Bipolar check-in #64

Awesome plan ! Sounds like a nice mix to get active and tone up

Gravy !! I’m with you I love the potatoes and carrots best !

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Beth??!! How was new provider ??

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My sister and I don't really have that type of relationship where I would feel comfortable asking her. But my mom did bring up a good point that when the baby is born the 6 and 8 year old will be at school all day so my sister and brother in law can adjust with the baby and then spend time with the kids when they get home from school. My sister has never been the most patient person but they will make it work.

Ooo just ran to the library cause my book was in. They were giving away paint by step by step kits for those 18 and older! How fun! It Wilber from charlotte’s web. It’s a spring time activity. So fun!

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Originally Posted by Nammu Ooo just ran to the library cause my book was in. They were giving away paint by step by step kits for those 18 and older! How fun! It Wilber from charlotte’s web. It’s a spring time activity. So fun!

That IS such fun! Enjoy it! I still have my copy of Charlotte's Web...my book is now 51 years old.

Great news! I went to the new mental health clinic and it's pleasant, the receptionists are friendly, the clinic does excellent health checks - weight, blood pressure, pulse, urinalysis, and full blood labs, including vitamin checks. I met my new provider. He's a P.A. and could not have been kinder! A complete opposite of that whacko pdoc. He easily agreed to increase the Gabapentin to 1,800mg./day (split into 3 doses). I told him I'd like to stop the Lamictal, just to find out where I am without it. He listened well and took it into consideration for the near future. AND the clinic is only 2 miles from my apartment, in a nice area. No telehealth, no creepy clinic in an ugly cement place that's mostly abandoned storefronts.

My therapist is still at the old clinic, though. I'm supposed to be seeing her twice a month, but she's out so often that it's been more like once a month. The new clinic has therapy available, but I'm not interested in changing at this point. As for medical care, the old clinic is okay...I would like a GP that I feel good about, unlike my current GP. So I'll be looking into a new health care place before long.

I want to sincerely thank those of you who have been so supportive and encouraging while I've gone through this. You truly gave me courage today. And optimism. And hope.

Ooo Beth I’m so glad to hear that! Yay! For a better pdoc! Congratulations on sticking with it and finding a better fit.

This is so WONDERFUL to hear! Congratulations!

Thank you! I forgot to mention that the new provider is also a musician with some notoriety around here. He's absolutely so handsome....tall with thick, black wavy hair. But he's only about 40, lol. He seems like a sensitive person.

Today was up and down, so not too bad. I was happy when i tried washing my hair at the kitchen sink and it worked out fine so i'm not chained to the shower anymore. I also had a nice time outside playing with a Beagle puppy -- so cute! My second attempt at my annual blood test did not go well tho. There was over a two hour wait again so i didn't stay. But then i happened upon a restaurant with a favorite meal so i went in on a whim and had it. So nice to have the freedom to do such things. I got some meds tho there was a bit of a fuss which tried my patience but i just told myself to stay calm and it was for the best as they finally found it and i was on my way still on good terms with the staff. I tested my blood pressure for the first time in six months and it was not bad which is a relief as i've been worried about all the inertia sending it skyrocketing. I saw a neighbor at the mall and true to my new policy i did not stop and chat. I skipped my ZOOM social hour too. Since i got home i've been flattened by boredom tho but trying to be grateful for the good moments today.

I still feel mildly depressed, but life goes on, i just have to live with it. It's not a barrel of laughs but i have many blessings.

@whatever2013 I'm going to try to get out into the nice weather tomorrow again speaking of blood pressure and inertia. I haven't had a problem with my blood pressure for quite a while and I want to keep it that way.

hugs to those that need them.
(((((((((HUGS))))))))
bizi

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Originally Posted by bizi hugs to those that need them. (((((((((HUGS)))))))) bizi

I seriously just came on here to post to you and ask how you're doing. So...how are you, bizi?

