I have too many things on my "To Do" list for today. I am not sure I'll manage to achieve them all. And yet I must. Tomorrow at 12 noon is sort of a deadline. We have a lady coming to clean our house. I can't have half of our stuff out of the cabinets sitting in boxes in the dining room.

My brother is very kindly coming to my house in just a few minutes. I told him to access the situation and give me an honest answer whether or not he feels up to the task. He said he hurt his ankle today, and has a sore eyelid after getting stung by one of his honey bees (he raises honey bees). I planned on getting some cash to give him, but I don't have enough time to get to the ATM and back. Maybe he'll go with me there? But that's kind of awkward. I can promise to give him the "thank you" gift next time I see him.

Not having a dishwasher and working kitchen sink is terrible!!!!! I'm hoping the sink will be made operational today. I hope! I've had to rinse/wash some things in the bathroom sink.

[Jedi67]

wished I could have slept longer. stayed up watching movies. just didn't get sleepy until late. took my son to work and had one cup of coffee. later I take my daughter to work. mood is moderate. not too elevated or sad or low. just relaxing now. no errands to run. may go to the library tomorrow since my daughter is off. also, need to do some pruning around the house. trying to keep busy. hope everyone is well!

[liveforsummer]

Hi all, been reading here and there but not posting much. (Basically my online paranoia).
Reading your posts I am continually encouraged by your strengths and support of one another 😊

I’m doing pretty well but I think I’m going to stop the cymbalta. I really don’t feel any worthwhile positive effects that would make me decide to continue this long term. It’s also messing with my GI system terribly.
pdoc thought it would give me a motivation boost but I feel less. I was just chopping vegetables and had to stop and take this break as it was exhausting me. I also slept in until noon today. Anyway I see her next week to discuss.
Hugs !!

[fern46]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I have too many things on my "To Do" list for today. I am not sure I'll manage to achieve them all. And yet I must. Tomorrow at 12 noon is sort of a deadline. We have a lady coming to clean our house. I can't have half of our stuff out of the cabinets sitting in boxes in the dining room.

My brother is very kindly coming to my house in just a few minutes. I told him to access the situation and give me an honest answer whether or not he feels up to the task. He said he hurt his ankle today, and has a sore eyelid after getting stung by one of his honey bees (he raises honey bees). I planned on getting some cash to give him, but I don't have enough time to get to the ATM and back. Maybe he'll go with me there? But that's kind of awkward. I can promise to give him the "thank you" gift next time I see him.

Not having a dishwasher and working kitchen sink is terrible!!!!! I'm hoping the sink will be made operational today. I hope! I've had to rinse/wash some things in the bathroom sink.

I hope the sink is fixed soon. I remember doing dishes for a family of 4 out of a powder room sink for a week when we remodeled a few years ago. How do the counters look? I hope you are pleased with how they came out.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Hi all, been reading here and there but not posting much. (Basically my online paranoia).
Reading your posts I am continually encouraged by your strengths and support of one another 😊

I’m doing pretty well but I think I’m going to stop the cymbalta. I really don’t feel any worthwhile positive effects that would make me decide to continue this long term. It’s also messing with my GI system terribly.
pdoc thought it would give me a motivation boost but I feel less. I was just chopping vegetables and had to stop and take this break as it was exhausting me. I also slept in until noon today. Anyway I see her next week to discuss.
Hugs !!

Hey there, stranger!

So glad to "see" you!
I am sorry you are not feeling better.
I hope to see you around.

[Wild Coyote]

Just taking a quick break from my many tasks today. I have gotten a lot done; yet, feel quite overwhelmed. I have a deadline on all of these tasks. It's a very hectic week as it is. Oh well, I will survive!

Going "back into" the .gov abyss to see if I am, somehow, recognized today!?

Too bad making this .gov account is a requirement.
Am I required to comply if they refuse to acknowledge that I am me?



I hope to check in later on today.
Love to All ~

[Moose72]

Autumn has traditionally been a bad time for me- lots of my hospitalizations have been in the fall. One was in the Spring. This year wouldve been a Spring admitt. If the Seroquel hadn't knocked me on my keester!

