Bipolar check-in #44

Well, my hospital cancelled ECT for the foreseeable future. That's not good for me. Then the San Francisco Bay Area is going on lockdown for two or three weeks, not sure which. So that's the earliest I'd get my next ECT and I'm having scary suicidal urges. I need that ECT. And my T has emailed me to say she'd prefer some sort of teletherapy, either by phone or videocall. Great, I don't like talking on the phone.

Well, my hospital cancelled ECT for the foreseeable future. That's not good for me. Then the San Francisco Bay Area is going on lockdown for two or three weeks, not sure which. So that's the earliest I'd get my next ECT and I'm having scary suicidal urges. I need that ECT. And my T has emailed me to say she'd prefer some sort of teletherapy, either by phone or videocall. Great, I don't like talking on the phone.

My daughter just called. She doesn't want me going out in case I get it from someone at a store and bring it back to mum. We are all concerned about her getting it. My daughter wants to set it up with my nephew that between the two of them they get the groceries and or anything we need. They will drop it off in the garage and I can wipe it down before bring it inside. I wish I could alleviate her fears but what can I do? She's home with her two kids full time starting Wednesday when the schools close here.

RE: Pharmacy pickups, I just called my pharmacy- small mom & pop place- to see when my meds would be ready. I am going to run out in 3 days. They said they'd be ready for pick up tomorrow morning. So I'll just zip in there, grab them and zip out. There is almost never a line- just sometimes one person in front of me, but even that is rare.

@~Christina, I hope you feel better! What you described about your tongue sounds most unpleasant!


I'm worried about my mom catching the virus because she gets things worse than most people when its just a regular virus. She has COPD or something like that. Plus she's 73 in a few weeks. She's not in a nursing home; she still lives in her own home with her husband who is 60. She brought me some sweat shirts from Disney World. I dunno what to do with them. I already picked them up and put them on the back of my recliner. She commented, when she was here a bit ago that I look like I've lost weight. Well with a little more walking plus I'm not eating a lot. I'm just eating when hungry or if I get a not-eaten headache kind of thing so save the little food we have. Noah on the other hand is still at Sharlene's. I argued with him this morning about going over there in general. Her mother still goes back and forth to work and I don't know anything about her work. And yesterday, two of my lunch friends (well friends in general, but that's where we met) went out to a restaurant for lunch. I said I wasn't going because I'm low on money which is true, but I also didn't want to drive half an hour each way and waste my gas just to expose myself to people at a restaurant. I asked one of them how the lunch went and she said it went well. All of that said, I'm getting tired of being afraid all the time. I don't have a pdoc appointment until the end of April. And I don't have a T at the moment. If push comes to shove, I wonder if pdoc can just do a phone session. It would be a little weird, but it would work. And crossing fingers and toes that I stay stable for as long as possible! I wonder what psych hospitals are doing with all this. Talk about social distancing with people who aren't at their tip top shape to begin with!

There is gum with baking soda in it that can help as can toothpaste with baking soda. I got the gum on amazon. It's called Ecodent Between. It really helped me when I was on something that caused serious dry mouth.

I only have 2 weeks more of my AD and they still haven't approved my patient assistance yet.I'm stretching things out the best I can but I may be finding myself IP to find out what that is like right now for all of us. I'm praying for a fast resolution so I don't have to do that. I can't imagine a locked unit being remotely safe from the virus.

I hope that you get that med pronto. Has your Pdoc gone to war with them for you ? I will keep you in my prayers

Well, my hospital cancelled ECT for the foreseeable future. That's not good for me. Then the San Francisco Bay Area is going on lockdown for two or three weeks, not sure which. So that's the earliest I'd get my next ECT and I'm having scary suicidal urges. I need that ECT. And my T has emailed me to say she'd prefer some sort of teletherapy, either by phone or videocall. Great, I don't like talking on the phone.

One huge positive for today and yesterday: yesterday I had the pizza I've been craving (ok, sort of, it was a frozen one that wasn't that great but still was good to me) and today I had chocolate. Things with the diet are getting much better. 2 more foods to go to see what happens.

My T is doing video sessions. First one was today. It was strange but not awful...

Well, my hospital cancelled ECT for the foreseeable future. That's not good for me. Then the San Francisco Bay Area is going on lockdown for two or three weeks, not sure which. So that's the earliest I'd get my next ECT and I'm having scary suicidal urges. I need that ECT. And my T has emailed me to say she'd prefer some sort of teletherapy, either by phone or videocall. Great, I don't like talking on the phone.

Christina, Could it be thrush? Kind of an extreme case?

Civilization has ended by closing the library!!!! Ok yah I'm being dramatic but wow!

I wish with everyone practically on lockdown that my cable company would give everyone a free upgrade. We're not set up for streaming and need the cable but what we got is is a whole bunch of nothing channels. Like right now we couldn't find anything to watch so the tv is off. Don't know that the upgrade would give us a whole lot more options, might need two upgrades to get HBO and those Chanel's. But now that the game of thrones is over what's on? I saw got via my library and the library is closing Wednesday! Can't believe they're closing the library. I could see them only allow ten people in at a time. You could sit in your car waiting! Yah, but to close the library! They already implemented a every other computer to keep people seperate. Other than that I never see people together in the library. I'm going tomorrow and checking out more books. Civilization has ended by closing the library!!!! Ok yah I'm being dramatic but wow!