Bipolar Check-In #49

Downloaded an App called My Therapy.
Not only does it remind me to take my meds, records my appointments and keeps inventory of my meds... It also requires that I confirm whether I have taken or skipped the dosage.

It's a cool app, you can even share it with a loved one or your Dr to keep them in the loop...

It can also track things like weight, blood pressure and who knows what else.

I have hope this will help me stay compliant.

I just took a milligram of Xanax, 20 milligrams of melatonin, and 25 milligrams of visteral. I’m just ****ing frustrated right now with everything. So far I’m just a bit spacey and I have a Charlie horse and I have slight stomach cramps. Nothing extreme.

Losing control again. Did well for 2 months after CFS got involved but now off meds and drinking for the last 2 weeks. My GP reminded me of my past episodes and thinking about those brought me back here today. I see my pdoc next week but not sure that will help anyways.

What helps with the drinking?

Hugs.

Being stable haha. I dont know talking to this one person (addictions specialist) was helping a little i think but I havent seen him in over a month. I was supposed to make an appointment but I didnt.

AA maybe? Lotta support there.

I got my piercing done! Was feeling especially low and uncomfortable due to SH urges, so I figured that was a better way. Only problem is, I can’t see it! It’s an inner ear piercing (daith) and the piercer put a small barbell in instead of a ring. It’s so small it’s buried in my ear! I can’t even see it in the mirror. But it’s ok, after about six months I can change it to a ring if I want. And just knowing it’s there is good for me.

I also made an appointment to cover up the Harry Potter tattoo I got last year with a different Harry Potter tattoo. The one I have had a quote, but the writing is so damn small you can’t even read it. So I’m covering the quote up and I will get the quote bigger on the other arm eventually.

I got a call from one of my coworkers telling me the school plan is in email, but I can’t remember the username to my email, since I haven’t checked it since June. She left a voicemail so I sent her a text asking her to tell me the username structure (we all have the same structure, just using our own name) so I can check. I’m quite anxious to know what’s going on.

Downloaded an App called My Therapy.
Not only does it remind me to take my meds, records my appointments and keeps inventory of my meds... It also requires that I confirm whether I have taken or skipped the dosage.
It's a cool app, you can even share it with a loved one or your Dr to keep them in the loop...

It can also track things like weight, blood pressure and who knows what else.

I have hope this will help me stay compliant.

Finally feeling real most of the day. I'm still numb and feel like I'm going to cry any second but it's progress.

Isn't that an s-load of melatonin?

I will consider AA again. I know they would welcome me back if i choose to go but im really enjoying the drinking and Im afraid to give it up right now.

turns out the sink was easier to fix than I intended, and it got done yesterday so no more leaks on to the floor which is good (so no more change of me slipping)

showered today.

body didn't provide much for me in the way of movement so it was quite painfull. ugg

needed too though: was quite incontinent this morning. came out of the blue, just like that.

no real plans for today: just have mcdonalds later which I am looking forward too.

it is cooler today too. I still have my fan on, but not sure I am going to need the cooling spray today