[Polibeth]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Hey, all. Thanks for humouring me in that I rarely stop by lately except to report on struggles I'm having. The most recent and ongoing is the computer which crashes many times a day.

Aside from that - I had ECT yesterday and admitted to my doc that I hadn't been doing well. She suggested a brief, intensive series of three treatments over the course of a week. We're going to talk on Friday about how I'm doing after Monday's treatment. So I face the decision of going inpatient for the series however brief it may be since I live two hours from the hospital and would have a tough time arranging rides. It would also be hard on my wife with me gone for those days. I don't know what to do. I can't make decisions.

I just had a brief series of 3 treatments and I went IP for it. I find it's easier and I only live 15 minutes from the hospital. Good luck and I hope you feel better soon.

[MuddyBoots]

Still stable This is the longest I've ever been 100% sober and it's just amazing what a night and day difference it's made.

[Soupe du jour]

Our realtor is really falling short of our expectations on this last leg before our house sale closing. We know that it will happen, but why things like this must so often be painful is beyond me. The closing was supposed to happen today. It still could. Just let's get it to happen already!

I stayed up late last night watching the news. I'm happy with the results and happy for the American people, including those who think they aren't happy. There are a lot of financially struggling people in the US. That is far more apparent in the states we've visited during our road trip, than where I come from.

Update: Our water heater is kaput and needs replacement. Great, huh? Our lawyer is contacting the buyer's lawyer about a compromise. The hard thing is that Hubby thinks the plumber our realtor brought in seems to charge too much. But he would exchange it today. I am eager to get this done, but Hubby wants to find someone cheaper. Difference in toughness. Hubby is making it harder. He's more stubborn than me, so of course it will ultimately be his call.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Hey, all. Thanks for humouring me in that I rarely stop by lately except to report on struggles I'm having. The most recent and ongoing is the computer which crashes many times a day.

Aside from that - I had ECT yesterday and admitted to my doc that I hadn't been doing well. She suggested a brief, intensive series of three treatments over the course of a week. We're going to talk on Friday about how I'm doing after Monday's treatment. So I face the decision of going inpatient for the series however brief it may be since I live two hours from the hospital and would have a tough time arranging rides. It would also be hard on my wife with me gone for those days. I don't know what to do. I can't make decisions.

Given the circumstances, it seems that going IP for the week would be wise.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Our realtor is really falling short of our expectations on this last leg before our house sale closing. We know that it will happen, but why things like this must so often be painful is beyond me. The closing was supposed to happen today. It still could. Just let's get it to happen already!

I stayed up late last night watching the news. I'm happy with the results and happy for the American people, including those who think they aren't happy. There are a lot of financially struggling people in the US. That is far more apparent in the states we've visited during our road trip, than where I come from.

Well put!

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Hey, all. Thanks for humouring me in that I rarely stop by lately except to report on struggles I'm having. The most recent and ongoing is the computer which crashes many times a day.

Aside from that - I had ECT yesterday and admitted to my doc that I hadn't been doing well. She suggested a brief, intensive series of three treatments over the course of a week. We're going to talk on Friday about how I'm doing after Monday's treatment. So I face the decision of going inpatient for the series however brief it may be since I live two hours from the hospital and would have a tough time arranging rides. It would also be hard on my wife with me gone for those days. I don't know what to do. I can't make decisions.

I'm sorry about this I am not good at making decisions either. Especially such major decisions of that nature (I have not had to make that decision fortunately... I would not be ''coping'' well in that situation ) (I absolutely hate hospitals, have done since I was 5 ...)

Thanks for sharing. I'm thinking of you (sorry this is not more helpful)

Maybe inpatient (idk) might be the ''better'' option.

[Mountaindewed]

I feel pretty good today. The news is a bit unsettling so I have SpongeBob on.

Group was very helpful. I talked with a dietician this morning. I told her I eat the same things everyday and she says it is fine what I’m eating. But she wants me to switch some things around and to add a couple things. So I’m eating more at meals and snacking less. So with my peanut butter for breakfast she wants me to add some oatmeal. With my soup she wants me to add the crackers I would usually eat for a snack. And then for dinner she wants me to add a banana to my eggs. It was helpful advice that I am able to do. She wants me to up my water intake. She said it’s fine to get to 140 pounds for my height. She’s a bit confused as to why I’m not very hungry and asked if I was on any meds that’s cause loss of appetite. I had just asked my mom this morning if Geodon causes loss of appetite. Since I recently had both my morning and night doses upped. But I have no idea really why I’m losing weight so fast and so easily. But I’ve been to the doctor recently and things are ok. So idk. She didn’t think any eating disorder behavior was going on. And I knew that I didn’t have one. Now I can go into therapy next week and explain things to my T who was sure I had an eating disorder.

