Bipolar check in #37

Wishing you an awesome tomorrow! Its way past time for you to catch a break.

A nap and more importantly, a shower!

Thanks, it is good to know that tapering plan worked for someone else.

Same same. Feeling well and bored with everything. I managed to cook dinner successfully last night - little meatballs, potato bake, and steamed broccoli and cauliflower. It was yum, even if I do say so myself. It’s the first time in ages that I cooked something as well as I used before Bipolar.

I'm sorry you're hearing the voices again Bluebicycle. I imagine that must be quite unsettling. Do you still hear them when you listen to something over headphones?

Hopefully you'll feel better when you get your Ritalin dose back on track.

Hi all, I hope everyone is doing well tonight. First of thank you everyone for the belated birthday wishes, they really do mean a lot. I am mostly caught up from vacation laundry and house work. The animals are happy to have there humans back from vacation and that everything feels back to normal to them. I am finally caught up on the mountain load of laundry and organized some of my closet for fall season. Yesterday we had to go grocery shopping because there was nothing in the pantry, fridge or freezer so we had to restock everything for the impending work week.

Today we went and had lunch with all the family at my parents house so they could hear about the vacation and see all the photos we took; they also got their presents we brought back from the ports. It was a nice time catching up with the family. M and I came home and finished up reorganizing the closet. I enjoyed vacation but I am really happy to have my own shower and bed back; the shower and bed on the ship were actually really nice; but they just aren't what you have at home. I slept really well on vacation; I didn't even need the Melatonin after day 2 on the ship; I slept just fine. I don't know if was the sea air, the sound of the waves lapping against the side of the boat or what it was but I slept really good on vacation; either that or it was the compete lack of stress.

IZ: You are right with what you said; looking back when I first joined this place I felt like a completely different person with getting over what happened with my health, previous job, and that terrible relationship. It's nice to finally have my health in order; a job that I truly love and values me as an employee and a great and loving man by my side; who treats me so much better than the cheating dog did. They say a lot can happen in a year and I am grateful for everything that has happened with finding this website making the friends I have, the dream job and all the great friends and M it came with.

Hugs to everyone

whats up?
bizi

Thank you, WC. I'm just trying to take it one day at a time.

I was in a store earlier waiting for my dinner order to be ready (Cracker Barrel) and they already had Christmas stuff out...

I`m having a difficult time getting out of bed and not wanting to leave the house. On Tuesday I saw my pdoc and talked to him about me not being able to get the Latuda and Rexulti he had prescribed for me. It turns out the program I am on wants justification on why I need both. We`ll see how long it takes to work that out. In the meantime I`ve been off the Latuda for weeks now. I felt ill today and had difficulty getting out of bed today. So today I didn`t accomplish anything. I feel really useless at the moment. I just feel really tired right now.

I have been feeling okay over the last fewe days

only real issues for me at the moment are chronic pain and sleep (both of them given, I can't seem to control either.)

I was watching a YouTube video at the time and I was hearing the voices talk to me (using my name etc.), which is definitely concerning because normally, I like to watch YouTube videos or listen to *something* to block out the unwanted voices/sounds.

This is the first time I've heard voices while listening to something. I don't know why the voices broke through. Fortunately, though, it was mostly mumbling

I admit I've never experienced anything like that. Thank you for sharing. I feel I have a tiny grasp on how it must feel now. I'm so glad the voices aren't saying anything too disturbing. I'm sorry though that they broke through though while you were listening to something else. That must feel like a violation of sorts.

What do you do for these types of situations? I think it is amazing you have such great insight and you know the voices are just hallucinations. Do you take prn meds, or just give it a while to sort itself out?

Hang in there Bluebicycle. You're incredibly strong and brave!

Great news! Ihave been wondering how you have been doing. You have not been around as much for awhile now. I hope this means life is going well?

Nothing major going on today. I'm still helping hubby out with his project. It would have been nice if I could have made it to the grocery store, but I didn't and won't today.

