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#626
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I take 20 mg Saphris. It’s an AP. My pdoc also upped my Lamictal. My anxiety is out of control. I’m going to talk about it (again) with my therapist today at 2:00. Something has to change.
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![]() Dx: Bipolar 1, BPD, Panic Disorder w/ Agoraphobia Rx: Trintellix 20 mg Saphris 20 mg Lamictal 300 mg Lunesta 2 mg Buspirone 5 mg 2 x day |
![]() *Beth*, bizi, Nammu, wildflowerchild25, ~Christina
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#627
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I’m kinda panicking about a lot of stuff. I took my 160 mil of Geodon super early. So now I’m probably messed up for tomorrow as well since I can’t take any more tonight. But hopefully I get super trippy and out of it so I don’t have to feel my anxiety or anything else for the rest of the day. It’s unusual for me to get this panicky and anxious this time of day. Usually I don’t do anything unhealthy until later in the evening.
I’m not tired from the meds. Not spiraling anymore but not 100% ok either. I have my beats on so I can’t hear if the phone rings at all. My mom gets the calls on her phone. I’m listening to the song Unwell by Matchbox Twenty. I have a couple more hours for my call to come in. And then if it doesn’t I’ll have to do this all over again tomorrow. But my Geodon got called in finally. I don’t know. I just feel unusually weird today but I’ve been up for a long time and my meds were so messed up today. Maybe I’ll try a hot bath with some vicks vapor bath salts. I took the bath. Then I ate a burrito and took 4 zzquil pure zzz gummies. Not sure if 4 was too much or not. But I just want this day to be over with so I can start the same **** all over again in the morning.
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"Good morning starshine.... the earth says hello"- Willy Wonka Last edited by Mountaindewed; Jul 27, 2021 at 04:56 PM. |
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#629
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I seriously need to stop with this whole cat sat on the mat ****
people don't like it.. but it's so cute. I think so anyway |
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#630
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stomach ache again because food didn't agree with me.
I seriously can't go on like this.. |
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#631
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#632
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Life is getting better and better with my new therapist and a better understanding of what’s going on. SI has disappeared.
I took mom to another town for a doctor’s appointment and ran all my errands today. Getting those checked off felt good. I’m tired and have a headache and backache now but still need to cook dinner and pick up. Maybe after the Bayer kicks in. I had a good time with my daughter Sunday. The movie and visit were great. We had to detour due to somebody’s fatal accident on the road. Tragic. I hope everyone has a good Wednesday. I’m taking my brother to get his truck fixed and to a pain management appointment then hitting the pool for the day. The forecast is high 90’s. |
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#633
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I’m hurting so much tonight. I can’t breathe. I can’t keep the tears away. Sometimes I think this pain will kill me. Missing my son so much and feeling so hopeless.
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![]() Dx: Bipolar 1, BPD, Panic Disorder w/ Agoraphobia Rx: Trintellix 20 mg Saphris 20 mg Lamictal 300 mg Lunesta 2 mg Buspirone 5 mg 2 x day |
![]() *Beth*, Anonymous45023, bizi, Mountaindewed, Nammu, VerMOZZica, wildflowerchild25, ~Christina
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#634
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I think Seroquel is used for anxiety. It didn't do anything for mine. I'm thinking of a low dose of one of the older AP's.
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#635
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I have not had any relief from anxiety with the second generation AP's. The older AP's seem to work against anxiety much more effectively. I take Trilafon (perphenazine); it's the first med that has really helped with extreme anxiety.
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#636
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My pdoc prescribed buspirone today for my anxiety. I can’t pick it up until tomorrow afternoon. I read that it can take 3 to 4 weeks for it to start working. She won’t prescribe benzos. I hope this makes a difference. My anxiety is overwhelming.
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![]() Dx: Bipolar 1, BPD, Panic Disorder w/ Agoraphobia Rx: Trintellix 20 mg Saphris 20 mg Lamictal 300 mg Lunesta 2 mg Buspirone 5 mg 2 x day |
![]() *Beth*, Anonymous45023, bizi, Mountaindewed, ~Christina
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#637
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I hope the Buspar is the answer for you. I know the kind of pain you're in. It's a cannot run, cannot hide kind of pain. I'm so sorry, Lizzie.
