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I think things are going well. There have been a few things I’ve been avoiding so I need to try and get them done.
I think I’m coming out of my depressive episode and I’m feeling a lot better. I’m still very anxious and worried but I think that’s normal for me. I have an appt with my pdoc next month. I’m soo glad I didn’t have to go into hospital! I hope you’re all doing as well as possible!! ![]() ![]() |
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#703
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I hope anyone in the line of the storms we got tonight in Kentucky are ok!
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I'm looking forward to watching the video. Won't do it tonight, but will tomorrow.
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#707
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I'm with you on the flying. I think it's a wiser and better way to travel in this case. Ha, the autobahn. I hated that thing.
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#709
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Ahhhh...hot tub, small swimming pool, aqua fitness...it all sounds divine ![]() Sorry you were an hour early, though! That would be something I'd do ![]()
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I hope the dentist goes smoothly. The asthma appt. doesn't sound exactly fun, but I'm glad it went well!
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#711
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Great! Let us know how it's working for you.
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So tonight I am going to do my best to get into bed by 11:30. I'm going to test Sid's glucose then brush my teeth and if all goes as planned, get into bed. And I'm taking something to help sleep tonight. Not doing that "I can sleep on my own" again & stay awake all night. My legs ache so I guess I'll take Tylenol PM.
I've been redecorating my bedroom. I love nice sheets, pretty blankets, and a long dust ruffle for my bed is arriving tomorrow. Somehow the colors are coming out to be pastels, some wildflower colors (not too bright, somewhat subdued), and neutral-warm beige. Mint green frame on a nice little mirror and pastel teal fuzzy cat beds. Nammu, have you received your bamboo blanket?
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Yup, got my bamboo blanket almost immediately. There must be a supply center near me. It’s beautiful, a lavender. Silver bamboo sheets, lavender blanket and a thick white with dark blue bohemian comforter that my daughter gave me. I love it. 🥰
Oooo dreams last night. Very vivid. Had a psychiatrist teacher who collected us in a van. We studied popes. By going back in time. There was a baby female pope that the others worshiped. Was very creepy and scary. The way the old men pandered to a baby. There was creepy horror music too. Once when I was collected in the van I wasn’t ready I had no teeth. I was hiding in the back and hoping to slip home to get my teeth and at the same time trying to put notes and hand out in order. Oddly they were on cearal bags. As I was trying not to be noticed and doing this we were traveling among the popes in a large bathroom were they were going number 2. Boy talk about a mixed bag dream! During one of my manias I studied popes and the de Medici and of course I went to college but to have it all mixed up! And no teeth!!
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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I'm getting a little stressed. Too much to write about right now. We leave for the first stage of our trip early tomorrow.
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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I hope you get some good sleep soupe. Sleep can help the trip.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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I'm doing better mental health wise today. If its even anything mental health related. I slept over 10 hours on my normal amount of melatonin. I woke up once at 1AM feeling uneasy but when I got up at 4:40 I felt fine. I've been getting nauseated througout the morning but saltine crackers have been helping a lot. I took a tylenol for some pain that seemed more internal then just a stomach ache type pain. That got rid of some anxiety I had. Then I took a pepcid for some heartburn I had from the coffee I drank. At this exact moment I feel fine. The only thing I ate today was 20 saltine crackers. I had a soda and an iced latte too. I'm trying to figure out if I can handle eating eggs for lunch or if that will set my stomach over the edge. I still have my therapy appointment tonight at 6 and I'm glad I slept good last night but I'm normally asleep right at 6. It was all she had though and I didn't want to get charged for cancelling. Plus 6PM therapy sounds kinda interesting. As long as I able to function and I don't fall asleep in the middle of it. At least its Zoom and I don't have to go into the office. But I don't want her making a fuss at what I have and haven't eaten today. Thats the one good thing about doing therapy at 9AM. She can't grill me on what I've eaten. Even though she still does grill me on what I've eaten for breakfast. But overall I feel ok today mental health wise but still not 100% physically.