But yeah today was good. I’m just ignoring the news.

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I had such a bad therapy appointment today that I’m headed to bed. It really upset me terribly. Therapists need to be more careful of what they say to emotionally vulnerable patients. I’ll reset and be okay tomorrow. The question is do I discuss it with her, change therapists or mark it up as a one off.

Hi, it can be wise to talk to her about how you felt. That can work if you prepare a bit before you tell her. (Try to write down how to explain, tell it to the mirror in the bathroom or go a place to where nobody can hear you outside and tell your phone (film)). May be it will help to think about different ways she can answer you and think upon what could have been her intention. If she was provocative, may be she meant to help you to think something through. Therapists have their tools you know.

If you change therapist because she hit a vulnerable "place" in you , the problem will pup up again with a new therapist. If it is more about the connection between you and your therapist, may be a change will help, may be not.

Take your time to think it through.

Take care!

[Soupe du jour]

The United States is in crisis. Those who pray need to do so so that the chaos is ended today.

There is a man that needs to be committed to a high security psych hospital. This is sad! Beyond sad!

[Nammu]

This is a coup in the making, a turn into a dictatorship

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

The United States is in crisis. Those who pray need to do so so that the chaos is ended today.

There is a man that needs to be committed to a high security psych hospital. This is sad! Beyond sad!

100%.

Thank you, Soupe.

[Moose72]

I slept until 2 pm then stayed in bed until 3. Then got up and had food. Now I'm watching The Love Boat and trying to ignore the news. Two of my friends have covid. Well, one is confirmed and one not yet.

[*Beth*]

Furious at, appalled by, and scared of the current Federal situation. That's where my mind is at this time.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Furious at, appalled by, and scared of the current Federal situation. That's where my mind is at this time.

I hear you on this. But to offer some reassurance, I suspect (not sure) that he has become a lame duck for the next couple of weeks. I suspect he has been "talked to" in a very serious and powerful way. As you likely know, he is also partly muted by social media and probably higher powers than him, right now.

If thugs try again, they will surely be met with far more security, including the national guard, and suffer far worse consequences than they did yesterday. The government just must be taking this seriously now. After all, the second through fourth most powerful people in the government, plus the VP elect, were put in harms way, not to mention the rest of congress and many others. That kind of war attempt cannot be tolerated.

I really believe that great mercy is being shown to the lame duck. Imagine if someone else did what he did?

Truly, I suspect the previously quiet man from Indiana is in charge now.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

I hear you on this. But to offer some reassurance, I suspect (not sure) that he has become a lame duck for the next couple of weeks. I suspect he has been "talked to" in a very serious and powerful way. As you likely know, he is also partly muted by social media and probably higher powers than him, right now.

If thugs try again, they will surely be met with far more security, including the national guard, and suffer far worse consequences than they did yesterday. The government just must be taking this seriously now. After all, the second through fourth most powerful people in the government were put in harms way, not to mention congress and many others. That kind of war attempt cannot be tolerated.

Good post, Soupe. I have some ideas in response, but have to hold myself back. I have my fingers crossed and prayers said for the best outcome of the horror show.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m doing fairly good today. I only saw a brief clip of the news. Group went well. Tomorrow is my last day and then I’m back to therapy on Tuesday. I’ve become such a picky eater and I’m losing weight insanely fast. I have no idea what’s going on. But I can only eat the same 6 foods every day. I had some oatmeal this morning and it was gross. This has never happened to me where I’ve been such a picky eater. I can’t remember the last time I had pizza. I feel ok physically and my meds are ok I think. I’ve had my Geodon upped twice recently. But I think Geodon usually causes weight gain in people. I also switched Xanax recently. I was on .5 for a couple years then on .5 XR for a couple months, and now I’m on 2mil. So I don’t know if Xanax causes weight loss. I also don’t think it’s a medical issue. I want to lose weight but it’s never been this easy. And I’ve never lost this fast before. I’m actually a bit alarmed but I am sure things are ok if I’m not having pain.

