Originally Posted by Innerzone

I worked a full work week(!) (These are the first days working there.)
The new job is going really well. I like it SOOO much better.

Congrats

I hope the job continues to work out for you in the long run. It sounds promising.

I’m not looking forward to tomorrow, Tuesday, and Wednesday. ALL DAY MEETINGS. 7am to 6pm with one break from 12:30pm to 1pm each day. And then they want to have a business DINNER afterwards. Ugh. No way am I doing dinner! I can’t be with work people from 7am thru 8 or 9pm from Monday thru Wednesday. Not to mention I have to drive to/from work.

My new boss and old boss think it will be “fun and interesting like last year,” but it certainly wasn’t either of those things last year! I kinda wish I had a valid excuse to skip. It was painful. Really painful. Stressed me out and caused an episode last year...

I'm still here. I've noticed I've been saying things wrong. Like instead of "the cat is under the table." I'll say " the rat is under the yellow." Or just the order of words is off. Still doing nothing but listening to music all day.

[GoldenSnitch]

I’ve been having super bad brain zaps again. I’m on day 5 and they get worse every day. Nothing is working to make them go away. I’m really getting frustrated. It’s ruining whole days of my life and pdoc just says to take Ativan.

[xRavenx]

Exhausted. I barely have the energy to do anything, and I'm not even sure why that is. Tomorrow I have a training at work all day. It is hard for me to sit still for very long, so I look forward to it being over. But in some ways, at least it delays me from having to deal with other responsibilities at work. Stress from moving within the next month is difficult when trying to work an deal with that at the same time, although it is a change that will benefit me. Can't wait to just go to sleep though, although there's still a few things I need to do today.

[downandlonely]

@GoldenSnitch that sounds horrible! I'm sorry your doc isn't being more helpful.

[sadveiledbride]

Been having more frequent psychosis and feeling very sad lately.

[Moose72]

I received my copy of "The Liver Cleansing Diet" today and I've dived right in. It has an easy-to-read font which is pleasing. Im determined to fix all the issues steming from my messed up liver- which antipsychotics wrecked.

[Wander]

It’s 7 am and I’m at my partners flat. I came over late yesterday as he is in bad shape. His parents (especially his Dad) are horrible, abusive people and he cut off all contact last year. It is all hitting him now as he had been blinded to their abuse until recently. I could see it but he couldn’t hear it all the years we were married. He is also very ill with Bipolar, utterly broke, struggling with basic tasks, extremely anxious, and basically a mess.

Thankfully he has no urge to harm himself. Due to his anxiety he has wanted to be left alone so I did that but as he has only worsened I decided he needs company whether he sees it or not. He did seem to pick up after I was here so I will stay as long as he needs. He has other horrible circumstances to process and it has only just begun. Severe PTSD and Bipolar together make life unbearable for him. It breaks my heart.

As for me, I’m fine outside of irritability which I’m sure is from coming off Lamotrogine as I’m having brain zaps too. A couple more weeks of this and I’m free if that drug.

[Pookyl]

No longer sui but still feel like shyte.
New euthanasia laws have been passed in one of our states but mentally ill people are exempt.

[Wild Coyote]

A warm hello to All!

Just checking in. Have been reading here. Thought I would sign in and say hello.

I am going through a very bizarre separation/divorce. It all came about rather suddenly when I had discovered my H was/is leading an entirely different life, one I have not known about... and one I cannot imagine living along with him, thankfully.

I threw him out 3 weeks ago with just the shirt on his back, his meds and his car keys. While that may not seem like enough, it is much more than he deserves at this point. Believe me. (He is living with his parents for now.)

I have made more and more discoveries almost every day throughout the past 3 weeks. I am in shock and very baffled. He shows no remorse at all. None.

This is not the guy I had married and had lived with for the past 27 years. I do not know who he is; I am repulsed by him. Even so, I have to deal with him because our finances and our property are intertwined. I have been working on changing that as quickly as possible... it will not happen soon enough.

What a shocker! What a nightmare!

I am exhausted from a lack of sleep and from trying to cope with the revelations each day for the past 3 weeks. Just when I think there cannot possibly be more, there is a lot more.

I have been seeing my pdoc every week. She has been adjusting my meds again due to the stress involved.