[Daonnachd]

I can't recall much from before ECT so I don't know how my episodes fitted into the seasons. I haven't the slightest idea of when in the year I tended to get hospitalised. As to what season I prefer, I suppose I'm partial to winter's rain and chill. I like to dress in layers.

Reporting on today - average day, short ride, checking in here.

I hope all continues to improve for each of you.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

As to what season I prefer, I suppose I'm partial to winter's rain and chill. I like to dress in layers.

Reminds me of Winters in Victoria B.C. on Vancouver Island in Canada. Winters in Michigan are brutal lately- all that snow and ice plus last January we had windchills at -40F! **** that!

[LadyShadow]

Took care of the finances today and listened to my Live Lecture for school. It absolutely exhausted me!! I have no idea how I expect to go back to work full-time. I'ms so tired!!!

[wildflowerchild25]

I GOT THE JOB!!! I’m going to be an English teacher in a school for kids with emotional and behavioral problems once again. I’m so excited! The only thing I’m worried about is I can’t renew my teacher of students with disabilities certificate until I get 21 post baccalaureate credits. I have 21, but they’re in two different programs (some in a master’s the others in a regular post bacc program). I’m not sure if that will be acceptable. But I will have 21 credits by the end of the fall semester so hopefully everything will work out. I would hate to give notice at my current job to find out I can’t take this new one. But I will ask about that. I have to go for a physical on Friday that’s going to take 2 hours I hope I don’t have to run! I don’t mind lifting now that my back is healed up but I still suck at running.

I’m so excited! I’m already planning bulletin boards and classroom motivators and lesson plans. I just have to find out what the curriculum is. Then I can focus on one thing. I want to do the poetry project I did with my gpa kids with them but they said they focus on test prep and I’m not sure I can tie poetry into test prep.

Yay! So excited!

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Congratulations Wildflower!

[Nammu]

Congratulations wild!

In the first years seemed like February was my down month that ended in hospitals but after being put on ADs that brought out mixed episodes any old month or season could be hospital time. When I wised up and quit the ADs I had learned coping skills and how to avoid hospitals. My last depression I stayed in my apartment and quit socially interacting had there been anyone around that knew how bad it was I would have been hospitalized but I wasn't actively Sui just passive. So passive that days passed and only my cat knew I hadn't moved. Poor cat. But he was the reason I made midnight runs to the food store to get him food.

[Wild Coyote]

Congratulations, Wildflower!!!

[Wild Coyote]

Good Evening!

I have gotten a lot done. I think I've added at least 12 new passwords to the mix. I don't like to have so much on the internet. I miss the good ole days without cell phones, without the internet, etc.

So, I've found out more about .gov's inability to "recognize me." They cannot verify anything about me. Why? Because Equifax , they think, has frozen my account/ is blocking me from being able to be seen/verified and/or to do anything. :what?:

Tomorrow, I need to get a vascular ultrasound.
I hope my arm will be okay.
My right arm will be just fine.

Excellent, Wildflower! Super congrats!

Most of my past hospitalizations have been in the spring. Even years I have narrowly avoided the hospital, my worst were in the spring. I think I had a couple summer hospitalizations. I don't recall any in the winter or fall. Maybe one, at most.

Today was stressful, but my brother made the day end with eventual success with our plumbing issue. Bro was under the sink for two hours, soldering and more. Then he ran into an issue he said was even beyond him. That's rare! He is an electrician and can do a lot of plumbing, but I needed an official plumber to finish the job. My brother called a plumber friend who came within four hours. The plumber friend had to quickly run to the hardware store, but finished the work in 30 mins after. Since I was my brother's sister, the plumber friend wasn't going to charge me anything. I forced at least $100 on him, and he luckily took it. I had also forced $120 on my brother, plus lunch and dinner. That's a steel compared to local plumbers, who may not have come until as late as Thursday or Friday. My brother stayed with me most of the day, including when his plumber friend came. I love my brother 💖!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow we get our new dishwasher. I hope that goes smoothly. My brother said if it doesn't, to call him again.

