Bipolar check-in #65

I invited my sister to come over the weekend after Mustachio's surgery in the middle of June to celebrate her having had her surgery, so I'm going to buy us some pastries from a local Italian bakery and we're going to come back to my apartment to eat them and have some coffee. It will be a big relief once Mustachio's spay surgery is done. I'm also going to get catnip and treats for the cats so they can celebrate too.

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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom And he made it through graduation.

***Congratulations!*** That is huge!

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour Today I had coffee at my house with an American woman who lives within walking-distance of my house. A lady we met here gave me her number. I confess I was delinquent about calling the fellow American. She actually called me while I was in the US, so had to cut the call short because of the steep phone charges. This morning I finally called her since we're now home in CZ. She came over with her maybe 5-year old daughter. She was pleasant and communicative, but the daughter was a bit out of control, unfortunately. She mentioned there is another American (a young au pair) who sometimes lives in our village area. I suggested we all go for a walk sometime soon. She is an artist/stay at home mom and her husband is the director of an international school downtown in the city. Perhaps even my husband and hers might meet up to maybe make friends. She said she's 40, while I'm 50. Her husband looks in his late 50s, while mine is in his early 60s. I don't see these age differences as significant. Only our lack of children as a possible disconnect.

Overall, that sounds really nice.

I understand about the children (or child) thing. I have a friend who wants to visit me - the one I mentioned in my previous post to you. She's raising her grandchild, and while I am pretty sure the little girl is sweet and well-behaved, I can't be positive. And I can hardly believe I'm admitting this, me who always adored being around kids - but I'm concerned about my cats. What if my friend's granddaughter is the type of kid who opens and closes the front door a lot (a danger of letting a cat out), or picks up cats in a hurtful way...so on and so forth. I feel like a terrible, mean old lady, but the truth is that the situation could be very awkward. My friend was never one to set good boundaries for her children.

Anyway, the friendship(s) sound like they have a decent potential for you and your husband. Let's hope so. Time will tell.

I didn't take anything to sleep last night, tried to make it on my own. I actually fell asleep easily, but kept waking up. Felt like I never slept deeply. I got up at 5:30 to do Sidney's glucose test and insulin shot, but felt like hell. Headache and bleck stomach. So I ate some oatmeal, which helped, and took Tylenol PM. Nothing on a time schedule today, so if I sleep until noon it would be wonderful.

Well, that's my exciting update, haha. I hope everyone has a pleasant and peaceful Saturday

Feeling much better today. Had both the shingles and covid booster Thursday. Yesterday just felt so blah and all my joints were inflamed. But last night I slept well and even dreamed. A weird dream to be sure but sort of cool.

Was a big bunch of people with little squares of plastic canvas and you had to put together a game from it with yarn. Everyone was milling around yet it was a race.. there were some people who were just sabotaging others. Stealing their yarn and undoing the finished pieces. The place were you had to collect the basics was a maze you had to solve. So interesting!

Lots of warm sunshine today. Our first really spring like day. Up to 69 maybe! Mum said last night she’d like to go to the pharmacy to schedule her shot! Yeah.

Cheese cake for everyone! too.

I’m feeling more like myself. I do remember now why we stopped Wellbutrin - serious sleep disturbances and severe anxiety. We’ll have to work around that. I’m enjoying the roses. I’m about to cut more. They are medium sized roses, a lovely shade of pink. I don’t know the name. @*Beth* those rose bushes sound incredibly lovely.

M will be in Virginia for Mother’s Day. I’ll miss her. I missed her birthday Friday as well as she was traveling. I’m planning a quiet, relaxing day tomorrow.

I’m working on a difficult, unpleasant, large, cumbersome project. It’s causing me some stress and anxiety. It’s almost bigger than my capabilities. I’m chipping away at it.

I hope everybody has a peaceful weekend. Hugs to all.

Happy Derby day!

