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How did you ruin someone’s life ? Did you cause physical harm that is life long and won’t allow to live a normal life ? Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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#452
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So hope you get the results tomorrow ( Wednesday ) Prayers and Love Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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Well by mid morning tomorrow this damn tooth should be fixed !! I called today to confirm and they said I can have as much nitrous oxide as I want ! Hopefully that will help a bit. Not sure it helped me last time I had it.
After that’s done we are going to this discount store a few miles away. I got my dogs “ bully sticks” it’s a dog treat chew that they love so much I want to get them some more. They smell absolutely hideous. I am calling tomorrow to get a hair appointment. My hair is to my waist now. I want layers layers and layers so my curls and waves won’t be so weighted down. It will feel good to lose 4-5 inches. Steve has really not been feeling well. Tonight in the grocery store he got really dizzy and he said he felt like he was going to pass out. He was coughing a lot the other day so I’m questioning if he’s getting a lung infection/pneumonia. He said he doesn’t think so. He has been totally exhausted since he got home. I think he’s just mentally exhausted from losing his sister and being away from home for over 6 weeks. I’ve got my fingers crossed he’s not getting sick. Hope everyone is doing well Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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#454
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Well...if you ever want to go over it you know we're here ![]()
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#455
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~Thank youuuuuu ![]() ![]() I hope the dentist goes totally smoothly! Poor Steve. I agree - he has to be thoroughly wiped out. Hopefully he'll recover well. A new hair style! Wheeeee!!! Your idea sounds beautiful, I hope you get to go soon!
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#456
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I'm feeling good about my husband's and my progress for our trip preparations. I typed up a detailed itinerary that is mostly complete. We already bought a few tickets to events in the city and have other ideas for things we'll do (museums, etc). Boy, are we going to be forking out a lot of money! I'm going to try not to think about that too much. At this point, all I can now do is wait until closer to the date when I'll do a lot of laundry, packing, and last minute housework. I've even created my personal packing list. I'll let Hubby create his own -- though he just wings it.
When we first arrived in Europe, we bought a used Honda because our newer car was still being shipped. Since we received our car from the US, the Honda has just collected dust. We now plan to sell it. One car seems sufficient in our new life. Plus, there is convenient public bus transportation almost right in front of our house. Hubby is even thinking about getting an e-bike, which is the latest thing here. What we recoup from the Honda would pay towards our trips.
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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#457
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I had a tough therapy session yesterday about sister. I was very depressed and teary afterwards but I had a good friend contact me and I was in gales of laughter shortly after. I sat down with mom and brother to see how we could have a better functioning household. It was a very pleasant meeting without the drama of my sister. I mentioned to them that I was thinking of moving out to have her out of my life (she is toxic to me) and they both begged me not to. I’m still moving in that direction.
I am overwhelmed with everything right now and will be through Easter. I’ll take it one small thing at a time. I hate getting jammed up. I am making my daughter an Easter basket and I’m excited about that. I think I’ll make myself one as well. Easter will be an interesting day with the family getting together. I can be civil but I’ll not engage with her. I hope everyone has a peaceful day. Hugs to all! ![]() |
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#458
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Ohh when the alarm work me it was bad. There were two cult ranches one wore yellow cowboy shirts with white shell snaps. They were mostly silent. There was much to admire but the creep factor was very high. They killed dogs. And the dogs went willingly and silently to their deaths. Ohhh I’m very tired and so tempted to skip swimming and go back to bed to dream some other ending. I feel like I just got to sleep when the alarm went off.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#459
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I had to withdraw from rTMS treatment because I can't manage the daily appointments for 6 weeks while working.
Too bad that it's daily appointments for 6 weeks. If it was 2-3 times a week I might have been able to do it.
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* Dx: Bipolar II (finally, after years at Bipolar NOS) * Rx: minimal dose of Lamictal My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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#460
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I've been feeling short of breath today and had pain on my left side when I breathe. I used my Albuterol rescue inhaler. Now my lungs feel clear but I still have the cough with this cold. It doesn't feel like when I've had PEs in the past. Maybe it's just muscles that are sore.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#461
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Nothing to report-- typical day. At least I'm feeling OK.
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#462
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My therapist was 15 minutes late today. After 5 minutes I was annoyed. After 10 minutes I was fuming. Finally she logged on and I immediatly layed into her and said "I was just about to say screw it and go back to bed because its starting to feel personal now." She apolgoized and said its not personal and said she knows shes late all the time. She says she trys to make up the time. I told her last time we still ended on time. She seemed legit confused and said she'll be sure to set alarms from now on. She offered me a different afternoon spot but I said I'd stick with this one. Things were quite for a few minutes. Mostly her talking. Then she said "I know your mad at me." Then I said I wasn't mad I was just super exhausted and anxious and nothing seemed to be helping.
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After the session was over I decided to get chinese food for me and my mom since I have heard greasy foods help with hangovers. But I only ate 3 wontons before getting full and my lunch special is untouched in the microwave. This lack of appetite is going to become an issue soon. But the 3 wontons made me feel a bit better at least. I mean I don't feel as horrible as I did when I woke up this morning.