I see my psychiatrist tomorrow for the first time in six weeks. He's been on his extended annual vacation. I can't wait! I adore him, too. It's been rough without him.

[Wild Coyote]

Good Evening!

I have gotten a lot done. I think I've added at least 12 new passwords to the mix. I don't like to have so much on the internet. I miss the good ole days without cell phones, without the internet, etc.

So, I've found out more about .gov's inability to "recognize me." They cannot verify anything about me. Why? Because Equifax , they think, has frozen my account/ is blocking me from being able to be seen/verified and/or to do anything.

Tomorrow, I need to get a vascular ultrasound.
I hope my arm will be okay.

Love to All ~

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Good Evening!

So, I've found out more about .gov's inability to "recognize me." They cannot verify anything about me. Why? Because Equifax , they think, has frozen my account/ is blocking me from being able to be seen/verified and/or to do anything. :what?:

Tomorrow, I need to get a vascular ultrasound.
I hope my arm will be okay.

Love to All ~

So all reviews have to be online now? I thought I was due this year but they sent a form asking a few questions and said I was ok but not for how long. I guess it will be a surprise when it comes. I hope you get it working.

Prayers for the ultrasound.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

So all reviews have to be online now? I thought I was due this year but they sent a form asking a few questions and said I was ok but not for how long. I guess it will be a surprise when it comes. I hope you get it working.

Prayers for the ultrasound.

Hi! Well, they strongly prefer the reviews are all done online, I disagreed. I asked them to send me all of the forms via "snail mail", etc. The workers I was in touch with did not know which forms to send. When I did receive some forms, every other page was missing.

I 'd completed all I could complete, writing in answers on paper forms instead of typing and submitting.

Even if I choose to do it all on paper, they still require everyone sets up an online account with them. In order to set up the account, the program needs to recognize each person. If not, I get kicked out and then locked out for 24 hours. Lol!

An hour later, I'd set up an online account with my pharmacy, CVS. Wow! Their security questions, meant to fully identify me, were much more well-informed. They had much more info on me than did the Soc. Sec. Admin., or so it seemed! CVS does their homework!!!

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

As some of you guys know, people at my work have the ability to work from home whenever they want (although they do encourage you to go into the office for productivity purposes). Well, there was this one guy who hadn’t shown up to work in about a year or so. No one knew why, but he just worked from home even though he lives like 20 mins from the office. (Suspicious much?) Turns out that he changed his gender. He was transitioning this whole time. It came out of the blue.


I knew that he and his wife had talked about having kids, but man, I feel bad for the wife. She was totally blindsided apparently. (And yes, they’ve divorced.)


I have no problem with LGBTQ people and I don’t care what people do with their lives as long as they’re not hurting anyone. So, like who you like, practice whatever religion you want, whatever. However, I do think it was a sh_tty thing to do, especially since he admitted to wanting to be a girl ever since he was little and especially since his wife wanted kids. I feel like he was stringing her along this whole time, because it seems like he was trying to fit in at her expense. I mean, I do feel bad that many transgender people (or LGBT people in general) have a hard time fitting in and getting accepted, but what he did was very hurtful to his wife.


On one hand, I want to support him and his transition, but on the other hand, I feel like it was pretty sh_tty to put someone through that. I mean, he admitted he likes men because he genuinely feels he was born a girl, and I have no problem if he feels that way, but is it wrong of me to wonder if he ever loved his wife in the same way a straight man would love his straight wife? I’m sure he didn’t go out of his way to make his wife miserable and I’m sure he didn’t intend to hurt her, but am I wrong for thinking he was selfish? Am I wrong for thinking he should have never married a woman in the first place knowing he likes men? Am I wrong for being disgusted with his behavior?

My husbands first marriage lasted 18 years they had 3 boys and she decided she was a lesbian and always had been. This came out of the blue. He was devastated.. She literally kicked him out that day , he was living in there Rv and she moved her girlfriend of apparently 2 years ( nice hu? ) in the day after he left. Yeah .....

