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Welcome back! ![]() I see you've been a member for a few years now. I hope you find the information and the support you may be seeking. I am sorry your dealing with "treatment resistance." I see you are using ketamine. May i ask you as to which form/route you are using? I know the intranasal route is becoming increasingly prescribed. Do you find ketamine helpful? I hope you don't mind my questions? Also, there is a "treatments" subforum where you can share any treatment experience you'd like to share. I think we are currently short on feedback on ketamine experiences. Truly no pressure, just an invite! ![]() Please do make yourself at home! ![]()
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Good Morning,
Well I got about 7 hours off kinda disturbed sleep which is a big improvement when usual! I am just sitting here on the computer waiting for time to go. I was feeling drowsy lately however I think I am starting to go back to normal. I am still pretty nervous about the interview however I think its going to go well.
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![]() I have been thinking of you, remembering you in prayer and hoping your recovery continues to move forward at a tolerable pace. It can take us time to assilimilate steps of progress, as we continue in our recovery. I've been impressed with your insight throughout your challenges. i hope getting outside will prove very helpful to you! ![]() I always do better when I get out and and observe, and take in, the incredible beauty freely available to us. I also experience getting in touch with the ground, touching the Earth, as very grounding, which helps me with balance. We, so often, walk on cement, man made materials, etc. Some of us rarely get out due to various types of challenges. I hope you will be blessed by getting out, breathing fresh air, and exercising if possible. Keep the Faith. ![]() I remain hopeful for your healing. With Love ![]()
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![]() Best wishes with the interview! keep us posted? Go get 'em!!! ![]()
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I couldn't sleep so I watched tv til the sun came up, or rather until daylight because the sun isn't out today. Then went back to bed for a couple hours. Confused dreams something to do with a huge snake that was a pet to someone. I was in Africa, the Africa of a 1930's book. With huge carpeted tents.
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MANY THANKS FOR YOUR CONCERN AND YOUR LOVE!
I am doing better with the chronic pain challenge. ![]() I've just become aware of an additional challenge:* I am told I have an inflammed liver. ![]() There seems to be a liver issue in our community too often! My doctors feel medication is the culprit. My PC doc put a rush on the Ultasound, which is scheduled for tomorrow afternoon. Otherwise, its a 4-6 week wait. I am grateful I can get in earlier. Love to All! ![]() * Note: Always review your lab results. We have to look out for our own welfare. Any abnormalty in the results will be flagged. We don't need to know how to interpret any results to see there may be an issue needing attention. I'd gotten a bit lazy and felt with 2 docs monitoring my lab results, I'd hear if there was any issue. I was not feeling well, so I'd decided to look up my labs from 2-3 weeks ago. This is when I'd discovered I have a "liver injury." For a variety of reasons, both docs had missed the lab reports.
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![]() Africa in the '30's must be very fascinating! I hope you have a great day! ![]()
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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![]() I deeply appreciate your concern, your support, your love and your prayers. ![]() am grateful to you. ![]() I cannot say I know all of the possible steps that might need to be taken in every case of liver inflammation. My PC doc had said this is a slowly progressive condition. As I currently understand this: The first step is to remove any substance toxic to the liver. This can include medications, potentially foods, inhalants, alcohol, Tylenol and other types of exposures to toxic materials.etc. The inflammation itself tends to respond well to diet and exercise. Limit sugar and simple carbs and possibly complex carbs, if not responding to cutting simple carbs. Exercise, which I imagine oxygenates tissue (don't quote me on this). Keeping A1c (blood glucose) low can help. Lower lipids/cholesterol. I am sure I am missing something. I am very new to this. (less than 48 hrs.) I defer to ~Christina, to Moose and to anyone else with experience in this topic. I have, in the past, done herbal/supplemental preventative regimens. I will be researching those again. I need to be absolutely sure I am not adding fuel to the fire. Again, thank you for your unending love and support. ![]() ![]() ![]()
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You're in my thoughts and I hope the best for you WC.
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* Dx: Bipolar II (finally, after years at Bipolar NOS) * Rx: minimal dose of Lamictal My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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Today turned out to be a nightmare. Situation Normal: All Fd Up!
