Bipolar Check-In #49

I'm still waiting for them to call me back.

Well my son has agreed to have his invega increased! He talked to his pdoc and hes to start 12 mgs invega! I hope he doesn't get akathisia.

So some good news!

Hope everyone is having a good day!

I got approved for my surgery this afternoon. I had to have my Pdoc write a letter to the insurance company but it’s happening. I will only have to owe a few hundred dollars too. It’s scheduled for the beginning of October. I am super excited.

That's great. Is 12 mgs a big increase?

That is wonderful. I'm excited for you!

Holistic well-being. Music to my ears! I support you on all of these endeavors. Don't let any one get too high or low, but they are all important and feed one another. Balance is found in the all and it is a constant moving target. Keep it loose. Keep it fun. Who knows, maybe you'll meet someone new to hang with on occasion.

Catholicism is as worthy a path as any. It has too much ritual for some, but for others it is a beautiful practice. I have studied many religions and they all share similar symbology and lessons. Core truth is core truth. It can be found in any system. I think it is what we choose to do with the truth that matters.

Yay! Good luck with this.

Just got off my FaceTime appointment with my pdoc, and she listened to how bad my summer has been and wants to make some changes immediately to fix it. No complete change to my meds, but some big changes. Immediately stop Trileptal, and replace it with Depakote, my med from pre-hospital. She wants me back on all of my pre-hospitalization meds and we'll make adjustments from there. I hate to finally say this, but I have some hope. I told her how awful my summer was with the constant mania and mixed-mania episodes and she actually listened. She listened to everything on my list before responding. It was magical. It was not like so many other appointments. My only bummer is that I have to wait until December to make the next change. Every three months I see her. Ugh.

Thanks for reading and know that I send my love and positive vibes to you all.

Yay. That Depakote will crush your mania. Hugs.

My mom was a German existentialist who hated all religion. Used to gripe at me when I asked her to take me to church. Her dad was a Baptist deacon. My dad was a Christian, but he did not go to church, likely cuz of mom.

My college pals were Catholic. Went to mass a lot.

Thanks for asking, Beth.

Awesome!!!

Yes, from 6 mgs to 12.

That's so exciting! So happy for you!

So good to see you ... Oh giving up caffeine is tough! especially in Coffee I think

I have have huge issues getting out of bed, but recently started Seroquel for a short amount of time..

Did you get your Fur baby yet?????

After 12753 weeks we now have hotwater !!! A tankless unit which will save us money on propane. I took a much longer shower than I normally would it just felt so wonderful.

In other news , I skipped todays 3 doses of Seroquel and wont take the morning dose,I have a session with my T and need to drive into town for a good signal on my phone. So I need to be safe driving, on it is a NO GO.. But I'm skipping so I can be fine driving.

So happy day in my world

swimmingly, I do not take Depakote, but at one point I did. It definitely crushed my mania, which had been a severe problem for over three years before that. I hope the Depakote serves you well.

bpcyclist, I hope that if you join the Catholic church that it provides you what you need. I think the rituals are beautiful. I suppose I wish they did liberalize a few more things there, though. Did I ever tell you that I joined the Catholic church when I was 16 years old? It's a long story. I'll confess that I no longer attend mass, but I did benefit and grow from the experience.

It's become obvious that I am due for a trip to the Ear Nose & Throat doctor. Throughout my life, I have found one or both of my ears become impacted with wax every five years or so. Both Hubby and I have noticed that I am almost screaming, at times. It's all because my hearing is diminished. I don't even know if they would accept me for this type of issue right now, but it's a simple fix that lasts a while. Certainly a "video session" wouldn't cut the mustard (or wax). It's not that I don't clean my ears, it's something more amiss with the inner ear itself. I don't want to be a screaming American in Europe. I have to be extra careful to keep my voice properly modulated.

That's great news!

Did not know that, Soupe.

Good luck w the ENT.

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Originally Posted by bpcyclist My mom was a German existentialist who hated all religion. Used to gripe at me when I asked her to take me to church. Her dad was a Baptist deacon. My dad was a Christian, but he did not go to church, likely cuz of mom. My college pals were Catholic. Went to mass a lot. Thanks for asking, Beth.

My best friend of 57 years (we met in infancy) is Catholic. I often attended mass with her while we were growing up. I found the church and rituals soothing, and absolutely beautiful. And yes, the Catholic church has liberalized tremendously.

So I may have to go off some of my meds. They can cause QT prolongation. It might be the cause of my panic attacks. My pharmacist told me about it. I'm so scared to go off some of these meds. So I'm going to wear a heart monitor. I'm going to go over to my Drs office the day after tomorrow. Also getting blood work done again. I was low on iron last time I had it checked. So now I'm on a iron supplement. But I have low iron from a heavy period, so my Dr recommends that I see a gyno and have ablation done to my uterus. We'll see how my blood work comes back.

In other news, I'm late getting some pprwk into housing. It's a long story why I'm late getting it in. I might lose housing. They recommend communicating with them through email. So I sent an email to them. Just waiting to hear back from them. I so hope they don't kick us off housing. If they did, we would be homeless.

I'm overwhelmed like always....

When I went into my psychosis I was put on it. It crushed my psychosis along with risperdal. I hope it works for you.

One thing at a time, Breeze. One thing at a time...

After 2 days of normalcy (after 3 weeks of deep depression), I am symptomatic again, but going the other way.

Day before yesterday I got very very energetic and on top of the world. As good as it felt, I knew I was headed for trouble. And yet, instead of doing something useful (like planning to call my pdoc, or even going for a walk with a friend to rid myself of some of the excess energy), I had some 4 gin and tonics and was only able to sleep after them and of course all of my meds.

I removed temporary additional 50 mg of Zoloft from my pill boxes.

Now I was an alcoholic for many years up until about 15 years ago. Now, I have the very occasional social drink and I can easily stop after just one. And here I am.

And then yesterday, I was also very energetic, but also very irritable. I drank again, and then aside from the rest, I felt down (big surprise).

I put the additional 50mg of Zoloft back in their boxes.

I know I'm playing around with alcohol and meds to control these symptoms and it's not a good idea. If this continues today, I'll call my pdoc. We have an appointment for Friday.

I don't understand what is going on. I don't know if this is part of the depressive episode that now has become mixed. I don't know if this is hypomania, because it used to go the other way for me (hypomania THEN depression). I'm so confused, I feel awful, and I so wish I could fix this myself.

I haven’t taken any Xanax in 48 hours because of this sensory tool I got yesterday. I also slept really well because of it. Weird how things work out. Although I have always responded better to sensory things and exposure therapy then I have to medications. Today I feel ok mental health wise but I am still tired and feeling worn out physically. Therapist is sure it’s low iron.

Seems like usually when I have been confused, it was cuz it was mixed and sneaky.

You are playing with fire, drinking. Big-time.