Bipolar check in #39

I'll be making another Christmas cookie today to photograph for my blog's Czech Christmas cookie recipe series. I made them last year with success, but didn't have a good photo of them. Tomorrow is my husband's name day. The cookies will be for that, too.

Today will be otherwise quiet, I hope.

Hubby is really stressed out by his project. I'd like to help him again. Last night he went to bed at 7:30 pm. I had accidentally left the phone on his side of the bed. He hates that and has asked me not to do it many times, but I forgot it was there. He was in a pissed off mood, so threw it and it actually hit me. Of course that angered me. Then he stopped talking to me. I hate that crap! Luckily, in the morning, the spat was over. I am the type that dislikes fighting. For that reason, we rarely fight and/or any fights end quickly. It's not that I stuff the anger, I just scrap it, most all of the time, like flushing it down the toilet. There's no sense in it most of the time. Plus, this was a piddly matter.

What is a name day?
bizi

Good Sunday Afternoon!

Thanks for the inquiries about my aunt. She was moved out of ICU last night. She continues very challenged with pain.
Her sons are with her 24/7. She is not up to any other company at this time.

( I am not happiest that she was moved out of ICU when her pain continues so severe. Often, doctors can get more aggressive and/or more creative with the treatment of pain if the patient remains in ICU with closer monitoring. Just my two cents! )

Thanks so very much for your concern and your compassion.

I had a slip up with my eating disorder yesterday. A bit frustrated with myself over it but there's really nothing I can do to change that but learn from it and move forward. Things are going well otherwise, I see my psychiatrist and therapist tomorrow. Hope everyone is having a good weekend

That really surprises me that she was moved out of ICU so soon after her high risk surgery and if she is in a lot of pain. Continued prayers for your aunt.

Haven't been around a lot lately. Been super busy with work since I've been working full weekends for the past few weeks.

I stopped working around 9:30am today because I couldn't make anymore progress on what I was doing. I basically have to wait until tomorrow morning to report something wrong with the software I'm using so that it can get fixed and I can get back on track. In the meantime, though, I don't know what my boss is going to think of me. I can't hit any of my goals because of this stupid software issue that's not even my fault. Or maybe this is a blessing in disguise if it can be used as a valid excuse for not getting things done.

Anyway, to answer people's questions from before: I had my boss' full attention when I said I didn't want to go on a business trip overseas. We had a meeting together, just me and him, and we talked about it.

I don't know why he's so adamant about me going on a trip that I don't want to go on. It's like no matter what I say, he doesn't give a sh_t. He comes up with excuses when I tell him explicitly why I don't want to go. I said it was overwhelming, I don't like long plane trips, the time zone differences mess with me, and I don't feel comfortable going into an area of another country where practically no one speaks English. He keeps saying none of that matters because I'll "always be with other people." YEAH RIGHT. That's what my old boss said the second and third time when I complained that I didn't like the first time. That couldn't have been further from the truth. Trust me, my co-workers all like to get up late in the morning and then they stay out late after the work day because they're drinking like fish. How on earth is my fourth visit going to be any different from my first three? It's not. I don't want to go.

Hi bizi. The origin of name days is from saints days (e.g. St. Patrick's day/St. Valentine's day). Some countries, like my husband's country, recognize these days for everyone in the country. Every day of the year has common names associated with them (female and male). Not all names are of saints for name days.

Usually people in such countries see the names on the calendar. Either name day wishes or sometimes small gifts are given, but not to the degree of birthdays, which are also celebrated.

Hey there, Tucson!
How nice to have you posting!
You are sounding a bit down.

I am sorry you have a low opinion of yourself.
I happen to think you have some great qualities. You always offer a lot to all of us when you are here! You've always been so good to your family!

I hope things look up soon!
So happy to have you drop in! Maybe stay?

Please take care! I do hope to see you around more!

Where is your husband from? just curious.
bizi

We’re you able to get some sleep ? Do you feel better at any certain time of day ? Morning or night?!

Ohhhh your cookies !!! Since you first started talk of your cookies again , I swear I always go through the bakery area at my grocery store and they just have plain ordinary things, and most I’ve tried at some point of another and they all tasted really awful.

Part of me wishes there was an actual bakery here in town but I’m also really happy there isn’t ! Lol

Happy baking !

Omg I thinks it’s horrible they have moved her while she’s dealing with such horrible pain. I am glad her sons are always with her, that dues typically keep Doctors more on task as they fear lawsuits. Maybe they willl convince her Doctors yo return her to more one on one care????

It’s just not right !

How is your day ??!

