shaking off my Winter depression. I think it's the Lamictal because i'm not super chatty like i am when i have Spring hypomania. In fact, i was out with my neighbor today with our dogs and i was quite uncomfortable as i was so tongue-tied. But i'd had her over earlier to see my keyboard and the interactive app it works with and that went well.

I've been eating healthy for twelve days. I'm not restricting calories because i don't think it's possible on Seroquel from many attempts and failures. I'm just eating healthy food in proper meals instead of grazing on junk all day. It probably doesn't seem like much of an accomplishment to most of you but i've been eating so poorly for most of the past two decades i'm surprised i didn't get malnutrition. It was really hard the first week with intense hunger between meals but the second week has been easier.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

I haven't been able to access the forum for a week due to tech dif. BirdDancer: great job on all your Spring cleaning! I've done some myself and it's nice to have a clean home. WildFlowerChild25: congratulations on your house! It sounds like RS' family are very supportive. I feel like you're starting a whole new chapter of your life!

I feel like i'm shaking off my Winter depression. I think it's the Lamictal because i'm not super chatty like i am when i have Spring hypomania. In fact, i was out with my neighbor today with our dogs and i was quite uncomfortable as i was so tongue-tied. But i'd had her over earlier to see my keyboard and the interactive app it works with and that went well.

I've been eating healthy for twelve days. I'm not restricting calories because i don't think it's possible on Seroquel from many attempts and failures. I'm just eating healthy food in proper meals instead of grazing on junk all day. It probably doesn't seem like much of an accomplishment to most of you but i've been eating so poorly for most of the past two decades i'm surprised i didn't get malnutrition. It was really hard the first week with intense hunger between meals but the second week has been easier.

I think healthy eating is an awesome accomplishment especially if you live alone, it's just so easy to graze on junk food. It's a huge lifestyle change, congratulations!

[~Christina]

So I fell on my steps coming in the house yesterday , wound up twisted sideways. I’m sure I looked ridiculous. My husband saw it happen and told me I looked like a ballerina .... LOL I love this man .. Pain hit right away. Ibuprofen was in me before I sat down. Getting up this morning was a chore for sure.

Almost a month ago I fell down the stairs and probably a week later tripped over one of my dogs.

I’m not sure what’s going on I might just be a klutz lol.

Otherwise I am doing well off many medications I have 2 more I want to get off of, one can be cold turkey the other I need to wean down. My mind does seem much clearer. So that’s a wonderful thing.

Up in the middle of the night. Again.

LadyShadow, that's a great step! Congratulations on being at this point. I hope it won't be too long before I can write similar.

For some unknown reason, my street had a power outage between 3 pm and 10:30 pm yesterday. I made dinner early while there was still light (I manually lit my gas stove burners). We ended up falling asleep early so I woke up around 5 am fully awake.

I'm so sore from staining our deck yesterday. I'm not used to that kind of labor. It looks good, though. We'll be receiving our new deck furniture this weekend.

[Moose72]

I'm back to being exhausted. Sleeping 8-9 hours at night and about 6 during the day. I am leaving where I am whhen out to go home and sleep.... Its overwhelming- as bad as when I went back on seroquel earlier this month. "Haldol is a major tranquilizer" says my friend who is/was a behavioral pharmacologist. I guess so!

[fern46]

It sounds like the mania has subsided. Maybe your doc would be willing to drop your meds down a bit now to give you back a little energy. I'm sure it must feel as though you've been on a roller coaster.

[Miss Laura]

Bouncing!! Definitely feeling like Tigger on speed today. Lack of sleep isn't helping. Had a heavy session with my therapist today. Wish I didnt act like this when manic its exhausting me

So, I just got prescribed Zoloft. I hope it works well for my anxiety since Buspar doesn't. I think I'm starting to feel a little depressed anyway, so maybe it'll help with the depression too.

I didn't mention the hallucinations to my pdoc because I was dealing with paralyzing anxiety at the time and hallucinations weren't even on my mind. I should probably tell him, though, in case Zoloft exacerbates them. But he does know I get psychosis regardless of me being in an episode, so at least I know he is being mindful of that in general. Still, I have to tell him.

Otherwise, doing alright I guess. Just starting to feel a little down today as of a few hours ago. Sad, disappointed in myself, reflecting on all the stupid sh_t I've done. Maybe it's just a negative moment in my life and not depression, though. Only time will tell. I hope everyone else has a wonderful day.

I started Wellbutrin a couple days ago, or was it yesterday? I don't know. I've been slightly depressed lately. Haven't been walking as much. Tired.

[Moose72]

I had a dream today that I met my soulmate at a restaurant and we ate together and left together after lots of cuddles and happy grins.

