[Moose72]

N3 went to the ER with his gf.

Possible trigger:

She stabbed her eye with a box cutter!

N3 says he was in the bathroom when it happened so he didnt see. So the first ER they went to didnt have an ophthalmologist so they transfered her to the bigger hospital 7 miles away. Her step dad drove n3 home at that point. I was afraid he'd get stuck at the bigger hospital all night it being Friday night and all. He works at 7 am. Im glad he didn't get stuck 7 miles away all night long though they might see her sooner coming from an ambulance. Especially since she apparently did it on purpose! N3 thinks she might be sent to psych ER.

Went into work late but made it into work— far beyond the expectation of what I could do today. I’ll take that as an accomplishment . I spent most of the day in bed crying. I just wish I could be understood.

MarcusAurelius.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

N3 went to the ER with his gf.

Possible trigger:

She stabbed her eye with a box cutter!

N3 says he was in the bathroom when it happened so he didnt see. So the first ER they went to didnt have an ophthalmologist so they transfered her to the bigger hospital 7 miles away. Her step dad drove n3 home at that point. I was afraid he'd get stuck at the bigger hospital all night it being Friday night and all. He works at 7 am. Im glad he didn't get stuck 7 miles away all night long though they might see her sooner coming from an ambulance. Especially since she apparently did it on purpose! N3 thinks she might be sent to psych ER.

Oh my god!! I hope she is placed under a psych hold. I hope she didn’t destroy her eyesight !

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I'm facing 2 weeks of being cranky and feeling rotten.

My GI put me on a diet of water, chicken broth, white rice, lean fish, lean poultry, lean pork and chicken. Today was day 1 of 14 (and then I add one food back every 3 days so I'm about a month from eating what I want. I know why we need to do this but it is really hard. I don't feel good at all. I have a feeling that I'll not be doing a lot of anything based on today. I am exhausted without doing anything. Lack of nutrients causes that though.

I knew this would suck; I had no idea how much and how soon.

[~Christina]

The drive to Florida was horrifying ! I don’t know how we made it alive to be honest. The drive back was just long boring rain and interstate

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

The drive to Florida was horrifying ! I don’t know how we made it alive to be honest. The drive back was just long boring rain and interstate

Glad to hear you are home. Long and boring would beat that trip down that you described! I hope you can soon get on a med for your pain.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Oh my god!! I hope she is placed under a psych hold. I hope she didn’t destroy her eyesight !

She already is clinically blind. N3 said she went into surgery at 2 a.m. I hope once they get her medically stable that they put her on a psych hold too. Poor N3 said this morning "Maybe I'll go see S today... Or maybe I won't I'm not sure". This from someone who normally can't get enough of her.

Stress, stress, stress.

My youngest Czech nephew (hubby's side) is in the hospital. He has been in and out of the hospital throughout his 25 years with severe heart issues, and many major heart surgeries. I just can't imagine what would happen if we ever lost him. I believe my sister-in-law would lose her mind completely. My husband is quite close to this nephew and is his Godfather.

I kind of wish the weekend was all laid back and quiet, but we will have a guest tomorrow. I really like and appreciate the guest, and it's important she come tomorrow, so I must make it work.

My husband and I are quite serious about possibly moving to Europe in a few years. For a few reasons (I won't go into) he does not want to go back to Czech Republic. Instead, we're thinking France. My French is significantly better than my Czech and hubby speaks good French, too, but I still see advantages of Czech Republic that he doesn't see.

[wildflowerchild25]

Well winter break ended on Wednesday. Went back to work on Thursday. So exhausting! I’d gotten used to sleeping in until ten lol. My kid was easy on Thursday but he was a nightmare on Friday! Screaming, punching walls, running around the hallways. I’m thinking about getting a knockoff Fitbit just to see how many steps I get in at work!

I’m feeling a little off today. I haven’t had my haldol in about three days because it’s been in the trunk of my car and I’m lazy as hell and don’t remember till I’m already snuggled in bed. So maybe that’s why. I wish I could get off the stuff. I’m still having the jaw twitches. I keep biting my tongue. My pdoc didn’t seem concerned but I am.

