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#326
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Don't be too hard on yourself for not cleaning that day. Everyone needs a break every once in a while. I'm sure you will soon be back in the habit soon. |
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#327
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Kudos for your self control! I hope you enjoy your new truck. I'm sure there are plenty of existing features to explore.
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#328
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Please do talk to your psychiatrist about your therapist's speculations in regards to your diagnosis. How long have you been seeing that therapist? |
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body aches today
showered, and that really hurt, plus once again my food disagreed with me I swear everything disagrees with me these days. part of getting older?. ****ed digestive system dunno |
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I felt a bit unwell with anxiety last night so took an Ativan for the first time, in ages. It did help. I'm still waiting for my blood test results. I just want to know already, no matter if good or bad. Such knowledge brings control, which reduces anxiety (or at least eventually reduces it).
Lately I've noticed that I make more and more typing errors. I used to cough it up to being a very speedy typer. However, perhaps there is more to it. I should proofread my typing more often. Occasionally there are misspellings, but more often the particular word(s) are words, but the wrong ones. Of course I know what is correct. "Difficult" becomes "difference", "sight" is typed as "site", "lake" shows as "lack". Words are sometimes even missing. I repeat myself a lot, or repeat words to an annoying degree. I've had a propensity towards verbosity and logorrhea my entire life, though I can effectively edit, when needed. Lately I've talked louder than usual. Is it some mild mood elevation? Or are my ears a bit clogged, as my husband thinks? I hope the former, as I don't want another doctor to visit. |
![]() *Beth*, Anonymous45023, Mountaindewed, Nammu, ~Christina
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#331
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#332
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I very much doubt it's anything to worry about, Md. Sounds like a broken little blood vessel.
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#333
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Interesting about your diagnosis. I have wondered the same about myself - if my "bipolar" is more about trauma and not having learned proper coping skills as a child, in addition to various types of abuse. But then I remind myself that I'm on a lot of medication; when I'm not my mental state looks quite BD. Enjoy the sun and your whole week-end. You fully deserve some down time, Jennifer ![]()
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#334
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A new truck - how fun! ![]()
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#335
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I woke up wide awake at 2:40. In a motel room with my mom who was sound asleep. Luckily I have noise canceling wireless headphones and an app on my phone with international versions of my favorite TV show. I watched about 3 hour long episodes before she woke up. Then we pretty much left immediately after my mom got up. We didn’t take showers. Just packed up and left the keys on the table and got out. We stopped at a couple stores and the gas station and the coffee shop. Then we got on the road. I sat in the backseat and I turned on my TV show again and I watched about 3.5 episodes of the same show. I was so involved in my show I didn’t pay attention to the bad driving weather and I lost track of the whole 3.5 hours back.
Then we got home around 11 and I decided to go to immediate care to get my foot checked out. I knew it was Friday and today is also 10 days before my period and Saturdays (the 9th day before I get it) are always the worst of the 10 days. So I didn’t want an issue like I had last month where I ended up in the ER because I thought I was having a heart attack which turned out to be just bad post op pain and anxiety. So I found an immediate care and I got in right away. The doctor said the thing on my foot was really interesting. She says since it’s been there for 2 months and it doesn’t hurt she thinks it’s just a blood blister. But she says the size is concerning so she took pictures and sent a referral over to their dermatologist office. So I have an appointment there next Friday. But I swear there’s always something going on when I PMS. Now I have to try not to worry for a week until my appointment. I have socks on now so I don’t have to look at it. But so far I’m not having any bad S or SH thoughts the way I usually do when I PMS. Again things aren’t bad until the 9th day before I get my period. Which is always on Saturdays. So far I’m just incredibly exhausted from being up for so long and just tired from my vacation in general. I can’t think much about anything. I don’t even want to watch more TV. But my Valium are working and my overall moods and anxiety are better then they were a couple weeks ago. So maybe going back down on both my Geodon and my lamictal is making a legit difference. I went up on my Geodon in January I think and I was miserable ever since.
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"Good morning starshine.... the earth says hello"- Willy Wonka Last edited by Mountaindewed; Jul 16, 2021 at 02:00 PM. |
![]() *Beth*, Lizzie1813, Soupe du jour, Sunflower123, yellow_fleurs
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#337
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I’ve come to the realization that I will always be sad. Not having my son in my life anymore is more than I can bear. My pdoc says the loss is what’s causing my depression. How can I move forward knowing he doesn’t want me to be a part of his life? I just don’t see a way through this.
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![]() *Beth*, Anonymous45023, Mountaindewed, Nammu, Soupe du jour, Sunflower123, wildflowerchild25, ~Christina
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#338
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![]() SO happy you got to float and a movie with M sounds wonderful ![]()
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My post got zero hugs or thanks and the next one plus every ****ing one before that got tons. What gives?
Lizzie I think is a new member and I had mentioned in one of my posts that no new members plus myself were getting any support. Now the new people are getting support but I’m still not. And these aren’t even ****ing med OD posts I’m posting. Well whoopdi ****ing doo at least my job is done.
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Oh (((( Lizzie ))))
I am so sorry that things are just so plain awful right now. I do hope with time your Son will realize whatever caused the break really isnt something that will last a lifetime.. Please be extra kind to yourself right now ![]()
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#341
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You know I can't even type out what total Cluster F today has been..
Honestly I don't know how much more of this I can take. Gentle hugs to anyone in need ![]()
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#342
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How old is your son, Lizzie? (I'm sure you've mentioned his age, but my memory is terrible.)
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He’s 18. He lived with me until June of last year. |
![]() Fuzzybear, Ursula Shackleton, ~Christina
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#344
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Thank you for your kindness and understanding. I hope he will forgive me one day. I talk to my therapist every week, but no matter how much we talk about the situation, my sadness never lessens. I don’t know what else to do. The only thing keeping me going is the love of my daughter. I don’t want to hurt her again. Thank you again. |
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Just for a few weeks. I’m not taking her word about my bipolar as gospel but she sure is doing an outstanding job with my trauma. My SI has gone down dramatically as has stress and depression. I don’t remember my psychiatrist asking me about trauma or my background history that may have impacted my behavior and that’s a shame. Just MHO.
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![]() Anonymous45023, BeyondtheRainbow, Fuzzybear, Soupe du jour, ~Christina
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#347
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![]() ![]() By the way Gus is adorable! |
![]() Fuzzybear, Soupe du jour, ~Christina
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#348
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He's still very young. He might just not understand or be able to handle it and needs to have space to figure things out. But that's so hard. I'm sorry to hear it. *hugs*
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I've been lurking here with the check-in because I admit my brain doesn't follow the kind of backwards conversation all that well, but I thought I'd pop in and give it a shot. Today has been good. Just A LOT of cleaning for my son's 13th birthday party. He's such a good helper too, a sweetheart. My house got so super messy over the winter when I fell into a massive depression, but I'm hanging in there. Last week, I managed to clean out my office enough to get my red IBM Selectric in here. Such a beautiful hum that typewriter has <3 Hope all is well with everyone else here, or at least as good as it gets
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![]() *Beth*, Anonymous45023, Fuzzybear, Lizzie1813, Nammu, Soupe du jour, ~Christina
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Thank you so much, Ursula. |
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