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All done with my second fitness class. It’s a real workout. Between this class and the aqua fitness my back should get stronger. This second class is a evidence based workout for seniors. I really didn’t want to go because Monday was so painful. But today was better. I’ll still feel it but not as bad.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#464
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Quite and withdrawn today.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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#465
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*high five!* That is so good, Nammu! I received the YMCA info in my email and saw an aqua fitness class. I was so excited, so I checked it out. Turns out it's at a town 30 miles away. With a a shaky old car and gas prices approaching $6...no go. It's ridiculous that this town doesn't have a swimming pool. It used to.
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#466
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Oh, Ocean is wonderful stuff. It's a saline nasal spray, but it's extra good. I'm annoyed because Amazon doesn't sell it, and the knock-offs are not nearly as helpful. I believe that all drug stores sell it. The last time I bought Ocean it wasn't expensive at all. I need some right now, I have such allergies.
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It's now almost 9 pm when I write this and I'm beat! My s-i-l's beau was in the city I live in and asked to stop by. I thought he'd come more around 4 pm, so I put out snack stuff. In the end, he showed up closer to 5 pm and stayed and stayed, talking on and on, which he's notorious for. I generally like him, but I was getting hungry when the clock showed 6:15 pm and I knew he had a long drive home ahead of him. So, I had to figure out something for dinner...and fast. I ended up defrosting and reheating homemade meatballs in pasta sauce and boiled up some spaghetti while I prepared a vegetable salad with mozzarella. By the time all was done I was sweating. He's finally on his way home and I soon after took a shower because I felt "not so fresh". I'm almost ready to go to bed, already in my jammies.
I think I'd like my s-i-l's beau even more if he didn't two-time on my s-i-l. She knew it from the start, but originally thought it would remain a "friendship", but inevitably fell a bit in love. I think he sort of is, but still won't sufficiently break it off with the other woman. In the end, it's up to her what she's willing to accept/tolerate. I'd find it hard, though.
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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#468
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That sounds excellent, Soupe. Oooh, an e-bike. If I was 10 years younger I'd love to own one.
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I got my biopsy results back. Benign! The radiologist wasn't sure they got 100% of it so I'll have a 2nd incision at my surgery to get it all out since like the other it can become cancerous but for now all is well and surgery is just 3 weeks away. I'll be so glad when this is over.
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Ohhhh, I am so sleepy. I was foolish and stayed awake past midnight watching a video about whether Catherine of Aragon was really a virgin when she married Henry VIII. It all led to such fascinating changes in British/world history - and all based on Catherine's "purity" (or not) state.
![]() I'm still burning about that pdoc. David was appalled by the stuff she said. She was literally screaming at me (I did not raise my voice during the argument; she was yelling) about how she went to school to get a medical degree and how dare I try to tell her how to prescribe medication. It's okay, though....it'll all go into my letter of complaint that I will submit to her supervisor. I have the appt. with the new med provider on Monday and I'm actually excited to meet him. I am headed to the grocery store. The idea of putting my shoes on my feet is daunting. Stupid me. I absolutely have to get to bed earlier tonight. ![]()
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#471
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BIPOLAR-RELATED: I'm not sure if this is relevant to any other members here, but I stopped riding a bike several years ago when my bipolar medications affected my balance. At some points this was quite bad. One medication cocktail even caused significant leg muscle weakness (and weight gain). To the degree that I would fall over, if not holding on, if I tried to kneel down. I also couldn't stand on my toes for more than a second or two. Beth, you know as a fellow former dancer that such a disability would seem pretty sad. Luckily those issues eased over time, primarily because of medication changes and to a lesser degree because of some weight loss. The changes first got rid of the muscle weakness. A major reduction in another med eased imbalance/clumsiness. I'm so glad because, since then, I haven't accidentally injured myself. I used to be so prone to falls and stumbles, cuts and other injuries, on the old dose. So...maybe I can ride a bike again? I used to be a passionate bike rider as a kid.
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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#472
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![]() Rainbow ROCKS! ![]()
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#473
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Oooh, now I'm intrigued about the e-bike. I was an avid bicyclist until I was 55, 4 years ago. Over the years I did have 2 accidents - one, I hit a pool of oil, bike flipped over, I ended up with a false front tooth. The other, I was lightly hit by a pick-up truck - fortunately not badly hurt. Still, I kept riding. Thennn...the medication imbalance problem. I started getting scared, sold my wonderful Raleigh bike, and stopped riding. I so miss it. Anyway! Soupe, I urge you to give it a try. You'd know pretty soon if biking is for you, or not. Hopefully, it is and you'll love it again!
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Those kind of accidents would seem to make most people scared! Really, it has been the scariness that's continued to keep me from trying. I do have an old dusty bike in our garage. I should at least give that bike a try (on more level ground) to at least see how it feels. It's amazingly sad how bipolar disorder can affect confidence, in so many ways! Fear of riding a bike again is just one teeny minor example of how it's affected mine. Perhaps I need some figurative training wheels.
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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Fantastic news !!!!!!! I’m overjoyed for you. I’d like to fast forward the days for you ![]() Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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