[Moose72]

Originally Posted by SugarGirl

Hello, I’m new here.

Welcome!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

@SugarGirl - Hello! Welcome.

In my little corner of the world it was so hot yesterday and so many people drawing power for air conditioning a transformer blew and the resulting outage lasted through the night and past midday.

Monday I have ECT and a portion of my usual route to get there is going to be closed or controlled for road repairs. I'm looking at another way to get there but unsure despite using google maps. I just don't know the alternate roads very well.

Yikes about the transformer! Our power went out a couple weeks ago here- unknown cause. Luckily, they had it back after about 4 hours. Just in time to go to bed. (I use a cpap so it is difficult for me to go to bed without power.)

Can you print out the turn-by-turn route that google maps gives you? I sometimes use google maps on my phone, but its not near as easy to use as the maps program in newer cars. (My car is a '99 so no computer maps.)

[Lizzie1813]

Originally Posted by SugarGirl

Hello, I’m new here.

Welcome! 😊

[Lizzie1813]

Originally Posted by Nammu

I just got back a half hour ago. Went to that joy of painting class. My picture turned out pretty good. One spot looked weird so I asked what to do about it and she asked me! I said maybe a bush. That was great. Wish I could post a picture but I’ve no idea how to do that. I hope to take more classes this was fun and there was half the class new to painting so it was comfortable atmosphere.

Yay! I’m so glad you had a good time!

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

My brother fell this morning and couldn’t get up. I was helping mom get ready to go to the funeral of a good friend of hers. I helped him up and sat with him until he stabilized. I decided at that moment that it is imperative for me to build up my world aside from them: exercise, hobbies, getaways, social events, friends etc. It’s not because I don’t care but because I do…too much. I need something to offset the deterioration I’m seeing. I’m deeply disturbed. Also, I’m 54, healthy and energetic. I still have life in me and this situation has expanded to be the majority of my world.

I think it’s a positive decision that will benefit all of us.

Absolutely Jennifer! I’m glad you recognize this. My grandmother cared for my grandfather with dementia for 10+ years. The last year before he died was rapid deterioration and my uncle discouraged her from putting him in full time residential care because of covid. She finally had to in July 2020 and he died in October.

I can see how broken and run down she is. And now that he’s gone she has no idea what to do with herself. She’s looking for any project possible to keep her busy. Thankfully (sort of) my mom is thinking of selling her house but it needs major renovations before that can be done. Grandma’s directing the renovation of the kitchen right now.

You definitely need a life outside of full time caregiving.

[wildflowerchild25]

I think I might be just a tad hypo, but completely manageable so I’m not worried. My pierogi making adventure yesterday was far more ambitious than I’ve ever been with cooking. I remember one other time when I was manic when I was punching out circle pb&j’s for my son’s lunches in a frenzy. Didn’t want to buy the uncrustables anymore. I tend to trend toward cleaning, cooking, and/or shopping. I did go to target today but it was for a clothing item I needed and I strolled through home decor but resisted purchasing anything. However I don’t know how it would have gone if they had any rustic decor which is how I’ve decorated the living room. Or lemon decor for the kitchen. But, point is, I only spent what was necessary on the clothing items.

I can tell I’m going to have to make a major effort to sleep tonight. I have downloaded and subscribed to the calm app and though I haven’t tried any of the various mindfulness exercises they have on there I HAVE found the sleep stories to be extremely helpful. Especially if I force myself to listen and visualize myself in the story. I’ve been falling asleep much easier to them than I ever did to my normal tv shows or even music.

Still with wedding planning woes, surely the same as any bride experiences. I picked out my dress and shoes so that’s another thing off the list!

Seriously though I better shut off my phone and start winding down.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by SugarGirl

Hello, I’m new here.

Welcome, SugarGirl! And I love your little snail on the flower. So cute!

I am impressed with the fact that I'm on my second book in 2 weeks, and actually enjoying it and wanting to read it.

it's called lost hills, and is about a crime seen investigation. it really makes a change for me to be motivated to read something.

I'm finally getting past my sorrow about my aborted online relationship with that guy. He was fatist anyways. Slept well and long and feel that life is possible again. Am even considering gathering everyone together for a toast with my alcohol-free Merlot on my birthday! It's still three weeks away so i should be feeling ever better by then. Will keep it simple and last-minute tho. Whoever picks up their phone can join in and if you snooze, you lose!!!

