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Old Mar 24, 2022, 09:46 PM
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It is darkest before dawn. That's certainly true for me when i had that dreadful time with my dog recently. My mood continued to improve today, for the fourth day in a row, so i am getting a little more confident that my Winter depression is over. The weather today wasn't even that great -- overcast and damp all day. There were lots of little victories like doing TWO loads of laundry instead of just one, spending an hour outside with my dog as she chased the season's first squirrel and we met a new dog and chatted with his mom, eating fruit, veg and protein and some of it even on REAL DISHES WHICH I WASHED, DRIED AND PUT AWAY IMMEDIATELY!!! Proof attached! I have pretty salad plates, don't i?

I'm sure it doesn't seem like much to most of you but i was basically an invalid all Winter so each of these small improvements really mean a lot to me. Signs that the big sick is finally over! Let the party begin!!!

That plate is pretty. And I do have a solid grasp of what you mean by having been "an invalid" all winter. I'm so glad to hear that your mood is lifting and I hope the pattern continues with the coming of spring.
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Old Mar 24, 2022, 09:48 PM
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I saw my med provider today. She said the difference was like night and day between the last visit and today. She is proud of me for using good self care and on moving forward. It was a good meeting. I’m no longer misusing my meds.

I sat out in the sun on a beautiful, breezy day.

Tomorrow I’ve got this house in order.

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Old Mar 24, 2022, 09:56 PM
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I'm in a bad way. Terribly anxious and depressed. Nothing seems to offer any peace or relaxation. The time change has slammed me badly. These hours and hours of pale-blue and yellow afternoons are killing me. I feel death all around and it's terrifying.

I'm going to call my pdoc's nurse in the morning and ask her to ask my pdoc to please, please allow me to raise the Gabapentin and maybe Zoloft doses. I'm nearly positive she won't. I'm at a point at which I will just raise the dose myself if she refuses and deal with it when I have my appointment with her on April 5th. I can't be blown off by her.

Another thought I have is to email my therapist, who I'll see on Monday, and ask her to email the pdoc for me. I'm fighting myself too hard and I'm feeling desperate.

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Old Mar 25, 2022, 07:28 AM
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Old Mar 25, 2022, 07:38 AM
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Old Mar 25, 2022, 07:43 AM
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Old Mar 25, 2022, 09:17 AM
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@Pinny, I'm glad your dad is OK.

Congratulations, @Sapien, on reaching that great milestone!

@BethRags, I'm sorry to read that your anxiety persists and persists. It's been too long. I hope that your therapist will advocate harder for you.

@whatever2013, your dishes are so pretty! I wish I had such nice ones. I generally stick to solid colors with no major designs, but they do get boring. I'm glad you had some extra victories and are acknowledging them.

@Jennifer 1967, it's a relief to read that you are feeling better after such a very very rough patch.

@Moose72, wouldn't be nice to go back to the days when we could do almost anything and not get sore. Speaking for myself, I'm feeling my age, nowadays.

@otroo, sending you hugs. Hang in there, good man. The extreme depression will ease with time. Do be kind to yourself.
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Old Mar 25, 2022, 09:32 AM
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Today was another pleasant temperature day, but not as warm as yesterday. Yesterday was too warm for late March. I did some gardening work de-winterizing some potted plants/flowers and trimming off dead stuff. Despite was seems like drought conditions where I am, everything is still alive. I did manually water some things to ensure they keep growing well. This year we won't plant as many flowers. Many things are perennials so it won't be necessary. I'll just plant some basil, parsley, and maybe mint and put some pansies or petunias in a few pots. Hubby was sleeping on the Hollywood swing the whole time I did gardening work.