Be who you are but don’t hurt people in some of the worst ways possible

[~Christina]

Congrats Wild!!! I’m so happy for you

BirdDancer... my husbands labs from yesterday are looking better, we see the Doctor tomorrow, at this point I’m sure he will be okay with the trip. There is a very small “ chance” it could be 3 weeks not 4. My husband absolutely loves the reunions.. he goes to them all, the whole gang often have one every couple years. Just in the last 3-4 years A lot of people are passing away. No one from Florida is going to make a trip to see us.. never happened never will. Last time the kids came up was at least 5 years ago. We just aren’t needed like we once were.. one days the kids will realize maybe they should have made a bit of time for us?? Or maybe they won’t??

I’m feeling very overwhelmed with life, self esteem in the gutter, self loathing, trying to find a “ point” to things. I know my husband being so scary ill has worn me down some, I’m isolating as much as possible which for me right now is staying in bed as long as I can physically stand it. My husband wants to leave the 10th instead of the 13th.

Sigh.

[Tucson]

I have been assessing the damage to my finances over a period of time. Fortunately, I did place some money into something substantial instead of junk. I took inventory of the current day used prices regarding my three hobbies which spans many decades.. My hobbies are photography,, antique firearms, and music synthesis. All this gear totals up to $46,000. I find this hard to believe. The antique firearms are a good part of this. I do not know what to do. I am selling some of my photography equipment, the parts that I have never used. It sucks to have an overwhelming debt when I need to sell off much that which I want to keep. .

I am still looking for a job. Nobody wants to hire me. This was also true during the Christmas season I do not know what is going on with myself. My friend may end up hiring me when he gets a new up coming contract.

I have been really depressed. My new puppy has been helping me. However, what is frustrating to me is that she carries off my stuff and hides them on me. LOL I am still looking for my shoes. My CBD vape juice, and capsules, will be here maybe by Friday. This helps me, which is very noticeable to me.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I GOT THE JOB!!! I’m going to be an English teacher in a school for kids with emotional and behavioral problems once again. I’m so excited! The only thing I’m worried about is I can’t renew my teacher of students with disabilities certificate until I get 21 post baccalaureate credits. I have 21, but they’re in two different programs (some in a master’s the others in a regular post bacc program). I’m not sure if that will be acceptable. But I will have 21 credits by the end of the fall semester so hopefully everything will work out. I would hate to give notice at my current job to find out I can’t take this new one. But I will ask about that. I have to go for a physical on Friday that’s going to take 2 hours I hope I don’t have to run! I don’t mind lifting now that my back is healed up but I still suck at running.

I’m so excited! I’m already planning bulletin boards and classroom motivators and lesson plans. I just have to find out what the curriculum is. Then I can focus on one thing. I want to do the poetry project I did with my gpa kids with them but they said they focus on test prep and I’m not sure I can tie poetry into test prep.

Yay! So excited!

Congratulations wildflower!!! Good luck with your new job.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Good Evening!

I have gotten a lot done. I think I've added at least 12 new passwords to the mix. I don't like to have so much on the internet. I miss the good ole days without cell phones, without the internet, etc.

So, I've found out more about .gov's inability to "recognize me." They cannot verify anything about me. Why? Because Equifax , they think, has frozen my account/ is blocking me from being able to be seen/verified and/or to do anything. :what?:

Tomorrow, I need to get a vascular ultrasound.
I hope my arm will be okay.
My right arm will be just fine.

I hope the ultrasound goes well and your arm is ok.

How frustrating about the .gov stuff! I hope that gets easier for you as well.

Sending hugs and supportive vibes.

[Sunflower123]

My NP called and they are going to taper off Abilify and keep Geodon and Vraylar. I’m to take 15 mg for a week then quit. I feel positive about this change. I’d already decided to up my cardio and nutrition to offset potential downturns.

Some great news! I was convinced I had a cavity that needed a filling and possibly even a root canal. Went to the dentist this morning. There is nothing there! Yay! He lectured me again about my grinding of my teeth and I committed to a custom nightguard in September.

It’s a beautiful day to float and I’m in a good mood.

Warm wishes to everyone and hugs to those that are struggling.