@raging vortex:

So happy you have found amusing books and are feeling some pleasure at last. You certainly deserve it!!!

@SugarGirl:

Welcome aboard!

Hugs,

Jane.

[Lizzie1813]

I’m feeling pretty good this morning even though I didn’t quite get the nine hours of sleep I normally need. I think my pleasant mood is due to my having started writing a novella which I plan to post on Wattpad, a little at a time as I write. It’s been years since I wrote a story. I even created a cover on Canva to use as my phone’s wallpaper to keep me inspired.

According to tracking, my sculpting tools should arrive tomorrow. Finally! I’m excited to give sculpting another try with the proper tools.

I’m not going to church today. I have an upset stomach. Honestly, I’m glad I don’t have to go. (My cousin and her husband expect it.) I’ve mentioned here that I cry during church every Sunday. It’ll be nice to avoid that. Maybe that’s part of why my mood is good today.

I took a look at the stats on my mood tracker app yesterday. My mood has been all over the place. I shared the chart with my therapist who was glad to have the information.

I hope everyone is doing well. Have a wonderful day! 😊

[Sunflower123]

My brother fell again about 2:00 am last night and was taken to the hospital by ambulance. They don’t know much right now but that he fractured his femur and broke his ankle. Poor guy! He’ll have to go to rehab after the hospital because that’s beyond my capabilities.

I’m going to file a complaint over the paramedics who transported him. He was crying in pain and one paramedic kept telling him to man up and to shut up. I saw red! Somebody needs to lose their job over that. They are in the wrong profession. I hate that it happened but I’ll use the time he is in rehab wisely.

He’s in good hands now and has a family that loves and supports him. I hope things turn out okay. He just can’t win for losing.

[Sunflower123]

Update: he also broke his left hip and they will do surgery today. I’ve heard of folks not coming back from broken hips but they are usually much older and I think it’s the pneumonia that does them in. I am prepared for any eventuality.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Update: he also broke his left hip and they will do surgery today. I’ve heard of folks not coming back from broken hips but they are usually much older and I think it’s the pneumonia that does them in. I am prepared for any eventuality.

I'm sorry your brother is hurt. And that is just terrible how the ambulance staffer treated him. I would also send a complaint.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Yikes about the transformer! Our power went out a couple weeks ago here- unknown cause. Luckily, they had it back after about 4 hours. Just in time to go to bed. (I use a cpap so it is difficult for me to go to bed without power.)

Yeah, never a dull moment around here. In a few weeks we'll likely be evacuating due to wildfires.

My jeans fell down yesterday, i've lost so much mass. I put them thru the wash on hot hoping to shrink them, but i guess i was so active they got stretched out. I'm wearing them now with a belt on notch four of seven.

The less i care about losing weight, the easier it becomes. This is because ACCEPTANCE is the catalyst to change and i accept my zaftig self at last. Just wish i hadn't donated those dozen bags of smaller-sized wardrobes last year when i gave up on losing weight.

The moment you give up, is the moment it happens!!!

Now i'll have to buy those clothes all over again. Well, I'll wear belts until it becomes too absurd and then spring for some new affordable things at Walmart.

Dresses will fit for several more size reductions as mine are all loose around the waist anyways. I've got four (4) identical black sleeveless dresses that i can decorate with separates to create many, many different looks.

An animation instructor at college said i 'looked like an artist.' I'd just met him on the bus!

Wondering if the benzo taper is helping things along too. I'm less sedated so i'm more active. I'm sure it's a contributing factor. Menopause on May 9th was the biggest factor tho. Everyone tells you about the BAD things about menopause, but no one ever tells you about the GOOD things.

I just feel better and better since i entered menopause!

Hugs,

Jane.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’m going to file a complaint over the paramedics who transported him. He was crying in pain and one paramedic kept telling him to man up and to shut up. I saw red! Somebody needs to lose their job over that. They are in the wrong profession.

They are definitely in the wrong profession. I think you're right to file a complaint.