I can't even describe it. I'll just say, as an aside, that in addition to having to have cancelled my last two therapy appointments because of family issues/crises, I had to cancel my psychiatrist appointment for this Friday at 2 pm. I did leave a message for him asking for a cancellation time, if available, later today, tomorrow, or Friday morning. If none are available, I don't see him until the week after Thanksgiving. This is not even the snafu. Just one side result of it. My brother got home from the hospital last night. He arrived at my father's room at the assisted living place when I was there. He overhead the snafu and was so upset that he left quickly. Friends, my dad accidentally (I hope accidentally) created a most painful situation for my siblings and me. I'm too afraid to even tell my husband. |
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I am kind of confused, now that I think of it. Yesterday, I was told by one doctor that everything could wait.
Today, I was called first thing this morning to get in for a US asap. It may be something as simple as the fact that they had not caught the labs earlier. ![]() Time will tell. ![]()
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![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I am bothered by the fact that you have been asked to deal with so much in such a short time. I both have a lot of faith in you and am concerned as well. We are here for you! ![]() ![]()
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A little bit ago, I called the location's director at the place we WANTED Dad to go to and literally begged them to help me. I even started crying and told her that if something isn't made easier that I may end up in the IOP, too, and my brother may die of a heart attack or stroke. Luckily, she did calm me down a bit. She's the clinical director of therapy. She did give me one suggestion (for the other location). I left a message there to follow up on that suggestion. The first time I tried, the recorder cut off after like 10 seconds. I called back again and gave a rapid-fire message, that time getting my name, my dad's name, my phone number, and "Please call me back" in before it cut off. I'm still afraid to tell my husband about all of this. I wish my psychiatrist would call and offer me an alternate appointment. |
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I’m am suffering my headaches a lot these past few days, but they have been manageable. This new job training isn’t terrible, but I have reservations about all of this though. It’s not about the content but the way it’s conducted. There is a lot of things going on that are supposed to be very serious violations that could potentially lead to separation from the company. I just need to get over it. Their performance and risky behavior (including the trainer) aren’t really my concern. The actual content is self-paced and module based and the instructor is more or less a facilitator, that’s it. I am acing my assessments and I’m learning. I’m just grateful I have a job. I should be grateful they allowed me to switch departments. I should be grateful that this new department doesn’t have quotas to meet or pushing sales. I get to feel comfortable and be more myself. I should be grateful, so I will be. I won’t complain anymore. [and just to be clear – I won’t report the issues I have. I’ve done enough messing up flow. Someone else can do it if they wish, but in the end. I am in charge of my learning and damnit, I’m doing it one way or the other. Their performance don’t affect mine.]
That’s about it. I’m doing alright outside of that. Good news is first paycheck is Friday ! haha. That’s all I got for ya. |
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Here I am listening to music with my new stereo setup.. I am listening to Enya. I have been killing time. When I think of doing my tasks today, a paralysis sets in. It then takes effort to move forward, me being "stuck in the mud". I have just started to work on this today with my pdoc. He thinks I have ADD,, with evidence starting in grade school. This can explain allot. I am waiting for money to come, but I have no idea that it will. It is either this, or working for Uber.
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Dx: Bipolar I, ADD, GAD. Rx: Fluoxetine, Buproprion, Olanzapine, Lamictal, and Strattera. |
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My psychiatrist called me back and gave me an appointment for tomorrow morning as a substitute for the one I had to cancel. Even my therapist emailed me back with encouraging words. I had to cancel my appointment with her both this week and last week because of family crises. I won't see her next week either, because we are away. The vacation to Florida better be good and without struggle! No delays, no plane problems, no bad stuff at all! And it better not rain or be too cold there! Thanks, everyone, for reading about my stressful saga these past days (or weeks...or months) and expressing support. ![]() ![]() Last edited by Anonymous46341; Nov 20, 2019 at 07:39 PM. |
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I went out to eat tonight with two of my friends. It was a lot of fun! I was really nervous about going because I thought I'd have a panic attack but it went well and I'm glad I went. It's a week and a half into one of my med increases, things are going well. I was very confused today though, I kept thinking it was Sunday, which is way off obviously. And I thought a street that I know well that's a block from my house was all the way downtown for some reason so I ended up walking all the way downtown when we were supposed to meet up right by my apartment. Brain's not working properly today I guess.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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I did the elliptical! Yay! I workout! I exercise! It was FUN!!! Health at every size!
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Nobody in my real life truly understands. I feel incapable of being able to think about anything without worry or dreading something. I really don't like living this way. When I tried to speak with someone in my life, they just said not to think like that, and I'm too depressing to talk to. It would be nice to, but it never stops. Since opening up about it never works out in my life, all there is left to do is just pretend and act like everything is okay.
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