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Sounds like you're approaching cleaning in a good way. One step (or room) at a time. I suggest patting yourself on the back after each accomplishment. That's how I succeeded best with such projects. |
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#352
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I hope you will connect with your 18 year old, but celebrate his new found independence. I am also sure your soon to be 13 year old will relish, to at least some degree, the departure of his 18 year old brother. Again, that would not necessarily be a reflection on their relationship, either. It's just natural. Eighteen is a marvelous age, I think. It is the beginning of what I feel are the best educational years of a person's life. Not so much continued education from parents, but education in independence. And mistakes and hard knocks are among the best lessons, especially ones experienced, dealt with, and accepted mostly on/as one's own. Of course I have a particularly strong Western philosophical viewpoint. I realize others disagree, and sometimes for good reasons. Last edited by Soupe du jour; Jul 17, 2021 at 05:37 AM. |
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I’m going to call around next week so I can set up an appointment with a gynecologist. Last night was bad. I took my usual night stuff and I found a muscle relaxer so I took that too. I got so tired and dizzy. My mom brought pizza home for dinner. I had taken my meds around 5:30. But she brought the pizza home at 6 and I was like stumbling into the kitchen. I was having. Trouble getting the pizza out of the box. So my mom helped me. Then I took it into my room and I was having a physically hard time holding the pizza and I dropped it twice on my shirt. Sauce side down. Then when I was done I instantly fell asleep until 11:45. I got up to try to get something to eat and I was so stumbly. I walked into a wall. I drank a caffeine free soda and then I fell back asleep again until 10 minutes ago. Which isn’t a bad time. The sun will be starting to rise in half an hour and if I were working I’d have to get up at this time.
But the muscle relaxers are now gone and I can’t get another refill I emailed my therapist and she doesn’t have any openings for next week but she put me on her list and asked if I tried any meditation breathing or coloring. She seemed happy to hear from me though. She said hi moubtaindewed! With the excalamation mark. I mentioned my roid rage from not having my shot yet so I think she knew her she was talking to. I don’t think she has any other trans clients because she didn’t understand what top surgery was until I explained it. She didn’t respond to my email responding to hers though. I hope these next 9 days aren’t as bad as yesterday afternoon or night. I got my shot yesterday around 3:30. So I’m hoping tonight isn’t like the other Saturday nights the 9th day before my period. My shots used to be Saturday mornings which is why Saturday nights are so bad.. But now that I realize it that just means Friday nights are now the bad night.
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#354
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I do hope you will get relief from the discomforts you have been receiving. My hope is that the underlying issues are eased, so that you won't have (or more want) to take chemicals to ease them. One doesn't want to add a new major problem on top of another. Believe me, I know. |
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Yesterday I had major gastrointestinal distress. I took some OTC meds,, including charcoal. That did the trick. I feel much better today.
Hubby was telling me about a battery going dead...and he mentioned our GPS Tom Tom. I thought he only mentioned the Tom Tom itself, but he later clarified it is our car battery that's dead. Ugh! We currently have only one car, so that means we are stuck without transportation. He looked and we do have some kind of road assistance, but are unsure what it includes. Being Saturday it's not sure when we'll get some help. Hubby doesn't think a jump start will do the trick. I suggested he ask our neighbor about that. He apparently wanted to do a map upgrade on the Tom Tom. Why he did it "in the car" using the car battery for power, I'm not sure. I didn't ask that question because I know it would make him defensive. He'd likely bark that I could have done it, instead. He'd be right on that. Anyway, I'll be happy when our newish Subaru finally arrives. It's likely on the Atlantic Ocean still. Last edited by Soupe du jour; Jul 17, 2021 at 08:29 AM. |
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#356
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But thanks for your reply and concern. This morning I’m not feeling much of anything bad. I don’t think the muscle relaxer did anything but make me super relaxed for the night.
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I got pissed at one of my pdocs when he asked for my background history. Because I wanted a clean slate and I didn’t want my history to follow me. I didn’t know that was part of their job though to ask for your mental health background.
Now I don’t hide my past at all and I’m pretty open and I’ll be like to mental health workers like “dude one time I went to the psych ward and I got so worked up I had to be restrained to the bed and my vitals dropped so much that they just left me there for an hour until my vitals got back to normal.” I mean I think? My past is still triggering and an issue. At least that’s what I’m being told by mental health care workers when I bring up stories like that one.