Tell your brother he's got people all over the county and around the world wishing him well. It will help him recover.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m feeling ok today I guess. I got my shot last night right at 5:30 and then I took my 2 80 Geodons right after that and I fell asleep almost immediately. I had taken my melatonin around 4. I didn’t have any of my bad med OD thoughts the way I usually do on Saturday nights. So switching things around is helping. This set up is working well but I am waking up pretty early. These last couple days I woke up at 3:30. Which isn’t bad if I had to work. So maybe I’m doing things right for the long term future.

My mom and I are going to hang up my posters and pictures today. She’s also getting something from Walmart so I can hang up my hats. I have 5 baseball hats and one winter hat. I only really wear one though. It’s pretty grubby and probably doesn’t smell the best. But it’s my favorite and I wear it everywhere even in the house sometimes.

I try to keep things as neat and organized and off the floor as possible. I actually got the idea of hanging up my hats this morning from a back to college commercial. Now that I have my echo and TV set up my room is looking pretty nice. It will look even better with the pictures and posters up.

I went through my closet and dresser last week and I got rid of a lot of stuff. Now all my jeans and pants fit into my dresser and my shirts hang on the bottom rack and all my hoodies are hung up on the top rack.

My 3 (or is he 4?) year old cat acts like a puppy. He likes to chew on things. Especially plastic food bags like the bags that apples come in. I went into the kitchen today and found little teeth marks all over a bag of something I got yesterday. I wonder if he’d use a chew toy. If they even make them for cats.

I tend to become passive aggressive when I am creeped out by someone’s strange behavior. My unprofessional therapist would do sessions with her eyes closed and I asked her one time if she was falling asleep. I think it’s just a defense mechanism I have. I’ve been the same way since I was 12 with other people who have been strange towards me.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

Wondering if the benzo taper is helping things along too. I'm less sedated so i'm more active. I'm sure it's a contributing factor. Menopause on May 9th was the biggest factor tho. Everyone tells you about the BAD things about menopause, but no one ever tells you about the GOOD things.

I just feel better and better since i entered menopause!

Hugs,

Jane.

What do you mean "menopause on May 9th"? It doesn't just start like a period does. What are the good things about menopause - the weight loss? I have heard that people gain weight with that, not lose. Fill me in! I just have not hit peri yet which I am happy about.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

My jeans fell down yesterday, i've lost so much mass. I put them thru the wash on hot hoping to shrink them, but i guess i was so active they got stretched out. I'm wearing them now with a belt on notch four of seven.

The less i care about losing weight, the easier it becomes. This is because ACCEPTANCE is the catalyst to change and i accept my zaftig self at last. Just wish i hadn't donated those dozen bags of smaller-sized wardrobes last year when i gave up on losing weight.

The moment you give up, is the moment it happens!!!

Now i'll have to buy those clothes all over again. Well, I'll wear belts until it becomes too absurd and then spring for some new affordable things at Walmart.

Dresses will fit for several more size reductions as mine are all loose around the waist anyways. I've got four (4) identical black sleeveless dresses that i can decorate with separates to create many, many different looks.

An animation instructor at college said i 'looked like an artist.' I'd just met him on the bus!

Wondering if the benzo taper is helping things along too. I'm less sedated so i'm more active. I'm sure it's a contributing factor. Menopause on May 9th was the biggest factor tho. Everyone tells you about the BAD things about menopause, but no one ever tells you about the GOOD things.

I just feel better and better since i entered menopause!

Hugs,

Jane.

I’m constantly saying menopause was great for me. Aside from hot flashes I became much more stable. No more up and down moods with the monthlies. Much better quality sleep. The hot flashes eventually go away so then it’s all good.

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Update: he also broke his left hip and they will do surgery today. I’ve heard of folks not coming back from broken hips but they are usually much older and I think it’s the pneumonia that does them in. I am prepared for any eventuality.

Oh that’s just awful! The extent of his injuries is just terrible. Lots of rehab to do for sure. I hope he spends the time to really work at it.

For what it’s worth, my grandma had two hip replacements and lived to 97!