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Hello! My sister threw another fit last night. My daughter is not coming into town for Easter (I’m meeting her tomorrow) so why should I even subject myself to that nastiness? I’m seriously questioning whether I even need to be there. My sister’s behavior is just toxic and abusive. My therapist advised me to skip Easter.
I had therapy today. My therapist advised me to rip the bandaid off and cut ties with my best friend (ex boyfriend). She means block him and the whole nine yards. She thinks he is manipulating and controlling me and that I’m very sweet but naive. The thought of cutting ties depresses me. She wants me to start talking to other men…platonic and romantic. I just feel queasy right now. My mood has been okay although I’m not sleeping well. Hugs to all! ![]() |
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Back from dentist. Got X-rays and a cleaning. No flouride treatments or fillings! I went to the grocery store and remembered to get dish soap! I got a whole cooked chicken- it will be my lunch and dinner today. I also got some bagels and cream cheese and some squash and onion to saute. I think I'll saute them tomorrow after my inspection.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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I cant really see therapy turning out well tonight. I don't think she'll send me IP or anything but I've restricted food all day because the second anything I eat hits my lower intestines I am in a massive amount of stomach pain and nausea and I get this stupid high anxiety along with it. But if I just don't eat then I'm fine. Then I'm on such a strict routine with all my meds she's gonna tell I've come to the session completely baked. Yeah I'm just not an evening person. Hopefully she just wont say anything and I'll somewhat be able to function.
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"Good morning starshine.... the earth says hello"- Willy Wonka |
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Oooh good grief vicious storms last night. Straight line winds probably 70 mph !
Woke this morning to find Steves hunting hut flipped over 3 times ! It’s very heavy. Thankfully no damage to our home or vehicles. We are surprised our windows didn’t blow out. Our power was out for hours ! Spring storms in middle Tennessee! Hope everyone is having a pleasant day ![]() Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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I feel a flicker of hope as i made up a new way to get some exercise: hallway walking. I did ten minutes. I also stretched thoroughly and did one push-up against the counter. I felt poisoned by all the junk i ate today. It gets me off my @$$ and gives me a break from this tiny apartment. We have a fairly long hallway plus i've always loved the carpeting out there. We'll see. (Our gym is closed to COVID and as there are ventilation concerns i don't see it opening up in the foreseeable future as fixing it will be a huge project as it is in the basement surrounded by the parking garage.)
I'm overdue for a shower but didn't have the energy to do a load of laundry before so i'd have clean clothes to put on after so i just washed my hair at the sink and at least it's better. I've been watching my soap with faint enjoyment, focusing more on the faces and story rather than the clothes, bodies and decor. It's working out well. It's true that it's just about problems and i have my own share of those but at least it's other people's problems which is a minor escape. And more interesting problems! Someone has come back from the dead! @~Christina: Wow, that must have been some wild wind! Glad you're okay. |
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So sorry I haven’t checked in. As you can imagine, I was IP. Got out yesterday. If the first trip was an exercise in excellent care, the second was the EXACT OPPOSITE. I got threatened by a paranoid schizophrenic woman my first night there so I was sleeping facing the door with it closed so I could hear if she came in. And then somehow she became my bestie while I was in that facility.
The people there were very sick, mainly psychotic, and no one really seemed to care. Sedation station, I’d say. The dr put me on 350mg regular seroquel simply because “150mg is such a small dose” in his words. Not that I needed it, just because he felt like it. When he met with me he said I should do ECT and he would transfer me to another facility, one I’ve been in before and know is very professional and offers good quality of care, so of course I said yes. No intention of doing ECT but I figured if it got me out I’d go. They helped me out. At first I was afraid I wasn’t going home at all but rather to a 30 day residential treatment facility, which I didn’t even know they had for non addict adults. But I responded well to the vraylar and the whole other mess of meds I’m on now. I’m back in my program and trying my best to remain in a good space. I started journaling in the hospital and will continue once I find the damn journal I bought years ago. It’s very pretty.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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Ooh, your bed colors sound lovely. That's a heckuva dream! Did you go to Catholic school? I had a wild dream last night, too. Packing to travel somewhere very special (don't know where). It was intense and there was a tortoise in the dream.
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