Why am I always so bummed out on Saturday? I want to go to the comic store today but my foot hurts and my wallet is lost. I slept till noon which most people would enjoy, but I feel way behind on all that nothing I had planned for today. Isn’t this supposed to be the fun, relaxing day of the week?

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed The bamboo blanket was great. I was able to sleep in my jeans the way I like to. Ever since I was 6 I've slept in my jeans and it drives my mom nuts because she doesn't get how its comfortable. But pajama pants and even gym shorts are too uncomfortable for me. But with the hot and cold flashes the jeans were too much. Last night though they were fine. I was able to sleep with the bamboo blanket and my 10 pound weighted blanket and my fleece burrito blanket and I did not get overheated all night. Today I am still short of breath and light headed and I now have a slight sore throat but my chest pains have gone away and thats what was scaring me. I hope this isnt the start of covid. Its popping up like wildfire and it seems like everyone is going to get it eventually.

I'm so glad you've found the bamboo blanket helpful. I used to sleep in my jeans, when I was skinny. It felt really good to me. Safe.

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Originally Posted by BoxOfRain Why am I always so bummed out on Saturday? I want to go to the comic store today but my foot hurts and my wallet is lost. I slept till noon which most people would enjoy, but I feel way behind on all that nothing I had planned for today. Isn’t this supposed to be the fun, relaxing day of the week?

Eh, week-ends have never been my favorite days. I think they're over-rated. Have you heard the song "Sunday Morning Coming Down" by Johnny Cash?

Weekends are hard for me too. Actually, every day is hard for me but i dont usually get a break on weekends. I slept in today as well. Like you said, fell way behind on plans. I actually had plans today though. Kinda good i slept in though because i am getting help for these plans and my partner stayed in bed too, so we are both behind.

Feeling bad. I have zero plans for mothers day tomorrow. It kinda snuck up on me. Why are there all these days to make us feel guilty?

It’s just a terrible day outside here in the northeast. Rain, wind, temp only 50 degrees. Ugh. We were going to go to the movies but we’re broke after paying the mortgage. Neither one of us get paid until Wednesday, him from his job and me from the state. So we can’t go to the movies or bowling or anything. Sooooo boring!

my son has been upstairs playing on discord and we’ve been binge watching “what we do in the shadows”. Even that’s gotten boring! I started watching Abbott elementary on Hulu. As a school staff and someone in close proximity to Philadelphia it’s very relatable and funny. But these days my attention span is short and I can only get through a couple of episodes of something before getting bored. Even reading is tough for me, I used to be able to finish three books in a day but not these days. I have to wonder if it’s just post Covid brain or if a med is exacerbating it.

Well the Derby party I went to was jumping. Lots of mint juleps and betting. My boyfriend bet once in my name and I didnt know about it. I won $50..he wouldnt take the money. *eye roll* Guys...

Three books in a day?? I usually finish a book in a week if I read every night before bed.