[Mountaindewed]

I got my pictures hung up this afternoon. And all 6 of my hats. We used some type of hook you stick to the wall to get the hats up. I think I’ll get 2 more winter hats when I can. I have 5 baseball hats and one winter hat and I have 2 more hooks. My room is very neat now. I think I’ll go get a small baking tray from the dollar store so I can use the Kinetic Sand I got before we moved. I have the beach Kinetic sand which I got 1.5 years ago but this is just the regular stuff. It’s easier to put the sand in a baking tray then it is to keep it in the box.

I couldn’t handle 2 bowls of oatmeal for dinner so I had some cheddar cheese ramen instead. I’ll take my melatonin at my usual time in 20 minutes and then wait until right before they kick in and then take my geodons.

My anxiety was a bit sucky today but I had a lot of sugar free sweet tea. I’m feeling better now.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

My brother fell again about 2:00 am last night and was taken to the hospital by ambulance. They don’t know much right now but that he fractured his femur and broke his ankle. Poor guy! He’ll have to go to rehab after the hospital because that’s beyond my capabilities.

I’m going to file a complaint over the paramedics who transported him. He was crying in pain and one paramedic kept telling him to man up and to shut up. I saw red! Somebody needs to lose their job over that. They are in the wrong profession. I hate that it happened but I’ll use the time he is in rehab wisely.

He’s in good hands now and has a family that loves and supports him. I hope things turn out okay. He just can’t win for losing.

I'm so sorry to hear of this. Your poor brother - and that EMT was an a-hole in the worst of ways.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

@SugarGirl - Hello! Welcome.

In my little corner of the world it was so hot yesterday and so many people drawing power for air conditioning a transformer blew and the resulting outage lasted through the night and past midday.

Monday I have ECT and a portion of my usual route to get there is going to be closed or controlled for road repairs. I'm looking at another way to get there but unsure despite using google maps. I just don't know the alternate roads very well.

I hope you can find a better route. Google maps can be helpful, then again, sometimes they're wacky.

This heat is brutal.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I got my pictures hung up this afternoon. And all 6 of my hats. We used some type of hook you stick to the wall to get the hats up. I think I’ll get 2 more winter hats when I can. I have 5 baseball hats and one winter hat and I have 2 more hooks. My room is very neat now. I think I’ll go get a small baking tray from the dollar store so I can use the Kinetic Sand I got before we moved. I have the beach Kinetic sand which I got 1.5 years ago but this is just the regular stuff. It’s easier to put the sand in a baking tray then it is to keep it in the box.

I couldn’t handle 2 bowls of oatmeal for dinner so I had some cheddar cheese ramen instead. I’ll take my melatonin at my usual time in 20 minutes and then wait until right before they kick in and then take my geodons.

My anxiety was a bit sucky today but I had a lot of sugar free sweet tea. I’m feeling better now.

Your room sounds really nice. What is kinetic sand?

[wildflowerchild25]

Straight nosedive. I woke up extremely tense and anxious because it was 9:20 and I could hear RS washing dishes. I have a thing about cleaning, stems from childhood, but every time RS is cleaning and I’m not I get very anxious and worried he’s going to be upset. Especially on weekend mornings because he just naturally wakes up way earlier than me. It’s a whole thing that’s not worth getting into on here but I jumped out of bed, took a shower, and tried to sit down to get my head on straight but I could only make it 5 minutes before the guilt and fear overwhelmed me so I jumped up to clean the guinea pig cages to prove I was doing something. He’s never gotten upset with me for not cleaning but I haven’t been able to shake the feelings yet.

After that I just felt like my mind was shooting all over the place. It was already 11:00am when we decided to get something to eat, which of course is brunch time and also church people time so it took us awhile to find somewhere that didn’t have a super long wait. He asked me where I wanted to go and I just said “I’m totally paralyzed please just pick something”. The restaurant we chose didn’t have a long wait but it was very busy and so loud! The noise was overwhelming.

My son went to his coding lesson and we went home and I planned the week’s meals and made a grocery list. We did go to the store but I freaked out in there too because there were so many people. We just didn’t time anything right! I gave up on a few items because I just had to leave ASAP.

I’m kinda like anxious but also “shut down” right now. I want to go to bed and listen to music but I know it will just make things worse. I’m scanning my skills box in my mind. I feel like I need to “wrap up”. I need a blanket and my unicorn but I’m embarrassed to bring it out. I feel like a child.