My son has hit a growth spurt and is officially growing out of all of his pants. I see a trip to target in my future. I like buying him new clothes though. I don’t like the cost, but I have a target credit card so I just put it on that. I’m not close to my limit so it’s not so bad. That’s where I bought most of his Christmas presents this year bc I didn’t have the money.

I have to see my father in law in about five minutes. I really don’t want to go. But it’ll be ok. He’s not as bad as he used to be.

[Sunflower123]

We’re having two of my aunts visit tomorrow. They are two of the kindest, most loving people you could meet and still I’m having panic attacks. So frustrating! At this rate, I’ll slip off to a movie and avoid them altogether. I so wish I weren’t like that. I’ve decided to try to understand it and show myself some compassion.

Traveling halfway Monday to meet M before she starts back to school. We’re going to eat at Applebee’s...a nice change from Cracker Barrel.

I’m getting my new glasses the week of 1/8. Yay!!! I sincerely hope that clears up my problems driving at night. I’ve signed up for several meet ups after dark and I’m counting on this to work out. I’ll get progressive contacts as well once I save up.

I’m okay. I’m not sleeping well and 2020 so far has been stressful and overwhelming for me. I hope that changes soon. I wish everyone (including me) a wonderful, peaceful 2020.

Warm regards to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

[Nammu]

I slept!! Took me to past 3am to fall asleep but I did and didn't wake till after 10! My body thanks god for the sleep, my back is so much better today.

[Moose72]

Just dropped n3 off at the children's hospital. He had her room number, floor number etc so I assume he will ask if he gets turned around. She has yet to get a psych evaluation. I told him that he doesnt have to stay there as long as her parents do- even though they said they'd give him a ride home- my mom said she'd pick him up. This is just very sad and Noah is no doubt worried and maybe overwhelmed. What provoked her- something Noah said? She waited until he was in the bathroom to do this. U of M has a very good psych evaluation. I hope she gets admitted to psych! Seems she needs it. I worry for N3.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

The drive to Florida was horrifying ! I don’t know how we made it alive to be honest. The drive back was just long boring rain and interstate

I am sorry for the awful ride there.
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi

I believe I got my final divorce papers today. A judge signature and a clerk signature with a entered stamp on it, with a page decreeing hereto. blah blah blah.... I think it's over.

I have mixed emotions. I read earlier a phrase I think sums it up pretty well. "The ink on the divorce decree is dry, but the ink on my heart isn't quite yet.". I miss her and will always love her -- even if she never loved me. I know this is for the best and it's time I have to move on... but it still packs a punch.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by MarcusAurelius

I believe I got my final divorce papers today. A judge signature and a clerk signature with a entered stamp on it, with a page decreeing hereto. blah blah blah.... I think it's over.

I have mixed emotions. I read earlier a phrase I think sums it up pretty well. "The ink on the divorce decree is dry, but the ink on my heart isn't quite yet.". I miss her and will always love her -- even if she never loved me. I know this is for the best and it's time I have to move on... but it still packs a punch.

Its like that for several months but it does get easier. Even harder when kids are involved- I missed my family very much and now we were broken up. I had started the divorce proceedings so I felt even worse.

Just putting one foot in front of the other . . .

[LadyShadow]

Surprisingly well. 2020 kicked off to a superstar start right away. A $20/hr job fell into my lap on January 2nd. I was qualified for it, because I've done it all my career, but it was amazing that I skipped over the whole applying, interviewing and even paperwork part of the job process and started on January 3rd. (An agency found me and hooked me up). That was JUST the break I've been waiting for.

I have to say three months out of the hospital, I scored an amazing man and relationship, a new job, and am looking forward to learning about copywriting to chase my writing career as well as getting my degree by November 2020.

This year so far is fantastic, I am stable, sleeping and I actually feel really good - all while being completely sober. I had nothing to drink over Christmas and New Years which I am really proud of myself for.

Thank God I am finally okay.