I had a pretty good trip. I would get depressed most evenings of my trip when I was done riding for the day cause I could not stop thinking about my wife. Originally I was going to put some of her ashes in bags and put them in important places to us. I did not do it this time like I had planned. Next time I will do it. I am really depressed being home right now. It has been raining here the last couple of days and I did enough riding in the rain the weeks I was gone and plenty of wind. When it clears up here I will be back to riding. I am working on getting my criminal background cleared out. I hired an attorney to get rid of my 1 felony and 3 misdemeanors from almost 26 years ago. My felony was attempt to Elude a police officer. I was doing 155mph and hour in a 65. My distributor snapped and I lost all power and had to stop. It is what it is. I have not been in trouble for years. This is a picture of the first house we lived in. It looks exactly the same except they added a parking spot in front of the house. It is the same color as it was almost 24 years ago lol. My wife and I had talked about going to those rocks for years but the last 2 times we were out there we forgot all about them lol. I made it out there on this trip. I rode in Temps from 36f all the way up to 85 so a little chilly to nice weather I rode in the pouring rain for a couple of days for hours on end. I rode for hours from Iowa to Nebraska it was like 45 mph steady with highs of like 75mph. I should of called it a day sometimes hours earlier but nope I just kept riding. I was averaging like 45mpg but in the wind it dropped down o 32mpg . I still had fun I wish I was still out there but I need a little break from my break. I'm going over to Washington near Olympia to a motorcycle race. It is on highway 101 and that starts in Olympia Washington and I have a dream of taking highway 101 from beginning to end. That was going to be the first long ride when we got out big boy bikes lol. She was going Harley Fat Bob and I Was going Indian Chief and that was what I got the 21st of April. I rode 3 weeks all over the place I rode all over a bunch of our bucket list rides we had planned to do together. I did them but I only did one in Arkansas and that was The Pig Trail. I should of went up further North but I know better to next time. I had a good ride even with all the weather. I did 5700 miles and some change. I am depressed to be home. I think I have a med manager appointment next week. Need him to start me on another anti depressant maybe bring me out of this hole. I also need some good weather to get out and ride.

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I am kind of mad at N 3. He called at almost 10 this morning and asked if I wanted to go out "for something savory". He said he had to watch something to do with his girlfriend's dad on the internet and it would take 2 hours. So I watched TV and didn't eat in anticipation of our meal. Two hours ago by and he says that they had to pick up her dad from "jail" for domestic violence and that he wasn't allowed to go home so they helped him get a motel room. (I hope only by driving him there!). Oh and gf's older brother came along and was the one driving. So THEN I call him at 6 and - mind you I'm still waiting to eat minus a bagel with cream cheese and some coffee- he says he's out but he'll call me when he's on his way. So the upshot is that I'm grumpy. He JUST now texted me and said he's on his way to pick me up! I think he was extremely rude to me today! I mean I found stuff to do around the house but still he called ME and asked me to go to lunch (now dinner) and then he plays this "keep away" game or whatever it was. And I'm pretty sure that the restaurant I want to go to will be full as it's not a big place but it is popular on Saturday nights.

/Rant

EDIT:. He picked me up and immediately apologized! We had b bim bop for dinner. It was very tasty. And our conversation was nice too.

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Originally Posted by otroo I had a pretty good trip. I would get depressed most evenings of my trip when I was done riding for the day cause I could not stop thinking about my wife. Originally I was going to put some of her ashes in bags and put them in important places to us. I did not do it this time like I had planned. Next time I will do it. I am really depressed being home right now. It has been raining here the last couple of days and I did enough riding in the rain the weeks I was gone and plenty of wind. When it clears up here I will be back to riding. I am working on getting my criminal background cleared out. I hired an attorney to get rid of my 1 felony and 3 misdemeanors from almost 26 years ago. My felony was attempt to Elude a police officer. I was doing 155mph and hour in a 65. My distributor snapped and I lost all power and had to stop. It is what it is. I have not been in trouble for years. This is a picture of the first house we lived in. It looks exactly the same except they added a parking spot in front of the house. It is the same color as it was almost 24 years ago lol. My wife and I had talked about going to those rocks for years but the last 2 times we were out there we forgot all about them lol. I made it out there on this trip. I rode in Temps from 36f all the way up to 85 so a little chilly to nice weather I rode in the pouring rain for a couple of days for hours on end. I rode for hours from Iowa to Nebraska it was like 45 mph steady with highs of like 75mph. I should of called it a day sometimes hours earlier but nope I just kept riding. I was averaging like 45mpg but in the wind it dropped down o 32mpg . I still had fun I wish I was still out there but I need a little break from my break. I'm going over to Washington near Olympia to a motorcycle race. It is on highway 101 and that starts in Olympia Washington and I have a dream of taking highway 101 from beginning to end. That was going to be the first long ride when we got out big boy bikes lol. She was going Harley Fat Bob and I Was going Indian Chief and that was what I got the 21st of April. I rode 3 weeks all over the place I rode all over a bunch of our bucket list rides we had planned to do together. I did them but I only did one in Arkansas and that was The Pig Trail. I should of went up further North but I know better to next time. I had a good ride even with all the weather. I did 5700 miles and some change. I am depressed to be home. I think I have a med manager appointment next week. Need him to start me on another anti depressant maybe bring me out of this hole. I also need some good weather to get out and ride. Sent from my SM-S901U using Tapatalk