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Originally Posted by whatever2013 Today was up and down, so not too bad. I was happy when i tried washing my hair at the kitchen sink and it worked out fine so i'm not chained to the shower anymore. I also had a nice time outside playing with a Beagle puppy -- so cute! My second attempt at my annual blood test did not go well tho. There was over a two hour wait again so i didn't stay. But then i happened upon a restaurant with a favorite meal so i went in on a whim and had it. So nice to have the freedom to do such things. I got some meds tho there was a bit of a fuss which tried my patience but i just told myself to stay calm and it was for the best as they finally found it and i was on my way still on good terms with the staff. I tested my blood pressure for the first time in six months and it was not bad which is a relief as i've been worried about all the inertia sending it skyrocketing. I saw a neighbor at the mall and true to my new policy i did not stop and chat. I skipped my ZOOM social hour too. Since i got home i've been flattened by boredom tho but trying to be grateful for the good moments today. I still feel mildly depressed, but life goes on, i just have to live with it. It's not a barrel of laughs but i have many blessings.

I wash my hair at the kitchen sink a lot. I still take showers regularly, but not having to wash my hair in the shower makes the shower much easier.

What a great first impression! I'm so glad, BethRags. You, and all of us, deserve the best.

then I ate a couple king size candy bars and a little bag of popcorn and had some pizza. I fell asleep at 6 and woke up right before 9 with the worst stomach ache/ anxiety combo. So I my stomach was hurting so badly and I realized that was my main problem. Not my anxiety. So I took some pepto bismol and I felt much better almost instantly and was able to go back to sleep and now my anxiety is very low. So I'm not sure if the issue was the anxiety or my stomach ache and what made it better. But at least I'm feeling ok at the moment. Last night I was really thinking I'd have to move my pdoc appointment up. But I think I need to work on my diet with my therapist. Yesterday was nothing but sugar and caffeine.

Edit: I actually still feel really good. My anxiety is super low. So I don't know if it was the extra meds or the pepto bismol. But I do feel a lot better. And I am balancing my caffeine today so I am having enough so I'm not having withdrawls but not having too much and going overboard so my anxiety gets out of control.

Feel motivated today to get moving and eat better, and also spend some time learning. It's gonna be a great day!

I slept great last night, 7 1/2 hours nary a wake up or a toss! Had a cool dream myself and a guy my age {25?} then three younger girls {8, 15, 17?} we’re looking for the psychology department of a university but it was in a foreign country and we had to go though all these old town squares and climb up many stairs and slide down and get around obstacles. But it was fun and the end goal not rushed. I had an appointment but like I say there was no rush but it was a great adventure. We were getting close when I woke up but still hadn’t gotten there.
Anyway it was a great night.

I keep obsessing about whether or not my nose is clear. It is right now but that could change if I cough or sneeze. I really want my nose to be clear for my dentist appointment on Thursday- dunno why: I'll probably be breathing out of my mouth anyway but still I want my nose clear like it is right now. I need to have the apartment finished before I go to the dentist just in case I need fillings again. It might take a while and I might feel out of it after- or at least not like doing any cleaning. Tomorrow I go to the hospital for a check up about my asthma. Pointless- my asthma is fine- but I have to be there early. Then Friday is the inspection.

I like that you can remember your dreams enough to write them down. Lately, I just get little snapshots of my dreams when I wake up but which I know were full and detailed while I was dreaming them.

I wasn't feeling good this afternoon. Kinda all of a sudden. I took some pepto bismol which helped a bit. I tried setting up my doctors appointment earlier but he didn't have anything. I took my meds early and then took an hour long nap and I woke up feeling mediocre. I ate a couple eggs for dinner. I took my melatonin and I'm trying to relax and trying to decide if I want or should move my therapy appointment to virtual. I tried reschedling it for Thursday but the office said she didn't have anything.

Wow ! That’s so awesome. Enjoy

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Congratulations! I am over the moon happy that you finally found a good provider. You did this ! Standing up to that idiot was the best decision ever !!

You did great !!!

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Glad you had a successful trip picking up your meds. That’s really a huge thing for all of us !

Altho it’s not a fantastic day you’re not having at least it’s not a pure lousy day ! I have to think this way sometimes.

I wash my hair in my kitchen sink 95% of the time. That what we did when I was a kid so I still do it.

Many hugs Jane

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Thanks Bizi

How are you ? I know you said you had gotten sick. Better now!

Much love

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