[bpcyclist]

Very rough here. So sick and tired of talking about my brain and myself that I just cannot do it today, sorry. Will just say, getting Clozaril labs on Monday and maybe hospital then, too. We'll see how rest of weekend is. Love to everyone.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Stress, stress, stress.


My youngest Czech nephew (hubby's side) is in the hospital. He has been in and out of the hospital throughout his 25 years with severe heart issues, and many major heart surgeries. I just can't imagine what would happen if we ever lost him. I believe my sister-in-law would lose her mind completely. My husband is quite close to this nephew and is his Godfather.


I kind of wish the weekend was all laid back and quiet, but we will have a guest tomorrow. I really like and appreciate the guest, and it's important she come tomorrow, so I must make it work.


My husband and I are quite serious about possibly moving to Europe in a few years. For a few reasons (I won't go into) he does not want to go back to Czech Republic. Instead, we're thinking France. My French is significantly better than my Czech and hubby speaks good French, too, but I still see advantages of Czech Republic that he doesn't see.

Many healing thoughts to your nephew

You are looking at a huge move. I’m not sure what I’d start to think of first

I’m sure you will help your guest feel welcome : hug:

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

We’re having two of my aunts visit tomorrow. They are two of the kindest, most loving people you could meet and still I’m having panic attacks. So frustrating! At this rate, I’ll slip off to a movie and avoid them altogether. I so wish I weren’t like that. I’ve decided to try to understand it and show myself some compassion.


Traveling halfway Monday to meet M before she starts back to school. We’re going to eat at Applebee’s...a nice change from Cracker Barrel.


I’m getting my new glasses the week of 1/8. Yay!!! I sincerely hope that clears up my problems driving at night. I’ve signed up for several meet ups after dark and I’m counting on this to work out. I’ll get progressive contacts as well once I save up.


I’m okay. I’m not sleeping well and 2020 so far has been stressful and overwhelming for me. I hope that changes soon. I wish everyone (including me) a wonderful, peaceful 2020.


Warm regards to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

Hopefully you can get through the stress and enjoy company

Enjoy your time with M

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Nammu

I slept!! Took me to past 3am to fall asleep but I did and didn't wake till after 10! My body thanks god for the sleep, my back is so much better today.

Fantastic!!!!!!!

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Just dropped n3 off at the children's hospital. He had her room number, floor number etc so I assume he will ask if he gets turned around. She has yet to get a psych evaluation. I told him that he doesnt have to stay there as long as her parents do- even though they said they'd give him a ride home- my mom said she'd pick him up. This is just very sad and Noah is no doubt worried and maybe overwhelmed. What provoked her- something Noah said? She waited until he was in the bathroom to do this. U of M has a very good psych evaluation. I hope she gets admitted to psych! Seems she needs it. I worry for N3.

I think your son might need to talk to someone. He is not at fault for her actions, not at all.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Very rough here. So sick and tired of talking about my brain and myself that I just cannot do it today, sorry. Will just say, getting Clozaril labs on Monday and maybe hospital then, too. We'll see how rest of weekend is. Love to everyone.

Hopefully things will smooth out for you soon

[Sunflower123]

It’s just dawned on me that my aunts will be here around 11:30 to pick up mom to take her with them to spend the night at their hotel. I can choose to go out to eat with them or not. My brother sleeps most of the time so I’ll have the day and night off and the house practically to myself. Big sigh of relief for a temporary break!

[yellow_fleurs]

I should be asleep, but am wide awake. I maybe had too much caffeine late in the day, but it was just tea and I didn't even drink a single cup of coffee today. I was also up late last night. So, it could be hormones messing with my moods or the light therapy I did the past couple of days. I am essentially fine, though. I am feeling a little impatient about seeing my psychiatrist, perhaps because I want his input on the cognitive symptoms I have. I started making a list for the appointment of my symptoms and was thinking I might need a second time slot haha. They are good about not rushing me, though. I really hope he takes me seriously and will consider doing an evaluation of my symptoms. He has seen me more often than any doctor I think I've ever had so I have that going for me. I should stop thinking about this and try to get some sleep. Sending compassion.