We're counting down until our trip to the US. Just three weeks. Then only less than a week after our return we'll likely head to France. That date isn't written in stone. Apparently in July/August a close friend of my husband will be spending time in Europe. His long-time girlfriend with whom he lived in New York City left him many months back. He packed up a few bags and had since been living on the island of St. Croix. As he works from home, he plans to simply do the same in various European cities, including perhaps ours in Czech Republic. It would be nice to have him around for a month or so. We offered that he stay with us, but since he will work he says it's best to rent his own digs.
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Old Mar 25, 2022, 10:05 AM
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Old Mar 25, 2022, 10:19 AM
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I'm in a bad way. Terribly anxious and depressed. Nothing seems to offer any peace or relaxation. The time change has slammed me badly. These hours and hours of pale-blue and yellow afternoons are killing me. I feel death all around and it's terrifying.

I'm going to call my pdoc's nurse in the morning and ask her to ask my pdoc to please, please allow me to raise the Gabapentin and maybe Zoloft doses. I'm nearly positive she won't. I'm at a point at which I will just raise the dose myself if she refuses and deal with it when I have my appointment with her on April 5th. I can't be blown off by her.

Another thought I have is to email my therapist, who I'll see on Monday, and ask her to email the pdoc for me. I'm fighting myself too hard and I'm feeling desperate.

Thanks for listening. Hugs.

Hey Bethrags do you have blackout curtains? I’m more likely to get hypo on these sunny days but I realize for some it’s the opposite. Aside from med changes can you do some other techniques?

First do you have a self care box? So for me when I’m up and buying everything I put a portion of the new fun things into a box to save for when I’m down. When I am down I open the box and force myself to play with whatever is inside….it could be a nice scented soap, bath salts, a book, in my case it’s a dinosaur art book, a permission slip to buy ten new songs…whatever. If you don’t have a self care box make one next time you’re up.

The other technique is called pick three. Instead of one thing you find fun you need to pick three and do them all at once. It’s probably hard to think of something fun right now so you need to think back to things you used to find fun. For me it might be photography, music and a trip to a zoo or garden.

Finally try sunglasses at night. 4-6 hours before bed put on a pair of sunglasses so you get normal light for a while….make sure they block blue light.

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Old Mar 25, 2022, 10:41 AM
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keep me in your thoughts please. Really rough time on my end. nothing is going well. I'm so tired.
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Old Mar 25, 2022, 10:47 AM
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keep me in your thoughts please. Really rough time on my end. nothing is going well. I'm so tired.

Hugs, @WindsThatBlow. I hope you get some rest to re-energize and relief from the difficulties.
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keep me in your thoughts please. Really rough time on my end. nothing is going well. I'm so tired.
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Old Mar 25, 2022, 03:34 PM
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I'm in a bad way. Terribly anxious and depressed. Nothing seems to offer any peace or relaxation. The time change has slammed me badly. These hours and hours of pale-blue and yellow afternoons are killing me. I feel death all around and it's terrifying.

I'm going to call my pdoc's nurse in the morning and ask her to ask my pdoc to please, please allow me to raise the Gabapentin and maybe Zoloft doses. I'm nearly positive she won't. I'm at a point at which I will just raise the dose myself if she refuses and deal with it when I have my appointment with her on April 5th. I can't be blown off by her.

Another thought I have is to email my therapist, who I'll see on Monday, and ask her to email the pdoc for me. I'm fighting myself too hard and I'm feeling desperate.

Thanks for listening. Hugs.
I’m so sorry you are struggling in that way. I’m sending good thoughts that you feel better soon and gentle hugs
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Old Mar 25, 2022, 03:44 PM
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My provider was reluctant to lower me below 300 mg of Lithium because of my long history of suicidal thinking. I tend to agree with her. We’ve lowered from 600 to 300 so hopefully that will help the kidneys and platelets out.

I’m working on getting caught up on my to do list. It seems miles long. I’ve been working hard.

I told my daughter the next move was hers. She has texted I love you a few times but that’s it. No suggestions to get together to visit or anything else to work things out. That hurts. I’m trying to find some peace over it.

I hope everyone has a peaceful weekend.

