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I did have a cool dream last night. It was very fantastic and life was in these flower blooms and my granddaughter ( right noe 4) was old enough to make me a great grandmother! I had one of the flowers and gave it to my granddaughter. It was a very glowy high color scene infused with happiness. ![]()
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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![]() I am so hoping that there is no further lockdowns. I think once you get back in the swing of working and having more of a daily routine your anxiety may back down a bit?? Yes that is a fantastic affirmation ![]() And pat yourself on the back. You made healthy decisions to limit what food you bring in your home and what is are good portion size.
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Since Haldol is your PRN for when you hit a wall Id certainly make sure you always have a few on hand
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Is your husband in the room for your Pdoc appts due to a language issue? Honesty I cant imagine my husband being with me to a Pdoc appt. Im glad your set up with a T I hate that its a month wait. You do need to be able to just dump everything out of your head and know that its a safe place to do so. I would move to another room. You really need some alone time to do what you want to, sleep, read, etc. Can you go buy some groceries that wont require you to cook daily.. Like stuff for sandwiches or whatever.. Something that your husband can just make himself.. He's not giving you the support and help you need. No way could I continue to feed him actual meals. Take care of YOU ![]()
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#881
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#882
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![]() I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow; I'm looking forward to that ![]()
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#883
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Saw Richard yesterday.. his 4pm client had to cancel so we just kept going for another hour.
He was very involved with why he feels my meds need to be left as is and that taking away Xanax would likely push me over the edge. Xanax helps with Anxiety/ Sleep/ Pain.. and now unable to take psych meds besides my Doxepin and Lamictal. This man has saved my life more times than I can count. Of course at my T's office the company has reinstated the mask in the office at all times. Honestly I am over the whole Covid situation. Once " Delta" is behind us then another variant will come into play.. There is probably a list somewhere like how they make for names each Hurricane season. Can Fall get here??? I am so over this damn Summer heat. I would trade my left toes for a damn cupcake right now ![]()
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#884
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YAY ! New style??? Or just shaping up the current? Last time I got mine cut I had her take 6 inches off its almost to my waist again.... and I told her I'd pay extra for a longgggg shampoo and massage... She did it of course and refused to charge me.. So I gave her a bigger tip LOL .. It felt so amazing to just relax..
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#885
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#886
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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I just came back from an almost 2 mile 40 minute walk in the heat. I feel really good now. I know exercise is a great way to help your anxiety, I just wish I didn’t hate it so much. I also ate a burrito from chipotles because I wanted legit food today.
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Bipolar is a Witch.. I swear sometimes in the past I go to bed and Im doing okay, pretty stable and I wake up and Im a freaking train wreck. So I wish that it went away as fast as it hits us... Yeah wishful thinking ![]()
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#889
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Hey people pay tons of money for ringlets !!!!! I have to keep mine up because I cant stand it hanging in my face and its to long, thick, heavy and hot. I have these huge clips, think like a alligator mouth. Anyway I twirl up my hair very loose on the top of my head and use 3 to keep it up , no tension... That can cause hair loss.. But I do love to wear mine down if I go out anywhere.
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![]() I'm listening to my as-of-late favorite album, Airs de Cour put out by Harmonia Mundi with Rene Jacobs, countertenor. I find that music takes up a lot of my attention so that the intrusive thoughts have a harder time making their way through the cracks. I feel like writing a poem like I did last Jan/Feb. I wrote several back then. It takes up a lot of thoughts, too.
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#891
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Speaking of N3, he told me yesterday that he got approved for an apartment in my complex! I don't know when he plans on moving- maybe soon, or maybe waiting until next month? Not sure, but it's exciting! He's getting closer to his driving test- less than a week. I'm nervous as I don't know that he can do traffic circles or parallel parking! I should ask his Papa (grandpa) if he can take him out for practice with those.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#892
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Writing a poem. When it feels finished, I will send it to you!
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#894
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#895
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I spent most of the day at the pool in the sun. Had a fantastic therapy session and am leaving in a sec to help my brother get settled at rehab for his broken bones. I’ll run a few errands for mom, grab a vegetable plate from Cheddars to go and that will be it for me except for some relaxing tv or a good book tonight.
I have two therapists right now. There are worse problems to have. Both are good in their own ways. Only one will help me heal my trauma. I’ll have to figure out my wording in letting the other one go gently. Today life is good. I’m grateful for the reprieve. Hope everyone has a peaceful Friday! ![]() |
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This whole Covid situation is making me a bit S tonight for the first time in awhile. Although I know if I try anything it could majorly screw up the stuff I have going for me. My insurance may say I’m not mentally stable to go through surgery or something like that. I’m just gonna have to hang on for tonight. My new melatonin does seem to be kicking in. I see my therapist on Monday and my Pdoc on the 16th. I don’t need any of my meds switched but he is great at reassuring me about things. I try to be as professional as I can with my current therapist. Which doesn’t necessarily mean being honest. But maybe I should just tell her how I really am scared about Covid and things shutting down again.
Ok so I just took a second melatonin. These are time release ones so I’m not sure exactly what 20mil will do. So far I’m just a bit groggy. I guess I should have thought about my blood work before taking an extra one. Physically I am fine but I have bad cholesterol and kidney issues that don’t cause any problems currently but I don’t want them to start causing problems. But so far I’m just feeling pretty trippy. I should check the calendar to see when I’m supposed to deal with PMS. Still 18 days away. I must just be feeling crappy tonight for no reason.
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"Good morning starshine.... the earth says hello"- Willy Wonka Last edited by Mountaindewed; Aug 05, 2021 at 06:14 PM. |
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#897
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Probably! ![]()
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So I went to my therapy session this afternoon and my therapist said she had some difficult news for me. Turns out my psychiatrist has left. She and my T worked together in the same clinic. I've been seeing Dr. W. for over 3 years, almost every week, and we were quite bonded. No one I spoke with knows why she suddenly left, except that my T had a idea (possible conflict with the higher-ups). My former pdoc must be at least 65, so I don't know where she'll go next - if anywhere.
Fortunately, my meds are keeping me quite stable at this time. I hope the new person won't tamper with anything. By the way, does anyone know what a "D.O." is ![]() I'm feeling pretty let down, because my pdoc never even contacted me. We had a strong connection; maybe she'll send a letter. In other news the smoke rolled in today from one of the wildfires north of here. Every late summer for the past few years it's the same ...horrific fires. Back in May, it was when we were driving through hours of burned-out mountains that I started feeling anxious, which ended up in almost constant panic, basically a breakdown, and a major med raise a few weeks later.
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I'm sorry your pdoc has left. I dread that day. DO is doctor of osteopathy. In my experience they tend to be more holistic and willing to work with the patient. (Others may have different experiences of course). I prefer them and see them as often as I can. Both my pdoc and family doctor are DOs and both have been my doctor for over 15 years.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
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Beth, it’s gotta be hard to live in California with all those wildfires.
![]() I’m glad I went to aqua fitness tonight. I was really dragging and low, didn’t want to go, but did. It was great fun. Talked to the lady next to me before class started. That’s a first. In the water means no hearing aids so totally dependent on lip reading. Fortunately she was easy to lip read and everyone in the classes is very friendly.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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