I was given Seroquel. I believe the Seroquel is causing a lot of hunger...I usually lose weight in these types of circumstances.; this time, I am gaining weight quite quickly.

I have a few autoimmune medical conditions. Each one has been flaring due to the stress.

I hope you can understand why I might not be here as often as I would like to be here, at least for now.

I wish each and every one of you the very best!

Love to ALL!

[downandlonely]

@Wild Coyote I am sorry about your husband. Thanks for checking in.

[tecomsin]

I'm really sorry to read this WC.

[Victoria'smom]

Sorry to hear that WC.

[Moose72]

WC- you will come through this! Please keep in touch.

[Moose72]

Been reading my new liver cleansing book. I only stopped reading because its getting dark.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

A warm hello to All!


Just checking in. Have been reading here. Thought I would sign in and say hello.


I am going through a very bizarre separation/divorce. It all came about rather suddenly when I had discovered my H was/is leading an entirely different life, one I have not known about... and one I cannot imagine living along with him, thankfully.


I threw him out 3 weeks ago with just the shirt on his back, his meds and his car keys. While that may not seem like enough, it is much more than he deserves at this point. Believe me. (He is living with his parents for now.)


I have made more and more discoveries almost every day throughout the past 3 weeks. I am in shock and very baffled. He shows no remorse at all. None.


This is not the guy I had married and had lived with for the past 27 years. I do not know who he is; I am repulsed by him. Even so, I have to deal with him because our finances and our property are intertwined. I have been working on changing that as quickly as possible... it will not happen soon enough.


What a shocker! What a nightmare!


I am exhausted from a lack of sleep and from trying to cope with the revelations each day for the past 3 weeks. Just when I think there cannot possibly be more, there is a lot more.


I have been seeing my pdoc every week. She has been adjusting my meds again due to the stress involved.


I was given Seroquel. I believe the Seroquel is causing a lot of hunger...I usually lose weight in these types of circumstances.; this time, I am gaining weight quite quickly.


I have a few autoimmune medical conditions. Each one has been flaring due to the stress.


I hope you can understand why I might not be here as often as I would like to be here, at least for now.


I wish each and every one of you the very best!


Love to ALL!

Each day I am more shocked. I’m glad your seeing your Pdoc weekly you need that support ....more now than ever.

Always thinking of you daily.

Much love and hugs.

[sadveiledbride]

I am feeling a bit tired and low, but feel a bit better than I did previously a couple of hours ago.

[wildflowerchild25]

WC I am so sorry to read this! I hope you know what a great friend you e always been to me, and to all of us here on PC. We are here for you! You will get through this. I’m glad you’re seeing your pdoc weekly. We all love you here! Please don’t feel obligated to post, but do feel free to stop by when you can. Good luck with everything, I hope you can get everything resolved quickly so you can begin to move on and heal.

Sorry to hear that, WC. That is so unfair. You deserve better.

I hope you’re able to get things situated quickly. Best wishes and remember to take care of yourself.

[wildflowerchild25]

Im doing much better. I had another dream about being forced to go to the hospital but I didn’t self harm in it so it didn’t trigger me. Now I’m just stressing about my big project due this week. It’s due next Monday but I need to get it done by Friday because I’m moving this weekend and won’t have WiFi until the following Tuesday.

Yes I’m moving this weekend! We’ve got a lot of stuff set up already. I’m so excited! I’m going to have a housewarming party in July. Our first party in our new home! So happy.

I also applied for a teaching job. It’s actually at my old job. I’m not sure they’ll take me back after the way I resigned but we will see. They might. I was a good teacher. I’m holding my breath waiting for a call.

@Wild Coyote, I'm thinking of you wishing you strength during this terribly rough time. We are all here for you when you need us. We care!

Oh, WC!!!! My heart breaks for you! Having to discover awful things, especially of someone you have known so long -- what a terrible, terrible ordeal. I'm so very, very sorry you're having to deal with this. I hope things go as smoothly as possible navigating through it. We are always here for you, dear, sweet WC.

[hopeless2015]

Oh WC, I'm so sorry!! Please keep us updated when you can. Thinking of you and hugs!!!

[sadveiledbride]

Feeling very low today because of an appointment I have and am anxious for it. I woke up pretty early, which makes me wonder if I should start going to sleep earlier. Seems like a good idea, anyway. Other than my anxiety I'm okay, I guess.