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I just took a milligram of Xanax, 20 milligrams of melatonin, and 25 milligrams of visteral. I’m just ****ing frustrated right now with everything. So far I’m just a bit spacey and I have a Charlie horse and I have slight stomach cramps. Nothing extreme.
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#53
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Is it when you're frustrated that you mix all the pills together? Does doing that ever help in any way?
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Isn't that an s-load of melatonin?
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10mg is considered pretty much the max for melatonin. 10 never did anything for me, but I've never tried higher. I know some people take 15 or even 20, but it's not recommended.
Md, do you take that mix to fall asleep?
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Losing control again. Did well for 2 months after CFS got involved but now off meds and drinking for the last 2 weeks. My GP reminded me of my past episodes and thinking about those brought me back here today. I see my pdoc next week but not sure that will help anyways.
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Bipolar 1 Borderline Personality Disorder Alcohol Use Disorder Meds: Depakote Welbutrin Abilify I didn't want any flowers, I only wanted to lie with my hands turned up and be utterly empty. How free it is, you have no idea how free. - Sylvia Plath |
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#57
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Hugs.
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Being stable haha. I dont know talking to this one person (addictions specialist) was helping a little i think but I havent seen him in over a month. I was supposed to make an appointment but I didnt.
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Bipolar 1 Borderline Personality Disorder Alcohol Use Disorder Meds: Depakote Welbutrin Abilify I didn't want any flowers, I only wanted to lie with my hands turned up and be utterly empty. How free it is, you have no idea how free. - Sylvia Plath |
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AA maybe? Lotta support there.
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I will consider AA again. I know they would welcome me back if i choose to go but im really enjoying the drinking and Im afraid to give it up right now.
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Bipolar 1 Borderline Personality Disorder Alcohol Use Disorder Meds: Depakote Welbutrin Abilify I didn't want any flowers, I only wanted to lie with my hands turned up and be utterly empty. How free it is, you have no idea how free. - Sylvia Plath |
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Well, I never have enjoyed alcohol, so I don't know...but it sounds sad to me that you're drinking to feel stable. Or to feel like you feel stable.
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Alcohol wld make me depressed on like, a day, prolly.
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I spent today organizing my flickr account. Making new albums and labeling pix. I ate too much today- went out to eat with a friend which doubled my calories for the day! Carbs were ok though. If anybody wants to see my photos, pm me!
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Finally feeling real most of the day. I'm still numb and feel like I'm going to cry any second but it's progress.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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I got both my ears done ( Daith) i already had the industrial and that is hella hard to keep.. But anyway they put this ugly barbell in and not 2 weeks later I needed to get a MRI of my brain, Anyway I went back they took them out put plugs in ( whoa pain) but thankfully i left the plug in as I needed 2 more brain MRI'S in the next couple weeks.. Anyway now I just have the lever back circles and cant imagine wearing anything bigger. I had 3 or 4 tattoos in mind but when my psoriasis exploded and I wound up on a Biologic med with PSA I dont want to risk the chance for me of having a plaque explode at site of tattoo ... Sucks But 5 will have to do.. My daughter is getting a couple revised that she was clearly Manic ... She has over 26 now. All beautiful work but now shes working to mingle all on her one arm for a sleeve .. I envy her ability to get them... Kinda of a ultimate high for some of us ![]() I hope you get your password sorted, hell I forgot mine here for when I use tapatalk ![]() My brain is aggitated mush!!! Take good care of yourself ![]()
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New phone with lots of useless APPS and the ones I need are taking forever because of this dial up speed internet ! I might drive intowards town to get a actual signal and get things I need on my phone.... But I am releived to have it. I depend on mine for so much..
Ok I am going for a med take down to sleep. I just cant stand another minute of feeling this way Hugs to anyone in need !
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Hugs, MM. Hope you feel better!
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turns out the sink was easier to fix than I intended, and it got done yesterday so no more leaks on to the floor which is good (so no more change of me slipping)
showered today. body didn't provide much for me in the way of movement so it was quite painfull. ugg needed too though: was quite incontinent this morning. came out of the blue, just like that. no real plans for today: just have mcdonalds later which I am looking forward too. it is cooler today too. I still have my fan on, but not sure I am going to need the cooling spray today |
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Will be heading into work today. Have a couple interviews lined up for this morning. Offered someone a job yesterday but not sure if she'll accept. Really hoping we get someone in soon. Plus side of all the overtime I've been working is I made enough extra money to cover the cost of my cabin trip I'm doing in a couple of months. Bad part of all the stress I've been dealing with is that I started smoking again. I really need to stop.
Have an appointment with my pdoc on Sunday. He's been nice enough to see me on Sundays the last several months knowing my situation. I've had to cancel all my other appointments. Need to reschedule them soon. Looking forward to seeing him. We're actually meeting in person for the first time since the beginning of the year. |
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Yeah it’s when I’m frustrated. I just woke up 20 minutes ago still feeling frustrated. So I guess it doesn’t help.
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I have heard it’s not a good does to take but not not a dangerous one.
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self destructive as **** am I. Not even in a bipolar episode, no when I'm sober I'm not hallucinating, I'm sleeping well, have no real symptoms. this is my normal. my normal is f'd up.
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#74
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But you must also know in your heart by now that alcohol is the Road to Nowhere for anyone w bipolar disorder.
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#75
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