[Nammu]

I still want to know why he wasn’t removed last night by the 25th admendmant he needs to lose all security clearance and any possibility of holding any type of office.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I’m doing fairly good today. I only saw a brief clip of the news. Group went well. Tomorrow is my last day and then I’m back to therapy on Tuesday. I’ve become such a picky eater and I’m losing weight insanely fast. I have no idea what’s going on. But I can only eat the same 6 foods every day. I had some oatmeal this morning and it was gross. This has never happened to me where I’ve been such a picky eater. I can’t remember the last time I had pizza. I feel ok physically and my meds are ok I think. I’ve had my Geodon upped twice recently. But I think Geodon usually causes weight gain in people. I also switched Xanax recently. I was on .5 for a couple years then on .5 XR for a couple months, and now I’m on 2mil. So I don’t know if Xanax causes weight loss. I also don’t think it’s a medical issue. I want to lose weight but it’s never been this easy. And I’ve never lost this fast before. I’m actually a bit alarmed but I am sure things are ok if I’m not having pain.

I gained 0 lbs on Geodon. I was on 160 mg per day for most of 7 years. In fact, on a diet I lost almost 40 lbs in six months while on that, Lithium, and Lamictal.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I’m doing fairly good today. I only saw a brief clip of the news. Group went well. Tomorrow is my last day and then I’m back to therapy on Tuesday. I’ve become such a picky eater and I’m losing weight insanely fast. I have no idea what’s going on. But I can only eat the same 6 foods every day. I had some oatmeal this morning and it was gross. This has never happened to me where I’ve been such a picky eater. I can’t remember the last time I had pizza. I feel ok physically and my meds are ok I think. I’ve had my Geodon upped twice recently. But I think Geodon usually causes weight gain in people. I also switched Xanax recently. I was on .5 for a couple years then on .5 XR for a couple months, and now I’m on 2mil. So I don’t know if Xanax causes weight loss. I also don’t think it’s a medical issue. I want to lose weight but it’s never been this easy. And I’ve never lost this fast before. I’m actually a bit alarmed but I am sure things are ok if I’m not having pain.

Have you seen your primary doctor? This is something they need to know about.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

I gained 0 lbs on Geodon. I was on 160 mg per day for most of 7 years. In fact, on a diet I lost almost 40 lbs in six months while on that, Lithium, and Lamictal.

I’m on lamictal too. All my meds are weight neutral because my current Pdoc knows I’ll just go off something by myself if it causes weight gain. Some Pdoc I had awhile ago was just was hesitant to raise my Geodon dose to 100 at night because he thought I’d gain weight.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by Nammu

I still want to know why he wasn’t removed last night by the 25th admendmant he needs to lose all security clearance and any possibility of holding any type of office.

I am guessing he has lost his power. If not officially, then voluntarily, because of pressure or even threats. They likely don't want to stir up his far right supporters any more than necessary by broadcasting such a fact. Plus, embarrassment, losing, "being fired' is something he truly couldn't psychologically bear. This is all my theory though. I could be wrong.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Have you seen your primary doctor? This is something they need to know about.

I did go to my primary about a month ago because I was having side and stomach pain. He took some blood and said it was fine except for some high kidney function. Then I had an abdominal ultrasound and that was ok. He suggested I go to a GI doctor for an endoscopy. But by then the pain was gone so I just assumed it was my anxiety and post op depression and stuff. But the loss of appetite and weight loss has never gone away but it’s truly the only symptom I’m having. So I think it might be med related. I don’t know. But I’ve lost 16 pounds since Thanksgiving so I don’t know if that’s considered a lot for that time slot.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I did go to my primary about a month ago because I was having side and stomach pain. He took some blood and said it was fine except for some high kidney function. Then I had an abdominal ultrasound and that was ok. He suggested I go to a GI doctor for an endoscopy. But by then the pain was gone so I just assumed it was my anxiety and post op depression and stuff. But the loss of appetite and weight loss has never gone away but it’s truly the only symptom I’m having. So I think it might be med related. I don’t know. But I’ve lost 16 pounds since Thanksgiving so I don’t know if that’s considered a lot for that time slot.

Yes it is a lot. Key word: without trying. This could be another medical issue and have nothing to do with your meds. You saw your doctor before the weight loss right? You need to tell him about it.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Yes it is a lot. Key word: without trying. This could be another medical issue and have nothing to do with your meds. You saw your doctor before the weight loss right? You need to tell him about it.

I just don’t understand what could be wrong if my blood work and ultrasound were ok. And if I’m not having pain.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I just don’t understand what could be wrong if my blood work and ultrasound were ok. And if I’m not having pain.

Didn't the weight loss happen AFTER you had those tests?