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#361
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My son estranged himself from me in April because of last summer’s events. Possible trigger:
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I have so much guilt over how what happened to me has hurt both of my children. I also live with guilt and regret because of the times my illness has affected them overall. I just miss hearing from him and seeing him. I check in with his dad once a month to see how he’s doing. His dad seems happy to reply. I’m grateful to him for that and because he and his wife are so supportive of my precious son. I talked to my therapist this morning because she had to cancel our usual Monday appointment. We talked about how the loss has caused me to feel hopeless and deeply depressed. She had ideas for me to do to take better care of myself. I will try. Thank you again. I hope you have a good day. |
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#362
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Oh, now...you get plenty of support, Md. You know you are an integral member of this community. You have posted that you aren't on this thread to get reactions from others, but to keep track of your own stuff. It's a bit confusing.
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![]() I'm sure I'm not the only person who doesn't read all of the posts at all times. Most of us here lead very challenging lives ![]()
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Well, he is really young, still in teen mode. His estrangement will, hopefully, be transitory. My daughter is 36 and estranged herself from me 2 years ago. She excels in academia, but imo her emotional maturity lags. Regardless of age and reasons, estrangement is viciously painful. I really have to work HARD to harden my heart. I feel like it's either that or go crazy and die too young from a broken heart. I constantly remind myself that it is my daughter's unresolved mental health issues that have caused her to behave toward me like she does. I do write letters to her every 6 weeks or so, but never condemning or critical. I remind myself that I am her mother, not her friend, and I respect my daughter by respecting myself, and respecting my role as her mother. We were so close prior to her dropping herself out of my life...I expect that she will come around eventually. I am using this time to develop a closer relationship with my other child, my son. That's the silver lining to the darkest cloud. How is your relationship with your daughter?
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![]() Hugs and love to you ![]()
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I agree that it's her unresolved MH issues that have caused her to behave this way ![]()
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Thank you so much for your support, Fuzzy dear ![]()
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#368
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You're welcome dear BethRags
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#369
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I'm moved into my new apartment! It's very small, but has many trees around it, including a tall and magnificent redwood tree. Now I have only to clean the old apartment, which will be a job, but I'll manage it. And I have to move my computer, etc. to the new apartment. A tech dude is supposed to come out Monday to hook it all up. Hopefully that will be hassle-free. Ha, I'm so tired it's going to take a couple of weeks to feel fully awake again.
Big hugs all around. I hope everyone has a nice Saturday. ![]()
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I don't like unneccessary drama. It's so boring sometimes
![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Thanks for sharing about your new apartment BethRags ![]() ![]() Has anyone heard from Bizi? She's been gone for a while now. I hope everyone's Saturday is a good one. ![]()
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#371
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Today I’m doing ok. I’m a bit anxious but it’s not bad. It’s not like my usual PMDD. It’s actually pretty unusual. Maybe the increase in meds was playing a lot more into things then I realized. My Geodon was raised in January and this whole year has been nonstop anxiety and mood swings. Now I feel kind of better. Although I’m forgetting to eat today and I keep getting distracted. I had a soda at midnight or something but since then it’s just been unsweetened flavor iced teas or zero sugar sodas. I’m not restricting today I’m just super distracted for some reason.
Edit: I still haven’t eaten because I’m too tired to make anything and all I have is snacks and just ramen that needs to be cooked and I’m too lazy to even make ramen. So I just took 2 Valium at one time because I think it’s my anxiety but it’s actually just hunger masking itself as anxiety. Since I can’t ever tell the 2 apart. So now I’m trying to get up the energy to grab a snack so I’ll have the energy to then eat an actual meal. But I don’t know how sedating the Valium will make me. I know basically my world is just ****ed. Edit again: I ate some popcorn and some Quest protein peanut butter cups. Now I just want to take a nap because the Valium is kicking in.
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"Good morning starshine.... the earth says hello"- Willy Wonka Last edited by Mountaindewed; Jul 17, 2021 at 12:29 PM. |
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#372
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I always contradict myself. It’s a bad habit I need to learn to break. I do it at work, at home, in therapy. At work I’ll ask for more hours and then when they ask me to come in on my days off I say no. At home I’m just a hypocrite all around. In therapy I’m constantly contradicting myself when I’m just thrown a bunch of questions at one time. I crack under pressure and I have sucky anxiety that switches from hour to hour so my mind changes constantly on things to the point I don’t even know what I want. Just what I’m feeling at that moment. But I apologize for that post. It was very rude of me.
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I really had to muzzle myself on that other place. That message was very hurtful.
![]() ![]() Some people seem to WANT to hurt others. I don't get it. ![]()
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