Hi otroo, thanks for the photos. I like those big colorful rocks. I hope you take that coastal highway ride (highway 1). It is magnificent! Thank you for being here on the forum. You bring a lot to it.

Yes ! The humidity is really the problem !

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Originally Posted by Moose72 I am kind of mad at N 3. He called at almost 10 this morning and asked if I wanted to go out "for something savory". He said he had to watch something to do with his girlfriend's dad on the internet and it would take 2 hours. So I watched TV and didn't eat in anticipation of our meal. Two hours ago by and he says that they had to pick up her dad from "jail" for domestic violence and that he wasn't allowed to go home so they helped him get a motel room. (I hope only by driving him there!). Oh and gf's older brother came along and was the one driving. So THEN I call him at 6 and - mind you I'm still waiting to eat minus a bagel with cream cheese and some coffee- he says he's out but he'll call me when he's on his way. So the upshot is that I'm grumpy. He JUST now texted me and said he's on his way to pick me up! I think he was extremely rude to me today! I mean I found stuff to do around the house but still he called ME and asked me to go to lunch (now dinner) and then he plays this "keep away" game or whatever it was. And I'm pretty sure that the restaurant I want to go to will be full as it's not a big place but it is popular on Saturday nights. /Rant

Yeah, kids...I truly don't think they "get it" that MOM is a human being, not just a convenience. I hope it all straightened out and your dinner was a good one. Keep us posted

Humidity here is not a constant thankfully. When it hits it hits hard tho. Today it’s low 70’s and damp. Walking in wet grass drives me crazy. When I take the dogs back out I’m wearing my rain boots!

In Florida it’s humid so much of the year. Had we moved back to Florida full time Steve would be on oxygen 24/7 by now instead of just at night.

Sorry your already dealing with heat !

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed What brand did you get? I got a Dangtop. I got a queen size which is the size of my bed. I was thinking of just getting a full to use as a throw, but then I figured I might as well get a queen so I could cover my whole bed. Plus the price of the full vs the queen was like a $1 difference. And if it did shrink it wouldn't be a big deal. But it sure made a difference in my sleep.

They really do make a difference in how well I sleep, too. And it's not like they're expensive. Do you have the bamboo sheets yet?

My first bamboo blanket is GOHD, whatever that means. The 2nd one is LAGHCAT - whatever that means, haha. I have some Dangtop sheets.

Gosh I remember when he was such a lil boy ! Congratulations Miguel

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Glad you called and had her over.

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Originally Posted by ~Christina Humidity here is not a constant thankfully. When it hits it hits hard tho. Today it’s low 70’s and damp. Walking in wet grass drives me crazy. When I take the dogs back out I’m wearing my rain boots! In Florida it’s humid so much of the year. Had we moved back to Florida full time Steve would be on oxygen 24/7 by now instead of just at night. Sorry your already dealing with heat ! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

The first time I felt real humidity was when I stepped out of the airport in San Antonio. It was 3 a.m. and I thought something was wrong somehow. It was as if a warm, damp washcloth had suddenly been put over my nose and mouth. I asked my sister-friend, Cindy, what was going on and she laughed and said, "Honey, that is Texas humidity!"

Then I was in Memphis in August. I was in a shower in our motel room and I was literally sweating while showering. Quite an experience! I'm used to dry, desert-like heat, like an oven.

The nice thing about humidity, though, is that everything stays so green.