I can barely walk today after the deck staining yesterday. Hubby mostly just stained the floor of the deck, using a staining brush on a stick. I, on the other hand, was kneeling, getting up and down a million times from that position, on my hands and knees at other times, and reaching into difficult to reach places staining all of the railing and a huge flower box he created. I took ibuprofen and even put arnica cream on my legs, but they've helped little. Walking itself is painful, but going up and down the stairs is sheer torture.I do very little physical work, so I was particularly vulnerable.

I haven't done much of anything today. The last time I went downstairs I felt horrible thinking that I haven't even done my flower arrangements. Leaves were falling on the floor and my legs hurt too much to even pick them up. Hubby told me to order dinner. I'm not in the mood for it.

[bpforever1]

I'm doing well. I am taking care of my father still. It is a lot of work. I am currently washing clothes. I scrubbed the toilet and cleaned the drawers in the bathroom since ants are coming inside the bathroom. Then, I took care of the kitty litter. I also took out the dishes from the dishwasher. I am now preparing for dinner. I am thinking of boiling vegetables and making sausage sandwiches. I just sat down and feel tired. I will have to set the table then clean afterwards. Oh well. Such is life. I have no time to feel depressed nor contemplate about my situation. I feel fine though but tired.

[Moose72]

I went on a walk with n3 today. Got a shower. Feel refreshed! And started some laundry. I wish that dream I had earlier were real.

[Daonnachd]

My ECT which was supposed to happen tomorrow got postponed to the 5th of June. That will be nice because we won't have Friday afternoon holiday traffic to deal with getting home.

[Nammu]

Ewww holiday traffic. Yeah avoiding that is a definite plus.

[VerMOZZica]

I went to a therapist appointment. I`m giving therapy another try after my Pdoc suggested it more than once. It went okay .The therapist seemed nice. After that I got lunch and after that I didn`t do too much. Later we went to pick up my meds at the pharmacy and picked up dinner. After dinner I folded my laundry and put it away. Then I tidied up my bedroom. Now I`m here posting. I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend.!!!!!!!!!!

[Wander]

I have been too unwell to post or even read posts the last few days. Stomach issues, severe pain, shivers and exhaustion led me to ER again. I felt I was in trouble but more tests led to no conclusions. Constant sleeping and antacids seem to be helping but I am still very weak as I haven't been able to eat much for about a month. This afternoon I seem to have picked up and even managed to vacuum my flat as the mess was bugging me. My partner is back at his flat as he wants to be alone. He has a lot on his plate and is overwhelmed so I understand. Tbh I want to be alone too. Being in a quite environment that I can control helps.

Now my fear is that my Bipolar meds have not been digested properly over the last month leaving me vulnerable to another episode. I am ok at the moment. Just irritable, but that could be caused by my physical issues. Gosh, I just want to be well in every way for once. It's 2.30 pm here and I am back off to bed after getting up at 11 am. Sigh ...

[xRavenx]

Everything I say and do seems to be the wrong thing. I don't really see what the point is anymore. Whenever I try to move forward, it seems I do something to mess it all up.

Originally Posted by xRavenx

Everything I say and do seems to be the wrong thing. I don't really see what the point is anymore. Whenever I try to move forward, it seems I do something to mess it all up.

Sorry you feel that way. Sometimes I feel that way too lately. It's crushing.

Hopefully this feeling passes soon.

Originally Posted by Wander

I have been too unwell to post or even read posts the last few days. Stomach issues, severe pain, shivers and exhaustion led me to ER again. I felt I was in trouble but more tests led to no conclusions. Constant sleeping and antacids seem to be helping but I am still very weak as I haven't been able to eat much for about a month. This afternoon I seem to have picked up and even managed to vacuum my flat as the mess was bugging me. My partner is back at his flat as he wants to be alone. He has a lot on his plate and is overwhelmed so I understand. Tbh I want to be alone too. Being in a quite environment that I can control helps.

Now my fear is that my Bipolar meds have not been digested properly over the last month leaving me vulnerable to another episode. I am ok at the moment. Just irritable, but that could be caused by my physical issues. Gosh, I just want to be well in every way for once. It's 2.30 pm here and I am back off to bed after getting up at 11 am. Sigh ...

Sorry to hear that, Wander. I hope you get better soon.

If your stomach is bothering you, have you tried eating some plain bread or plain crackers with your meds so that they're absorbed better? Usually plain bread products are light on the stomach, and I do that whenever I need to eat with my meds. A lot of times, meds are absorbed best when you eat them with food (with the exception of a few like Ritalin).

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

My ECT which was supposed to happen tomorrow got postponed to the 5th of June. That will be nice because we won't have Friday afternoon holiday traffic to deal with getting home.

Good luck with your ECT. Did you ever manage to get the financial situation straightened out?