ED’s are such tricky animals. Mine often comes out if no where for no reason... but later on days to weeks I can usually see what triggered it.

Yes just keep moving forward , can’t be changed now.

Well I was up until after 7am, was busy reading. About 10 am I woke up to that “ Omg I think I am going to die kind of acid reflux! “

Ugh ugh ugh ! I have tried to lay down but yet I can’t despite the acid pills and liquid medications.. I think today will just have my stomach feeling terrible, ugh

I’m a little hurt/annoyed/sad/ annoyed with my husband.

It revolves around multiple medical problems and testing I’m having done.

I see my rheumatologist on the 14 th for our regular 6 week followup , which we have to decide what to do now that my pulmonary Doctor feels the Humira is what is causing me the problems. I have an appt on the 19th for a full Pulmonary functions test, both of those are appts 1.5 hours away. The 15th I have my liver ultrasound in my town, “well if your blood work shows fatty liver why do you need the US?? To compare to US done in Florida ,,

If your Pulmonary Doctor feels it’s Humira why do the pft? Unmmm because I need a baseline and I’ll likely need extra meds to help my ability to breath while the Humira leaves my system ?

This just infuriated me, god knows we are so strapped money wise but my liver and breathing are not something I can just ignore.

He’s told me before when he gets freaked out over my medical care and he has to find out how to pay for it I’m to just ignore him , well it’s really hard to ignore it !! 9/10 times I’m in the bathroom crying as quietly as I can.

Humira half life is 3-6 months !! I’m hoping my rheumatologist can assure me the SOB symptoms goes away quickly. * fingers crossed*

I’m done trying to explain to my husband that psoriatic arthritis (PsA ) is not just a normal aging process. It’s an auto immune disorder that is just going to keep destroying my joints and needs treatment to yes hopefully help with the pain but it’s more so about stopping further damage. The X-rays of my feet already show moderate to severe damage, id really like to continue to be able to walk for as long as I can. I’m only 52 for crying out loud..

I do not enjoy having to see doctors or having testing, but none of this can just be ignored. This amount of chronic shortness of breath can lead to irreversible damage to my lungs more than my asthma already does.

It’s just so damn upsetting !

I’m just going to go binge some ER and hopefully get my mind off this shyt!

Hope everyone has a good Sunday

Hugs and cookies~

He's from Czech Republic.

Thinking of you and sending hugs and supportive vibes.

It is heartbreaking to hear of you crying in your bathroom alone.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

We visited Prague a while ago. Seeing the jewish quarters and cemetery was something else., all of those tombstones on top of each other.
I liked the potato dumplings....we stayed in touristy spots and were there 3 nights. Getting back to the airport from our hotel was a night mere. Our lift driver did not speak any english and kept wanting to drop us off at the wrong location....finally using an english translator on our phones he dropped us off close enough we just walked the way to where we needed to be.
bizi

Ugh I'm too full
Had champagne brunch this am for my daughter's bridal shower, them drove to our church where mum wanted to go to the meatball luncheon. They were just too close together. Was a nice shower.

I remember you went to Prague. Yes, the Jewish section of Prague is a very unique section. Prague has the oldest synagogue and Jewish cemetery in Europe.It's lucky that they were not destroyed during WWII.

There are many types of dumplings made in CZ. Dumplings are called "knedliky" in Czech. There are even different preparations for potato dumplings. If you would like a recipe for the most common type of Czech potato dumplings, just let me know. I have made them a number of times. I believe they do require a special Czech flour to make, but there is a way to make up for that with a product available in most US grocery stores.

Christina Sorry h doesn't understand and your going through all this medical ****.

From what I understand Hitler keep the quarters unharmed because he wanted to make a museum of an extinct race....;(

Thanks for the offer...I will not be eating any potatoes for quite some time. Not on my diet. But thanks for the offer

I've been too busy to slow down enough to actually contribute anything lately. Now here I am, having just made peach cobbler with my son. So I've got a few minutes while it's in the oven baking.

Hello, all. I wish you well. I feel like I'm riding an hypomanic wave. ...and there we go. That's enough news from me.

I hope there is some helpful solution soon, Christina. You don't deserve to be suffering with all of this...and so long.

I am not nearly as happy with the batch I made today compared to the same cookies I made last year. I made them a little differently today. They're more exactly as my mother-in-law described. I'm going back to last year's (my choices). I might even add a little more color to make them more holiday-like. They call for slivered almonds and chopped candied orange peel. I'm going to make them with a combo of sliced almonds, walnuts, the orange peel, and either chopped craisins or chopped candied cherries. Yes, I'm going to make them again sometime this week. I haven't told my hubby that, though.