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Old Mar 25, 2022, 04:52 PM
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Old Mar 25, 2022, 04:57 PM
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Old Mar 25, 2022, 04:57 PM
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Today was another pleasant temperature day, but not as warm as yesterday. Yesterday was too warm for late March. I did some gardening work de-winterizing some potted plants/flowers and trimming off dead stuff. Despite was seems like drought conditions where I am, everything is still alive. I did manually water some things to ensure they keep growing well. This year we won't plant as many flowers. Many things are perennials so it won't be necessary. I'll just plant some basil, parsley, and maybe mint and put some pansies or petunias in a few pots. Hubby was sleeping on the Hollywood swing the whole time I did gardening work.

We're counting down until our trip to the US. Just three weeks. Then only less than a week after our return we'll likely head to France. That date isn't written in stone. Apparently in July/August a close friend of my husband will be spending time in Europe. His long-time girlfriend with whom he lived in New York City left him many months back. He packed up a few bags and had since been living on the island of St. Croix. As he works from home, he plans to simply do the same in various European cities, including perhaps ours in Czech Republic. It would be nice to have him around for a month or so. We offered that he stay with us, but since he will work he says it's best to rent his own digs.

Gardening sounds lovely.

Your husband's friend - that's pretty much what my son and his wife do. They're based in San Francisco, but they travel all over the world and stay where they want to for periods of time. It's a wonderful way to live if one works from home. My only sadness about my son is that I don't envision a grandchild in my future I hope I'm wrong.
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Old Mar 25, 2022, 05:11 PM
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Hey Bethrags do you have blackout curtains? I’m more likely to get hypo on these sunny days but I realize for some it’s the opposite. Aside from med changes can you do some other techniques?

First do you have a self care box? So for me when I’m up and buying everything I put a portion of the new fun things into a box to save for when I’m down. When I am down I open the box and force myself to play with whatever is inside….it could be a nice scented soap, bath salts, a book, in my case it’s a dinosaur art book, a permission slip to buy ten new songs…whatever. If you don’t have a self care box make one next time you’re up.

The other technique is called pick three. Instead of one thing you find fun you need to pick three and do them all at once. It’s probably hard to think of something fun right now so you need to think back to things you used to find fun. For me it might be photography, music and a trip to a zoo or garden.

Finally try sunglasses at night. 4-6 hours before bed put on a pair of sunglasses so you get normal light for a while….make sure they block blue light.

Thank you for your thoughtful post, Sp. I truly appreciate it.

I do have black-out curtains. Do you mean closing them during the long afternoon? That's actually a smart idea. The only problem with it is that the cats love to look out the windows during daylight.

Your self-care box sounds wonderful

The pick 3 idea is also a good one. I need to get used to (post-covid restrictions) being able to go places again. I do make myself listen to music every day. Tomorrow I'm going to make a door hanging for my front door. I'm looking forward to that.

The sunglasses idea is excellent! I wear regular glasses & don't own any sunglasses, but I think I can get "shades" that clip onto my glasses. The sunglasses seem like a solid "trick" to fool my brain.
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Old Mar 25, 2022, 06:42 PM
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Thank you for your thoughtful post, Sp. I truly appreciate it.

I do have black-out curtains. Do you mean closing them during the long afternoon? That's actually a smart idea. The only problem with it is that the cats love to look out the windows during daylight.

Your self-care box sounds wonderful

The pick 3 idea is also a good one. I need to get used to (post-covid restrictions) being able to go places again. I do make myself listen to music every day. Tomorrow I'm going to make a door hanging for my front door. I'm looking forward to that.

The sunglasses idea is excellent! I wear regular glasses & don't own any sunglasses, but I think I can get "shades" that clip onto my glasses. The sunglasses seem like a solid "trick" to fool my brain.

Thanks bethrags! I’ve got sunglasses that are large enough to fit over my glasses I just got them on Amazon for cheap. Most of the time I don’t need to do all these but at points I have. Use what works for you Bipolar check-in #63

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