A week ago, hubby said I had been talking in my sleep a bit lately. Nothing comprehensible. Then last night at around 3 am, I had a dream and in the dream I was hitting hubby to get his attention to tell him we were really late for some kind of appointment. The thing is, apparently I started to act out that dream in my half-sleep. I woke hubby up actually hitting him saying "We're late! We're late!" I sort of remember hitting him, too. Then I quickly went back to sleep again. Hubby told me about it this morning, and I said that I wasn't 100% sure that I had actually done that. I hope I don't act out dreams in the future. I haven't really done such things in the past, to my recollection. I did sleep walk a little as a child, but not really as an adult. There is no major change in my medications, so it's curious why that happened. Well, my Seroquel XR did go from 500 to 600 mg about two weeks ago, but this behavior only started last night. I've been on 600 mg several times in the past without incidents.

I've had a rough couple of days. Pdoc reduced my Clonidine by half. It is a blood pressure med, but I was taking it for anxiety. H & I were also arguing. I don't know if it was one of those situations or both, but I spent the better part of 2 days crying, nearly called the pdoc yesterday (probably should have) but I waited it out. Today, I'm not so bad, maybe a bit hypomanic, but God knows, that's what mixed does. Pdoc did restart me on Abilify last visit (because I'd accidently been double dosing), with the hope it would help the depression I've had lately. Seems like since my iron has gotten under control, my moods are more unpredictable, or maybe I just feel things more? Both times after my iron infusions, about 2 days later, I had huge crying spells. So who knows? I do believe all systems of the body affect each other and work together, and if one thing changes, it can change others. I hope my moods will even out during this taper.

Clonidine did negatively impact my memory, so much so that after a few days on it, I used the drive-thru ATM and left my card in the ATM machine. Pdoc immediately lowered the dosage. So I hope tapering off will help my memory without too much added anxiety.

I honestly think you will feel much better once you get through some of the symptoms you might have as you taper down/off meds.

Blueberrybook I hope you feel better soon. That must be stressful to be arguing with your husband. Are you still seeing that T that you said was helping you? I am sure changing around meds can be difficult and I hope you have some support.

I have been known to act out dreams. I am not sure of which factors have played into this. I act out dreams maybe 3-4 times a year.

Don't hit him too hard!

How's the project going?

Thanks, fern. I don't know what I do for these types of situations. Normally I try to wash out one sound with another, but obviously that's not going to work in situations like these. I pretty much just "dealt with it" because I didn't know what else to do. Fortunately, though, it went away within about 20 mins and hasn't returned since yesterday.

As for PRN meds -- Don't have any. Used to have Klonopin and Seroquel, but I don't take those anymore. I definitely don't want to touch seroquel ever again, and Klonopin hasn't been prescribed in a while. I never really used it, though, in all fairness, so I never bothered asking for a refill.

It's great the voices have not bothered you today!
I have been very concerned.

I have had a trying day. I am tapering down on Seroquel. I am now at 25mg. I am not sleeping. I am too wired to nap.

I need my sleep! I can see I will quickly start feeling overwhelmed if I get too tired. I just cannot afford down time right now. I have so much going on in my life!
I am feeling exhausted. I am dozing off for 2-20 seconds at a time; yet, cannot sleep any longer than that. I hope to get some sleep tonight.

I hope everyone is well and will have a peaceful, restful night!

Hi Wild Coyote. Do you mind me asking from what dose you tapered down from? If going down by 25mg is too hard, you can at least split the IR pills. My Seroquel XR cannot be split and XR's smallest dose is 50 mg, unlike IR's 25 mg. I can certainly say that increases and decreases of my XR of even just 50 mg make a huge difference in my situation, usually.

I hope that your daytime fatigue will help with your nighttime sleep tonight.

I worked quite a lot on the project. The work is very interesting, but it is tiring and I actually feel a little sore in my back, though that could also be due partly to the time of month.

wild coyote, have you tried melatonin?
I take100mg of visteril/atarax with 20 mg of long acting melatonin and 3mg of short acting melatonin.
I am sleeping. with ear pugs.
sleep thru the night except once to go pee.
sleep is such an issue for a lot of us.
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi

I wish I could be of service to you. I will be sending thoughts of rest and peace your way.

yeah sleep is a big thing for a lot of us.

personally i took a Seroquel 50 at 8pm and didn't sleep til midnight so i may need to increase to 100.