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Wooo the aqua Zumba class was excellent. There were 6 others there and except for one they were all my age and all were overweight so I fit in just fine. I thought maybe I might heat a beat if the music was loud enough but it wasn’t but I did just as well as the others in class so definitely making this a weekly thing. Not sure yet if I can go to tomorrow’s aqua fitness class because my sister hasn’t called me back yet. I offered to take mum to the doctor instead of going to the fitness class because it’s going to be storming and she’s gotta drive 50 miles. I know I hate driving the interstate in storms so I offered. There’s still two other classes Thursday and Friday and I’ve already moved more this week than I usually do in a month, so missing one class is no biggy. I did the oversized T-shirt thing and went home to change.
Jennifer I’m definitely glad I did this. You can too, it’s worth it.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#639
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Every med works differently for everyone.. Try and hang in there.. Stop punishing yourself. Take another day to float ![]()
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#640
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Seroquel at lower doses will cause sleepiness.
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#641
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My situation is the same. Buspar didn't do anything for me. My daughter has been taking it for years because it helps with her anxiety.
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#642
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Nope, it won't kill you. Your grief is immense, but refuse to let it kill you. Remember that you had a life before your son existed.
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#643
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Feeling mildly tired with a very mild malaise, so far today. I don't know if it's related to my second covid shot or not. If so, it's not a big deal, at all. I'd take much much worse!
Hubby and I have reservations for an English language tour of an historic building downtown, in an hour. I hope it's relatively short. At least it's in a lovely park I mentioned a couple weeks back. My fruit tart is evil delicious! Better than any other I've tasted, including previous homemade ones. I think the crust is yummier. Plus local berries make store-bought seem mediocre. And it's my favorite filling (a homemade custard). |
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#644
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I have never met anyone who has had this side effect. A lot of people lose weight on it. My Pdoc was very confused but once I started losing weight when I got off it he believed me. Although I think he was still pretty confused since this side effect is pretty much unheard of.
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Thank you, Beth, for your compassion and understanding. You’re right. The pain and grief are inescapable. I hope things get better between you and your daughter. Thank you again. You are a good friend. ❤️
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![]() Dx: Bipolar 1, BPD, Panic Disorder w/ Agoraphobia Rx: Trintellix 20 mg Saphris 20 mg Lamictal 300 mg Lunesta 2 mg Buspirone 5 mg 2 x day |
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#646
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#647
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Got ahold of my sister this morning. She’s on her way. So I’m going to aqua class. But I’m not feeling it, I’m just not a morning person. Blah 😒
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#648
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#649
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![]() Dx: Bipolar 1, BPD, Panic Disorder w/ Agoraphobia Rx: Trintellix 20 mg Saphris 20 mg Lamictal 300 mg Lunesta 2 mg Buspirone 5 mg 2 x day |
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#650
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I still haven’t heard back from my doctor. I could just be expecting things too early. I haven’t received a shipping email either from EBay. So far I’ve taken one Valium. I’ve gone about 24 hours without any Geodon but I’m trying to make it to tonight when I should be taking it. I may take the 20 earlier though. I slept good last night. I did wake up around 1:40 and I thought I’d be up for good. I placed an online order for pickup Saturday afternoon then I kind of just forced myself to go back to sleep. I was only up for maybe 20 minutes. Today I’m just hanging out and on again. I am still cutting back on going out. My therapist thinks I’m a bit paranoid. I should be good unless I’m asymptomatic from my massless lake trip since it was about 2 weeks ago.
I’ve been very organized lately. Not sure if it’s a mania or an OCD thing or if I just like to be a neat freak. I even eat cereal and ramen out of bowls that say literally say “cereal” and “ramen” on them. I’m not concerned about any of this OCD or mania stuff. I really am just focusing on getting some news from my doctor. I read a brochure my doctor gave me about hysterectomies. It wasn’t anything exciting just about the type of surgery he is doing and how it will be done.
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